My deepest Unspoken
How do you say something...
Without actually saying it?
How do you forget about something,
that should never have been thought?
How can you truly forgive,
When they keep re-opening that wound in your heart?
Why should I open up about something,
that I've tried so hard to lock away?
How could I be hurt to this level?
This pain that I feel is the work of the devil.
I have loved them both,
But yet they despise me...
They say, "Enhobik w'enmoutaleek",
But really they've killed me,
or a piece of me at least...
My two branches of the same tree,
the two types of the same bond.
Yet, I cut one off completely,
But try desperately to rescue the other.
And the worst pain of all is
that they don't understand the extent,
to that which their lustful intent
has broken me.
Isn't it me,
that should be,
given the empathy?
Instead they continue to try and tear me apart...
Isn't it enough,
that combined they have broken my heart?
As she falls in this sea of depression and denial,
I take the blame and the guilt
for a broken relation
that I was not the one to defile!
Now, there is that one piece
of the puzzle that is me,
Lost forever and never to see.