Night Cap -Sleepless

He looks as tired as I am....
He looks as tired as I am....
Coloring eggs
Coloring eggs
  actual drawing by G-Ma 1987
actual drawing by G-Ma 1987

Sleep just doesn't want to come to me tonight...A oneway street that leads to a I toss and turn...My mind wondering, and my thoughts about how to get rid of this deamon tonight?

So Hubpages come to mind...a place to let go, a place to reveal, a place to un-load...

I can't quite figure what is bothering me, I am tired, worked hard today, played hard also, but my eyes won't close and my body tosses and turns, my arm falls alseep, first on my right side, then over to my left side, now on my back...I hear my daughter sleeping, her breaths nice and slow and her body nice and warm...I cuddle to her, but it does not help me find my just won't come...

I could go hide all the eggs we colored and the plastic ones we filled with candies and coins? I could go hide the baskets? But everyone is sleeping and it is dark and still..and that's the Easter Bunnies job. He does exist??? right??? Has never failed me yet...I know he will get it done...must not disappoint...broken promises hurt...

Breakfast is all planned, I wonder if the candy I ate ,while making the baskets are keeping the sandman away? I wonder why my mom cried today whilst we were dying the eggs? Why she kept saying " I didn't do enough"...the forlorn look in her eyes, the giant Easter bunny my grandson saw riding a motorcycle today, maybe I am dreaming? maybe it is my age ? Age can really make you feel lost and give you sleepless nights...

Normally sleep comes easily to me, I can be asleep before the timed t.v. goes off, even before the cat finds me already in bed, but not tonight...tonight is already early morning and here I am typing on my keyboard wanting to know why I am awake...

Maybe it's cause my family leaves at noon tomorrow to go skiing and it worries me, or the fact that then I will be here alone again and I so love the hustle bustle of the children...

...maybe it's...oh who knows what it is....does it really matter...what is sleep anyway...a time for your body to rest, your mind to withdraw but your brain keeps going or you would not even wake up, but I am awake, very much awake and I want to sleep, I need to sleep or I will be crabby in the morning, I may even burn the pancakes, spill the syrup or forget the coffee grounds..shall I try again or just wait and see if the Easter bunnie shows up?

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agvulpes 7 years ago from Australia

G'day G-ma, the Easter bunny has been here and of course I ate too much chocolate.

I feel that you are all excited about seeing the kids and of course yourself enjoy Easter.

What a beautiful piece of Art is your Easter Bunny.

G-ma I hope you and yours have the best Easter that you possibly can .

*HUGS* from Ag and all in OZland.

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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

Happy Easter to you G-Ma...hope today is a bright new day! :)

(Did the Easter Bunny do his job?)

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AndyBaker 7 years ago from UK

I know the feeling - after tons of coffee I've had trouble sleeping the last 24 hours.

Happy Easter!

C. C. Riter 7 years ago

Hope ya got some sleep dear. will be a long one today for sure. love the art and happy eater dear. ((((hugs))))

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sheenarobins 7 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

hahahah. G-Ma, I wrote almost the same subject last night. If we were neighbors we could have hub together. LOL

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topstuff 7 years ago

Tonight for sure you could have a good sleep.Good night

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Melody Lagrimas 7 years ago from Philippines

Oh, have a good night deserve it. Happy Easter!

jjrubio 7 years ago

I know what you mean about sleepless nights...I had one of those last night too. I hope you enjoy your day with the family. You worry about them because you are such a good Mom/Grandma and thats maybe what keeps you up. ((HUGS))

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guidebaba 7 years ago from India

Happy Easter !

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goldentoad 7 years ago from Free and running....

G-Ma, I think you are worried that you have to be the perfect grandma, I am happy to inform you that you are, and those that leave, always return cuz they know where to go to get the love only a grandma has

I know you may be a little sluggish today, a little out of it, but I'm sure tomorrow you'll get some pep back, all of hubpages loves ya and hope you have a happy Easter

big hug!

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Cris A 7 years ago from Manila, Philippines

This could be my hub now as I've just been to an Easter party - yeah, an excuse to have ourselves drunk (but I did not!) so now I can't sleep either.

Anyway, hope it comes to you eventually and you wake up with renewed energy! Hugs and a big big lurve :D

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

AGVULPES...too much chocolate? how can one at too much??? And thank you for noticing my attempt at watercolors way back then...Have done more and I think? are better...Bless you my dear...G-Ma :O) HUGS

FELINE.... Yes that Bunny did a great job and I missed him completely...I did fall asleep I guess for a while...Thanks ...G-Ma :O) HUGS

ANDY... Nice to meet you and a Happy Easter to you also...G-Ma :O) HUGS

C.C. RITER...well bless you and thanks for the comment about the where as good as you tho...G-Ma :O) HUGS

SHEENA...yes I went and read yours...we are both on the same wave length for sure...Thanks for commenting sweetie...G-Ma :O) HUGS

TOPSTUFF... Hi my dear and thank you for commenting and you know I will sleep well tonight...snores G-Ma...been missing you are you ok? G-Ma :O) HUGS

MELODY...Well thank you sweet one and I am sure I will sleep well this night...G-Ma :O) HUGS

jjRUBIO...WELL if you know that then you must be also a wonderful one who cares and thank you hun...hope you catch up also...G-Ma :O) HUGS

GUIDEBABA...Thank you and HAPPY EASTER to you too...G-Ma :O) HUGS

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

GOLDENTOAD...awww... you are to too sweet and I Love you Man...So how was your day and were the children all sugared up and wild? I hope you had some wacky stuff to calm you down?? Did you go to church? and have a good dinner and then off to work tomorrow...oh sush up G-Ma...ruin my day go ahead...No shop talk today...right?

And thank you for the kind words my know how to reach me...Happy EASTER and many more...G-Ma :O) HUGS

CRIS A...My sweetie; thank you and I know you will sleep well too..Party? sounds like us here? But now it doesn't feel like a party..feels like a dream...LURVE you Moreeee...G-Ma :O) HUGS Happy Easter

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goldentoad 7 years ago from Free and running....

G-Ma- they are sugared up, and I got to take them to the park now, I might do some wacky stuff tonight, when they wear out, no church for me, but we're hopin' for a good dinner, if momma here gets in a better mood, otherwise I'll be cookin' spaghetti! Work is on the horizon, but out of mind for now, but the phone calls will start this evening. Hugs.

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Lazur 7 years ago from Netherlands

Sleepless, Eventhough I didn't have an easterparty, at least I didn't have the easterparty I had planned a few weeks ago. Maybe that's my reason for being sleepless:)But a had a great easterdinner today with all the elderly with dementia:D They are all sound asleep now... there's just me here awake:)

happy Easter G-Ma


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VioletSun 7 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

G-ma: Hope you have a very Happy Easter and a cozy slumber tonight. Sending you mucho hugs ((((((G-ma))))))))). Your hub was sweet to read.

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

GT...AWW I HOPE all goes well and they all had fun...Even spaghetti can be great made with love like you have...G-Ma :O) HUGS

LAZUR...I sweetie...sorry the party didn't happen but maybe is for the best??? I do hope all is well sweetie...Love you G-Ma :O) Hugs

VIOLET... Mucho Gratious(sp) and I am gonna sleep well this night for sure...We had a great time always am sad when they leave...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

G-ma, your story made me feel a little sad, I wanted to come there straight away and hang out with you. I would have brought my karaoke machine and we could have sung our way down memory lane. Happy Easter G-Maxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxo

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Blondepoet...You are so sweet and thank you..I finally slept last night like a MAD dog lol we had a great day and they are off skiing now...You of course are welcome ANYTIME my dear, but I warn you I am not a singer either...hee hee as Charlie says wooo hooo...G-Ma :O) Hugs & Peace

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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

G-Ma you are a joy to read. Glad you had a good family Easter.

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Teresa...How sweet of you...thank you and the feeling is mutual you know...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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Paper Moon 7 years ago from In the clouds

If'n you get too lonely, you could have my kids for a day or two! (well, sounded good, but I really would miss em too much) I myself have had quite the sleepless week. (I blame hubbers like you for keeping me up tonight! ) It was a great read. Thx.

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

I am too sure you would miss them but it would be fun...I love children did childcare for 40 yrs. And thanks for commenting and go to bed and sleep now sweetie..ZZZZZ G-Ma :O) Hugs

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Tom Rubenoff 7 years ago from United States

Oh, I'm so sleepy now! Glad you had a good holiday, G-Ma!

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Well Thank you and I hope you did too...We did... it was a lot of fun...just goes by to quickly for this old lady...ME...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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Peggy W 7 years ago from Houston, Texas

Getting here a bit late, so nice to know you caught up on your rest and had a Happy Easter with your family. Hope you didn't burn the pancakes! Ha!

Afraid aging is part of the problem causing sleeplessness. Took a continuing education course on that once (for my RN degree) not that it helps you any to know that. We're in the same boat, G-Ma!

At least we have hubpages to keep us amused. Right?

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Oh yes my dear!!!.... Hubpages does that for sure and thanks for your sweet comments and hope your Easter was a good...oh...and no the pancakes didn't get daughter decided to make them phewwww...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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Dolores Monet 7 years ago from East Coast, United States

Gma, my mother and great aunt used to complain about insomnia and, back then, I just could not understand the concept. I thought, if you're tired, then sleep should just come. Well, now I understand. Hope you don't suffer from this insomnia too much. It can cause such fatigue.

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Oh Thanks my dear...but I am fine it was just all the excitment and candy I think....I sleep very well...and feel sad for those that don't...I have a girlfriend that can be up for days with only a few hours sleep...It seems dangerous to me...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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feeweewv 7 years ago from Between A Dream And Reality

That was cute. Wish I had seen it before Easter. Would have been a good one to read to my kids before bed Saturday night. They would have liked it.... always next year. Keep em comin' G-Ma!

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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

feeweewv...Well thank you once again and do hope you all had a fun one...G-Ma :O) Hugs

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