On Leaving...


By: Wayne Brown

The quiet solitude of the kitchen at sunrise

Water dripping from the spigot on the sink

Counting the moments since departure

I never thought you would leave

Sun peaks over the horizon for a new day

Trees bend back and forth in the wind

Counting the moments as time passes

I never thought you would leave

The clouds of day roll by against a sky of blue

Moving like great herds in the sky

Their pace making time’s endless march

I never thought you would leave

Thoughts of times gone by; times of love and laughter

Reflecting through my mind as I stare at nothing

Reminding me of the good times, our times

I never thought you would leave

The long, orange rays of a setting sun mark day’s end

Signaling the passage of yet another day; alone

Marking time; a full day since you have gone

I never thought you would leave

The candle’s light flickers in a dance across the darkness

Finding its moment on the face of time

A frail light fighting the wind; much like you

I never thought you would leave

My days will come and go without joy or anticipation

Ticking off only what is left of my own life

Ever reminding me of your presence here with me

I never thought you would leave

The rose bush in the garden is in full bloom

As surely it expected you to see

The roses though beautiful will die like you

I can’t believe you are gone

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas

This is a very solumn and real depiction of losing a lover. The images you paint are excellent. I could feel the emptiness of the room. I like the idea that she left not only left you (?) but also the rose bush... very strong words...

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@The Suburban Poet...I tried to imagine how Joe DiMaggio might have felt upon hearing of the passing of Marilyn. You that he sent roses to her grave every week until his own death. That was in my thoughts for this writing. Glad you liked it! WB

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas

I was aware of that. I should have caught the reference in your words. That was love but she was definitely the frail light in the wind... he couldn't keep her lit I guess. She wanted to jump out the window he could not close....

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sheila b. 5 years ago

I especially liked your use of repition. This poem reflects the cry of anyone who has lost a loved one. Thank you.

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KathyH 5 years ago from Las Vegas, Nevada

My Father In Law brings flowers to my Mother In Laws grave like this, I think he also kept his wedding ring on for close to three years after she had passed... she had the same cancer Geraldine Ferraro had, multiple myeloma. The older I get, the more I hate that "c" word! He just turned 80 and never did remarry... I love the way you wrote this! Very touching!! :)

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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana

Wow, that is very interesting to put yourself into the mind of DiMaggio. I never heard about him leaving roses on her grave. I mean this was a great poem as it was, but knowing your motives behind it makes it all the better.

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Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Such a sad poem..missing someone,knowing they are never comeing back hurts the heart in ways that are indescribable but Wayne you manage to capture the moment so well..Very poetic and touching for sure.


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Ghost32 5 years ago

Huh. I think I'd read about Joe and the roses but had sort of "forgotten".

Made me think of a song and/or poem I once wrote for Pam (my wife) when she was down on herself. Told me she was "nothing but a thorn in my side". I had to go to work right then, and during my night shift trucking water, wrote The Rose In My Heart, the hook of which is,

"Don't ever think you are a thorn in my side

When you are the rose in my heart."

But...roses to (anybody's) grave every week "in perpetuity"? Wow.

Voted Up and Beautiful.

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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

WB - Marilyn Monroe was a very beautiful woman - it is so very sad that she is gone. When I think of her - I automatically think of Joe DiMaggio and his undying love and respect for her. I really wish we could have seen her life play out......

Beautiful poem - smooth and melancholy comes to mind:). Voted up!

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Deb Welch 5 years ago

I have done extensive reading over the years about Marilyn Monroe - she put on the act of the super-star, the blonde sex goddess - it really wasn't her true personality. She got troubled. Marilyn made Joe, peas and carrots together because she liked the colors - she started that idea. Nice tribute Hub.

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Ruchira 5 years ago from United States

Wayne...goodbyes sure are hard but unfortunately where there is life it has to perish. Death is not an option!

Loved your poem...so much depth and emotions in it.

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maven101 5 years ago from Northern Arizona

Wayne...Lovely refrain that reads like a Japanese haiku, esp. the early lines...I enjoyed this immensely...Thank you, Larry

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writer20 5 years ago from Southern Nevada

Wonderful sad poem that I totally understand. up/awesome

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@sheila b...I think that Marilyn grew up looking for love and the world found her instead. For all the men who desired her, DiMaggio may have been the only one who truly loved her even beyond the grave. Thanks much. WB

@KathyH...Sometimes it takes two people to form one and they become so a part of each other that they can hardly be separated by death...only temporarily any way. Life and love are precious...we should not take either for granted. WB

@CMerritt...It is interesting to read of the relationship between DiMaggio and Monroe. I think he was the first real thing she found outside of the Hollywood world she was sucked into so young. He was a breathe of fresh air to her and for a short time I think she was quite happy. WB

@Sunnie Day...Thanks much...I was feeling a little dramatic when I arrived into the office this morning. That line "I thought you would never leave" kept rattling around in my head and this is how it finally came out! LOL! WB

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Ghost32...Sounds as if you "re-versed" your way out of tha situation, Fred. That is some good footwork, sir. My hat is off to you! LOL! WB

@RealHousewife...I think Marilyn possessed a level of beauty that was just not possible to cover up...somehow it always managed to shine through. The system swallowed her up at a young age and I think she lost ownership in herself...sad. WB

@Deb Welch...That is correct...she was "assigned" the role of the innocent dumb blonde by Hollywood. From what I can gather she was pretty sharp. I think her time with DiMaggio was the only brief period of reality in her entire life. He never gave up on her. WB

@Ruchira...Yes, mankind's mortality is always there just outside the door whether we are famous or not. Thanks much. WB

@maven101...If I ever pull off any haiku, Larry...it will be by accident. I know nothing of how to even start in that arena. I am lucky enough to get by on verses that people can understand! LOL! Thanks for the great feedback. WB

@writer20...Thank you! I appreciate the read and the feedback. WB

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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

What a lovely poetic tribute to Marilyn, Wayne. She was so radiant and charismatic in films, it was surprising to read after her death how troubled she must have been in her real, not reel, life.

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Arlene V. Poma 5 years ago

I'm not a poetry fan, but I do like reading your poetry on HubPages. You're it! Voted up and AWESOME.

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@drbj...Yes, Doc though Hollywood brought her fame, I think she came to realize that it was all a false illusion which she had to act out even when not on the stage...she becamue a prisoner of her own success like so many do in that arena. My guess is the "real Marilyn" was probably as beautiful inside as out...I think DiMaggio was one of the few people to ever know that. Thanks much. WB

@Arlene V. Poma...So I'm kind of your "poetry dealer" huh? LOL. That's as good a testament as one can earn, Arlene. I do so appreciate it. WB

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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Heart tugging and beautifully created.

Here's to many more hubs to share on here.

I vote this one up up and away.

Take care


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James A Watkins 5 years ago from Chicago

Wayne, your poem is absolutely wonderful. It is full of deep expressions of the heart. I love each stanza, but this stuck out for me:

"The clouds of day roll by against a sky of blue,

Moving like great herds in the sky,

Their pace making time’s endless march"

Delectable, my friend.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

A very impressive and vivid poetic picture of a person who is totally dismayed.

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Eiddwen...Thank you. You let me know that I achieved my desires with this one. WB

@James A Watkins...Thanks, Thanks. I was attempting to show times continuing movement though the grief seem to weigh down everything else. WB

@MartieCoetser...Thank you, that's what I wanted to achieve. WB

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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

Wayne, This is a bittersweet love story. It makes you think twice about people who seem to have everything (fame, money, popularity, beauty) -- but really those things matter very little. I wonder about the lives of those we put in the constant spotlight -- actors, singers, sports stars, even politicians. It must be very difficult to lead a grounded life.

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gajanis786 5 years ago

Great poem....I would just comment as,

'love is immortal'


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lbidd54 5 years ago from The beautiful Jersey Shore

Thanks for such an in depth portrayal of "loss"-truly a writing that makes one stop and think of the things that really matter in life. Beautifully written!

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Truckstop Sally...I think the marriage between Joe DiMaggio and Marilyn was bittersweet and the way in which she found out that so much of her belonged to Hollywood whether she wanted it to or not. I am sure it is difficult to live your life in a glass house. At the same time, there are many people in that business who manage to keep their lives out of the tabloids which I believe is a large part of the problem. The other element is the fantasy of Hollywood. WB

@gajanis786...Thank you and so true, "love is immortal". WB

@Ibidd54...Thanks for those kind words. You give me a sense that I achieved my goal here. WB

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anndavis25 5 years ago from Clearwater, Fl.

Oh Yeah!

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@anndavis25...Thank you! WB

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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

My dear friend Wayne,

such bitter-sweet memories for anyone to remember a loved and precious one. Be it a loved one who has passed before us or simply left our lonely heart behind. Questions of what and how or even why, but a lovely reminder of treasured moments and glimpses of happiness once shared.

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@thebluestar...That's the way I hoped it would come across to the reader. Thanks much, Annette. WB

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50 Caliber 5 years ago from Arizona

Wayne a fine tribute to sudden loss as well befitting for Norma Jean, peace dust

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saddlerider1 5 years ago

One of the many beautiful woman who graced the silver screen and the hearts of many men. She certainly lived her life to the fullest, yet the rain was always there, her clouds were many dark and lonesome. She was a child lost in the sea of movie stars and political icons.

A sex kitten beyond words, taken for granted and used for others gain. I loved her as much as everyone else my friend and I miss her and Princess Di...both were beauties. Given to us to enjoy for a flicker in time until their wicks broke from the weight of the world.

Lovely poem Wayne, full of heart,sadness and sorrow, well done. Your an artist with many colors, you always paint us with surprises from your magical palette. The video was very moving....

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@50 Caliber...Norma Jean was exceptionally fine, Dusty, exceptionally fine! WB

@saddlerider1...Perhaps if we had discovered such a woman early on we might have given up some of our selfish way for her, huh Ken? LOL! She was very unique and an absolutely natural beauty that could not be hidden from sight no matter how you dressed her. Hollywood used her up like it does so many. Thanks for the great comments. WB

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breakfastpop 5 years ago

So beautiful and so moving. Up and everything.

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@breakfastpop...Thanks much, Poppy! Glad to see you back! WB

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LABrashear 5 years ago from My Perfect Place, USA

Beautiful words. I think it's very fitting for so many that were lost way too soon.

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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@LABrashear...Thank you. Marilyn seemed to have everything but in some ways had nothing in terms of her own emotional needs. WB

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NikiiLeeReyes 5 years ago

OMG; My friend, My dear old friend.

I almost forgot how wonderful & gifted you are.

I cant help but feel this is more personal than you truly lead on.

This is beautiful; it touched my heart.

It really did.


This is exquisite; Dark; Sad; Beautiful and Sweet all in the right ways.

I wish there were a Favorite button...

Be Blessed.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@NikiLee"Reyes...Well, thank you. You can't say much better than those words. I have always had a special sadness for Marily Monroe. Her death seemed such a waste and a lost opportunity as the world would never have the chance to know her. It was one of those moments that provide such inspiraton. WB

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