Ode to a traitor


Petulant and lily livered

any respect I had for you has withered

Playing the victim is your greatest role

but merely illustrates your lack of soul

The love you supposedly felt for me

means nothing in light of your newspaper fee

I hope this seriously backfires on you

Because believe it or not Joe

It's not all about you!

Tara Carbery © 2011

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gmwilliams 5 years ago from the Greatest City In The World-New York City, New York

Amen and karma has its own reward!

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blackink1 5 years ago from Australia

Love it!

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Peanutritious 5 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks gmwilliams and blackink1. Writing this was very therapeutic!

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leni sands 5 years ago from UK

Short, not so sweet but to the point. I like it, Tara.

I think you are doing amazingly well considering everything that has happened Tara, you have an inner strength 2nd to none!!

Keep up the therapy and the good writing. Go get 'em girl and use this site to express your pain, anger, hurt - then lets see that bright light that I know exists in YOU.

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MisguidedGhost16 4 years ago from Queens, New York

I can feel your relief when reading this. I bet it felt good. Great way to get your point across. The way your writing shows how your strength is gaining is amazing to me. Though I only know your writing, I am proud.

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

I'm really touched. Thanks for your words of strength. It certainly felt good venting my anger and showing that the feisty side of me has returned! I thought i'd lost it forever! Your support is valued and helps me to put the past behind me.

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b. Malin 4 years ago

Some people need to play the Victim...You sound Strong and will live to tell the tale as a Survivor...and Writing is so Therapeutic, and You are a Talented Writer! i now look forward to following your Hubs Peanutritious...and Thank You for becoming a Follower of mine.

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks b. Malin. I'm looking forward to reading your hubs too. Thanks for checking me out!

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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Wonderful poem! It is gut wrenching and like you have said "raw." I don't know what exactly you have been through, but being able to express your anger and hurt in this way is so creative, original and helpful to others. Keep writing! This is really good!

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kellymom1970 4 years ago

Peanutritious,I love it! your are a great writer.very good!

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Nell Rose 4 years ago from England

Hi, love it! that just goes to show that you are a strong woman, and as someone says above, karma! lol!

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cashmere 4 years ago from India

It takes a lot to inner strength to come fighting back! Kudos to u

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pseudo-scripto14 4 years ago from Philippines

YOU moved me! I could feel the angst when you're writing this poem! Writing is an antidote to heal old wounds! Let go of the hatred and bitterness and be forgiving! Kismet brought you misery then destiny will bring you happiness and prosperity! Remember,what you reap is what you sow!

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks for your comments Suzette, Kelly, Nell, Cashmere and Pseudo-scripto. Writing is indeed an antidote to heal old wounds. I felt relieved after writing this. I am trying to forgive but it's not always easy when I have no home, will never teach again and was portrayed unfairly by the media as a monster. I've lost all I worked for in my life and will struggle to ever find work due to my ex partners venom and spite. Joining hubpages was an attempt to put all my past behind me and try to move on.

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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

When you said you've refound your feisty side you thought you'd lost, you declared victory. There is NOTHING more valuable than keeping oneself together.

The situations which challenge that also attempt to substitude some other entitiy in place of oneself.

There is really no fight, though, because keeping oneself is not a valid issue, unless one accepts that it can be quibbled over or taken. Just not permitting its theft is personal and simply denies others that right and asserts oneself and one's own power. That it is an enormous moral victory, and one which abides from then on. Good for you! And I like this poem!

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Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

We can sublimate our pain, anger and suffering when be write our emotions.

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prairieprincess 4 years ago from Canada

Very powerful poem! It is so good to be able to express things in writing. I believe this helps in the healing process. Take care!

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks Nelliana, Vinaya Ghimire and prairieprincess. What would we do if we couldn't express our feelings through words? It would be difficult to cope. Thankfully, we can so we need to keep at it!

I was unsure how people would respond to this poem at first then published it anyway because I needed to get it out there! I'm delighted with the positive comments. I'm far more happy than angry these days!

reeltaulk 4 years ago

Hey Peanut! Great and to the point. There are many actors and actresses playing many roles and for whatever reason don't understand that sooner than later those roles will come to life and remain apart of their lives forever. I am quite sure you did your honest best for that person, we all have to learn.....for a select few, the hard way!

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tammyswallow 4 years ago from North Carolina

This is very powerful and well written. I wouldn't want to be Joe. :) Excellent!

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Dim Flaxenwick 4 years ago from Great Britain

Well done for writing about this.

voted up and interesting

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

reeltaulk, I don't think I ever saw (nor did anyone else) the real Joe. He was always putting on an act fuelled by a never ending stream of alcohol from morning until he fell asleep at night. The whole relationship was an accident waiting to happen.

Hindsight really is a wonderful thing...

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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

I don't seem to be getting notices when you write; evidently you are back and I have missed some hubs. I'm glad you are writing again and this is short but sweet...and yes, I believe in karma.

Sooner28 4 years ago

I'm glad to see your feisty side has returned. Don't ever lose it again!

Interesting hub, and I am looking forward to reading others.

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks Bill and Sooner. Yes I'm back and feeling feisty again. Yay! I'm glad to be back. X

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junko 4 years ago

Some bridges do need to be burned down to keep us from repeating mistakes. It seems the last straw brought you peace of mind.

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DeborahNeyens 4 years ago from Iowa

I love how you say so much in just a few lines. You have a lot of talent!

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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

few lines only but you captured the essence..

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B Lucy 4 years ago from Podunk, Virginia

Strong and direct. Love it!!

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fpherj48 4 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

Peanutritious.....I am cheering for you in your plight to complete sobriety...forever. It is a difficult journey and requires inner strength and resolve. It appears you have this, as well as the support of your friends and family.

Stay positive and focus on yourself, your health and your future....one day, one hour at a time.......Be proud of yourself. UP++

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creativespirit63 4 years ago from Omaha, Nebraska

Peanutritious, I love the strength that is coming from your depth! I haven't been in your situation but understand the pain of loosing a cherished life. Rebuilding, when it is difficult to let go of the past, is a challenge but you will do it!

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks all of you!

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LizzieRoss72 4 years ago from Cheshire

Hi there, I had seen this before. Excellent! Concise and very much to the point. Nicely in the style of John Cooper Clark too.

poetsally 4 years ago

This is so empowering. I can feel the anger of every word and growing strength that emanates from you. I sincerely hope your life turns around for the better. Powerful and thought provoking.

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Lizzie, Thans for your comment. I love John Cooper Clarke, the original punk poet and have seen him performing live many times.

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Peanutritious 4 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

poetsally, Thank you so much, my life is definitely improving, I appreciate your kind words.

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Redberry Sky 3 years ago

Hi Tara - I've somehow missed commenting on this poem before now , but it's utterly beautiful in its darkness - as others have said, your strength shines through! I've said this before on other Hubs you've written, but its worth repeating - you have a fabulous way with words, and both your poems and prose are real gems. I hope your life has kept on improving (and keeps doing so!) - and you keep writing of your loves and loathes and darks and lights.

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Peanutritious 3 years ago from Cheshire, UK Author

Thanks Jane,

I'll definitely keep on writing (and ranting!) I broke my foot 7 weeks ago so came to a bit of a standstill in terms of not being able to go out, exercise etc. I really missed my body combat, not just physically but mentally! It really does lift your mood and alleviate stress.

I went to a combat class this morning (first in two months) and it felt brilliant! I looked like a plum tomato at the end of it but never mind :)

Things are on the up. Hope you're well too. x

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