Out of love

Where do i begin my story?

How do i tell the world that the woman i love so much, the love of my life and the best part of me left my world shattered, it is hard to comprehend and i am still to come to terms why she had to take it all away from me.

WHAT DID I DO? WHERE DID I GO WRONG? O! GOD,I NEED AN EXPLANATION.

If i had gone wrong anywhere, i wouldn’t hesitate to apologize, yes! Humans are not perfect and many a time, i have had arguments with her and yet fix up our differences with love. You see, i met my wife when she was 14years and two years afterward, we tied up, she was pure and holy, she was the perfect wife and we have been married for four years.

I cannot say that she was a bad mother because she tried her best to make sure that our kids are fine all the time, she wakes at night to attend to our one year old son and wakes early in the morning to prepare the family’s breakfast, she was supportive despite the fact that times were not so good, Angel never complained for anything and there was no sign to indicate that she was not happy.

Her father gave us couple of money to set up a business and that was how i started trading on cloths though this didn’t change our financial situation but it helps us keep food on the table every day and as well meet up with some of our basic needs. She was my everything and i am still in shock. The song endless love could best describe what i feel for my wife.

I came home from the store that evening and saw her sitting outside in the garden,she looked sad and  it was late so i asked her why she was out there, it was a simple question and i expected a simple answer.

I could not believe the situation and her reaction, she kept screaming at me like she was under some influence but my wife doesn’t drink nor smoke.

Though i tried to be quiet but i lost my temper when she grabbed my collar, i mean; what the hell is all this and what exactly is wrong.

i could not understand what was wrong with her, this was a woman that spoke with me about four occasions that same day and each time i called, she never gave me a sign of anger so understanding her at that particular time was hard.

“Did someone offend her and she decide to rest her anger on me”?

The kids were awoken by her outburst, we exchanged words because i could no longer hold myself so i lost control of my anger and slapped her, perhaps that was a mistake but is it really a fault of mine? My wife, she took it all away.

We ended our quarrel that night because of the intervention of our neighbors and her cousin Julie who live two houses away from ours. She threatened to live me and honestly i thought that she meant leaving for her parents house, i had no problem with that after all, she had once left me but came back herself two days later.

My wife loved our kids especially our daughter Jamie. I woke around 3am because i felt that something was wrong, the house was very quiet, in my honest imagination, i had the feeling that she must have slipped out from the house with the kids but i was wrong. Of course she slipped out from the house, from my life and from the world.

I got into her room but she was not there and the kids were not on their bed either then i went into the kitchen and that was when i found out what she had done.

Angel never displayed any sign of violence and i never have it in my best and honest imagination that my wife can do such a thing, she never showed any suicidal tendencies, and she was protective of our kids. Angel was a loving mother and we both love our kids so how can she take them away from me?

Darkness overwhelmed me

And my tears became my food.
And my tears became my food.

This is now my nightmare; i had no other option than to scream with the highest of my voice as i walked into the kitchen and discovered the bodies of my kids and my wife hanging from the roof top.

How could she do this to me?

She killed our kids and killed herself, she meant it when she said that she will leave me but not in this form Angel, no why must you do this?

Where do i get an explanation to what exactly happened to my wife, did she act out of frustration? But she wasn’t frustrated in anyway besides we promised to hold on for better and for worse but even if she decided to take her life then why the lives our innocent kids?

Out of love...

She didn’t want them to suffer, this is what the preacher man said, “A loving and caring mother who took her life and that of her kids out of love”.

I heard about the three coffins sometime and they said it is an audio science experiment but honestly,


It is not an experiment,

it is real and i have the confusion

Of a three coffins in my heart

And in my brain.

O God! O God!,

what really happen to my wife


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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

Heart breaking....! Your words are always so emotional....and the pictures are so beautiful. I hope and pray though that this is a fictional tale and not a real life story... do take care... :)


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

Thank you so much for stopping over.As a matter of fact,it is a true life story but names and sequence of events were changed to protect any one dead or alive,it recently happened in Trinidad and Tobago. Besides,things like this happens everyday some where.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

It does happen Rossi. I don't like the story of Abraham and Isaac. It speaks of faith in God, yes. But- it also speaks of taking of a life. It speaks of having so much faith in God that one could believe so much to take the life of a child- their own child. There was a mother in Texas not long ago who took the lives of her children. No- I can't dwell on that story at all. I don't like the stories of sacrificing lambs or any other animal. God needs to smell burning flesh? I think I'll concentrate on "Love your neighbor as yourself". Thanks Rossi!


Nalu Memory Mulonda 6 years ago

Rossi,this story has rily touchd me.its so emotional,i cnt even begin 2imagine e pain dat man went thru.


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

Bro Micky,now you come...never thought of it that way,of course, most folks consider it sacrifice,Abraham's case is quite a good illustration.In Nigeria we simply say NA WAH OO!

to this kind of heart hurting issue.

Nalu my dear,we are the world... i have also imagined what he is going through and how he will ever cope.


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

wow, your words are really touching, is this a true story? Maita


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50 Caliber 6 years ago from Arizona

Rossi, It's a crying shame that this is not fiction. I wish folks would learn to call out for help before they do this. Maybe they do and the world is not listening. Maybe people don't want to help one another? They seem to place so much in front of their number one love, Jesus the Christ who in the end and beginning will set all matters straight.

Love and Peace


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

Hi prettydarkhorse,thanks for all your support,like i said in my response to myownworld,it is a true life story and just happened in Trinidad and Tobago but i made some changes to protect certain individuals.It happens everyday and bro Micky just gave another instance.

50 Caliber sir, "Jesus the Christ who is the end and the beginning will set all matters straight". You see sir, i believe that he will. Thanks for all your support.


daniel 6 years ago

my dear, this story is somehow, i cant believe it myself, but it do happen, i will say such is life, keep it up bros.


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

One love Danny...

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