Perceivings

VII.

 Watercolor by ©Nellieanna H. Hay
Watercolor by ©Nellieanna H. Hay | Source


There are little rooms

Inside my heart

With dormant tenants now

With gently closed doors

Where I can only peek

To see if they're still occupied

And

they

still are

and soon will open wide.


© Nellieanna H. Hay


Cucoon-cracked,

Bookworm becomes

Butterfly,

Yet hovers here among the pages

Just a little longer

Always to return

For vital nourishment.

Fragile butterfly

With tensile strength of steel

Who knows as much as I

How life and love should feel.

Delicate discernment

Determined by respect

And in it all, a loving heart

Much more than they suspect.


__© Nellieanna H. Hay


Solid ink drawing © Nellieanna Hay
Solid ink drawing © Nellieanna Hay | Source




The Flower,

Planted

Seemed to flourish

But the roots

Were missing.

One by one

The petals

Fell.


© Nellieanna H. Hay

You're a riot

A quiet melody,

Sunshine winking

Through a cloud,

Poets thinking

Thoughts out loud

A haunting tune

Running rampant

Through the night.

An appetite

For sweet and light

A silver spoon

And muddy boots,

A yellow bus,

Rootless roots,

Memories invoke,

Inglories,

Tragic stories

Going up in smoke.


© Nellieanna H. Hay

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sabu singh 6 years ago

Absolutely stunning Nellieanna. The drawings are the icing on the cake.Congratulations on a wonderful Hub.


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epigramman 6 years ago

this is as 'pure' as poetry gets and I perceive this as a gift to the rest of us!


SilverGenes 6 years ago

The Flower - this one really spoke to me. When the roots are missing, all that is left are transient cosmetics.

The little rooms within the heart, so quiet for so long we wonder if they've been vacated - but no. Nellieanna, your words linger for a moment on 'what is', appreciating and loving no matter the condition and then you adjust the sails for 'hope'.

I love being on board your ship. Thank you :-)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Sabu - what wonderful words of appreciation! Thank you!! I value that!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

epigramman, I feel so honored when you like my poetry - yours is so concise and meaningful! Thank you!!!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

SG - You amazing gal!! I popped over to your site to see what you're up to and found the website you've created! I'm once again awed! You have so many facets, and all so outstanding! Thank you for the kind words about my humble efforts! The ones you notice expressed a lot when written and always remind me of the journey. Thank you for noticing the subtleties! :-)


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drbj 6 years ago from south Florida

The watercolors are glorious, Nellieanna, but the first poem, my favorite, evoked ineffable sadness. Was it meant to?


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Shalini Kagal 6 years ago from India

Amazing! The poems and the pictures.....I love the first watercolour the most (oh, they're all wonderful Nellieanna but that one is like gossamer!)

Rooms in the heart with dormant tenants, fragile butterflies with the strength of steel, sunshine winking through the clouds...you make the images come alive!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

drbj - it was written during a time of inexpressible loss but I didn't wallow in sorrow, couldn't afford to although I believe in allowing & acknowledging my full spectrum of feelings, just not to make negative ones too at home. They did come out in my poetry from time to time, obviously and are part of my being as well as the value I've found in writing, especially poetry. Thank you for your empathy and kind words, my friend!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Shalini! - That first one is what I love about watercolors - the translucency which is almost impossible to achieve with most other art media.

Actually I find the kindred feature in cyber media - its lucentcy - that lighted transparency of its colors is thrilling too.

Thank you for the comments about my word images too. I love to "paint" with words. Life is so full of wonderful imagery, isn't it?


SilverGenes 6 years ago

Nellieanna, thanks so much for the kind words about my site - which one did you visit? I've been having so much fun on the SGPhotofix going through the old b&w negs from the 50s and you are partly responsible for that with your inspirational writing of post-war life. I wish I could have the galleries open to all but because people can upload photos I had to go with membership so I can make sure clothing is involved prior to posting LOL. It feels ridiculously good to know you visited. Thank you, my lovely friend!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

I peeked at all of them! I didn't linger too long, because I was in process of responding to comments here and still commenting on new hubs of which I received notification. But I plan to pour over them all! I noticed there was a restriction on the Photo one. But figured there must be some way to view more! hehe I can certainly understand your caution if people can upload their photos! One never knows what that might be!

Actually I got a peek at the black and white glance back in time, so I felt encouraged! You know I am very interested in that kind of thing!

I also can't wait to get more into the site on healthy living and I plan to send the url of the one on children to one of my granddaughters with youngsters. The one who visied me recently has teenagers but even so, parenting is always a challenge. My George's granddaughter's son is soon to be 10 but she's a very consciencious mom and interacts with other young moms, so she would surely enjoy it too.

I'm just amazed at the scope of your interests and versatility! What fun!!


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M Selvey, MSc 6 years ago from United Kingdom

Nellieanna, as always - beautiful words, beautiful art! Such a treat! And, as it has become the trend with your poems, one stood out for me above the others. This time, it was The Flower - it brought tears to my eyes.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Margit, thank you. Thanks especially for telling me which one appealed to you most. It is graphic in an abstract sort of way. :>


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tonymac04 6 years ago from South Africa

Nellieanna - such beautiful words! I especially liked "A haunting tune / Running rampant / Through the night." I know that feeling!

The first painting also was for me the best of a great bunch. Thanks for sharing such personal things with us. It feels like you really respect us and that feels good!

Love and peace

Tony


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Tony, that makes a lump in my throat. That haunting tune was special. And how gratifying it is for you to know that sharing these really is a kind of trust and for your receiving in kind. Thank you.


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Feline Prophet 6 years ago from India

Ah, you talented lady...when will you paint me a picture like one of these? :)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw, Feline Prophet. You're too kind! I'm happy you like my feeble efforts! Thank you!! And thank you for visiting!


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suny51 6 years ago

Hello Nellianna Mam,you know I am a blind lover and follower all that looks beautiful,I can see your paintings,they are beautiful and I love them,and poem,those are lovely expressions of a lovely heart.Incidentally I tried one poem,I thought this would give me some sort of classification as a poet but ........its lying on Magnolia-3 for your kind approval.


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Merlin Fraser 6 years ago from Cotswold Hills

Hi Nellieanna,

you know I don't like poetry....or don't understand it to be precise... yet here I am yet again hanging upon every beutiful word.

The paintings are awsome too.. A true rose amongst us thorns !


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Nikkij504gurl 6 years ago from Louisiana

love em all my fave is the second one and the flower one. love your work, poetry and art. they go together so well.


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De Greek 6 years ago from UK

You are such an all around talented person, Nellieanna. I am envious :-)


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creativeinchief 6 years ago from TAIWAN

I see the lady doth write poetry and it flows, haaaa, Nellieanna, where are you, oh there you are,... why don't you write me a rainbow, see, let it have a silver lining.

creativeinchief


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Suny - I blush! I just discovered that lovely comment on Magnolia 3. As I said on it just now, it came at the height of my company vising from Indiana when things were starting to go untended for about a week. Thank you so much for both it and this very pleasant and gratifying comment, my friend.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Merlin, my friend! Thank you. A lot of my poetry is fairly straightforward, except when I wrote it to be obscure for practical reasons. hehe. I'm pleased you visited and didn't mind it too much! :-)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Nikki - thank you! I love your poetry too! Thank you for visiting and commenting. I think we share some life experiences.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

DG - If ONLY I could match your wit and expertise in writing great sophisticated humorous prose! I just do what I can do1 You need never be envious of anyone!

Thank you for visiting and leaving a very kind comment! :>


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you for visiting & commenting, creativeinchief. Though I never ever write on commission or another's inspiration, I'll try, for you - -

Through thick gray clouds

Crowds a silver fringe

With edges evolving.

Hopes rise

As skies clear,

Revealing

Expanse benign.

It lifts,

It parts

It paints

Its canvas with a double rainbow,

Plunging into

Horizon's distant line.

_____ © NHay - June 8, 2010

(now you see why I don't ever attempt to do this! lol)


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pinkhawk 6 years ago from Pearl of the Orient

...whatta great experience! ^.^..don't have the right to comment ma'am! ^.^


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Juliette Morgan 6 years ago

Such lovely poetry Nellieanna - love the ship picture and accompanying poem, reminds me of when my boat came in...you are so talented, thank you for sharing.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

pinkhawk - of course you have the right - but it's OK - your comment is very expressive and speaks to me! thank you!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Juliette - thank you. Intriguing comment! When your boat came in could be a wonderful hub! I'm so pleased you visited and thank you for the kind words!


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mwatkins 6 years ago from Portland, Oregon & Vancouver BC

HI Nellieanna, I was feeling down and came over here to read your hub to be charmed and delighted. And, as ever, you didn't let me down! Thanks for turning my frown into a smile today I am ever so grateful! ;-)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Michelle - you should never need to frown!! Glad you came by and were cheered! Hope the :-) is more than temporary! Thank you for the confidence!!


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Sally's Trove 6 years ago from Southeastern Pennsylvania

So beautiful, Nellianna, and so inspiring. I share mwatkins feelings completely. Experiencing what you share in your Hubs makes my day take on a bright aspect.

The Flower speaks to me. We can plant, and we can nurture. We can do the best we can with what we know, but at some point we must realize that perhaps we don't know enough and so we must push ourselves to understand what went wrong, or, if we can't do that, then just accept the fact that there is nothing we can do.

I think acceptance is hard.

Some of us have no roots, or think we don't, or don't understand what they are. Without an acceptance and understanding of where we come from, then life is harder than it needs to be.

The Flower brings both joy and tears.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

I understand, ST. Acceptance seems hard until one learns it; then there's nothing else that would do. Oh yes - we can still work to plant, improve, to learn, to grow, etc. But we need to start from having come to terms that there are things we must accept. The nature of life is exactly that. If death were not part of it, - well - life as we know it couldn't exist. And in any case - that is the inevitable insecurity that must be accepted. Once it is, we are free of that bottomless worry. All the other challenges are within the day or time period they are in. Having both joy and tears surely provides us with the ability to feel either of them.

Thank you so much for the visit and your lovely comments!


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saddlerider1 6 years ago

What another wonderful, delightful,thrilling, creative Hub. You are truly a goddess of the written word. I wish I had your vocabulary. You delight us all with your grace and brilliance. Thank you my friend for this wonderful share. I shall spread it on Stumble and Tumblr, a must read.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw - I'm humbled by such praise, Ken. Thank you. You write so well, you don't need anyone else's vocabulary or anything else. But I'm thrilled that you like my stuff - thank you!!


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Aley Martin 6 years ago from Sumner, Washington,USA

Your posts always bring me such joy! Thanks Nellieanna...!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

I appreciate your telling me that, Aley! Thank you!!


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Arthur Windermere 6 years ago

Hi Nellie,

I tend not to comment on poetry hubs because I really never know what to say after reading poems, whether they're written by children or Wallace Stevens. But these were very nice. Your artwork is interesting too. Cheers!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Arthur - I shall treasure your comments! I'm not a great poetry fan myself, actually; too much of it is trite, contrived or overly obscure. Occasionally someone comes across with poetry which speaks to me.

So I feel really good when someone I admire who isn't a poetry fan, either, says something nice about mine! Thank you!


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whatsmyageagain 6 years ago from Southern California

I love the words you write. I know that everyone interprets poetry in their own way, the first poem you wrote in this hub - well, it still has me thinking. Poetry for me is sometimes frustrating...I want to know exactly how the poet intended it to mean. For me, I see the little rooms in my heart as all the facets of my father. He left my mother and married another women (who is not that nice, believe me, I tried). I have not spoken to him in over a year. So, this little rooms are the aspects I miss about him. When I choose to peak inside, its me allowing myself to remember the good things that came out of out father/daughter relationship. The ending, "soon will open wide," leaves me wondering if all the good things can rise above the bad. That's what it made me think of anyhow.

Also, thank you for leaving comments on my page. I like hearing what others have to think - otherwise, I'd just write in a journal :)


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Slainia 6 years ago from Goderich Ontario

This is beautiful...Thanks for a chance to read something so simply - poignant. Your use of alliteration & rhyming seemed to really work for me, too, so...beautifully done.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

whatsmyageagain - You're right, of course. Poetry must be received and interpreted as it feels to relate to the reader's own experience. Probably even when we know a lot about a poet's life, it would still be next to impossible to know accuratly just what event or thought triggered the words as they were written down. But the best quality of poetry is when it CAN be applied to the reader's own experience almost the same as if it were written about it. Mine was also loss of precious and dear relationships at a critical time of my life. One has never been recovered and the other has been but it's somewhat damaaged. However, part of the meaning of the ending was that the rooms in my heart are mine to fill, hopefully with the lost occupants, but even if not, they are still viable and hospitable and capable of containing other occupants. I think in that sense, it's been more than borne out in my life. I feel hopeful for you and your father, too. It is not an easy situation you have, though. But the reality of your relationship with him is worth working to restore. When it's too late, you'd really feel the loss all the more. I wish you well!

Thanks for your thoughtful comments here! I'm very pleased you visited.


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epigramman 6 years ago

I am back for some more because you always return to the classics!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

haha - thank you, epigramman! Only because I'm kinda one myselr! (if it means from an earlier era!) ;-)

Thanks so much!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Slainia - than you! I thought I'd replied to your lovely comments. I think I went off to "meet" you first and became entranced with your work! Having done that, I feel especially honored that you like mine! Thank you so much!


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K9keystrokes 6 years ago from Northern, California

What amazing work I find here. The pastel textures and waltzing words combine to bring a gift of grace, pure grace. As always i remain impressed. Thank you for sharing yourself with us...George was a lucky man my dear.

~always choose love~


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you - and your comment is poetry in itself. I've hesitated to share poetry but it makes me glad I did! George wrote some wonderful poetry himself. Thank you.


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warrioRR 6 years ago from Rawalpindi Pakistan

I like the Flower most than the others

It shows us the our present state.

We all in this world spend our all goods on our body faces to be flower but we not strong our roots to take a long lasting stand

thanks Nellieanna


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

That is so true, warrioRR. Without roots, nothing temporary can survive long. Thanks for stopping and for perceiving the meaning!


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BumptiousQ 6 years ago from Asheville, NC

Wonderful array of poems, and I love the accompanying artwork. Thanks for sharing. I'm going to spend some time -- right now! -- exploring some of your other work.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Welcome to my hubsite, and thank you for the kind words, Bumptious! I've just been enjoying one of your hubs, too and have enjoyed laughing my way through some most entertaining phobias! What a good imagination and style you have!


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Nell Rose 6 years ago from England

Hi, Nellie, I don't like saying wow, because it doesn't come across that well! but wow! this reminded me of a book of poems, each page something special as I scrolled down to read it, I could have carried on it was so beautiful. And I love the pictures, you certainly are multi talented. I will be back later to check out so many that I have missed. thanks nell


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

I like the postive outlook you share in your poem, you are an open heart lady and full of hope, Maita


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Nell - that's a most welcome "wow"! I know what you mean. Sometimes it just feels like the perfect expression which "says it all" but then one wonders if it actually comes across that way. I tend to think it does in the right context and your comment was one of those! I appreciate it. You're most gracious!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Maita - you always say such encouraging things! Thank you, sweet person! I'm glad you felt the postivive feelings! As they say, it takes one to know one - - (referring to an open hearted lady full of hope!) thanks!


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Rafini 6 years ago from Somewhere I can't get away from

Lovely poems left me with a feeling of loveliness.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Rafini, thank you. And it's lovely to meet you. I went to your profile and read it, as well as some of your hubs. I'm especially pleased that you liked my poems.


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bizarrett81 3 years ago from Maine

Nellieanna I love your work. Such beautiful, spiritual words. I can't wait to discover more.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you! I'm especially gratified that you've probed back into the earlier hubs! This was published what will soon be 3 years ago and was just my 7th poetry collection hub out of, - now, - 142!

Thank you, thank you!


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bizarrett81 3 years ago from Maine

I wanted to read more, but my bed called to me ; ) I will be back!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

It's not mandatory or a marathon! haha - Sleep is vital! I appreciate your interest, whenever and however it comes. Thank you!


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bizarrett81 3 years ago from Maine

I love sleep, I just don't have time for it = ) And thank YOU!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Now I know we're kindred spirits. Sounds like I said that. haha - But I've begun to realize that, to fulfill my goal of 100+ and still feisty, I may have to take time for it more.

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