Pity Me Oh So Perfectly

Only Real in the Mind

She Lives in the Shadows

The girl with the face that is never really seen,

She stands in the shadows trying to convince herself, this is the way that life is supposed to be.

Why is she so sad, with all that she has?

Pity me oh so perfectly.

Today is so gray and the tones are so cold.

She wishes she had a clue as to how to hold on.

She loses the tears that she cries in shame.

When she stops crying the tears are now her pain.

Oh pity the pretty face-that no one can see.

Pity me oh so perfectly.

She walks into the light, an oh so unfamiliar place.

So she backs into the corner and she observes the world’s frantic pace.

This isn’t my life she thinks to herself.

I’m so out of place and I’m not meant for this race...

A picture perfect face with a heart so sad.

She wants nothing more but a life she never had.

She argues her fears and gets laughed at for her thoughts.

Is this how life really is?

Or have I not yet been taught?

Don’t be yourself you are not good enough for this world.

If you disappeared tomorrow, who would miss such a sad little girl?

Your illusions are your illness and a sad one for which you cry.

Don’t you know your pretty face, is the only reason that anyone notices you’re alive?

Judge a book by its cover; you judge her life to be blessed.

Read her pages and you will see she is an organized mess.

Don’t wish to live her life-she has nothing that is envied.

If you really knew her you would see she is the pain, fear and the weak found in many.

Oh pity the pretty face-that no one can see.

Pity me oh so perfectly.

She is lost in her soul,

But tries so hard to be found,

She screams with everything she has-never quite making a sound.

Her thoughts are pure her intentions are kind.

But she won’t ever be worth it, because she is only real in her mind.

She is an illusion,

An illusion in which we can all feel.

She is afraid of tomorrow and tonight doesn’t seem real.

She lives in the shadows,

She won’t tell you her name.

Oh pity me oh so perfectly.

If you see her you will know and wonder why.

She is a girl, that lives in the shadows where there is no need to hide.

Oh pity me so perfectly.

Her days are all gray she shivers from the cold.

I can’t believe this is my life and how I must grow old.

She has been lost for so long, she forgets how to feel.

She is afraid of tomorrow and tonight doesn’t seem real.

Oh pity the pretty face-that no one can see.

Oh pity me oh so perfectly


If you happen to be a fan of poetry, and would like to read a few more, you may enjoy one of these two poems

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Please Don't Cry Little Child


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Nan Mynatt 6 years ago from Illinois

Beautiful Poetry. You ought to write more poetry! I was an international poet for many years. I won many trophys, and have been published in many books. Keep up the good work.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thanks Nan for the comment. I write a lot of poetry, some times I tend to be a little timid about putting some of it online for the world to judge :)

I can't image being an international poet or being published. I would probably worry that no one would buy or read my book :) Thanks again for your encouragement and for reading and commenting on this poem.

hc


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Paradise7 6 years ago from Upstate New York

Hang in there. The tone of this poem was so sad. Don't be so HARD on yourself! Let go of what doesn't serve you; stick with what makes you happy, and don't worry about what anyone thinks!


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Paradise7, thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment. I guess it is a little sad. I was just trying to say in a round about way-don't think that you know someone based on the way that they look-they could be completely different than what you are assuming.

I wrote this based on a place I have had to work hard to get away from. With some anxiety problems and not knowing where to go or who to turn to, I often felt lost and like the world was too fast and I would never keep up. I was talking to a friend (at that time) who said to me- "What do you have going on in your life that is so bad that you think you deserve pity from the world-she told me, you are pretty-smart-have nice things...you have it all" Well with that being said, I felt embarassed for opening up, and thought i was selfish for not being happy.

Since then- I realized, physical looks has nothing to do with the way that we feel about ourselves-or what we have gone through in life to make us who we are. You cant make a call on someone based on the way that they appear. It isnt fair. Everyone deserves to be seen-and known before they are judged.

Hopefully that helps clarify the poem a little. I am glad that you read it and thanks for the encouragement in your comment :)


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Sage Williams 6 years ago

H.C. - A beautiful poem, written from the heart, you really do have a way with words. I can remember many years ago, when I had major depression and was suicidal.(Probably 1/2 of my life).

Each day was a struggle and life went on, that is on the outside. But on the inside I was dead.

Holidays and vacations would come and someone would always have a camera and tell me to smile. So I'd smile on the outside. Snap!, Even though 20 years later I'm in a far better place. I can look back at those pictures and even though I look good on the outside. I still remember how dead I was dead on the inside. And how I hated to have my picture taken.

Be true to your feelings for they are you're guide. I like you, had everything to live for, I should have been happy, but my inner world was in turmoil.

Hugs,

Sage


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you Sage for your encouragement, and sharing your experience with me. I guess to have someone explain how your mind and emotions can work against you-is hard if you have never felt that kind of hurt within your soul. Thanks for always being uplifting with your comments.

:) HC


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Mike Lickteig 6 years ago from Lawrence KS USA

HC, this was very nice. You should never be made to feel apologetic for your feelings. Feelings may not always be rational, but they are valid--they affect us--we are forced to respond to them. Your feelings are just as valid and justifiable as someone else's.

I would wish you happiness, of course, but when you are not, well--your feelings are your own. No one gets to tell you how to feel.

Sorry, in this regard I get carried away sometimes. I am a guy who has often been told I am "too emotional--ESPECIALLY for a man" and have always wondered what that is supposed to mean. I proudly claim my emotions, good or bad, regardless of the fact that I am a man.

My comments here are WAY too long, and I apologize. Consider it a tribute to your talent that you inspired such a long-winded response.

Take care.

Mike


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Sage Williams 6 years ago

H.C. Mike is so right and I don't know if anyone else could have said it any better. I published a poem awhile ago on feelings. The name of the poem is Identity, if you haven't read it yet, please do.

Hugs again,

Sage


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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

You have expressed your sadness so beautifully - it is a wonderful poem to feel for it...


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Mike,

Thanks for your comment. Don’t worry-I don’t mind comments that have some length :) I too am told I am far too emotional of a person- I think being 'emotional' gives a person a depth that should be admired. I have a tendency to connect to other people situations (and consider-how would I feel if...), which is why I don't think that it beneficial to be cruel- I don’t like being the reason that someone cries or hurts. On the same note- it hurts ten times worse when someone is not as careful with my emotions as I try to be with theirs.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thanks Sage- I will be reading your hub, thanks for recommending it to me. :)

hc


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Moulik,

Thank you for leaving a comment on this poem. It is always encouraging when someone feels what I was writing and putting into my work. Thanks again

hc


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The original Eman 6 years ago from london

Hi there h.c.porter this is very good and very daring it really made think a lot about things in my life truly powerful . check out some of my stuff and let me know what you think


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Eman, Thanks for stopping by and taking a look at my work. Your comment is very much appreciated. I am happy that you found personal meaning within the words of this poem. I will be sure to stop by your hubs and read some of your work too. :)

hc


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IamAl1c 6 years ago from Here and There

Wow. This was beautiful, you definitely have a talent for writing poetry.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

IamAl1c, Thanks for stopping by and commenting on this poem. You are very kind for given such a compliment- it very much appreciated :)


De Greek profile image

De Greek 6 years ago from UK

You are such a clever girl..


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

De Greek, Thanks for the comment, I think it was a compliment? :) Never the less, thanks for reading my poem


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BRIAN SLATER 6 years ago from Nottingham Uk

HC you have deared to expose yourself and share your inner thoughts,-don't disappear tomorrow we should all miss you and your beautiful writing.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Brian Slater,

Thank you so much for reading and commenting on this poem-and for the compliment on my writing. I hope that I remain in view for many years to come :)


angel 5 years ago

tht was amazing!!! dont worry about wht ppl think


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

angel- thank you so much for reading! I have learned not to pay too much attention to what others think of me- I tend to be happier with myself by following that advice. :)

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