Poem: Hush My Darling, Sleep

Love & Loss


In my line of duty, I come across life in all its incarnations, birth and death, life and illness, joy and despair. No matter how many times I lose someone I have been caring for as a patient, I am never numb to the torrent of emotions that swirl in the time of there passing and the depth of feeling that transpires between loved ones.

I don't know if it makes me stronger or weaker in my profession, but even after all these years, death affects me deeply, however expected or unexpected it may be.

There are many who cannot articulate to themselves or to their loved one how they feel at the time of this painful separation.

I wrote this for them....

I wrote this for me...



Hush my darling, sleep...


Your Grip is weak, as you hold my hand

Your eyes are dull, staring into distant land

You try to smile, dry lips that try to part

The machine beeps, the rhythm of your heart



The candle flame, it flickers in the night

Your chest moves slow, rhythm of the fading light

What once was, is no longer there

Your body is a shell, held aloft by air



Hush my darling, Sleep

Hush my darling, Deep

Your loving soul I keep

My heart rips as I weep



The Journey’s long, we lived a loving life

Many battles fought, we won over strife,

As we lived as one, as we lived in song

No matter what came, Love kept us strong



Don’t want you to hurt, or live in pain

The demon’s had its way, nothing left to gain

No regrets, is what you always said

Not easy for me, sitting by your bed



Hush my darling, Sleep

Hush my darling, Deep

Your loving soul I keep

My heart rips as I weep



Letting you go, the hardest thing I do

What comes next, I don’t know to be true

All I know, is the life you gave me

I look around, is everywhere to see



Promise you this; I’ll try to be brave

I’ll go on, with all the strength you gave

If we come back, in another birth

I want you and no one else on earth



Hush my darling, Sleep

Hush my darling, Deep

Your loving soul I keep

My heart rips as I weep



Hush my darling, Sleep

Hush my darling, Deep….

Hush my darling, Sleep

Hush my darling, Deep….



Hush, my darling....

Hush.....


Mohan Kumar

© 2012 Mohan Kumar

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Sunshine625 4 years ago from Orlando, FL

I was there. I'm not sure if I found the right words. I tried my best. I think my mom understood.

I can't imagine how it must hurt to try to save a life and not be able to. I have a few close friends who work in the ER or the OR ... they say it never gets easy.

Thanks for your words Docmo. We could all learn from them.


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TToombs08 4 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

I have no words...VUMS.


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

This feels so much like a song--beautifully done !!


D. Juris-stetser 4 years ago

...and the tears just keep flowing. They began at the first verse...my mind flew to the rawest newest open wound...you put things so beutifully, and handled the subject with just the right distance and grace. I stand in awe of you, your compassion and sensitivity, and of course, your talent. Thank you so much for this...


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Daisy Mariposa 4 years ago from Orange County (Southern California)

Mohan (Docmo),

Stunningly beautiful and poignant.

I've been there.

I know.

I understand.


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Virtual Treasures 4 years ago from Michigan

Very touching Docmo. It reminds me of my Grandfather.


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mary615 4 years ago from Florida

This was such a moving and emotional poem. I have witnessed several loved ones die, and I really could identify with your words. I vote this UP, etc.etc.


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tillsontitan 4 years ago from New York

This says it all my friend. We have all felt our "hearts rip as we weep". You've touched a place in all of us that we don't know how to deal with. As a doctor your compassion transcends what many doctors feel or portray to their patients. All of this in one very special person, you Mohan. A beautiful poem by a beautiful man.

Voted up, awesome, beautiful, interesting and SHARING with my followers!


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DanaTeresa 4 years ago from Ohio

This is beautiful. I have been touched by death of family and friends. And then there are the six years I worked at the cemetery. Working with grieving families, burying those who became friends over the years. It is an odd way to look at it, but I consider that I had the "good" part of it. I helped survivors to grieve, to cope, to memorialize, and to hold on to good memories...Your job is infinitely harder. You exist in that place where life meets death. No matter how much love, strenght, skill, or determination, death comes to everyone. You have met it well in this poem.


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

This is so sad and touching that ir literally brought tears to my eyes. You are a wonderful writer and a doctor with real feeling and emotions. I congratualate you on both. May we all know such a physician when our time comes.

Thanks Docmo!


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fpherj48 4 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

I am so moved and overwhelmed, my mind is nearly numbed......This has carried me to far too many moments of heartbreaking loss......My tears are flowing.........this is beyond the choices we have....awesome and beautiful, don't do this poem justice. UP++


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Mhatter99 4 years ago from San Francisco

you knew I would like this wonderful poem. thank you.


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Vellur 4 years ago from Dubai

Touched my heart and broke it up. Fantastic, you must be a very good doc, plus a generous and kind heart - a rare combination to come by. Voted up.


Shubhangi Joshi 4 years ago

Such a heart wrenching poem...you're a very sensitive and wonderful human being to feel this way..thank you for sharing this


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sofs 4 years ago

Oh Doc, I just lost someone so close to me .. and it hurts to even think of her anymore... Your song had me crying like a baby... the pain of loss just needed release... It is this quality I believe that makes you a great doctor... I am glad to see the same in my son who is training to be one.. God Bless you!


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eHealer 4 years ago from Las Vegas

Just beautiful Doc, I will spend many more moments with you and your poetry. Thanks


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO

This piece is so touchingly, personally relevant to me now, Docmo. I know you see the path of heartbreaking loss everyday. Hope, and despair, like a rollercoaster, sometimes with a miracle, a remission, but ultimately, a reality we all share as a witness at some point in our lifetime and face in our own mortality. It is excruciating to watch, knowing that for all the love we feel for the one facing their mortality, the pain, the changes, we are impotent to help. I put one foot in front of the other, and bear up under the despair and do everything humanly possible to ease the ultimate transition my loved one faces, knowing that life will never be the same and knowing how much I would have missed without the love I am losing.

Beautiful words at a time I need to hear them. Thank you, Mohan.


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ChristyWrites 4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

What a beautiful poem. I lost my grandma earlier this year and look at her photo every day. Sending you hugs xx


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Lovely and sweet. I used to work in a nursing home. Saying goodbye was never easy. Well done.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

Brought tears to my eyes, when I read it. I need this and every section reminded me of what I experienced with mom and our dog not so long ago. Hush, My Darling... I will not forget it and thank you again. I really needed these words.


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jhamann 4 years ago from Reno NV

I have worked in the medical field for what seems like a lifetime and I feel that your poem expresses the emotions of loss with such tenderness and love. Jamie


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. This was so wonderful and touching. To see this day in and day out I don't know if I could be as strong. Passing this on definitely.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Oh My I am crying.. this is so beautiful this is how I felt when my mom died and my sister.. You said it all in wonderful words.. straight form your heart.

Bless you

Debbie


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

Thank you, Mohan, for this brilliant, heartfelt poetry. Your words are compassionate and sensitive and convey a piece of your remarkable soul. I already know how talented you are as a writer and philosopher, and now I have had the pleasure of learning more about your preeminent psyche.

I can see Galen and Hippocrates in Heaven smiling down at their favorite physician. Voted up, my friend, from my heart.


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myownlife 4 years ago from london

Awesome poem, I can say you are the bravest person, so touchy poem. voted up.

Always be optimistic.

God bless you.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

Sunshine, Terrye, Audrey, Dotti, Daisy, virtual treasures, Mary615, Mary ( tillson), Dana, xstatic, fpherj, Mhatter, Nithya, Shubangi, sofs, eHealer, Amy, Christy, Victoria, AEvans, jhamann, Gypsy Rose, Deborah, drbj, myownlife...

I'm completely overwhelmed by all your comments. I knew when I shared this, it will bring out all the emotions of loss we've experienced. I had no idea this will have such a big impact.

I am totally blown away, humbled and thankful for all your wonderful, touching comments and your response to this poem. Not only it validates my understanding and response to the human condition, but your comments also help me reinforce that it is alright to care and be attached, as long as it doesn't interfere with the clinical care and decision making.

drbj, you've moved me with your 'Galen and Hippocrates' statement, I do hope I consistently fulfill my duties to the highest level expected of me, through knowledge, skills and most of all a caring attitude. Much appreciated. You've all got me crying now.


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Ruchira 4 years ago from United States

Gosh...I can so relate to this hushing.

I lost my dad from cancer and I was there by his bedside, while he was in pain and agony. That moment you just remanence the years spent, the laughter shared, the incidents, which made him proud of me!!

Awesome, Mohan.

You touched a chord in my heart by this poem. Thanks with many votes and sharing it across


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teaches12345 4 years ago

A very touching poem. I lost both parents and it was hard to let them go. Your poem is a beautiful reminder of those times. The caring you show is wonderful to see in a person of your position in life.


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eHealer 4 years ago from Las Vegas

Doc, how beautiful. You really captured the essence of caring for those in the last moments of their lives. I know that very well, the act of letting go. Thank you for your beautiful words and deep understanding of the human condition.

Deb


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MartieCoetser 4 years ago from South Africa

What a very heart-touching poem!

Yes, the same with me - death affects me deeply, however expected or unexpected it may be.... and even the death of total strangers. The End of this Life. (I don't stand for 'killing the 'earthling' in us while we are still alive. Life is a precious gift to be enjoyed. Rule: Live and let live.)

Docmo, I can't spend time in your corner without reading at least one of your poems, and they are always touching. You've got IT!


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jonmcclusk 4 years ago from Cinnaminson, New Jersey

This poem flares my emotions, but as much as my emotions do flare, there is a blanketing calmness to this poem as I let it settle into the depths of my soul; to be used as inspiration to warm my heart in the days to come. Excellent work, Docmo.


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midget38 4 years ago from Singapore

Beautiful, Docmo. Yes, indeed it can be so hard to put up emotional barriers where work is concerned, and death affects us all. Voted up!


NaomiPickett 4 years ago

beautiful poem :)


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Fennelseed 4 years ago from Australia

Having lost someone very close to me also, I have become much more sensitive to loss and the impact on loved ones. I do find I connect with others who know loss on a deeper level. Dealing with loss on a daily basis would be so very difficult for you, however for those coping with the death of a loved one, having your care must make all the difference, because you know what they are going through. It takes a very strong and dedicated person to do what you do, Docmo and you have my upmost repsect. Your words here are beautiful "Letting go is the hardest thing I do", but we must let them sleep peacefully. The last time I saw my son alive was to farewell him at an airport, I didn't want him to go. Two days later I was leaving from the same airport to identify his body. Looking at his incediably peaceful face, I wanted so to wake him, but he was sleeping so peacefully, so deeply. " Hush my darling, sleep, Hush my darling, deep". Thank you Docmo.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

Ruchira, Dianna, eHealer, Martie, Jon, Michelle and Naomi - thank you for your visit and touching comments on this hub. Really appreciate your feedback and wonderful insight into this sensitive subject.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

Annie, my heart goes out to you. Losing your wonderful son must have been a devastating experience - one that sears into your heart forever. I cannot even begin to imagine your pain and courage that helped you deal with that .. I am honoured in some way this poem expresses that feeling of love and loss. Thanks for sharing this poignant memory here. Love and Peace.


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bravewarrior 4 years ago from Central Florida

Beautiful poem, Docmo. You speak words of comfort and help ease the way, both for the loved ones who grieve and the ill who are afraid to let go. Simply beautiful!


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

Loss when it comes is inevitable ... and that is the deep symbolism hidden in your words which you have penned beautifully my friend..

Your patients may not know of the insurmountable amount of agony you go through.. when you fail at saving a life... not in terms of professional achievements but in terms of compassion....

I admire your heart my friend... for there is still humanity left if there people who think like you

Great .. Great write


Sueswan 4 years ago

Hi Doc

I am overcome with emotion. Your words reveal a compassionate heart which I believe makes you stronger in all areas of life.

Sharing

Take care:)


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marcoujor 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

I say this with all sincerity...

Mohan, you are an angel doctor. You hurt with and provide comfort at the same time... and you have touched my soul deeply.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

bravewarrior, that's a wonderful comment.much appreciated.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

rahul, thank you so much for your lovelywords. its great when people understand the agonies of being a medic as much as the rewards...


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

sueswan.. much appreciated. thank you.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

Mar you're an angel for saying so. tThank you so much. I think the key difference between a 'healer' and a 'doctor' is the empathy, holism and f;exiblity.. I am glad i chose to the former... hugs!


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Jools99 4 years ago from North-East UK

Mohan, this is a very moving poem and you really capture that struggle with loss for yourself and for your patients loved ones. You really captured all of the thoughts that must go through someone's mind as they struggle with this. I can't even imagine what it is like.


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marcoujor 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Hope the Doctor is taking time to enjoy his special day. Hugs, Maria


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homesteadbound 4 years ago from Texas

Truly beautiful words! You have expressed it so well ... I deal with death also, and it is hard. This was amazing!


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innerspin 4 years ago from uk

After reading your beautiful poem I couldn't listen to the Eric Clapton song, I'd be a wreck. Very moving.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK Author

Julie, Mar thank you for your comments and constant support!

homesteadbound, innerspin- I am humbled that you found these words moving. They come from a place of true emotion and remembrance.


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innerspin 4 years ago from uk

That's obvious, Docmo, and that's why they are moving.


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Daisy Mariposa 3 years ago from Orange County (Southern California)

Mohan (Docmo),

I came back to read your elegy again. You have written beautiful, meaningful words straight from your heart. No one expresses thoughts such as these as well as you.

Thank you for sharing your emotions with us.


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Laurinzo Scott 3 years ago from Phoenix, Az.

Beautiful poem... and I especially thank Daisy for introducing me to your poetry

It is refreshing when poetry captures emotion and bottles it like this ...Wow!!!

Voted up and sharing my friend


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CrisSp 3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

Very touching, sad and yet beautifully expressed. Up and sharing.

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