Poem - Let me say Goodbye

Poem - Let me say Goodbye

I remember my friends, my family and my wife.
I remember a time when I still had a sense of purpose and direction in my life.
I remember smiling, and having a single happy tear in my eye.
I used to always hope and pray those days would never pass me by.

My children were wonderful; they showered me with love and affection.
I did my very best to give them the best start in life, and the best direction.
My parents were well. They smiled in their aging days.
They wanted their time back, but relaxed in a euphoric haze.

My wife was beyond special, together forever we thought we would always share.
She was everything I wanted, in fact more than my heart would ever dare.
She was the love of my life. She was the beat of my desire.
She was my earth, wind, water and fire.

My job was tough, but it did pay the bills.
By no means did I love it, and I could no way afford to live out near those Golden Hills.
But work was work, and like life, it had to be endured.
You had to brave through the bad to reach the ultimate reward.

Looking back at that time, I now weep and I cry.
But my eyes do not respond, in my tear ducts my tears die.
I wish with all my heart, that I could see my family, even just once more.
But unfortunately for me, God has now closed that door.

My whole life is now a field of memories, my mind is wild and free.
But until my wife and children give permission, my body never will be.
I lie in a bed in a dark cluttered room.
But my eyes no longer view; so for all I know it could be a cupboard used for a broom.

I hear the doctors talking, I hear my family weep.
They tell my children a coma is not so bad, it’s like a long extended sleep.
But the truth is not that simple; and I’m really not coping that well.
I’m trapped inside my own body, my personal living hell.

It is strange that my eyes cannot let me see,
especially considering I feel like my other senses are all they can be.
My ears are certainly stronger than they ever have been
and my nose is constantly picking up whiffs of roast beef, chocolate and my favourite, fried chicken.

My body may not respond, by my tongue still knows taste
I cry out to my family to feed me, but my screams all go to waste.
I need human contact, I desperately crave human touch.
Most of all I need her beside me, with her fingers on my arms, showing me she loves me just as much.

My body is gone to me, I’ve come to peace with that through time
but my marbles are rolling down the hill slowly now, and they won’t forever be mine.
Being trapped here like a zombie is much worse than death
all I crave is that my family say goodbye, and let me sleep in an eternal rest.

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Ellen Karman 4 years ago from medina, Ohio

Oh, I know how this feels!! I was in a coma for three and a half months and I could hear at times and my eyes were taped shut but I knew there were people around me and also felt I was screaming at the top of my lungs but no sound emerged as I was on life support or respirator. I hated the suction tube or when they put in chest tubes. But I was lucky, an experimental treatment my husband authorized when my caring doctor brought the idea to him after 8 cardiac arrests. The hospital agreed to do the treatment for "Compassionate use only," as it wasn't approved by the FDA yet. And, it bought me time, time to recover and I am lucky as I had a three year old and a four month old at the time and today my youngest has just started college - so I was able to bring them up and help keep them safe and share my values. I also, didn't want my husband to lose me or my parents and sister. I idetify with this piece but, if there's a chance at life and someone is young I believe in trying. If they've lived their lives and there is no hope then they should be off the machines. Though that is not my choice. It is why it is so important we ALL have living wills, so you don't have someone making a decision that you wouldn't want!! Once you've been put on life support it takes a court order from a judge for even a spouse to get one off of it. So, make out a living will!!!!! Great article and so well written~thank you for writing it! Ellen Karman


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naeemebrahimjee 4 years ago from London Author

Thank you so much for responding Ellen. I do understand your point of view. Life is more important than anything, and it is always worth fighting for. I think sometimes when you reach a certain point you forget that and all you want to do is give up, but there is always hope!


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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

This is an amazing write here. Really excellent piece. Wow, it just blew me away. You are such a gifted writer no doubt about it. Voted Way Up and I have to share this one. In His Love, Faith Reaper


Sunnie Day 4 years ago

This was a fantastic story...you had me from the beginning. I loved this..very creative..God bless Ellen and her comment..wow..she is blessed and I know she knows it.


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naeemebrahimjee 4 years ago from London Author

Hi Faith Reaper and Sunnie Day. Thank you both so much for your kind words.


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Lady Summerset 4 years ago from Willingboro, New Jersey

Greetings naeemebrahimjee,

This was the first thing I read upon reaching my desk! Wow! Personally, I took it a step (well, maybe a couple of leaps further) and thought about all the loved ones that I never had a chance to say goodbye to due to an accident, heart attack, or an assault. It reminded me of what "we" would have said to each other, if given the time!

Dear Ellen, Omigosh! It's stories like yours that enable other couples to rally through very difficult times. Love has a way of making things right!

To everyone who reads this exceptionally thought-provoking and sincere writing, I pray that we learn to LIVE each day as if it were our last. Secondly, say what needs to be said today, for tomorrow is not promise! Sending hugs and kisses to all the Hubpages family, you've made my journey this year an INSPIRED one!

www.heartofawomanministries.com


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut

Wow, I would never want to be in that particular situation. I felt every moment as I read the piece. Wonderful work!


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