Poem: Love Slips Away

When Love is not meant to be.

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Love Slips Away


He stands by the door

His soft eyes holding mine

Above the mingling crowd

The noise fades...his intensity

A warm scarf around my shoulders.


When his arm brushes mine

The warm of a thousand suns

Linger, warmth upon warmth

Seeping through

to grasp the heart..

eager yet floundering.


His laughter launches

A soft flurry of bubbles

Like newly opened champagne

Light and airy, joy and sadness

Mingling in the tormented cup.


Lying side by side

The soft green lawn our bed

The sky our escape

Where the world becomes tiny pixels

In a picture with only you and I.

But is there?


In your presence I feel

The glow of the fireflies

The flush of love so soft

Tiptoeing along

The edge of darkness.


Why then this oxymoron

Love me, love me not?

The pull of wanting and then

Drawing back?

This chemistry, is it just me?


In the old beat-up Toyota,

His knuckles white from gripping

The wheel as we sat under the Frangipani.

The street light a halo of shattered glass

As he stammers out the truth.


In another world, another place, he says

It would be so plain, clear

As his heart desires but …he signs

Duties call, honor first

"I have to go," he bursts.


In my dreams, he stands

Outside the door

His eyes searching for mine

His arm stretches to embrace

But the vast emptiness stands

The gulf of distance we can never hope to cross.

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When you lose someone you truly love, the hurt can never go away. The aching will be there today, tomorrow and the days after all the tomorrows. Though time can soften the lenses through which the experience is viewed, the bittersweet is still there, hiding somewhere in the corners of the heart and it doesn’t take much for that memory to resurface. Sometimes it’s an event, sometimes it’s a scene from a movie or certain phrase, a poem or a song. Sometimes, it’s the time of the year or a certain ambience. For me, it came all afresh (again) with the song “Someone like You” by Adele. How could I escape when I hear this over the radio and they play it at least ten times a day?

The first stanza goes:

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.


Though the scenario is slightly different in the song, it holds all the sentiment of love lost. We met while doing some volunteer work with some poor kids in a newly established church. His sincere and warm ways grew on me and the attraction soon became evident. While he wore his feelings on his sleeves, there’s a reticence I cannot quite understand. While he struggled with his inner feelings, I have no clue until he broke the news that fateful night. He already had a girlfriend before he met me and while the chemistry was strong, he felt the need to meet his family's and the girl’s expectations. He was in medical school at that time and he was expected to marry the girl he met in medical school when he graduated. He told me he wished he had met me first.

The refrain goes:

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Sometimes, love is not meant to be, despite the strongest of feelings and you have to move on. I did but how can you ever forget the love that you want it to be?

Copyright 2011. All RIghts Reserved.


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HattieMattieMae 5 years ago from Limburg, Netherlands

Very nice hub! :)


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Wow anglnwu you really nailed this one. beautiful, snakeslane


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jill of alltrades 5 years ago from Philippines

Oh Wow!!! This is so beautiful! I can feel all the emotions coming out, resurfacing as you said! You really have a gift with words my friend!

Voted up and beautiful!!!!


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arusho 5 years ago from University Place, Wa.

Great hub, it's really beautiful! I've never had a lost love quite like that, but have had friends go through that.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

Thanks, HattieMattie, for your positive feedback.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

snakeslane, always good to hear from you and your words of encouragement mean a lot to me. Thanks!


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

Jill, thank you for gracing this page with your comments. Always happy to hear from you. Have a great day.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

arusho, thanks for dropping by to comment. Thank goodness you never have to go through a thing like that.


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

Oh gosh, so much emotion, I don't think you do get over a 'lost love'...

Voting up and beautiful.


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CloudExplorer 5 years ago from New York City

Yet another perfect display of powerful words being expressed, you definitely has a gift with word play & I sense your emotional impact in dealing with love is very intense, this hub shows a lot about whom you really are inside that vessel called a human body, cause your inner spirit is shining through here, in my most humble opinions. Awesome work here, Voted up as beautiful, and interesting.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

Movie Master, thank you so much for dropping by to comment. I appreciate your support.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

CloudExplorer, your positive feedback made my day. thanks for the generous comments and I totally appreciate that.


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RedElf 5 years ago from Canada

You certainly have a way with words! Thanks for sharing this poignant and moving poem with us.


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

RedElf, thanks for dropping by with your sweet comments.


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AudreyHowitt 5 years ago from California

Such a beautiful write--so full of emotion and the sense of loss is palpable--the emotion is present in every line


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anglnwu 5 years ago Author

AudreyHowitt, thanks for your lovely comments. Have a great day.

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