Poem - Where Is My God?

It has been written,
That the Tao that is spoken
Is not the eternal Tao

And yet,
Their tongues dig deep
Into the field of my soul they plow

And so,
How can I find you God?
Your people block my way
The path to salvation
Seems so far away

Help them my God
They know not what they do
Your words they wield
Are they God or are you?

How can I know you God?
When they are so sure
Spoiling your simple message
It no longer seems pure

Help me my God
I cannot see you
Only their dilated eyes
Blocking my view

I am confused my God
You send them to me
Irrational and weak
Destroying all you can be

Where are you my God?
Tell them they are wrong
Only reading the notes
And not hearing the song

Am I lost oh God?
Because they say it so?
Wandering the wilderness
Which way should I go?

Believe in me God
My instincts so clear
Walking through the fire
I sense you are near

Send the message my God
Show them the way
Leave me alone
I cannot stay

You are my God
In you I trust
Take me as I am
Only you are just

Teach me God
To see your word
Give me your grace
However undeserved

I feel your image my God
In my emotional depth
Open my eyes to heaven
And show me it's breadth

Is it possible my God
To speak your word
Distorted by man's own image
Can it truly be heard?

When we meet, my God
I will bow in sorrow
For the failures of my mind
With hope for tomorrow

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stclairjack 6 years ago from middle of freekin nowhere,... the sticks


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Kindacrazy 6 years ago from Tennessee

Beautiful and inspiring, a GREAT prayer!

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Twilight Lawns 6 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

Attaboy. Excellent sentiments... I wonder if that is why the poem is also so good.

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Mentalist acer 6 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

You're looking in the right place Suburban Poet!;)

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WillStarr 6 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Good questions.

When in doubt, read the owner’s manual:


Well done!

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@stclairjack - thank you! That was a perfect comment!

@Kindacrazy - thank you very much!

@Twilight - thank you.... it's just how I feel...

@Mentalist - thank you. I'm trying to cut out the middle-men...

@WillStarr - thank you.... I hear you and thanks for the reference.... I've met so many "authorities" in my lifetime you know...

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WillStarr 6 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

The only 'authorities' I rely on are the ones who quietly let me make the initial approach.

Only cults knock on my front door or demand that I knuckle under to their beliefs.

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Nan Mynatt 6 years ago from Illinois

God does hear you all you have to do is ask. It is very simple and your expression is beautiful. "MY PRAYER IS TO LINGER WITH YOU AT THE END OF THE DAY.'

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Will - I hear you man...

@Nan - thank you and that's a good one....

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vrbmft 6 years ago from Yucaipa, California

Thank you, Suburban Poet, for exploring God in your poetry. There is a wonderful chapter in the novel, Brothers Karamazov, entitled "The Grand Inquisitor." The novel was written in the 19th century, and the premise of this chapter is that if Jesus came back "today" "they" would crucify him again. They, being all the folks who believe they have the right doctrine, etc.

And if Jesus came back today, 2011, I think most if not all Christian leadership would either not recognize him or declare him a heretic. He would hang out with all the people that most self righteous Christians declare sinners. And I have no idea what the Jehovah Witnesses would do if he celebrated something, And the Seven Day Adventist would surely see him as not divine because he would eat Lamb probably! God is so beyond our small mental and self centered, self righteous religious boxes. I certainly don't have any issues with traditional religion! You don't think I do, do you? LOL! And since I don't, THANK YOU AGAIN FOR WRITING POETRY ABOUT GOD. GOD IS POETRY.

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CMCastro 6 years ago from Baltimore,MD USA

I can not judge or criticize a fellow human being for how to believe. I know the truth because I accept and believe what is written in His Bible. It is good to recognize God for who He is, but Faith and Belief Requires action. John 3: 16 tells us Why He loved us and His intentions for us. So relationship, a communication between the individual and The Almighty is the only way to activate His existence in one's life.

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Micky Dee 6 years ago

"Only their dilated eyes, Blocking my view, I am confused my God. You send them to me, Irrational and weak, Destroying all you can be, Tell them they are wrong, Only reading the notes, And not hearing the song!"

Yes sir!

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Vern - I agree that he would encounter the same troubles. His purported offspring haven't evolved much spiritually. We "find" things and think we invented them. We're good at consuming but there is much good in the hearts of many so I don't want to indict everyone. Certainly this poem was the result of repeated provocations and it may be that it is the result of contact with but a handful of people that I happened to encounter in my life. But their brand of worship was designed to take me off my path and place me on theirs. I can't do that...

@CMCastro - thank you for commenting. I'm happy that you are secure in your beliefs and you seem to be a good person. I cannot be as assured about truth as you but if you respect me then this poem should not be a bother to you at all because you are not the provocateur....

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Hey Micky - thanks for stopping by on your ride to nirvana... It struck me once that similar to when Jesus was being questionned by the Pharisees about the old Jewish law that modern -day Christians and others are still hung-up on rules. Then one day I was sitting at the piano and just looked at the written notes... I thought to myself that it looked so ordinary and plain. Not much there but then when I played the song the music came alive and the notes were irrelevant. I then decided the notes were the law and the music was spiritual awareness.....

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Doug Turner Jr. 6 years ago

So refreshing to hear some relevant questions asked through poetry. I swear I'm becoming spoiled by so much poetry reading on hubpages. Normal prose -- newspapers, blogs, school essays -- seems dull and lifeless compared the sharp and vibrant way poetry can achieve the same end. Another thoughtful write, Poet. Cheers.

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K. Burns Darling 6 years ago from Orange County, California

Wow! What an beautifully crafted piece, full of insight and feeling. Makes me think of all those sour-faced, meely mouthed, supposed Christians that God has seen fit to put in my way as a test of paitience....You captured the spirit of how they make me feel perfectly! Great job!

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CarolineVABC 6 years ago from Castaic

Beautifully written, Suburban Poet! Many people are confused about God and Christianity due to the fact that there are so many people out there who have different views about it and are trying to impose the other person that their way is the "only" way. I believe that everyone has a personal relationship with God. I happen to believe in a Christian God. If we listen to other people's beliefs, we will get more confused. Focus on your relationship with God, which is the most important thing of being a Christian. I love how you've expressed your thoughts and feelings in this poem. Keep up the good work. God bless!

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Stigma31 6 years ago from Kingston, ON

Excellent poem, it was almost like a prayer, except I didn't see an amen at the end. Your poems always amze me...great work!

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Michael Adams1959 6 years ago from Wherever God leads us.

absolutely beautiful!

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Doug - thank you for your comment. I feel the same way about reading poetry versus articles published in newspapers. I'm looking for the art in every word now.

@K. Burns - thank you. You're not the Kristi Burns from Laredo are you? It's unfortunate that so many repel those whom they wish to attract. They do not understand the damage they cause.

@Caroline - thank you. I tend towards the Christian God myself but is it because I was born amongst Christians? I wonder if I've been brainwashed. I am very drawn towards Jesus but even then I wonder if this is a form of idol worship. In the end everyone should try the golden rule on for size and leave the preaching and assuredness of the afterlife to themselves.

@Stigma - I appreciate your kind remarks. I guess it was a prayer. Maybe I was just talking to the silent host out of frustration. I don't know what the truth is in this world... sometimes I think somebody or something made us and then pushed our boat out to sea and said "good luck..."

@Michael - Thank you!

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K. Burns Darling 6 years ago from Orange County, California

While my family most definitley hails from the great state of Texas, (my grandfather was born in Paris,Lamar Co., and my father in Matador, Motley Co.) I am not she.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Kristen - ok... cool... it is a small world and I was just wondering...

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Elefanza 6 years ago from Somewhere in My Brain


This is such a beautiful, intensely honest poem. Thank you for that! It is hard trying to figure it out, isn't it? There's this artist (I can't remember him to save my soul) who drew all these types of people in the shadow of the cross. You see the people crying, the people apathetic, the people gambling for the clothes of Christ, all of it. So even though it's a "religious" picture, it's also that painting of humanity. I don't know.

My current thought right now is that I will always fail to find "God" (or maybe just the abstract?) if I try expecting people to be better than they are. Maybe we too eclipse someone's view of God and love in our own failings and the only point we can truly begin at is to forgive one another for our failings? Anyway, wish I knew the answer...maybe it's just love? I don't know!

"Forgive them, father, for they don't know." Maybe that's true even if it never happened. I think so.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Elefanza - thank you for commenting. Regardless of one's belief I do think the words attributed to Jesus are the secret to existence.

* Judge not lest ye be judged

* Turn the other cheek

* Blessed are the peacemakers

* Do unto others as you would have them do unto you

* Why do you concern yourself with the speck in another man's eye and ignore the plank in your own?

It's all good stuff and if we would just take it to heart and live life seeing through another person's eyes or viewpoint I would venture to say that love would rule. Of course this seems so ridiculous in such a brutal and cynical world but for those of us looking for answers then maybe we should stop and realize the answer is in how we treat our fellow man. By continuing the search we may walk by the solution...

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Stan Fletcher 6 years ago from Nashville, TN

Wow - this was exceptional. Really resonated with a lot of things I've been feeling lately. Thanks man. This rocked.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Stan - Thank you very much... see I knew I couldn't hate you! Yeah this topic has been with me for too long. I've had several people very close to me in my life that just didn't seem to understand the damage they did in terms of my spiritual views. Damage I guess in that it pushed me away from them...

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Seeker7 6 years ago from Fife, Scotland


Oh this is just so beautiful!!! The poem really touches something very deep in me because it is the kind of thoughts and answers I have been looking for all my life. This is a poem that is already a favourite and have 'bookmarked' it. Just awesome!!

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Seeker - thank you again for commenting on one of my hubs. I am honored that you would bookmark this poem. I think it just flowed naturally because I have been challenged so much in my approach to religion and spirituality in my life. I had to say something and this was it.... I've written others on the same topic and I'm sure I'm not done exploring this subject because it is very important to me.

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Barbara Kutra 6 years ago from So. California

Beautifully written and inspiring. Thank you, this one is a nice read!

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Barbara - thank you for the kind remarks. I am just trying to clarify all the questions in my mind...

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Marina Lester 6 years ago

Sooo lovely... My mind loved "Only reading the notes

And not hearing the song" Marvelous! This reaches the level of my personal favorites of yours. So many I believe feel this. A very big subject for a very large audience. Thank you so much for this read. Though this piece at times really shows someone who is lonely, perhaps a bit lost wandering amongst a sea of people, of existence. It's about reaching out, to God, to something higher. But I also feel it is about reaching out to others who feel the same, it is always comforting to know you are not the only one... Take care Poet, and thank you... Voted up.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Hey beautiful.... that's you Marina... thank you for commenting and yes it is about the search for God and for like-minded thinkers. I see a middle-ground between atheism and belief in a diety according to the writings of man (the Bible). I just have a hard time believing these things are true so I find myself asking for guidance from the silent one.

This is autobiographical and it is hard to find a place where my questions can live. I don't even know if I have what someone would call beliefs. Because I don't know what to believe. So I just exist with a sense of my spiritual side and needs and wonder about it all...

I just think there is something inside of us that is pushing us to explore and join with something that is not visible in the physical sense. So something is there but what?

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Lady_E 6 years ago from London, UK

A Lovely Poem - As your heart seeks Him, you will definitely find Him. May He be ever present in your life... performing wonders.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Lady_E - thank you for the comment. I hope it's all going to be good....

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arthurchappell 6 years ago from Manchester, England

excellent thought provoking look at religious sensibilities

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Arthur - thank you for taking the time to comment and to follow me. I appreciate your praise. I hope to provide some illumination on the problem of absolutism being interjected into matters of faith.

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arthurchappell 6 years ago from Manchester, England

Too many take having faith as living as if God was a fact - I was shocked to discover atheism when I was about 10-11 as my parents treated the existence of God as real as the existence of the greengrocers and school. There are no moral absolutes and basing them on 'because scripture says so' is extremely dangerous. You're doing a great job.

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The Suburban Poet 6 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@arthur - I think I was just as shocked when I found out about atheism. My parents are probably what you would call theist or deists as they believe in some being out there but they don't necessarily pray to it. If they were atheists I would have heard it from them by now.

Saying "such and such is right because the bible tells me so" is just circular reasoning. There is no other source... not everything in the Bible is to be rejected but clearly to me anyway not everything can be followed in this day and age. There is too much in the way of a la carte moralism with certainty liberally applied. Anyway it's too confusing for me...

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Joshua Kell 5 years ago from Arizona

Powerful. I believe that God can be found more quickly within, than without... Take care, thanks.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Joshua - thank you. You're probably right on that one....

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Lady Guinevere 5 years ago from West By God

Yes. God and all his kingdom are within you and you are the creator of your world. Without you there wouldn't be anything else in your world and you would not exist in anyone else's world. Great poem with a great message. Voted up.

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