Poetry, A bitter pill to swallow

She had a childlike faith so powerful and unwavering

A bitter pill I swallowed today

When God called

and took my sister Eva away

She died peacefully with her daughter Lea by her side

The drugs given for pain eased her gently

Embarking for her heavenly ride

A few weeks ago

She told me

I am so ready to go

You see her beloved husband Lyle had passed away

The thought of living without him

Brought only pain and dismay

She assured me he'd be waiting by the heavenly golden gate

With arms outstreached, nestling in his arms again

Would be so great

A childlike faith so powerful and an unwavering stance

She believed with all her heart she would live again in a place called heaven

Where there would be no pain, no sorrow, only joy and a renewed loving romance.


The picturesque scene is cause enough for rejoicing. My tears are not for her, they're for me. I miss her already and it's only been one day.

God bless you Eva. I love you..























Eva's favorite Movie.

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Oscarlites 2 years ago from Alabama

The expressions, the emotions, are all necessary. I feel with you the loss of your sister. I pray you find the reasons that are meant to be, both for her parting, and for the future..


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marcoujor 2 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Sweet Ruby,

I am sending you hugs and strength across the miles. You have written a heartfelt and honorable tribute to your dear sister.

Love you so much and please be gentle with yourself, mar


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mylindaelliott 2 years ago from Louisiana

That's such a sweet poem. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.


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mckbirdbks 2 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Oh Ruby - The biggest bear hug is coming your way from California. Sounds like she had made her peace with this life and was prepared for the next one. A lot of mighty fine people are waiting to meet up with her again. Your words do her proud.


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Happyboomernurse 2 years ago from South Carolina

Dear Ruby,

What a bittersweet poem and a beautiful tribute to your sister, Eva.

The depth of your love for her, and also the pain of her loss comes shining through.

And you spoke what I consider the deepest truth about grief in this line:

"The picturesque scene is cause enough for rejoicing. My tears are not for her, they're for me."

When our loved ones pass on, they are finally at peace but our own pain is just beginning.

So sorry to hear of your loss.

Sending Love & Blessings to You & Your Family,

Gail


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Jodah 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

That is certainly a bitter pill, Ruby, but a beautiful poetic tribute to your sister. My prayers for you and her daughter. Thank you for sharing.


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Kathleen Odenthal 2 years ago from Bayonne, New Jersey

this was spectacular and moving. bravo.


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old albion 2 years ago from Lancashire. England.

Hi Ruby. Be strong and positive in your loss. Easily said I know. Whatever happens do let the tears flow. It's all part of the grieving process but of course you already know that. My thoughts are with you.

Graham.


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MartieCoetser 2 years ago from South Africa

Dearest Ruby, faith like Eva's is so precious. She has passed away not only peacefully, but happy. My deepest condolences to you and all her beloveds who have to live on, missing her. Lots of hugs to you.


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bravewarrior 2 years ago from Central Florida

Ruby, I'm so sorry to hear you've lost your sister. As she said, she's where she wants to be. Time will heal, but allow yourself to grieve whenever it strikes. God bless you.


Vickiw 2 years ago

Dear Ruby,

I am so sorry for your loss. I feel the pain in your brave writing, and I am grateful that writing allows you to express it and work with it. Grief recovery is work. As Boomer says, "our own pain is just beginning."

All my best thoughts and prayers to you, dear friend. Be kind to yourself.

Love and hugs to you.


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The Examiner-1 2 years ago

Touching Ruby, just touching. I admired the words and adored the pictures. I voted it up, shared it and pinned it.

Kevin


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billybuc 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

Awww, Ruby, I am so sorry. I have no words to make it better. I can only send a warm hug of friendship for a dear friend. Peace be with you my dear.


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starme77 2 years ago

You are very insperational :) I send my deepest sympothy for your loss. Stay strong and know your sister is now your angel watching over you from above :)


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ImKarn23 2 years ago

Ruby, dear Ruby...

i am so sorry for your loss, and so touched by your sisters grace and courage.

Tight cyber-hug from canada, my friendxx


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Cardisa 2 years ago from Jamaica

I'm so sorry for your loss Ruby. I know how painful it is to lose a loved one. I hope her faith has brought you some comfort, know she is at peace.


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manatita44 2 years ago from london

Dear Ones are so meaningful to us! It is indeed a bitter bill to swallow.

I am happy that she was happy in the thought of meeting her husband and of going to a joyful abode.

My deepest empathy and condolences, my loving Friend Ruby.


femmeflashpoint 2 years ago

Ruby,

Your poem is beautiful reflection and testament of your love for Eva, as well as her love for Lyle and their wonderful marriage.

While I'm sure there will be loads of smiles and well wishes from loved ones greeting Eva on her arrival, I trust that there will be angels here in the rivers' land that are both rejoicing over her home-going as well as surrounding you with love and support in her absence here.

Your family is in my prayers,

femmeflashpoint


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epigramman 2 years ago

Hello my dear sweet Ruby (of Ruby, my dear fame by Thelonious Monk) it's Colin and his cats Tiffy and Gabe man - I am so sorry for your loss and we are here to say that we love you very much and will send to you a nice card online and a video from George Jones. Sunday Canada time 3:49pm


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BlossomSB 2 years ago from Victoria, Australia

I'm so sorry to read of your loss. Thank you for sharing your pain - and also joy that they will again be together in heaven.


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Shyron E Shenko 2 years ago

Dear Ruby, I ache for you, for your loss of someone so close. I know that you are strong and you need to be for the ones left behind.

I sent you and e-mail, I hope you don't mind. Someone gave it to me when my mom died. It made me cry but at same time eased the pain. I hope it eases yours.

Bless you and your family

Shyron


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tobusiness 2 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Ruby, accept my condolences, I'm so sorry for your loss. There is much sadness in your words, but what really touched me, was the love you both shared.

I like to think that her love was waiting to take her home.

My best to you and your family.


Rozalyn Winters 2 years ago

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your poem is a testament to your love for your sister and her memory lives on through your words.


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ahorseback 2 years ago

Ruby , I am so sorry !, Ruby she sounds just so awesome , this sister of yours ! I often wish that I had an unwavering faith like hers , And I say she" sounds" awesome in the present sense because we have to believe that she is there now , still there beside you too . No one can ease the awful hours of waiting though and my heart goes out to both of you . Now though , is for healing , And remembering too . How often though I sit at times in the cemetery of my family and think of olden times . We are supposed to measure our time there carefully and yet ,there is nothing wrong in remembering the past , I say . Be well my beautiful friend ........Ed


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PegCole17 2 years ago from Dallas, Texas

Dearest Ruby, That certainly is a bitter pill to swallow. Nothing I can say will make the pain go away, but I long to give you a big hug and tell you I'm so sorry for your loss. You're right. She is in a better place and it is those who remain here who will grieve her loss. Lots of love from Texas.

Peg


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Elizabeth Bowers 2 years ago from Tennessee

I am so sorry for your loss. Beautiful poem.


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Pamela99 2 years ago from United States

Ruby, I too am so sorry for your loss, and the tears are always for us as we miss them so. I know of no words to ease the pain, but I am glad she had such a strong faith as she did not fear. Maybe that is something to hang onto. Your poem for your sister was beautiful. Lot of love and my thoughts will be with you.


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Harishprasad 2 years ago from India

Our loved ones are like our own body and soul ! Ruby, I pray to God to rest the departed souls in peace. This poem is soul-stirring and a great tribute to the beloved sister and her kid. All peace, my friend !


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

God bless you all. I will be back to address each comment.


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epbooks 2 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

I am so very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful poem!


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Gypsy Rose Lee 2 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and beautiful. So sorry for your loss but yes, Eva has gone to a better place and I'm sure her hubby was waiting for her. They are now happy together again. She will ever be beside you and loving you. Smiling upon you from above and always in your heart and memory. God bless.


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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

sorry about your loss.. words.. in poetry motion .. and yes tears are for the living.. god bless her soul and your family


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Instead of writing a comment to each one, i will tell you about my sister Eva. She was paralized from an accident around thirty years ago. She was wheelchair bound. She painted beautiful pictures. When Lyle died she lost her zest for painting and really living. She was a firm believer in God and heaven and wanted to go to be with him. Her funeral was yesterday. It was a sad day for all the family but i knew this is what she prayed for. The service was nice, beautiful flowers. She had requested no viewing, so the casket was not open, but her daughter Lea had two pictures of her on the casket. Eva was always the beauty in the family of seven girls and five boys. The picture that made me smile was her in a pair of white shorts, tight fitting tee top, long black hair pulled back and tied with a ribbon, a million dollar smile, beautiful long legs, she was tall while all of us were shorties. That's the way i will remember her. Thank you all so very much for all of your comforting words. I feel like you all are my second family and i cherish each one. Cyberhugs my friends.


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ahorseback 2 years ago

Hey Ruby , Eva is right where she wanted to be . I often think of that each time I attend a funeral or service , My dad died three years after my mom and each day between he would say , "I wish I was with her " . I never found the words to respond to that statement , but I always knew the day would come . And it will come for each of us . Eva sounds like she IS an awesome soul ! Sounds like that runs in the family ....Ed


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Ed. I do believe that too. The best part, she is out of pain. She was paralized but still suffered nerve pain most of the time. Thank you for coming back and for your comforting words....


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

I want to thank all of you who sent cards, emails, and videos, they were beautiful and i will forever be grateful for your kindness.


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Nell Rose 2 years ago from England

Oh Ruby I am so sorry, I didn't know. This is a beautiful poem, and I am sure Eva would love every word, take care, and I will be thinking of you, hugs nell


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Nell. Eva had been sick for quite a while. She was in constant pain and really wanted to die. I will miss her but happy she's not suffering anymore. Thank you for coming to read..Cheers my friend.


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Genna East 2 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Oh, dear Ruby…I am so sorry for your loss. I remember how you wrote about your beloved sister, Eva, a very talented artist who painted beautiful pictures. I also loved , “The Bridges of Madison County.” Eva is where she now wants to be…with her beloved Lyle. Yet her loving and unique spirit will be with you always. Your words are a moving tribute to this very special lady. I am sending prayers and warm hugs.


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Astra Nomik 2 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

Ruby, I don't know what it is like to lose a sister. Your words are a wonderful tribute to her, and she sounds like an incredible person. I am sorry for your loss, and I know it must be heavy on your heart. My blessings, prayers and wishes to you and your family, and for you sister Eva and for Lyle.

Creative talent is so strong in your amazing family, Ruby. I am sending you warm hugs so much today.

Cathy


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Thank you dear Genna. Your words bring comfort. My only way of getting through this, is to remember her as she was before the accident. I remember when i was a little girl i would stay with her for days at her little home. She would bake beautiful cakes, it was like a party to visit her. Thank you for the prayers and warm hugs...


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Thank you dear Cathy. Losing a sister is like losing a part of you, in that, i mean the memories. I have never been in this world without her being in it. She has a daughter, Lea who will partially fill the void. Thank you again for words of comfort. They mean a lot to me....


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MsDora 2 years ago from The Caribbean

Please find comfort in the sweet memories you shared with your dear sister; and in the fact the she died with the hope of a better life. She would have loved your tribute to her "childlike faith so powerful and an unwavering stance." I do too.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Thank you Ms Dora. So nice to see you. Happy you enjoyed my poetry.


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nighthag 2 years ago from Australia

a beautiful poem and a loving tribute full of hope for her dream of an afterlife, i can only imagine the depths of which this came from such a loving heart as yours.

I am so sorry to hear of your loss and I send you the warmest of hugs during this time


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello nighthag. Your words are comforting to my soul. Thank you so much for the warm hugs..


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Denise Handlon 2 years ago from North Carolina

What a beautiful poem and musical tribute, Ruby. I wish I were there to hold your hand, give you a hug and sit with a cup of tea. You could tell me stories of you and your sister growing up...and show me photos of her and the two of you together.

My heart aches for your loss! I cannot imagine how life will be when I or my sister passes...there are just the two of us as sisters in the middle of a bunch of brothers. We have a special bond.

Thoughts and prayers to you, my lovely Ruby. Take heart.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Thank you Denise. I do have fond memories of Eva, she was older and we didn'y play , but i loved to visit her in her home when i was a child. She made a fun time out of everything. I miss knowing she is not in this world anymore. Thank's again for a lovely comment...


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ubanichijioke 2 years ago from Lagos

A beautiful but sad poem. I am happy that even in this hard times, you found a reason to smile. take good care.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Thandy. I was so glad her daughter had placed a picture of her when she was young and beautiful. It made losing her easier. Thank you dear friend...


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Torrs13 2 years ago from California

Absolutely beautiful. It can be really hard to let go of the people we love most, even though we know their passing will relieve their pain. I almost feel selfish for wanting them to stick around longer just so I could get one more hug or have one more conversation with them. My great grandmother passed away in 2007 and we all knew it was time for her to go, but I couldn't grasp it in my mind. I did my best to get there before she passed but I was one day too late. It was a dreadful time but I know she is in a much better place now with my great grandpa and I hope to see them again one day.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Thank you Torrs. Losing a sister is so hard, yet when they're in constant pain you feel a sense of relief. There are still days when i am depressed. I know time heals. I'm glad you believe in an afterlife. I do too. Cheers my friend..


Memuna Umber 2 years ago

I sorry you had to lose your sister. you poem speaks volumes of your love and your sister's faith and courage. She must be smiling in heaven after reading this.

This was heartfelt and beautiful.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

thank you Memuna Umber. I love your comment, thinking she is smiling after reading this makes me happy.


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AudreyHowitt 2 years ago from California

Hugs to you Ruby!! Many hugs!


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

Sending more hugs to you, my friend. Tears are always for us, but they are also so very cleansing at times. And they help the hurt to heal.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Audrey. Thank you for the many hugs my dear sweet poet.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello shanmarie. Thank you for more hugs. Tears dry up but the memories linger and i'm so glad. Bless you!


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ahorseback 2 years ago

Ruby , I don't know a more longing loss than a truly loved sibling ! Our hearts are with you sweet lady !.......Ed


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Bless you Ed for coming back. Thank you kind friend.


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btrbell 2 years ago from Mesa, AZ

So very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine. You worded this so eloquently.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello btrbell. So nice to see you. Thank you so much for coming by and leaving a heartfelt comment.


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pstraubie48 22 months ago from sunny Florida

So sorry to hear of your loss. And I do understand the tears of missing a love one. When someone I love dies, I am usually happy for them if they were in extreme pain and so sick life was no longer a joy. but I miss them terribly so tears do come from time to time.

Angels are on the way to you ps


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always exploring 22 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Pstraubie. Eva was in a lot of pain and I'm glad she's now pain free. I still miss her. Thank you for kind words...

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    I am a writer of poetry and fiction. I especially love flash fiction. My name is Ruby, and I live in Southern Illinois. I am a retired R.N.



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