Poetry From a Past Life - Part 3

Behind the Lyrics

For some reason, I remember so very clearly penning these lyrics. The long of the story is too long to tell here, but the short is simple. Music had become an addiction in my life. It was, without a doubt, my god. I loved performing live. The recording studio was a different matter. And the traveling, well . . . .


Same Old Lang Syne - Dan Fogelberg

Leader of the Band - Dan Fogelberg

Dan Fogelberg shares my sentiments in his 1981 holiday classic, Same Old Lang Syne. He mentions the torture of life on the road in the sixth verse of this eight verse song.

On the same album, The Innocent Age, he portrays the stuffiness of hotel living in another of his classic songs, Leader of the Band. Strangely, he glorifies life on the road in another verse of the song.

As I was drawn to include these two videos, I noticed similarities between Fogelberg's writing and my ideas. I began to think that maybe I was unconsciously influenced by his songs. But then I realized, A Five O'clock Morning was written five years before Mr. Fogelberg wrote his. Maybe I influenced him? - I don't think so.


The band and I were traveling back from a show in Stroudsburg PA. As the time approached 5:00 a.m. I began to realize how empty I really was. Exhausted from a night of playing and now, another long trip, only to do it all again was quite wearing. My god (music) left me high and dry. The meaning of and to life still eluded me. But I knew what I had wasn't the answer. It was just Another Five O'clock Morning.

A Five O'clock Morning


It's a five o'clock morning -

Traveling down the road.

Thinking 'bout my touring,

And I'm tired, Lord knows.




Yesterday she wrote me.

Said won't you please come home.

I said I wish I could now,

but you're better off alone.



Party after party

Run together as one.

What I've come to call misery

Others see as fun.



Lights can only carry

A person just so far.

The rest is on his shoulders

To face the judgment bar.




The purpose has been shrouded,

If it exists at all.

It's not what's been touted,

Nor is it a call.


I've come to see the difference.

Glitter isn't gold.

Just a loss of innocence

That took my very soul.


Another five o'clock morning . . .

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lambservant 7 weeks ago from Pacific Northwest

Beautifully sad and lonely. I'm glad you found Christ.


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lifegate 7 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

Me too, Lori.


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billybuc 7 weeks ago from Olympia, WA

Fogelberg was one of my all-time favorite musicians.....interesting parallels...thank you for sharing it all with us, Bill.


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always exploring 7 weeks ago from Southern Illinois

I love your poetry. I thought of the lyric, All That Glitters Is Not Gold. There was a time when I had to come to grips with that too. Thanks for sharing with us...


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lifegate 7 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

I always liked Dan Fogelberg, too, Bill.It was a softer sound, but his lyrics were deep and emotional. Thanks for taking time out of your busy schedule to stop by for a visit.


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lifegate 7 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

Always glad to see you, Ruby. Thanks for stopping by.


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MsDora 7 weeks ago from The Caribbean

Good that you recognized what was not your call; even better that you had the courage to change directions. The experience is now a part of your testimony!


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lifegate 7 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

Hi Dora,

It's hard for me to remember what it was like before Christ. I guess that's a good thing. I just know the difference He makes in my life now. thanks for faithfully stopping by.


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Faith Reaper 6 weeks ago from southern USA

Bill, I'm thrilled you are sharing your poetry here of your past life. I'm glad you knew that life was not for you and you found Christ. He is our strength and our refuge.

You certainly have a gift for writing poetry. Your sharing of your past life through your poetry sheds a whole new light on your life, which is important to share and to get to understand who you are today.

Excellent!


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lifegate 6 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

My life has totally changed, Faith. And I might add, for the better. God has been so good. I never want to go back to the misery of a wasted life. Glad you were able to stop by!


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Tamarajo 6 weeks ago from Southern Minnesota

Hi Bill, interesting that at that time you were able to recognize your misery and realized some form of accountability in facing a sort of "judgement bar" whether at that time it was the perceived expectations of those you were trying to impress or God Himself you knew it wasn't enough.

It amazes me how when we lived in such a shallow life we really were still deep in thought.

On a lighter note. Glad that now when it's 5 o'clock in the morning it's because I went to bed at a decent time and I'm ready to get up : )

God bless!


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lifegate 6 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

Not that I always practice it, Tammy, but 5:00 a.m.makes an excellent time for prayer. Glad you wee able to stop by.


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lawrence01 4 weeks ago from Hamilton, New Zealand

Bill

Thank you for that 'Little peek' into this side of your journey.

Lawrence


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lifegate 3 weeks ago from Pleasant Gap, PA Author

You're quite welcome, Lawrence!

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