"Poetry of the Past" Part 1

 A Collection of Old Poems I wrote awhile back.

Mar 11, 2010

"Sideline"

You take for granted what you have,
Something I wish I did,
His Love,
So hard to get.
And You threw it away like it was nothing,
Something I would never do.
You don't deserve him,
He deserves better than you.
Its hard to love someone on the sidelines,
and watch him fall apart.
I wish there was some way to make him see,
How can I win his heart?

Jun 7, 2010

"Gamble"

I've checked out
and I’ve cashed in.
I’m done placing bets,
on something I cant win.

Well played my love,
I didn’t expect a thing.
I gambled my love away,
while dangling on your string.

So before I get
too deep in the hole,
I’m taking back
the heart you stole.

The Queen of Hearts
The Queen of Hearts | Source

Mar 10, 2010

"Perhaps"

Theres something in the way you smile,
Something in the way you talk.
I fall for you,
leaving my body in an outline of chalk.
But I cant shake this feeling,
It'll be the death of me.
However long it takes,
you will never see.
Perhaps I'm just crazy,
but there's something beautiful about it, almost tragic.
No matter how much you push away,
I'm pulled right back to you like a magnet.
I know you're no good for me.
I know you don't care.
You want nothing to do with me,
in the end, you won't be there.
Perhaps you never were,
just a figment of my imagination.
The time we spent together,
no more than an infatuation.
Where did it all go wrong?
When did it all fall apart?
And what do I do now,
now that you've broken my heart?
I know that it was real
because I feel the pain I embrace
And I see that blank expression,
Its written all over your face.
Perhaps I never will understand you,
but know that I will always love.
Even if I waste away my time,
knowing there will never be an "us".

Source

Feb 23, 2010

"My Fight"

I will always choose what's wrong for me,
and one day hope its right.
I just wish you could see
that this is my fight.
Dont pretend to know me,
by only what you see.
I only show you what I want to,
You'll never know the real me.
And as easily as you can leave,
abandon me where I stand,
Is why you can never earn that place,
why you will never understand.
This is who I am,
whether I know who that is or not.
This is who I'll always be,
I've earned my spot.
I've taken my beatings,
and I've earned my scars.
Sorry if I no longer know what I want,
not even by far.
Your world consumes me,
and I'm falling ever deep.
I don't even know why,
but for you, yes, I weep.
I wept tears of solitude
for again I let it go.
Something that could have been good,
but I'll never know.
I will always choose what's wrong for me,
and one day hope he's right.
I just wish you could see,
that this is my fight.

Footprints
Footprints | Source
Source

Feb 22, 2010

"Footprints"

My personification is altered.
I dont know who I am.
All this time I thought different,
is now footprints in the sand,
buried and forgotten,
lost and never found.
The answers never given,
the questions still astound.

Whether I follow my heart or my head,
I still end up here.
The same circumstance abounding,
no matter which way I steer.
Every choice that I make is the wrong one.
I'm just awaiting my next mistake,
awaiting my next disaster
to take place.

I follow the footprints without comprehension,
as if its meant to be,
running around in circles,
the footprints must belong to me.
Who else could they be for?
There's no one else around.
Just me and these footprints
that I have found.

All poems are © Copyright NMJ 2011
All Photos are from photobucket.com


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

One retraces their footprints in hopeful resolution.;)


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

Wow, so many great and marvelous poems, Nikki. I love them all. The line "I'll always choose what's wrong for me..." so many ways I can relate to that from long time back. These are great poems. You are very talented. The "Footprints" poem is clever too. :D


Johnny Love 5 years ago

All beautiful, but,"my fight", i love it. it feels strange reading who you were in a time once forgotten. Nicely put together. Pictures paint your image well. Thank you.


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

yes acer, but these footprints are best left in the past. i wanted to show you guys these poems, because they were written from a hard time, and im very happy with them. i have them all on my myspace blog but i dont get on myspace much anymore so i decided id put them on hubpages, you guys give me way more feedback. thank you astra, i always look forward to your comments, and jlove, these are times, not forgotten, just memories now. and i can read these poems and remember exactly how i felt when i wrote them, and exactly what they are about. and who. more to come. i have lots lol.


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Bumpsysmum 5 years ago from Cambridgeshire

What a great collection Nikkij504gurl, we've been deprived if you've kept these back!! :-)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

thanks bumpsy. i will be sharing more :)


Fay Paxton 5 years ago

Nikki, you are an amazing talent. You also manage to pick the perfect photo to accompany your excellent poetry.

up/beautiful


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

thank you so much fay! that means a lot. yes i am very picky as to what photo I use with my poetry. I usually have what I want in mind.


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

I'll be simple (for once). I love your writing Nikki...

Cathy mentioned you as one of her favorite writers in her interview by Cassy - I wholeheartedly agree!

You are most incredible to the nth of all degree...


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

wow really?? im going to have to read that. thats kewl shit lol. thanks bb. you are too kind.


MrDSpade2 5 years ago

Wow, how skillfull of you, especially dropping words like personification, lol, you blew my mind, well done.


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

lol thanks mrD.


Marina Lester 5 years ago

Hello Nikki! For all your wonderful support I had to drop by and see for myself what you can do, my favorite was "Gamble" it flows and pops with rhythm that feels very organic and natural, easily and unforced. Love is the greatest gamble because the stakes don't get higher. I've written my own love gamble theme poems, lost the one I wrote in high school but I wrote one a while back now that made it onto hubs if your ever curious, I gave it the simple title of "Game of Love", not that you haven't honored me enough already! :D Thank you!

My next fav would be "My Fight" I love how weakness and strength are tangled together as often is the case in the real world. From reading this I gather as artists we are similar in that it is purely about just spitting it out, raw and honest. Thanks for the read, I believe you are a very strong and intelligent girl full of passion earning you all your color and "scars". I'm wishing the best for you and I'll be back for more in the near future :) Thank you so much :D


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

now you honor me marina, thanx so much, i will definitely look for your "Game of Love" hub. you can never honor someone too much lol at least not on hubpages. thanx for stopping by, these poems were written a long time ago, but im glad you liked them. I am in a much different place now. and thanx so much for thinking that of me :)


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California

My Fight was just amazing Nikki! I felt the beating heart in a slow rhythmic motion. It pumped as if it was fighting for its right to stand and show that know one made or break it!! "Gamble" Was my second fav. thanks for your talent sunshine!!

smile :)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

thanks for reading!


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota

Nikki-Wow, I am so glad to be your follower. Poetry is really important to me and to find someone as talented as you, will make me a better poet. I like how you so openly share your heart and emotional journey's with us. Thanks and I can't wait to read more:)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

that means a lot Twin. i liked your poetry as well. I only read a few but I cant wait to read what else you come up with. you have yourself a follower as well. thanx


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

What a talented lady you are! Loved them, especially the first one--


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Nikkij504gurl 4 years ago from Louisiana Author

Thanks Audrey! These are all pretty much about the same person. an unrequited love of my life.

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