Prologue To Existence

I hate the way you make me feel

but being with you gives me a thrill.

You mess with my head like eating a pill

there's a hole in my heart you'll never fill.

I can't figure out why I even try!

I know the whole time you're telling me lies!

My feelings with you I refuse to confide.

Countless nights over you I have cried.

Why do you put me through this?

You tell me you love me, then I don't exist!

Now I'm writing these words clenching my fists

hoping this time maybe I will be missed.

When I think of you it's full of lies.

Thinking must be love's demise.

I look up at the clear blue sky

and get so disgusted I could cut out my eyes.

You wrap your arms around me at night

when we are only in each other's site.

I'm fed up, I don't want to fight!

You should know what you do isn't right!

What will it take to straighten my mind?

What will I see, what can I find?

For taking this shit I must be blind.

Even though you send chills up and down my spine.

What can get me out of this fix?

I want you so bad it makes me sick!

You're always up to the same old tricks

and I just love being caught in the mix.

You mess with my thoughts, you mess with my head,

maybe we'd both be better off dead.

So take this gun from my hand

and send us both to the promised land.

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tantrum 7 years ago from Tropic of Capricorn

I liked the poem, but for the last part LOL

Why Go to the promised land with that guy ?

you better stay here. I'm sure there are a lot of cool guys around you ! Lol


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BeccaHubbardWoods 7 years ago from Outside your window... Author

I think I just wanted to kill him. That was the most confusing relationship I've ever had. I loved him, I hated him, I wanted him, I wanted to kill him. A perfect contradiction. : )


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ek ellis 7 years ago

Don't we all feel like that at one time or another, the "thin line between love and hate", syndrome. I enjoyed your poem and can relate :)


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BeccaHubbardWoods 7 years ago from Outside your window... Author

Thank you ek. : ) I'm glad you enjoyed it.


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Ben Zoltak 7 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

Dang girl! You're dark! I love it! Nothing and I mean nothing gives me catharsis like poetry! Slam another one on here sometime!


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BeccaHubbardWoods 7 years ago from Outside your window... Author

Thanks for the comment Ben. I have been told I'm dark from time to time (lmao!). It's true.


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Ben Zoltak 7 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

LOL.

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    I am a mother, a metal head, a goth girl, and lover of all darkness. I'm also a writer, a cake decorator, and a general weirdo. FUN!


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