Prose - Takin' The High Road

They say the view’s nice
But I can’t do it
I can't breath up there
It’s where forgiveness
And holiness
Sit and stare
Wondering about me
And why I won’t climb
To the top of the mountain
To find God’s word
To understand
And drink from the fountain
I’d rather stay
In low places
Because it’s hard
To rise up
To turn the other cheek
When I’ve been scarred
I want them to know
How wrong they were
And how they made me feel
I’d rather sit on the ground
And feel sorry for myself
But I won’t kneel
It’s the truth
I can’t do
What God commands
I’m so weak
And selfish
I have dirty hands
Is takin’ the high road
Some kind of myth
Or a state of mind?
How can I walk
On holy ground
When I’ve been so unkind?
I want to forgive
I want to understand
But do you know how?
Is there an emotion
Of forgetting
They broke an impossible vow?
The ways of enlightenment
Written in all the books
Are a mystery to me
I know what they say
And try to understand
But I fail miserably
So I continue to crawl
In search of truth
And hope for a better way
I too sit and stare
Wondering about God
And say to myself, “Someday... someday”

All Rights Reserved. Copyright 2011. The Suburban Poet


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

I like and understand this poem. I have been in that very place many times, just soaking in misery, pain and rejection. Oh but I remember the moment I realized the ones who hurt me didn't care that I was damaged and God did. Once I understood His forgiveness I was able to forgive. It didn't matter whether they accepted it or even knew. I did and God did. One day-some day. I hope that day is today for everyone.

You wrote a lovely poem heartfelt without being hateful or emotionally sweet. A great job all around!

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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Awesome, thank you so much. My mind's in a puddle, always befuddled between truth and a muddle of shoulda, coulda and woulda.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Never feel unworthy. I try to see where I can improve but I know I have lot's to work on and it's not easy. I guess if you finger point you have to be willing to have it thrown back and I went ahead and did everyone a favor with this one and did it myself.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Hyphenbird - Thank you. True forgiveness may be a holy concept that is beyond our capabilities; part of the reason is because we humans have long memories. I think you can forgive someone but sometimes you still can't put the bubble back together after it has burst. It is one thing to forgive to the extent of not hurting someone and even helping them if needed but to have the same feeling of trust and love is VERY DIFFICULT.

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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Gotta love this last minute editing tool, thanks again.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

No problem. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

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Scarface1300 5 years ago

We all strive to be better and forgiveness is an honourable thing. But easier said than done....... Great Hub

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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Thank you so much for sharing this gem.

Take care


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Scarface1300 - It's true that we strive. Some are able to control their base desires while others struggle. This piece is somewhat of a confessional. I know how I can be.

@Eiddwen - Thank you! That is very kind of you to say. I'm happy with this one; it made me smile when I realized I could possibly express how I felt about myself in a way that was bit more poetic than just saying, "I am bad."

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Teylina 5 years ago

You already climbed the mountain w/your steps of humility. So well done; well said, my friend. Thanks for sharing.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Teylina - Thank you! Just trying to be honest about how I can be at times. I know better.

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