Prose - You Need to Tell Me Goodbye

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We can never touch again
Because there is no room for love
We try to pretend
But it’s something we cannot rise above

We tried to do it
We thought it was an adult situation
But we’re really just kids
We failed to understand emotion

I told you what I could offer
But you deserve so much more
You need a man who loves you
Waiting is not what you asked for

My shadow is cast upon other men
Who approach you with love in their eyes
You silently loom inside all my decisions
As other women wonder if I tell only lies

They want to know where I stand
And I give them the honest truth
It is no closer to love than I am with you
But with you I recapture my youth

We close the door and enter our world
We love each other madly
Poison our bodies
And then part sadly

You beg me to come back
Not understanding how I forget
You pleasure me as no other
And yet I act as if we never met

But I do not forget
I remember
All too well
In my tortured slumber

The vision of your eyes in my mind
With tears of unknowing
How can you give a man so much
And endure his coming and going?

I cannot explain
I cannot commit to you
I cannot commit to anyone
And yet you remain true

How can you believe in me?
How can you see the future
In a man who has no present
And a heart that is never sure?

As the organ beats the passion play
That only you can hear
I resist the urge
Your pain is my fear

Can you understand
That I hurt you today
So that I won’t hurt you tomorrow
It is uncertainty that lights my way

I keep turning pages
In a book that I cannot put away
The truth of our love hurts so much
But I rip out the pages that betray

I don’t want to read it
It’s about hurting a friend
I wrote your love story
But I don’t know how to write the end

Forgive my lack of courage
I need to tell you goodbye
I keep hoping you will do it first
That way I won’t have to tell you why

I'm looking at the last page
The one that won’t turn
It is your turn to write
Tell me if I should return

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asmaiftikhar 4 years ago from Pakistan

Maybe if i leave it blank...................beautifully knitted images with wort praising expressions.Thanks


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

. . . so much anguish . . .


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@asmaiftikhar - Thank you...

@Nellieanna - Yes there is....


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

So beautiful .....you are so talented...debbie


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acaetnna 4 years ago from Guildford

Oh wow, you are a talented poet. Awesome as always.


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pmccray 4 years ago from Utah

There is no good way to end love. Voted up, marked beautiful.


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raciniwa 4 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

you have clearly woven the tapestry of words here...Magical...


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Deborah - Thank you... I just write it how I feel it... I think it is only a matter of wanting to write and then taking the time to do it.

@acaetnna - Thank you again! I'm glad you're back and writing more for us...

@pmccray - That's true and it's especially hard when it has to end for reasons that have to do with being an adult even if you still love that person. That sounds vague but it's there...

@raciniwa - Thank you! I truly appreciate you saying that.


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

Wow, the struggle regarding fearing commitment is a problem many know. Good that you see how it can hurt the other person on the other end of this plight. Beautiful writing Suburban Poet.


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Minnetonka - Thank you. Yes this one is about a struggle and the inability to end something you need to end but can't.

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