Outside of Myself

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My Heart, Cracked and Stained.
My Heart, Cracked and Stained. | Source
Soul - White Tiger within Me.
Soul - White Tiger within Me. | Source
Protect and Defend
Protect and Defend | Source

1/3/13

Everything important to me exists outside of me, in their most vulnerable state.
My heart, cracked and stained, lives on my sleeve instead of in my chest where it was created to be. It sees and experiences everything. It gets dusty and grey then is washed clean by the rain. It breaths and is free and shows the wear that life often brings but it beats stronger than most, it offers selfless love, and it is artistic. Instead of hiding it or burying it, I am called to take up arms to protect and defend it. This path is harder and more rewarding than I could have ever imagined but the path was made for me and in turn has created me.

Everything important to me exists outside of me, in their most vulnerable state. My soul, strong willed and bright, the white tiger within me prefers to hide in the heart of a little girl. It embraces her and loves her and helps her grow her own soul. It swims freely within her telling her she is loved beyond measure and teaching her to love herself. I am called to take up arms to protect and defend her. I fight against societies poisons that try to entice young girls to feel insecure and sell themselves short. I fight against the popular ideas that teach us to chase things that can never deliver the happiness that is promised. I fight to guide her to be her own person and not follow the crowd. She is my greatest gift and my favorite path.

Everything important to me exists outside of me, in their most vulnerable state. My happiness, true and abundant, lives in the meaningful connections that I have made in my life. The stories, whether short or long, that taught me about the many levels of love, what love means, and what is possible thru love. Those stories, I carry with me. They are stories of love that will never fade tho I was not meant to keep those that were so loved. I gave to them and to me they gave. That which begins must end but the value and love remains. They are more valuable than any possession. Nothing tangible here has had more than a temporary, fleeting influence on happiness. I am called to take up arms to protect and defend it knowing that these things are the only things that really matter in ones life and should be the only real measure of success.

So many things exist outside of me, in their most vulnerable state. I am so grateful that they are outside of me because that changed them all from traits into legacies that will out live me. These paths are harder and more rewarding than I could have ever imagined but these paths were made for me and in turn have created me. So I am called to take up arms and defend them all and I will do so always with overwhelming gratitude to have had the chance to have known this life with nothing to regret.


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I am looking for a potential song to pair this with. Do you have any suggestions? I would love to read them in the comments and check them out...

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writinglover 3 years ago from Lost...In Poetry

Awesome! I think this is my favorite hub you've written so far! As for a song, how about "Will of the Heart?" It is a sweet instrumental piece that would fit perfectly with this hub. This little piece comes off from "Bleach" a favorite anime of mine. Look at part 20 of Dangerous Romance. I should have it there.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello Writinglover! I loved the song that you sent. I listened to it a couple of times. I can't wait to use it though it didn't evoke the emotion I was looking for with this hub. That is the beautiful thing about instrumental music, isn't it. Where one hears strength the other hears sadness. Awesome!


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Pearldiver 3 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

Nice work and carries a hearts true vulnerability throughout each stanza and yet almost denied at the end... I know hearts and how they try to mask pain, especially when strength for others is required and often called upon.. it takes a special skill to write of a heart with such accuracy, so I suspect that you are finding how great the boundaries of your heart are under a raft of different circumstances... sorry, I may be completely off base, but your words boast of a great depth of character, and in my intuitive self, I pick up on that!

Please excuse my directness, as a kiwi, that is how we are... Very impressed with the flow and pulse of this piece... but if you wish to put it to music... it merits only, its own, to be created and written along with a little remixing of this piece... What more can I say, other than thank you, for the opportunity to read and compliment an artist... take care.. PD


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello PearlDiver. It is rare that a comment would hit so close to home that it takes me a while to respond to it but you have done it. I must have read this 5 times before knowing what to say. You spent a day reading me and can see me clearly. As if it were not compliment enough, your comment showers me with more compliments. I appreciate you finding me, taking the time to read, and comment. Thank you!


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Pearldiver 3 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

You are most welcome as I've only told it as I see it, which is my nature. I am glad that someone has told you what perhaps you have needed to know, for some time. As a writer, it is really important to know where one stands in relation to one's efforts, I believe. I also write from the heart and that for some reason I can't comprehend, appears to be most unusual by international standards?? Surely that sincerity is a trait that most writers should aspire to??

Now you may understand the wee nudge I gave you before... So please, accept it, believe it and allow it to help you, if ever you feel a need to second guess yourself! I'm sure I did mention to you before... that I understand hearts that lie between words... especially their personalities and feelings :) You take care and once again.. thank you... PD


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Your nature is rare these days pearldiver and is much appreciated. Thankfully, I am not familiar with the international standards that would seek to limit you.

I understand and am grateful. Thank you.


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PHILLYDREAMER 3 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

Maybe it's because I've gained a bit of insider knowledge, but I see more and more of you in each poem I read. This one tells me the things that you value most. Your daughter and the connections you have to other people. It tells me you feel very vulnerable when it comes to your heart, so you protect it fiercely. Lastly the take up arms reference. I remember seeing you in camos on one of your pics. I have to assume you were or are still in the military.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Philly, you can see parts, that is cool. I put my heart out there deliberately so I am not sure vulnerability is the right word for it. I protect it because I put it out there. You are right. A lifetime ago, I was in the military. I did my one term and left.


Kazuya 24 months ago

Amy, Wayne and I have absolutely loved wanhticg you grow with your photography (and as a Mom of course) When I talk to anyone about your photos I always tell them that I've never seen anyone better, professional or otherwise. You just have a wonderful gift for seeing just the right picture at just the right time. We are so proud of you for how far you've come, just keep going girl, you can DO it all! Love you, Sandy


Anjii 24 months ago

This forum needed shkinag up and you've just done that. Great post!


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Moms-Secret 23 months ago from Central Florida Author

Kazuya - I am not Amy but thank you for reading the work.


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Moms-Secret 23 months ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you Anjii, I appreciate you reading and commenting.

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