Pulling Strings

CXXXVIII.

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Who pulls your strings?

Others or yourself?

It's a DIY question!

Worth answering oneself!



Burt Bacharach ~ Don't Make Me Over



If we would fly

We must first

Remove

Our lead-soled shoes.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



Thump the rind

And press it with

Your fingertips.

I think

I'm getting ripe.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Fellow Man


I feel akin to you,

One skin with you

And yet

Remote,

Separate light-years apart

As galaxies from one another,

Making up a Universe

Whose principle ingredient

Is space.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


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I've not found it yet.

Have you?

But we must be getting near.


Before, shadows overwhelmed.


Now horizons disappear

Which would interfere

With view.



______© Nellieanna H. Hay




The perfect reality

Needs be

Unaware of self.


Self-awareness is but

Shadow or reflection.


Antithesis of

That perfection

Casting it.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Dionne Warwick ~ Don't Make Me Over





It need not try,

It need not speak.

Its truth resounds.

It simply is, abides.

Now, it is my own.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Your presence

Delights my eyes,

Sparks my thought.

Signifies meaning,

Deep;

Though late,

Unknown.

(wonder how many over 200 hubs before the accolade is changed . . . )

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btrbell 3 years ago from Mesa, AZ

What a great collection! And I really liked the layout too! I don't know about hp but kudos to you on 201 hubs! Amazing!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you Randi. Racking up numbers is not a major motivation and whining even less so, but as I got close to the next century mark, I thought about this. ;-) So thank you for the generous kudos, especially for liking my collection & layout. Now I'm amply satisfied!


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LaThing 3 years ago from From a World Within, USA

Beautiful collection, and as always, thought provoking! Congrats on your 201 hubs, that's a milestone, And all beautiful ones :)

Hugs from here, my dear Nellieanna, and takes care......


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hi, Lizzy! Thank you! My dear readers' enjoyment is what matters! Each reader and each hub stand alone! I truly appreciate your lovely comment!


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

How wonderful to finally be in the phase where I have complete control over all my strings. When I was a child, they were all in the hands of my parents, teachers and other adults. The results of my efforts to hold them myself were disastrous. Then came the husband and the children, and later the entire community. Oh, I was such a formidable puppet for them, while I actually thought I was alive and pulling my own strings.

Since I've gained control over all my strings, I only allow some truly special people to play with them.... as long as they make me do things I enjoy....

Beautiful, thought-provoking collection, my dearest Nellieanna. As always :)

PS: I see in my crystal ball a surprise awaits you before the end of the weekend....


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Wayne Brown 3 years ago from Texas

Classic Nellie Anna! So much of what we should know and do in life is covered here in these verses that you have crafted. Glad to see you back up on the HP with your excellent work. ~WB


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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

So much truth in simple lines of poetry. There are so many messages in this...well done Nellieanna!


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Such lovely written words, in only the manner in which you can write ---masterfully!

I really love that first collection about pulling strings, as I do feel as though, I, at times, am being pulling into something, even in the area of writing, or maybe the word is manipulated (may be too strong of a word) into even maybe feeling as though I am being forced to respond to something even in the area of writing. Sometimes we must implement boundaries in our lives for our own health and self-preservation.

All of your collections here are oh so beautiful and full of wisdom.

Thank you for this blessing this morning. Excellent as always!

Voted up ++++ and sharing

Hugs and love your way, Faith Reaper


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martie, my dear - I like your observations. Seems we always 'knew' our own selves and were getting into being ourselves while the strings were being pulled, doesn't it? Looking back as far as I can remember, I see my heart, mind and soul 'in there', sometimes questioning if it's OK, sometimes floundering around, but always that same person. Sometimes that was the quandary, in fact! BEING me - - was there no escape? haha. Especially with folks to point out I needed to! For the most part, my teachers were more encouraging than not and my parents were somehow acceptant, but obviously, their acceptance was based on their view of who I was - right in ways and way-off in others. And me, knowing who was 'in here' but not too sure it was acceptable. All very confusing at times. I was always surprised when my results and/or when someone else really got me right. I think maybe that getting ahold of my own strings was when I realized it didn't matter if 'they' got it or not and when I could look at any of my results and find the value in them because of their authenticity. At the same time, it became simple enough to check myself to see if they were or if I was still trying to please, fit in, be approved or whatever prompts us to let others pull our strings.

You've pointed out a really important part of it, Martie. We CAN ALLOW others to play with our strings (if there area any of the original kind remaining!), but it's in a fully aware, alert and reasonable manner - when we either trust the others or know they've no real effect or control. Sometimes it is an ability to surrender & willingly lose ourselves in a measure to someone else - (not something that may happen a lot!!) Other times it's just a bit of wise 'street smarts'. We know it's foolish & unnecessary to go around bucking heads with or ignoring everyone; - which, if done, probably demonstrates more fear of and respect for them than confidence in ourselves. We truly can be cooperative & supportive of others without losing ourselves in the process, because we're simply 'in here'.

Aha - so the crystal ball is blinking my direction? wow! I can hardly wait to see what!! hehehe.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Wayne -- Nice comment. It fits the subject to be 'classic' oneself! :-) Thank you! I've been around all along, maybe just not as active -- but here. Thank you for noticing my activity! I've such admiration for your work, so I really do appreciate it!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Billy - good to see you! Thank you for your comments!Simplicity has great value. I sometimes wish I were as good at it in prose as I seem to be in poetry! Maybe motivation is different. I'm never trying to explain or convince in poetry - just to express and trust the reader to see whatever comes to him or her. Usually prose is to explain and show the reasonableness or value in whatever is being written. Otherwise - I'd just scribble out a poem! haha Then I see that the message is pretty clear in the simple lines. But I doubt if the tax authorities or insurance claims folks would 'see' it in a few poetic lines, so we must operate in various circumstances. :-)

You always bring me food for thought!


lovedoctor926 3 years ago

"If we would fly

We must first

Remove

Our lead-soled shoes."

This is so awesome! I don't know if I'm on the right track, but this poem reminds me of parents cutting off the umbilical cord and letting their children spread their wings, which by the way many parents have a hard time doing. Who pulls your strings? Interesting and thought-provoking. My interpretation of Fellow man is that even though you're connected by blood, space keeps you apart. Lovely collection of poetry.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Faith - I love addressing you as Faith. I had a dear friend many years ago by that name. One of the best people I've ever known. I was in my mid-30s as was she, maybe a year or two older, but even as a very young girl, her school mates had called her 'Ma' because she was so wise. nurturing & nonjudgmental. She exemplified HER deep faith exactly. She didn't need to remind anyone of it.

Yes - it's easy to feel a kind of pressure to write in a certain way, use certain words, or whatever. We all went through school where the teachers taught 'how to' do things in a more or less standard way. At the same time, that helped us recognize what was truly our own style and way of doing it, and often in the years in which we were the most gullible and unsure what our own style really might be! As I mentioned in that first little stanza here, it's a DIY project - finding oneself. There's really no one else qualified to know oneself. Often it seems not many who care to one way or another! haha.

Manipulation is the appropriate word for most of the influence/control that's routinely applied. We almost unconsciously do it to each other! Parents MUST do it in so many areas, as teachers must. All selling is based on it.

Even caring for someone can slip into being somewhat manipulative - without meaning to, directly, though in ways we all sort of want to have a desired effect on someone we love, and it's not always desired by the other person, though part of it is to influence him/her to think it is! :-)

But it is more or less rare and is truly unselfish to be willing and able to let the person 'be' and express what he/she really feels/ wants/needs, even when it's not exactly what we'd have preferred.

So we can or should be able to understand how we sometimes are in the position of being manipulated too. That's a major reason why it is so totally a do-it-yourself project to know oneself and maintain one's authenticity. We can develop a kind of 'filter' to test things for whether they're really what we are or choose or whether we're just trying to please even if it means giving up little bits of oneself. I've written many poems touching on that, especially during a time when it was deliberately being required of me to give myself up. I learned it doesn't mitigate itself - and if deliberate, it increases to a point of absurdity.

So, yes - we must always implement our boundaries; our health and self-preservation are vitally in the balance. We may also choose to be flexible, of course, but when we do, we must be aware that it's our choice, for our reasons.

Otherwise, we can allow ourselves to be minimized or even literally invalidated if we do allow ourselves to be, and even if it's not done maliciously. The longer one waits to discover that & to gracefully KNOW oneself & set one's true boundaries, the more effective and workable. It need never be harshly defended. It's not controversial or competitive. In fact, being harsh or defensive tends to weaken one's obvious assurance, resolve and truth of self.

So - the only one needing convincing is oneself. When one is truly convinced, it's almost unnecessary ever to make any issue of it. It's not trying to be better than others or to reject their standards. In fact, it frees us to be more interested in the ideas of others and more concerned about their real issues, especially any who may feel some need to flex their own stuff or to try to put others down in order to seem better.

Those with real value who know it simply demonstrate it just by BEING. Like my friend Faith!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Yes, Marlene - that application of the flying poem fits. The cords that bind a baby to 'safety' must be cut if the child is to grow and fly on his own wings. Good application and a good track.

Yes - many parents cripple their children by not allowing them to try their own wings, even falling in the process. My feeling about that is that that period is so that experience can be gained when the results from misjudging aren't as fierce & permanent as they'd be later when the person has become an adult. If those experiences are prevented & consequences are turned aside for them when young, they meet real situations with more dire results when parents aren't around.

The little poem had in mind whatever keeps one glued to the ground and thereby defeats the ability to 'fly' too. What inspired it was visualizing how important & necessary those gravity boots were to the astronauts who walked on the moon, so that obviously it's not always desirable to fly off in space. But the need to get out of the lead-soled shoes in order to escape limiting confines of the ground & gravity is also vital to full expression of all one is.

Exactly - we have much in common with fellow man, but each of us is individual and must have & claim space for our own. We are not clones! Isn't it great!!

Thank you for lovely comments -- good thoughts!


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Oh, Nellieanna, you are the best of the best . . . such a wise and lovely person. I appreciate your keen insight into life's matters as stated here.

You are such a lovely person with a beautiful heart, who has knowledge to share and we should listen as you are so sincere and really do care to take the time to respond and address the issue with your gift of reading between the lines.

I appreciate you so much . . . that you would even take the time to carefully respond, which just shows that you are a genuine person of great integrity, with much love for others.

Sending lots of hugs and love your way to someone who deserves so much respect and love in return (YOU), Faith Reaper


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw - thank you, Faith! Comment threads provide a 2nd chance to find out what else might help express what I was trying to say & expand on it. So it's a self-serving things too! :-)

For years I knew I could write & wanted to write more, but felt I didn't know enough to justify it. haha - (that doesn't stop many folks!) Now I either know some things or it's gonna be too late! So many times one comes up short when one would love to have more help to offer. Other times whatever one has is just not wanted. But the beauty of being an octogenarian is a kind of freedom to express it anyway! When it's valued and appreciated, that's the most gratifying thing I know. Thank you! That is a reward.


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Tonipet 3 years ago from The City of Generals

Who pulls my strings? wow. True enough, turned me speechless for a moment.

"If we would fly, we must first remove our lead-soled shoes."

Your thoughts are simple but so worth realizing. Only the wise can fly airily because only them has got the hearts ready to go selfless. Truly, beautiful things come simple and quiet, hard to imagine we can do it but sharing ourselves for what's good for everyone can be a very rewarding effort. Thank you for this Nellie Anna. You're one big mind and heart opener. Thanks for sharing your heart to us. Love you.

A thousand smiles and blessings! - Tonipet


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Tonipet - lovely comments! Thank you - and especially for the perception! You've enhanced my evening! And it's a pleasure to know you. I've dropped by your hub site and look forward to more! Hugs.


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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

I think I'm getting ripe.....

Oh Nellieanna, tonight, I am reading each of your poems very introspectively...so I may need a shower? hee-hee...

I love this collection, as usual and am thrilled to have done my crying for the day on Kallini's latest...your collection was purely thought provoking and enjoyable...Voted UP and UABI.

Now, please excuse me, I am having a crystal ball alert...TTYS.

Hugs, Maria


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Maria, your comments are always so special - and these are no exception! Introspectively- is - ahem - good. :-)

Glad it was thought provoking, rather than tear-jerking.

I'm a bit behind on reading everything - - things going on.

Thanks for the votes and lovely remarks. You have me curious about crystal balls!

Hugs!


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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Lovely. I was talking to breakfastpop about this earlier.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and beautiful. Loved this Nell and how you made it so creative. Great videos. Congrats on 200+ hubs and looking forward to your next 200. Hugs. Passing this on.


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QudsiaP1 3 years ago

Oh dear Nellie if it were up to me I would flood you with a million accolades because you truly deserve them, the beauty that flows your pen touches me deeply. My favourite being:

I feel akin to you,

One skin with you

And yet

Remote,

Separate light-years apart

As galaxies from one another,

Making up a Universe

Whose principle ingredient

Is space.


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arb 3 years ago from oregon

Good morning butterfly! I would as most, prefer to believe that I am free of strings, the captain of my ship and the master of my fate. Immune from daily detours and never derailed, but "the best laid plans of mice and men, often go awy". I suppose, although I do not control all the puppets, likewise, most fail in their control of me and yet "I find the the thing I want to do, I do not always do". I suppose, at the end of day, I must look upon the strings in honest study and trace from me to the other end. I suppose I could rewrite Lincoln's adage " you can fool some of me all the time and all of me some of the time, but, you can not fool all of me all the time" Life's kinda like the flu I think; it keeps becomming resistant to my acquired vaccine. Everytime I think I'm in control of it, I am made the fool again. I suppose knowing the strings are there, keeps me alert to their scheme. I do notice that there are fewer today than when I was young, but what remain are more clever than before, better concealed I think. But then, so am I.

201 hubs is impressive in and of itself. 201 hubs worthy of reading, of reflection, of gifting, well that dear butterfly, that is garden worthy of perpetual return.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martin - Thank you for the compliment!

I'd have loved to be a fly on the wall overhearing that discussion! You or he perhaps should write a hub about it! (I first thought you meant you two were discussing my hub, till I realized you were surely discussing how much puppet-or-puppeteer-like people can be, which would be deserving of its own hub by you two! :-) Thanks for sharing that you'd been thinking about it. I confess I think about it all the time - especially when I see the obvious (but apparently effective) lemming-leading stuff on TV and TV ads!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Rasma - Thank you dear lady! It was, again, both a fun and a thought-y hub to create. I certainly hadn't set out to write 200 hubs! In fact I literally intended to write none! haha. Goes to show . . . huh? A writer MUST write! Especially to share with such wonderful, highly respected & receptive fellow writers! It's like food for the starving & water for the thirsty when one's efforts are appreciated!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Qudsia - thank you for such generous, kind comments! I'm especially pleased that you like that particular poem. It's one of my own favorites which I felt so keenly when I wrote it, a good number of years ago (Sept. 1972) - & still do. The feeling of meeting the flow of people after being in virtual isolation was refreshing & invigorating to me, but my own background also reminded me of separateness. I learned it was an advantage to know & appreciate both states of my own self-awareness. I could/can be among people or solitary & each is rich in its own way.

I find that seeming contradictions in other areas turn out to be mutually compatible & enriching. It's OK to be both a dreamer & a realist. It's OK to be any number of 'opposites' & yet thrive. Maybe the puppeteers have tried to convince us we must choose one or the other - but we can't & needn't choose from among our traits that are real & comprise who we are! I'm happy that in most areas, I'm an integrated woman, though - hehe. 'Nuff said.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

I so value your response, Alan. Your perspective & perception always enhance a subject. I'm honored when you offer them!

Yes, - we all value our full autonomy & hold it dear; & yes, of course, FULL autonomy is a virtual impossibility in a world of millions of others who hold the same value for each of themselves & in a world (& beyond) of values which transcend individual preferences & control. I remember my dad saying, "know your limitations," which I resented & resisted till I understood better. (Still doesn't keep me from testing them, just in case!)

What is sad is when others on the same plane & often much less clear or qualified than oneself seize or usurp an upper hand over oneself, so becoming a puppeteer hand, I guess I could say, & somehow the puppet- person is or can be severely disenfranchised by it. BTDT.

I guess the main thing is to know oneself well enough to fully & honestly know where one's rightful 'universe' begins & others' end & vice versa; & to claim what is one's own, while accepting & respecting all rightful limits gracefully. As you say, - you don't control the other puppets & their control of you has boundaries, . . . .rightfully so!

When the things you want to do you don't always do - &/or vice versa - the fine puppetry line involved may be whether that's a decision reserved within your own sphere to make, done for reasons close to your own heart making those limits part of your freedom to choose, which I perceive that you do extremely well. But If found to be unreasonably imposed on you, - probably something different needing attention. Has less to do with puppeteers than puppet, probably.

I like your simile with the flu. haha - yes, we do often set up our own standards of conduct & choices only to have them tested & sometimes found wanting so that we're immune to our own setup. But then, if they were simply fixed once & for all - static - we'd have no more need for living this life. Change would have been stopped, ie:- life, stopped. Life is change constantly. Fixity isn't in the formula and serves no purposes.

But since this life is its own setup, above our own, - it can seem to throw 'curve balls' into our neat equations, probably to keep us on our toes. (Yikes! - talk about mixed metaphors!)

Anyway - your conclusion that 'knowing the strings are there' keeps you alert to their scheme is possibly wisdom at its fine-tuned best, possibly containing forward-wisdom. If schemes seem more clever now even when one is less gullible, perhaps it delivers significant truth. We don't always recognize our own truth when it stares us in the face, proclaiming 'how many times must I answer your question till you get it?' Who knows? Only he or she who's 'there'. :-)

How you honor me by your appreciation of my little works. Each time you visit my garden of them, I'm lifted! I certainly didn't set out to plant so many rows. But, then, I'm a bit 'unlimited' - haha! I'm VERY happy that you don't mind trekking down them & smelling the blossoms! Just beware of any stinkweed among them! ;-)

Thank you, my dear friend!


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

As always, Nellieanna, I agree with you. As children we did not have much control, but as adults we always knew how to stay in control while allowing specific people to pull our strings, and just because we were in need of the reward, whatever it was. Only the very young and inexperienced person, or unwise, or really stupid, will lose final control over his own strings, and then feel like a victim locked up in a cage.

Yes, you will see a Lollipop meant for you on my profile page :)))

11:20pm down here and I am heading slowly but certainly to bed. Enjoy the rest of your day, my dear CM :)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, Martie - I've found your surprise - and it's a wondrous one! The Lollipop Award is truly amazing! I'm humbled, honored and a bit undone by it! Thank you. But I must fuss at you, as your Cybermom, for giving yourself to it when you're not really well! I hope you do get to bed and stay there till you're recovering. That audio of you coughing is all the evidence I need to get tough-love about taking care of it! You don't want a paddling, do you? :-) You see, I could pull your strings for your own good! hehehe.

But let me point out that people who are not young, inexperienced, unwise or stupid do fall into situations in which relinquishing their strings & being controlled is actually the better of two bad choices. I did - and I was none of those things mentioned. I had a very good mind, a good education, a good background, was old enough to vote (22), had experience with bullies which taught me, (though my lesson backfired when my sister died). There were physical issues - not driving, for one. But it was that I had very high standards & expectations for myself for being a wife & mother which bound me long beyond reasonable time to have endured the reality that had proven itself. In the meantime the control had also further bound me even beyond my own self-requirements to stick to it at least as long as my children needed my buffering.

So, you see, I know what motivated me to allow it, but that's not the point. Anyone with perception could see the situation & would conclude that I was an idiot. My point in mentioning it is that what appears is not always what really IS.


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

Again, Amen, Nellieanna. I, too, knew what motivated me; my personal aspirations and goals were in control of my strings. Some people do expect too much of themselves in their efforts to do what is right and divine. But, at the end, we even manage to overpower our own aspirations, which can surely bereave us of all joy and happiness.

Don't worry, my dear momma, that is not ME coughing... LOL!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah. In my case, I was still prepared to endure it, you see; - even when my jailor planned to have me committed & did go as far as to redoublle efforts to distort our children, to serve his terrible agenda & purposes.

If he hadn't told his plan (that was to begin the next day) to my brother, who saw through it & stepped in to rescue me, it would have played out just that way, surely,- with me still determined as I was to do what was needed to help my children, even to that extreme, which seemed inevitable with the children still seeming relatively OK. I was inured to thinking of my welfare before theirs after 18 years of increasing danger.

There really are some agendas above which one cannot always rise. I'm glad you were able to manage yours and salvage not only yourself but your children. My situation left me less choice.

OH - I'm glad it's not you coughing!!!!!!! wow. Had me quite scared! But you need to pamper yourself, nonetheless! What are you doing still UP? :)


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ImKarn23 3 years ago

your insight astounds! Your mastery of the english language humbles! Your message is clear!

Change starts right here- within each of us - without opening our minds to new ways of seeing things - new perspectives - means that we are just...sheeple - or, as you so eloquently put it - puppets on a string..

i believe 'strings' begin when and where we least expect them - the cutting of one can be the beginning of another - we must always be vigilant..

i adore this and you, my friend..

sharing forward!

ps..CONGRATULATIONS on the lollipop award!!! Nobody deserves it more...haha...

xx


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arb 3 years ago from oregon

The extent to which we are controled demands our complicity, sometimes because we nobly choose it over the consequences of a greater evil, sometimes from weakness which awaits an unfolding courage. In any case, each escape serves our intelect and teaches us all the more of our emotions. Some measure of vulnerability is necessary to experience the beauty around us including love. Some measure of guard must accompany us from the abuses that bruise our hearts and mind, that would destroy the trust and innocence that once clothed our lives.

It is indeed a battle to reclaim, preserve and flaunt the liberty of a heart that has refused to die under the trepass of yesterday. In doing so the puppeteer must hitch a ride from someone looking for a passenger.

I suppose many choose to travel with such company. You dear butterfly, spread wings many yesterdays ago. You are too busy with todays and tomorrows to fret at the wounded heart of yesterday. Living the moment before us makes it difficult to live again the yesterdays. One who keeps so busy flying, makes it difficult for strings to attach themselves.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Leslie! You honor and humble me! Thank you for those meaningful words. I'm thinking - insight comes with experience; use of language comes with practice; but clarity is something that is almost a miracle! All writers want clarity above all, but we can never be sure it's been achieved - and a lot depends on the hearer/reader. It's a shared accomplishment! So thank you for that especially.

Yes - for sure. Change is one's own sole project, yet without many people embracing it, its influence and effect is limited - - though it IS the combination of individuals seeing with clarity of perspective and only individuals can DO it.

You're right. Unless we're vigilant it's just a matter of short time before we're 'sheeping' along to our own disadvantages, personally and collectively.

I've been watching the inaugural proceedings all day. It's such a wonderful historical event!

Thank you for congratulations on the lollipop award! It is quite exciting & encouraging! Hope it spills over into the day-to-day events. The first couple is getting out to walk again in the procession on Pennsylvania Ave. to the White House from the Capitol. Wow. They're almost 'there'.

Hugs - I love you too!!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Alan - sagacious observations. Absolutely, being controlled whether by outside pressures or our own, demands our complicity. We may choose nobly simply because we're noble, though.

Motives for all we either allow or initiate for ourselves vary up & down the spectrum of reasons & impetuses, all parts of the expression of our humanity. We've the responsibility & task of choosing our moment-to-moment courses from among continuous strong influences, including those from the heart, which is oblivious to other factors, it seems; & quite effective in exercising its own objectives! But even it doesn't dictate our actions. That is where courage really shines.

A lifetime of balancing out intellect & emotions with honor & honesty still demands that we pay attention so we don't fall prey to 'string pulling' (internal or external) & yet also remain open to life & surprise!

You're kind and you're right. A built-in buffer zone with less need for vigilance in order to steer one's flight means being a tad less vulnerable to one's own whims and the whims of others with strings they'd like to attach, even though 'flying' is all internal & available to anyone!


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SiberianWolf 3 years ago from MidWest

love the depth of this piece... thank you!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you. I'm gratified, SiberianWolf - (Eric, if I may) - that you found its depth. I checked your hubsite and see your writing is definitely not trivial or shallow! Welcome aboard to HubPages.


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SilentReed 3 years ago from Philippines

The East doesn't have a monopoly of Zen thoughts and contemplation. "The perfect reality needs be unaware of self," "Self awareness is but shadow or reflection." Wisdom, homespun in the poetry of a Texan gal. Your poems are a delightful experience. Sparsely etch in space, they "Spark my thought," without trying :) for "It's truth resounds" Perhaps one day, I hope to make it "my own"; a state of consciousness devoid of shadows. A puppet no longer to the strings of "self " or ego.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

SilentReed - what a pleasure and honor to see you! I understand the chasm between east and west in thinking. I have an affinity for Zen-like thinking from before I knew what it was till learning more and reading much about it. It's not something I 'try for' (very western approach! haha). But it does just come up in my views and attitudes. Its principles seem so elementary.

Thank you for noticing it. If there's any one thing that's helpful getting past strings of self or others, it's surely an honest & real detachment from expectations and certainties, which are the antithesis of what life provides or guarantees. :-)

What's interesting is that Jesus' views & modest teachings, if honestly understood, were surely more eastern than western. I was so naive, I saw that quality in them early on.


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kittythedreamer 3 years ago from the Ether

Can I just tell you that this poem speaks to me deeply today? I have recently had a major spiritual awakening and everything in this poem sings to that tune. Beautiful and thank you so much! Many Blessings.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear, dear Kitty - that's wonderful if this validated your own awakening in some way! I believe there is some strength and quiet resolve in it, so I can see how it could. I'm especially happy that you are in awakening moments. How wonderful! Thank you for this special visit & comment.


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

It simply is, abides.

These words stayed with me today as I read your work--and they feel like a gift---


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Audrey, thank you. What a lovely comment. I have to admit, those words are always a gift to me, too. Hugs.


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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

Many are those who claim to be poets, dear Nellieanna, but few are those who actually ARE. You, my dear, may claim that title fearlessly by your ingenious, profound poetic efforts. Here's to another 200+ magical, mystical presentations accompanied by your original illustrations. :)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

My dear Dr BJ -My goodness! I am so honored - I could retire on that - but then, - I have my instructions - another 200 hubs! ;-) This is a magical, mystical evening besides! Thank you for making it more so! You know I value your opinion so highly. Hugs!


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Genna East 3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

“The perfect reality

Needs be

Unaware of self.

Self-awareness is but

Shadow or reflection.

Antithesis of

That perfection

Casting it.”

My favorite lines. Stunning and thought-provoking in its jeweled simplicity, as always, Nellieanna. You have an uncanny understanding of human nature, with a wisdom that is so often expressed with soft yet indelible and elegant footprints written across time.

Do we ever completely sever our strings? Those which others have lovingly an unlovingly attached…including those of our own making that seem, at times, to be stronger than others?

Voted up and sharing, dear poet.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Genna - What a gratifying comment. Those lines are thought-provoking and time-encompassing; they were written many years ago, in fact during a time when my only outlet for deep feelings & awareness was as expressed in my poetry. They came forth from deep inside almost by themselves and directed my pen to write without pondering over them. Thank you.

Thanks for asking those questions. To the best of my thinking, I'd have to say, no, I don't think we ever completely sever all our strings, nor probably should we. After all, they're what keep us faithful in valuable long-term relationships even when trivial things could discourage.

What we need to do, though, is examine them to see whether they're supporting truth & serving a good purpose or merely binding us for no justifiable purpose, perhaps even for a wrong purpose or - just out of habit. If we need to, in such case, our best response may be to revive the situation with life and purpose, unless it's beyond help or is truly hurting us unjustifiably, in which case, it's not probably helping anyone innocent who's involved, - to continue it.

Our own bindings are another kind, and are often part of our moral code, aren't they? Again, needing clear examination for honest truth and appropriate use, but never casually or thoughtlessly. Moral restraints aren't always easy, but if they're true and right, they're worth it.

We've a lifetime obligation to 'stay current' so we're effective persons fulfilling our purpose on earth for our duration here. It also applies to external entities of which we're a part, even beyond individual involvements of our own. If we become blasé to what we're doing to ourselves or others or what we're permitting to be done to us or our community, we need to perk up, examine and perhaps, do some strings snipping & moving progressively beyond their confines.

Bottom line: We must be alert and aware if we're to be effective and contributing persons in our own selves and in our world beyond ourselves. :-)

Thank you for the votes, too, my friend! I appreciate your thoughtful interest in this.


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epigramman 3 years ago

Well Miss N, you always pull my strings by keeping me on my proverbial toes with your thought provoking and insightful comments at my humble little hubspace.

Again, speaking about awards and first ladies of the Hub, your hub presentations are always beautifully realized works of art. I can see they are a true labor of love for you and in turn we are rewarded by your hard work and passion for the beauty and truth in life.

Just had the pleasure of watching a most beautiful sunrise over the lake here and two days ago we had a heavy snowfall (the most in one day in over 5 years) so yes there is lots of snow and it's darn cold but the sun and these blue skies certainly make up for it at this time of year in Canada.

Sending you warm thoughts on a chilly morning courtesy of Colin, Tiffy and Gabriel and listening to some nice classical music with my coffee and bagel at lake erie time canada 8:40am


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Colin - as always, your elegant, heart-warming comments give a lift to my day!

This was such a pleasant hub to make, and sharing it with good friends adds the delight to it. Thank you!

Your sunrise scenario sounds enchanting! All that snow! My! We get a 'good snow' once every so many years. This year's so far lasted but briefly.

I'm still sipping morning coffee, though it's 1:45 PM. Got up later than usual and have been enjoying just taking my time. Getting used to a new laptop; - it's exciting.


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phdast7 3 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

A delightful smorgasbord of verse, but written with meaning and finesse. I think my favorite was this one.

Thump the rind

And press it with

Your fingertips.

I think

I'm getting ripe.

This is just marvelous Nellieanna. The words will sing in my mind as I go to sleep. ~~Theresa


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Theresa! - Why, thank you! Yes, doing it was a bit of a lark, but with meaning to it. I rather like that ripe watermelon one, too. :-) Thank you! What a lovely thought that it may serenade you to sleep!


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

There is such a grace to your poetic philosophy. Rhyme with reason. And congratsulation on number 200.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Mike - Thank you for such a gracious comment!

About the published hubs landmark, - there are now 204, but that accolade hasn't yet caught up & acknowledged that it's 'at least 200'. It's becoming funny now, watching to see how long it takes to catch up - if ever! Of course it's still truthful that I've published at least 100 hubs, as it says. :-) Good thing I'm not much of a scorekeeper. hehe!


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

I am note sure what triggers a accolade to click. You have so much to be applauded for and deserve every praise.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Well, thank you very much. It's my readers who supply abundant acknowledgement that matters to me, anyway. The only reason I noticed the accolade thing was that I'd recently been aware that someone else had reached 200 & had given my congratulations. I'd noticed that the accolade reflected it on that profile, so naturally, I thought it was automatic. I was within a couple of hubs of reaching it myself, so looked, expecting to see it. But. . . .nada! haha.

I'm omitting ads on my hubs, though, so maybe that affects the updating of accolades. Who knows. . .


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Let's complaint to the highest authority - oh wait, we are the highest authority. lol


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

I so agree that we are!! hahaha! Hugs. . . . Besides, it's beneath our dignity to whine - at least doing it officially! hehe


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Exactly. You are so charming.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Awgeewillikersthanks! Look who talk! :-)


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

How cute. Have a good night my friend.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you - and for reminding me that it's getting that time! G'night to you , too!


dreamseeker2 3 years ago

I needed to read your poetry today, Nellieanna. Such wisdom in your words, reflecting life with love and the meaning there of. : ) Great poem as always! : ) Always a vote up from me!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Gwen - The corners of my smile always turns up when I see you visited! Thank you! I'm delighted if my poetry gave you some sort of boost today! My pleasure,dear!


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Vellur 3 years ago from Dubai

Each one is a precious gem filled with wisdom and conveys a message. Enjoyed reading, voted way up.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Vellur, you're a perceptive person! It has an overtone of humor but based on pearls of experience and wisdom gained from living. They just seem to seep in! :-) Thank you.

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