Return Me to a State of Grace

Hoping for a Reply

I sent this piece to President Obama recently. As just another casualty of the sad economy, I hoped for a real reply. I had forgotten I sent it when I got my reply via email yesterday in the form of a poorly executed, dismal, generic reply, Actually, as disappointing as my realistic expectations. I'm all grown up now.

I watch you, silent, from my meager place

Polished professional with a handsome face

I hear your words that I long to embrace

You hold the key, my return to grace

-------------------------------------------------

Once I was useful, no special needs case

Competent, confident, part of the race

Now life on a button labelled erase

You hold the key, my return to grace

-------------------------------------------------

Lost, on my own, in this vast space

My dog, my car, last remaining trace

Years of keeping up with the fast pace

You hold the key, my return to grace

-------------------------------------------------

Stranger to you, yet you are my brace,

Hope in you, get me back to first base

Depression looms to slow my chase

You hold the key, my return to grace

-------------------------------------------------

Silent, I watch, my life left to deface

Quick the path turns toward efface

Point me to the road named replace

You hold the key, my return to grace

------------------------------------------------

58 comments

A.A. Zavala profile image

A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Times are so difficult for so many, and this poem is a reflection of those difficulites. You have my support, and if there is anything I can do, I stand in line with your hubpages followers in being there for you. Thank you for sharing.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Augustine, you are one in a million, my friend. Thank you for your kindness and support.


mckbirdbks profile image

mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Your value is not measured by the money in your pocket. The economy is causing stress everywhere. You are certainly not alone. Stay strong. Great poem, it was so good, it received a canned response to your email machine.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I am laughing out loud at your "canned" response comment. Riotous, raucous laughter...what could be better than that! Thank you for your encouraging words, mckbirdbks.


drbj profile image

drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

A beautiful poem, Amy, full of winsome grace,

Addressed to that leader (?) with the charismatic words.

But don't hold your breath my dear in any case,

His promises of hope and change are for the birds.

Just remember, she who laughs, lasts!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear drbj, how totally charming you are. Yes, exactly, and I'm still laughing. So, there! Thank you for your thoughtful, winning words. Uh,oh, now I sound like Charlie Sheen...that's not good. Got some catching up to do with your fabulous writings. Going there right after I take MacGregor out for a quick trip. Love ya!


BobbiRant profile image

BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Great poem and certainly you are worth a whole lot. It is difficult to find meaningful work right now when corporate giants do not want a piece of the economic pie anymore, they want the Whole pie and not willing to be happy until we are enjoying the America our grandparents had. Not in a good way either, sweatshops serve corporate America well. Great poem.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, BobbiRant, I'm writing content articles now on AMS. It's kind of fun, but ardous. They pay so little for the work involved, but I'm gaining a lot of good experience and I will keep plugging away. For a small amount of volunteer work at a local radio station, I will learn all about broadcasting, specifically, audio work, which will enable me to make my voice over demo! Since the studios here charge about $110/hour, it's a win/win. I was told that the training would enable a person to have their own show, if they had a dynamic idea that created interest in the station. Who knows what will happen...but, it's a whole lot more exciting than a minimum wage job. Thank you for your excellent comments. I always love to see you, Bobbi.


Micky Dee profile image

Micky Dee 5 years ago

Beautiful tribute to HOPE. God bless you Amy!


breakfastpop profile image

breakfastpop 5 years ago

I write all the time and always get generic disappointing answers. They ought to hire you to answer the letters. You would do a much better job.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Micky. Love your comment and God Bless you, too!

breakfastpop, it's not like I expect the Prez or First Lady to personally acknowledge anything I send, but, at least, if they are going to pay someone to send a response, it should be cohesive, and even if generic, meaningful in some way. I think I've just gotten use to the best in writing here at the hub, POP, writers like you.


epigramman profile image

epigramman 5 years ago

...well on a less formal apolitical note I always return to a state of grace when I arrive here at your hallowed hubspace Amy - you 'compose' with such great sensitivity (always a hallmark of yours) and thoughtful precision - and yet through your inimitable personal expression you speak for the rest of us - not only in your own country - but for people all over the world - who are basically united by the same wants, needs and desires - yes Amy, it is you who have returned all of us to 'a state of grace' - and although your letter was not properly considered for its content of concern - it's your very dignity and artistic integrity which has blessed us here at the Hub -


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

What beautiful statements you leave, Colin. Your perceptions continue to amaze me in your total grasp on what I try to convey. Thank you so very much for not only reading, but understanding. Your comments read like velvet and touch me softly, but profoundly.


J T Kipp 5 years ago

Nice job Amy. Heartfelt, articulate and to the point. We are all in this together and we will come out of it better then before. Keep the faith my friend.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

So, you are now at the hubpages! I am so glad. I'll check out your profile page and become your follower! Thanks, Jeff, I appreciate your encouraging comments and especially your friendship.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Good luck Amy! I love your poems - and this reminds me of how many changes I've had to make to stay in the black the last 2 years. I am afraid to spend money because I fear it might just Ll run out! I keep hoping that the economy will turn around - it has to and I thought things would "break loose" well before now.

Up and awesome.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awwww, thank you, RealHousewife, for your sweet, kind words. People say the economy "has" to return, but why? I think anarchy will arrive before we ever get back to where we were. Oil is now at $107/barrel with groceries following. I saw a man buying cases of baby formula. He had some kind of coupons that the checker told him expired the day before. He left with nothing! I was ready to say grab a case and so will I and run as fast as you can. With our depleted police forces, it won't be long before people will just take what they need and walk out. I see it comin'. I'll be damn if I even let my dog go hungry. I thought I heard that the money already allocated for unemployment is being looked at and debated as to whether gov't won't just take it back. Maybe I heard wrong. Of course, then I heard where some old bat congresswoman repealed the use of adult stem cells for medical treatment and at least one person died as a result of her decision. Today, she decided to change her mind again. Can you imagine? Life and death in the hands of a stupid, haggard old congresswmoman. I'm getting pissed all over again, sorry, RealHousewife. Thank you kindly for your great comments.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I hear you Amy! And ugh - I agree with your sentiment. It is a strange time - I just don't know what to think! And the congross person! (yes I made that up!) but that makes me angry too! No one should have to die when there is good medical treatment available! And to change her mind the very next day? I hope she never needs stem cells! Or her family?

We shall see together Amy - how this unfolds.

I hope it is good, I hope!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear RealHousewife, I am so glad I did not offend you in any way. I got fired up and carried away. I cannot imagine how the families who lost a loved one due to another human beings uninformed, biased decision must feel. I don't condone violence ever, but sometimes I understand it. Thank you for letting me know what you think. I appreciate that.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Oh not at all! I love hearing opinions, really. Sometimes I even can be persuaded that my own opinion might be wrong! Lol! Go ahead where I am concerned and speak up! I want to know what YOU think!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

We are alike in that respect, RealHousewife! I can just hear us now, "no, you", "no, you say what you think", "no, you"! Must be in that damn brown Mississippi River water! You are so cute, I bet there aren't enough hours in the day to spend time with all your friends! I can tell you are a lot of fun. I'm glad I met you here.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Amy thank you so much! Yes, I do have a lot of friends, but I work from home. I have 3 girls that are 22, 9 & 11. I'm very involved in their lives every day. Most of my friends work outside the home all day so I don't think we get to spend as much time together as we should, I know they agree, but such is life!

I love that I stumbled onto hub pages though - it is a wealth of information and such awesome cool people like you. Now I scrub the floors, take a break - read a hub and laugh or learn something. Then I'll go to get groceries, put them away, read another hub. So it has put lots of smiles on my face! I love this place!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear RealHousewife, wow, I bet you are busy with a big family, each with different issues. No wonder you are so dynamic, and able to go with the flow! I'm with you regarding the hub. It has become family to me. I value the people here beyond words.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

So neat! I thought I was just going to see what others wrote when I started this, I had no IDEA the fascinating people! I am with you on that too! So many creative individuals.

Yes - those girls keep me on my toes but they will only be little for a little while. I don't want to miss a thing. I look at Laurel - my oldest, she works as a loan processor by day and criminal justice major at night. It went by way too fast! But she turned out real good:)

You are so kind - I am so glad to know you too!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, RealHousewife, and back at cha! I can hear the pride you feel with your children. They and you are very lucky to have each other. Not much in life is better than that.


RealHousewife profile image

RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I agree! And you are right! I'm just a big kid myself Amy!


Genna East profile image

Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

This echoes the feelngs and thoughts of so many today. Beautifully done, Amy!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Genna! I just left a comment on your Hollywood gem. You shine like a diamond, my friend.


Chriscwarner profile image

Chriscwarner 5 years ago

Are you a musician, Amy?! Your work is so lyrical and melodious! The refrains and repetition add more to that feeling...especially in this piece. Awesome!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Chris, thank you, but no, no musical talent. However, I do get that comment frequently. I am a very new poet wannabe and I use that repetition as a signature way of tying the central idea in each stanza. I am awed by your talent. I appreciate your comments, Chris, and look forward to reading more of your writing. Welcome!


saddlerider1 profile image

saddlerider1 5 years ago

Amy, it's a very sad state of affairs in your country and my heart goes out to so many unfortunate citizens losing their jobs, can't find jobs, EI running out, losing homes. I saw on t.v. that 13% of homes are vacant, that's insanity.

That would represent over a million vacant homes.It's putting people on the street who should never be there and children included. My heart aches for the homeless as it is and to have so many more is very depressing.

I saw condo's for sale in Florida for as low as 15 thousand dollars that use to sell for over 100,000 thousand. I sure hope the president makes some immediate changes to this condition or else a revolution may be at hand, how much more can citizens take. Hugs from me to you...


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your sensitivity and understanding, Ken, is magnificent. My BFF lived in FL and lost her home to foreclosure. She, as many, invested everything in a home that was valued, and she paid taxes on, at $320,000. She begged the bank to work with her as citizen's were promised. She and her husband lost their home, which the bank sold on the courthouse steps for $75,000. Tell me that something is not completely wrong with this picture? A couple of weeks ago I was in checkout at the grocery store while a young man tried to use his coupons on several cases of baby formula. The cashier told him the coupons expired the day before. With a hungry baby at home, he left empty-handed. I wanted to tell him to grab a case and I'd grab another and run like hell. Anarchy will come before anything changes for the better. My theory is with cuts in the police force, I'll be able to walk in, get what I need and walk out. And who will stop anyone? No one, because everyone will be doing the same. Latest I heard on the news is that Congress, although the money for unemployment has been allocated, will try to repeal the decision and cut it off. Although, I don't believe in violence and will not resort to it, the assholes making the laws best invest in bullet proof gear, because one way or another, depending on how desperate and hungry the poor become, heads will roll.

Hug to you from me


Docmo profile image

Docmo 5 years ago from UK

Dear Amy,

With your articulate, heartfelt and always elegant poetry it's you who hold the key to return us all to a state of grace. Success and a bank balance are not a mark of class and sensitivity. Your observations and outlook represent the raw talent of the individual. You have given so much and expect so little- you deserve much and receive little. As long as you continue being here, writing with a quill made of angel feathers and dipped in the blood of inspired thought ... You, my dear are Grace herself, personified. Love - mohan.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Mohan. Your kindness and sensitivity is so touching and sincere, you made me cry. You have done a rare thing and have left me speechless, in awe, that those beautiful words of yours are meant for me. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you. Love, Amy


epigramman profile image

epigramman 5 years ago

yes Docmo is a true gentleman and I am so honored to have met him - and he truly speaks such meaningful words - I have always found 'poetic grace' in your words - and as I have said before - your 'sensitivity' is your trademark as a writer - and it comes from an underlying intelligence and honesty - which is your very essence.

Nice comment too from Chris - I have always 'sensed' a lyric quality to your work too.

In closing, how is your health these days Amy?

And please give the Mac Man a nice pat for me and a hug from Tiff and Gabe.

Thank you for your support of my writing - another one of your fine attributes as a writer is how you take the time to properly comment on other people's work.

Your are truly a hubgem Amy - so lucky are those of us who know it too!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, epi, as hubgem is a compliment supreme. I will say the same applies to you! Hello to those kitties of yours. Mac is struggling with his allergies again with another round of antibiotics for his paws. Chronic like my health issues, but it could always be worse. Friday I report for training at the MDA. I'll be making calls to lists of clients regarding "jail time" gig done every year to solicit donations from local business people. Clever, fun script at a job that will be relatively stress free and with the right attitude, fun. Good hours and 30 per week so it won't be all consuming. And, it's close to home! It's a cause I support so quite a few positives. Thank you for asking about me and Mac, Epi. I hope all is well with you in your neck of the woods as well.


MartieCoetser profile image

MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, you know I am in the same position as you, and I'll have to look reality square in the eyes after my coming holiday of 51 days. I've got to say it seems to me you are on the right track. Just don't get disheartened. Everything WILL work out exactly as it should at exactly the right time. Just don't stop moving forward!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Martie. I'm moving forward with a lot of irons in the fire. Now, I'm getting to the point of "too busy". Feast or famine, it seems. I know how excited you must be right now. I'll just take a few vicarious thrills in knowing how happy you are, Martie. You look radiant.


N.E. Wright profile image

N.E. Wright 5 years ago from Bronx, NY

Beautifully sad, Amy.

I loved this poem. It made me sad and hopeful for you.

I wish your letter was one of the 10 -- I believe? -- letters President Obama reads nightly. Makes me sad.

Thank you so much for sharing ....

Take Care,

N.E.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear N.E. Wright, With the way my luck has gone the last year, I doubt the Prez saw it at all. Not that it would make a difference. There are alot of us now that are struggling. No one ever said life was fair...it's just that everything at once is difficult. But, of course, it could be worse. Thank you for your kind, empathetic heart. I appreciate your visit and your understanding.


Fay Paxton 5 years ago

Sorry I'm so late getting here.

What a fantastic poem. I have no doubt you express the sentiments of so many, many people at this time. My grandmother used to have a saying, "If it ain't one thing, it's two". That's the way it seems...there are just too many failures at once. It's exhausting, but I have no doubt you'll reengergize and find a way.

up/awesome


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Fay. Slovenly as it sounds, I'd like to just relax. I've never taken a "real" vacation and this time away from work has not been relaxing, but rather, angst filled. Tomorrow I go for training with the MDA and start on Monday with a "fun", low stress kind of job. Close to home and 30 hours a week sounds about right for a change. I'll miss my "free" time to write, but nothing is really free. It will just require some attitude adjustments to make it be just what I need right now. Thanks for the encouragement, Fay!


Granny's House profile image

Granny's House 5 years ago from Older and Hopefully Wiser Time

Amy, loved the poem. Thank you for sharing. It reflected what many are going through today. My son and his wife are both laid off. Times are tough. Good luck with your new job

Keep on hubbing

Tina


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Tina, I've been laid off coming up on a year at the end of May. I'm sorry to hear that your son and his wife are also in this difficult dilemma. I wonder if gov't shuts down on Friday if it will halt unemployment checks, too? I remember at Christmas when the bill was resigned to continue unemployment. It took me 5-weeks to start getting checks again. Obama and his family spent an extended vacation in Hawaii. I remember hearing about their dinner while I ate my cup of yogurt. And, by the way, felt lucky to have it. The man that lives in the basement of the apt building where I'm at now eats every other day. He sure is getting skinny. Thank you for your comments, Tina. I always love to hear from you.


N.E. Wright profile image

N.E. Wright 5 years ago from Bronx, NY

Amy,

I really do know about everything come down on a person at one time. LOL.

You are right, life is not always fair.

Take Care,

N.E.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear N.E., It's been a good lesson for me. Although, I've always had compassion for the homeless and down-on-their-luck, experiencing the fear, humility and unknown is something else. I have been very lucky to have had a relatively secure life, but it would not have been complete without understanding the struggles some brothers and sisters live with most of their lives. I know I'm not alone. I'm about ready for the "Trump" experience now! I appreciate your feedback, N.E. Thank you for opening your generous heart to me.


Eiddwen profile image

Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Hi Amy,

Another touching hub and I can only second what everyone ese has said, HubPages is such a caring community and everyone is here for each other.

I had never joined any networking site before joining everyone on here nearly a year ago now,I'm afraid i would have been one of those people who would say "You can't make friens on the internet !" However I was so wrong and since opening my heart on here I am a totally different person.

Your fan mail to me was beautiful and you are very lucky in that you are gifted and can express yourself through beautiful poems such as this one and I vote it up and away.

Here's to a long time to come of hub sharing.

Take care

Eiddwen.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Eddwen, I am in awe of your courage and grace. You are inspirational and I am blessed by your presence here. My relationship with God is never in church, but it is in the people I meet. He makes his reality very visible everyday, because I see his goodness and love in people like you, Eddwen. Thank you for reaffirming my faith.


Lucky Cats profile image

Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Dear Amy, I am so sorry you are going through this. Scary and emotionally debilitating. I am not kidding when I say that you should be marketing your beautiful skills! Put together a grouping of your favorite and best (which, in my opinion, is ALL) efforts and forward these to Oprah or as a compilation of works to be made into a book! Really! or, send some of your poems to ...I don't know how this is done but, ...whomever needs lyrics for advertising, as an entro do programs pertaining to the subject matter you're addressing in any of your works. There is a need for your talent; it just needs to be "out there" and discovered. You speak for everyone on so many levels and about so many things..there is bound to be a place for you which brings in $. Good luck and thank you for such great work!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Lucky Cats, you are a very innovative thinker. Oprah? Really? I hadn't even thought of that although I watch her when I can. I'm going to start researching the options with my writing, woman. Thank you for your kindness, understanding and encouragement, Kathy. I truly value your friendship. I love you, my beautiful friend.


Neil Sperling profile image

Neil Sperling 5 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

Hang on --- time for a rodeo of awesome things your way. Giddy up!


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I like the sound of that, Neil. Yeehaw! Yep, it's in the air and I feel it comin', I reckon.


Wayne Brown profile image

Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas

I don't think Obama holds the key for your return to grace Amy. I think you are totally capable of it on your own given the right situation...Obama is not making it any it any easier but even flowers can grow on hard pan ground if we have the patience to wait. WB


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I think the greatest detriment to my own fulfillment has been believing in the fairytale "someday my prince will come". Now, finally, I believe in and rely on myself. I'm writing at AMS for pay (not much, yet I'm doing it on my own power) and pursuing some other avenues. I feel very positive in my own abilities now...a far cry from where I started. The hub, you and my many friends...an extended family really, have given me more help in this than any of you will ever know. Thank you, sincerely...thank you.


The Frog Prince profile image

The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

Amy - I think you sent this to the wrong person. Someday a Prince will come.

I'm just sayin...


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

You got that right, baby! or should I say "prince".


Micky Dee profile image

Micky Dee 5 years ago

Blame will be put upon his his head,

But noting of substance is ever said.

"He did it! He didn't do it!

Millions pointing to one man? Screw it.

Republicans/TeaParties/Democrats,

It's all a fine kettle of - rats.

Lawyers leading the way into the abyss.

I hope they know what they can kiss.


Amy Becherer profile image

Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Precisely! Magnificently said, Micky Dee!

    Sign in or sign up and post using a HubPages Network account.

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    No HTML is allowed in comments, but URLs will be hyperlinked. Comments are not for promoting your articles or other sites.


    Click to Rate This Article
    working