SHUDDERED EMOTIONS ( A POEM)

THE SUMMARY OF THE POEM "SHUDDERED EMOTIONS"

Once upon a time, my life was brewing with love, happiness and joy. I dedicated it to a daughter of eve whom i loved desperately and with all my heart.

I was a young undergraduate studying in one of the Nigerian Universities to better my future. I did all a man of honor, repute and responsibility could do. I sacrificed my time, money and heart to my so-called beloved woman only to be hammered on the head with betrayal.

I am handsome for all the doubters, yes. I am strong, macho and tall. Talent and skill God showered on me. But these things sometimes never seem to be a motivator to a wayward soul.

Suddenly, a revelation occurred which left me dazed. I found out that my so-called beloved toiled with my heart, lied on my face and spat poison in my eyes with betrayal.

My sister found out the truth, started and concluded her own investigation without my knowledge. When she told me i became a thomas until i saw it with my two eyes. First, she lied about herself, age, family and even went on to insult my family. Thus she pierced my eyes with hot coals and my world crumbled like wet cookies and crashed like an earthquake-stricken skyscraper with nothing to cling on but debris.

SHUDDERED EMOTIONS

[A POEM]

Today, is the day of reckoning
The years of sweetness and joy gone
I can see your eyes radiating
Singing of many happy songs
I remember your voice, very sonorous
Even the dreams of a lifetime we shared
I remember the happy times we spent together
How i taught you and you taught me the ways of love
I wish i could take back the hands of time
And right all the wrongs


Now my eyes play with tears
Each moment i remember with horror
Yes, each time i remember your face of lies
My heart shed vengeful blood
As if pierced by an invincible sword
You weakened me with betrayal
How could you?
I loved you like a new born baby
I treasured you like an only son
I pampered you like a Princess
I protected you as a mother hen does to her chicks


Tell me please, what did i do wrong?
As i cry and mourn, my heart aches of your betrayal
A lost hope and love


You ve shamed me
How you parted your skirt for other men, blinds my guts
How you groaned and moaned under their touch
How you looked them in the eyes and pleaded for more
I know you kissed them, oh my god am dead
I, that is washed of handsomeness
Even my enemies adore me
I am the envy of my peers
Tall, handsome, loving and caring
Is intelligence not my mentor?
What really did you lack?
Or was it just to scorn me?


How sad and wicked of you
How heartless and evil
How pathetic and sorrowful
Oh! what everlasting pain you have inflicted on my soul


You are the daughter of sin
A calculated illusion of doom
You forgot all the promises we made Promises of chastity and faithfulness
As i sit and write with tears as my ink
I shudder in disbelief My hope dashed, my future erased
My heart shutdown cos love has no meaning
As my hands tremble out of shock
My eyes clouded with tears
My body aching for vengeance
I consider my life wasted
Because, i trusted in a false love.

Copyright - Ubani Alexander Thandi Chijioke. All rights reserved.

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SubRon7 4 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Yes, it is terrible to trust with all your heart only to experience betrayal. Good job, Urbanichijioke!


Vincent Moore 4 years ago

Ubani my dear gifted, handsome, intelligent friend from the other side of my world. I feel your pain, I've been there and I know how I felt. My tears fell like rain, my soul sunk, my heart was shattered. Betrayal is murder to your partners soul, it digs deep into our flesh like a sharpened knife and our life gushes from us in agony.

Yet over time we heal, try to forgive and forget the hurt that was bestowed upon us. We find new LOVE someplace in time, we shed the past like a snaked sheds it's winter skin. We wait for KARMA to appear and believe me it often does. The wrongs get corrected and the people that hurt us stand before their maker in sin for their cruelty and scars they left on their fellow man.

Find peace in your heart, listen intently to it. Do not retaliate on this person who hurt you so, she will in time find her KARMA and you will have a smile appear on your face as you wrap your love and arms around your TRUE love you have found. Let the past lay as the past, pick up the future and run with it. You have to much going for you not to. Press on towards the mark and my friend you will reach it.

Peace and blessings to you my poetic friend, your words were deep. I felt them in my soul, betrayal is a bitter pill to swallow, but go in peace.


Hubert Williams 4 years ago

Ubani, my friend, I have known that gutwrenching pain twice in my life, so I know life goes on. It is very difficult, but it goes on. In my experience there was nothing I wanted to hear from anybody, so I won't try. Just know that your HP friends and family will listen while you bleed the bad from your soul through your beautiful poetry. I wish you a strong recovery.


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breakfastpop 4 years ago

Very few people go through life without experiencing some of what you write about. You deserve better than what you got and in time after you heal love will come again. Voted up beautiful and oh so awesome.


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mary615 4 years ago from Florida

Don't let one failed love stop you from ever trying again. Good luck. Beautiful words. Great Hub. I voted it Up, etc.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

I felt your pain. I am so sorry..Life does go on. You will meet that someone special. It is better to find out now. I loved your poetry..


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Rosemay50 4 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

Most of us go through something like this during our lifetime. Just don't let it embitter you, You will find someone one day who deserves all you are capable of giving. But for now just take care of yourself, your friends are here to support you


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. It is never easy when someone betrays you. It's hard to let go of the pain and disillusion but never fear I'm sure there is one true love waiting for you and when you find her you'll know it.


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

Been there my friend, been there! Brilliant verse, sad yet beautiful.... brings out the heartbreak and the associated pain beautifully!


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JT Walters 4 years ago from Florida

Ubani,

It is a beautiful poem but the shame would not be the one betrayed but the betrayers. You provide a symmetry between love and pain that is absolutely beautiful. What is one without the other?

I love your poems.

Jt


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secondimage 4 years ago from From a place lost in time and space

wow ubani, that was a heart wrenching poem! beautiful and voted up :)


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ubanichijioke 4 years ago from Lagos Author

to my dearest

SubRon7,

Vincent Moore,

Hubert Williams,

breakfastpop,

mary615,

always exploring,

Rosemay50,

Gypsy Rose Lee,

rahul0324 and secondimage

i owe you all a great apology for not replying earlier than this, please sweet and adorable friends do not hold any grudges.

i read with carfulness each and every word and i am so pleased having such thoughtful, caring, passionate, wonderful, sweet, adorable and motivating friends. i for sure, owe you all alot of gratitude and pray that my God continue to be with you all.

you all are awesome and sweet. blessings shall never be in want for you all. be most blessed dear friends.

when my internet network permit, i will surely grace your profiles with my own words.

LOTS OF LOVE FROM UBANI ALEXANDER THANDI


Hubert Williams 4 years ago

No grudges Alex, I was getting worried, though. Glad to have you back.


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ubanichijioke 4 years ago from Lagos Author

thanks Sir, glad to hear from you.

be blessed!


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zionsphere 4 years ago from Oregon

Wow. Truly moving. There really is nothing like betrayal. Lies, cheating. The shame that comes with it is unbearable. the shame is hers , not yours. Beautiful hub.


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ubanichijioke 4 years ago from Lagos Author

@Zion, that is truth so delightfully expressed by your comment. Betrayal stings more than the venom of a scorpion. I have tasted it, I tell yóu it is nothing to write home about. Thank you for your time. Be most blessed.

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