Seven Lives

It hurts, my heart, I felt it stop

On the ground with him on top

I can’t move his weight pressed upon

My breathing slow almost gone

 

I felt his hands wrapped with force

Allowing time to take its course

One day I know he will love me

I thought, forever in his life I’d see

 

My thoughts slightly off I guess not

My love for him he always forgot

I know I will be remembered deep inside

This coaster over now this scary ride

 

No more pressure I feel no weight

 A white light, I see the kingdoms gate

No noise just a ray of light

Everything so clear on this summer night

 

No come back please don’t leave me

I guess I didn’t hold the kingdoms key

A burning sensation I felt in my chest

As the paramedic called out I’ll do the rest

 

Here I am alive and awaken

When I thought my life was forever taken

Another chance of life now given

Like a cat I came back this is number seven

 

 

bellawritter23(copyright)2011

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SubRon7 5 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Good job, Bellawritter23. I wasn't really expecting the last two verses, maybe I just was trying to read the poem differently....


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Sub, how many times is a woman gonna just barely make abuse session? Many woman get beat and don't know how to say enough! Here is an example of a woman who has now outlived a beating seven times but will she outlive the next??? Maybe maybe not maybe there will be no next time..... I was here once :( very sad!!

bella


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SubRon7 5 years ago from eastern North Dakota

And that's the really sad part, Bellawritter23, so many women don't know how to say "Enough", or, more likely, are afraid to. Not too far from where I live, recently, a woman was murdered by her exhusband who she did have a restraining order against, but, really, how enforceable is a restraining order? Pretty much impossible to enforce. Wish I had an answer. In the meantime, you keep up your good work.


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mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

OK, i'm crying. May your last two lives be the most beautiful imaginable, nothing but wine, music and laughter - oh, and homework.


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

We're happy your no longer there...

Yes, its time we all said "enough," but as Amy said, we have to provide the means for those unable to do so...

I'm going to do something about it!!!

Check out my little hubcart of hope - bbs place - the first start

Luv ya, Ms. E...


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

Here's to the lack of needing lucky number 8 or 9 Bella.;)


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Matt in Jax 5 years ago from Jacksonville, FL

Greating wording and imagery. It really put me in the lead role and drew me in.


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Pamela99 5 years ago from United States

It is enough and seven times is too many but I know how hard it is to get away. I agree with Mentalist acer - hope eight or more never happen.


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

Uh-oh, someone's gonna pay for that. Speaking of multi-life females, Catwoman is going to be in the new Batman.

"I guess I didn't hold the kingdoms key" -- very interesting line with multiple meanings.


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No_Clue 5 years ago

A chilling read that kept me rivited! I believe God allowed you to survive and escape to do exactly what you are doing, telling the world about the problem of domestic abuse and offering hope to the otherwise hopeless...nothing speaks louder than the "voice of experience", bella! Well done!


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Hi Bella,

As always such a great poem , I was going to say sad that you had to feel it first hand but no I should say congratulations for haveing the strength to walk away and stay away.

I can empathise with you but we hold our heads high and the poems are so good because of it all.

I hope that makes sense Bella.By the way how is your book coming along??

A big hug to you my friend.

Take care

Eiddwen.


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

2 more to go. dont waste them!


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

Here's to not wasting lives...


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Mc, lol I will not be killed off an eigth time because I have no longer place myself in harms way. THe man I have now is just amazing and respectful and cherishes me! Thank you!!

bb, I am happy I am no longer there. There is were I dont want to return lol. Never ever thanks a bunch

Acer, No No No 8 or 9. Seven was enough ;)

Matt, Thank you I am glad you enjoyed it!!

Pam, I agree but it just drew me back in every time I tried to leave...... thank you!!

Dougy, I gotta see that new batman movie do we know who is playing cat woman?? Please do tell.....

No_Clue, I say you called it only God knows y I went through what I went through bt I survived every minute of it the good thing is that I will never be there again!! Thank you.

Eid, Thank you I appreciate the comments as always yes congratulations would be the proper word. I used to hate my ex but now I thank him without him I would have nothing to write about or maybe even feel!! My book is not doing so great :/ but I believe It will pick up!!

Nikki, I wont he he :)

bb. Cheers!!

smiles :)

bella


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Fossillady 5 years ago from Saugatuck Michigan

I'm so glad you found the strength to say enough is enough!I agree with No Clue in offering hope for others! Bless you Bellala


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nighthag 5 years ago from Australia

an enthralling read that gave me chills as I read it, I am so glad to hear that you are in a better place now, secure in how love should be...


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chspublish 5 years ago from Ireland

Intriguing piece. Nice work.


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Bumpsysmum 5 years ago from Cambridgeshire

Ouch, a gut wrencher bellawritter23, very vivid imagery, good job :-0


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Lady, Thank you I am also very glad I am no longer here yes hope I offer lending an inspirational thought to woman who are here or have been here!!

Nighthag, I am sorry for the chills lol it also did give me chills as I remembered al these nights :/ thank you for stopping by!!

Ch, Thank you for your wonderful feedback as always!!

Bumpsys, Thank you I know about gut wrenching but enjoy hearing from you and your mind!!

smiles :)

bella


misslee 5 years ago from Beverly Hills, CA

Your writing is very powerful, and obviously so are you...this is such an intimate and courageous peice!

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