Shimmer

 you wanted me

everything about me

made you feel alive.

you reasons for loving me

were hand picked

and spoon fed

right to you

i knew you

what to say

what to wear

how to smell.

I knew the facial expressions

that would make you trust me

i pulled you in

you told me i was home to you

and then

just when you KNEW

the meaning of life

i ripped out your heart

and shoved it into your mouth

i made you feel naked, cold, and alone

embarassed, afraid, and used

you said you were saving yourself for the one

and i delighted in your tears.

i watched you cry

i smiled

you asked why

and i walked away

you thought you found your soulmate

and all the time

you were my tool

my pawn

30 dollars on the floor

i didnt even keep it

just a game

just a toy

just to watch the human condition

to see what happens when your the one

causing the pain

i did it for a reason

no benefit to you

it felt good

i wont lie

i look back

and hate that part of me

 

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Jade 6 years ago

Now we're getting somewhere!


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epigramman 6 years ago

......honest, pure and raw - but in deference to the comment above - we're already there!


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the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

Jade- yea, i think we are. That one needed to be freed. But i couldnt have done it without someone pushing me.


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the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

epigramman- yea, i have to agree with jade though. I think im begining to push out some major stuff here. Maybe if you keep reading, youll see a revelation.


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epigramman 6 years ago

..yes I see what you mean - and Jade too - a work in progess and you are challenging yourself to pursue other areas of thought and intrigue - but the bottom line - you're still hot - inside and out!


ralwus 6 years ago

hmmm, I hate that part of you too, but I do understand. Someone had already ripped out your heart I suppose. Good stuff girl. Honesty.


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the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

epigramman- just digging deep!

ralwus- no one said this was about me. And even if it was, why would you assume i was previously hurt? This isnt about revenge.


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Cagsil 6 years ago from USA or America

Hey Pink, that is one nasty thought you have going on. It's understood, because I've had a woman do precisely what you've described. It was what invoked me to write my poem about women. Since then, I've not once under-estimated another woman. It was definitely a great read. I marked it awesome- just like you are. ;) :) Thank you very much for sharing.


cosette 6 years ago

wowee-wow-wow...didn't know you had it in you. wonderful stuff. i have been on both sides, i.e. the heartbroken and the heartbreaker, although not deliberately i don't think.

rating UP. p.s. good title!


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peteblogs 6 years ago from Texas

Good stuff, a little raw but good


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the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

you think thats raw? stick around. I got my muse back, and the secrets....there going to come out. Theres a seriously messed up side to this pink umbrella. The pink umbrellas shaddow.


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puresilence 6 years ago from New Delhi

Beautiful.. left me amazed how few ordinary words can make into so beautiful and exquisite poem. Expect more from you.. keep writing same extraordinarily lovely poems.


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the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

puresilence- i will keep writing. Id like your thoughts on my new hub Time. Its not a poem, but still, id like to know what you think.


Johnny Love 5 years ago

i am honored to read your words. so much passion in the pain that haunts you.


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thefundu 5 years ago from India

Nice touch.....u r distinct...


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

i am distinct?? meaning???


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

TPU,

lets see distinct could me-

1 Da Stinc-t you smell

2 dest inc-t you are incorporated

3 Distinct- unique and a one of a kind type Person-

I am going with the #4...

just here to help- *tee-hee*

TH


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

ROTFL!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, i laughed so hard at your comment i peed a little tom! i love you hahahahaha.


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

Pink,

Sorry about that just tryin to hlp, hope you weren't sitting on the couch...

TH


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

lol, no it was soooo funny to me at that moment.


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

P,

i just reread that ,,, not bad haha

note I just called you "P"

ha

TH


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Ebower 5 years ago from Georgia

wow; this was very powerful. I voted it up and awesome!


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seicheprey 5 years ago

Intense. I like the imagery and the feeling of sheer joy at being able to shatter another person. It's a nasty power to get a taste for, and I enjoyed your exploration of it. Awesome, per usual.


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

Powerful! Freeing! Amazing!


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BakerRambles 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD

You know I like that you published this. Not because I necessarily like it, but because it just happened to me by what I thought was the love of my life. And she was so valiant about it too. Maybe I'm just too sensitive at heart, but that is why I'm a writer. Thank you for creating this, you moved me with your words, I voted it up and interesting.


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

not everyone has had the priviledge of seeing what it is like to be on the other side of severe malice. i call it a priviledge because it always is to see what the opposition sees. the last line is one that i might take away, i dont really hate any part of me, not if ive learned from it. anyway, cheers and thank you for your gracious comments. :) ,


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

I have been there, and sadly, done that.. not my finest moment.. but no regrets! Not everything is rainbows and butterflies.. good for you for giving this side a voice. Loved it!


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

pink,

i gotta say I only hate one person in the world- thats only because of the "severe and undeserved ire this man spewed at me. Its no one here at HP. Very interesting hub as usual Pinkster...

TH


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

i love all of my peeps!


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

Pink,

MMMMMM, peeps marshmellowy goodness, cute little yellow chickiesmmmm pickem up pat em on the head and bite it off MmUHAHAJAHA peeps

TH


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Scarface1300 5 years ago

Poor man I feel for him. Left alone to fend against this Gezabel LOL... Really enjoyed this work. Thanks


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Jennuhlee 5 years ago from Pennsylvania

damn.


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

Jennulee,

i told you she was great

sup pinkly ya still got it...

"Damn"

TH


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

awe, are you talking me up tom?? lol


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

Pink,

I call em like I see em...even with one eye...HA

TH


JadedLove 5 years ago

I love that part of you. Twisting down to despair to find laughter on your lips, pain in your eyes, and manipulation in your heart. Voted way up and beautifully awesome


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the pink umbrella 5 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

.............i love that part of me too...;) .


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BeyondMax 4 years ago from Sydney, Australia

Provocative, fresh and daring. Love.


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Olde Cashmere 4 years ago from Michigan, United States

Honest and refreshing writing. I've recently been reading more poetry and this is among my favorites. Keep up the great work because you have a style that can capture the imagination of your readers. Voted up, awesome, and beautiful (:


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

thank you!!!


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Voronwe 4 years ago

A very raw and tender poem! You have a great way with words and your honest expression. Quite heartfelt. Thanks.


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

than you i still love this one lol

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