Somewhere East of Found.......

For far to long I reached my heart outward
and although never able to grasp
I remain here in the following darkness
no longer in posession of emotion to the task

I am bound within the galaxies of darkness
stuck within the web of night
And so you say ........"such is the nature
of solitude" .......sound advice alright

Your thoughts? Why do you remain a stranger
why don't you ever come around....why?
I see and feel you're painful question
which hurts all the more ...so I lie

I wish I could describe the feelings........
but I am unwilling to attempt
The silence though .....you read it as
some silent contempt

I watch you drive away once again and in the
dust filled vision
The cutting edge of solitude makes
a single smooth incision

And in the warm blooded flow of depression
the blood flows free
Untill coagulation arrives in a blessing
I kneel down on one knee


A scribbling of depression...........

Comments 15 comments

Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Hello Ahorseback,

Very deep thoughts here..the flow of depression..not able to stop it..peace or happiness finally comes stopping the flow that drains us all..a welcome release. Thank you for a great poem today.

Sunnie


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Freya Cesare 5 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Depression is the time when we always read something beyond what it's really meant.

Depression is the time when world seem upside down and everything is wrong

Depression is the time when we always meet the fault before right ever touch our sight

Being free of it, is great blessing

Because many are just falling

And end up by killing

themselves and sometimes also everything

which stuck around his being

You are far too great to be under depression spell, Dad.

I'm glad is on the fast


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Sunnie , Its sweet of you to share , Yes the "not able to stop it" is the essence of depression.....:-} be well.


marellen 5 years ago

I understand depression but not on a personal level. I do feel for those that have depression and have no support from family or friends.

Heartfelt poem....


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Freya , True depression is often times misunderstood , and many think that ,"well just shake it off " or "wow, someone is having a bad day". Over the years I have heard it all! Thank you for seeing between the lines and understanding. It truely is a heavy cloak thrown over one in such a way as to not be able to remove it . Even with treatment often times it sneaks in under the radar and sinks it's tentacles deep into the human tissue. Each moment , each movement of the mind and body is held captive. Its like trying to breath under water. We are so lucky to be able to reach out to others in ways like this , as never before ...to care! Aren't we? Thank you for being there! Hugs....


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Marellen, Thank you.

A "chemical immbalance" in the brain, such a simple term to describe broken lives , broken minds ! And something with such a deep hold on its victim as to never let them free. Thanks for sharing!


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Freewind Ginger 5 years ago from USA

Been there and done that. Such pain and such loss. Yet, out of it comes some of the most beautiful words. Well done and well expressed, my friend!


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Ahorseback, I hope this is not true of yourself, for the experience of depression is one of the most painful. It is the hardest thing to break.

A very good portrayal of the darkness of depression.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Freewind Ginger, Thank you for readng and understanding, Its true , it is hard to overcome ! Medication alone ,as well, isn't enough at times. Spending a life in it is such a waste. I'll never forget when I first admitted to the doctor these words. "I need Help" ..That alone was a load off my mind. Be well my friend. :-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Cardisa , Yes Im afraid so , Its not hard to portray when its inside you somewhere! But thank you for caring. And believe me , All is well now!......Hugs :-}


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful words. Many suffer from this, including me in day's past. Thank you for sharing.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Thank you Always Exploring , Glad you shared, and understand.:-}


daddysgirl 5 years ago

This is very helpful dad, it shows us all that we are all human. Every man/woman experiences some time of depression. I know that at times of depression for me I sometimes have to just change my state of mind. If you will, decide not to be depressed. Often we need to just look around! There are worse trials for others. Be thankful for the blessings we do have! Sometimes depression can also just be self pity. Not to downplay depression at all, just saying we can either join the party or not.....love and hugs always


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Hey Sweety Pie I'm so glad your OK , I have to say I have actually done that since I was a teenager , But , You can't change a state of mind that you do not control! Such is depression , That chemical thing! But you're right in that we have to also know impulse control and state of mind. Thought training works to some degree and is usefull , and as well I'm sure counciling is a great Idea , but it's also a big step. Anyway , I'm glad your okay and DON"T be lifting and working out alot!!! Love ya bunches0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0 DAD

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