Somewhere in Between

I'm somewhere in between there

And where I'm going

A work that's constantly in progress

Even when I'm not constantly in motion

Sometimes I may falter on my path

Lose my way and must turn back

Some things were eagerly anticipated

Other things became a painful detour

Still others were a delightful change of course

Lessons learned while living, loving, and losing

Turn each fail into a stepping stone for something more

Caught somewhere between those ahead and those behind

This moment here in time is and always will be mine

Fumbling through it can be a confusing place to be

But through it all thank God I still am me

There's a lot to lose, but even when I do

There's nothing that I have to prove

This work in progress is ready, willing, and able

To see the best in others, to give her best to life

Determined to enjoy this wild, amazing ride

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Faith Reaper 11 months ago from southern USA

What a great poem as to the human condition, Shan ...yes, I believe we are in a constant "in between" it seems on this wild ride we call life.

Wonderfully expressed as always. You are truly a gifted poet and the real deal too.

I have always loved Martina McBride.

Sharing everywhere

Hugs and much love always, sweetie

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Aw, Faith, thank you once again for your kind words. Yes, always in between. Martina McBride is a very talented singer. Karyn Williams is one I've taken a liking to lately as well. That song spoke to me when I was thinking about this poem. Nothing to prove, not even to myself. The Lord always knows my heart. :)

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drbj 11 months ago from south Florida

We all are somewhere in between. Enjoyed reading your poem.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Thank you. I'm glad that you enjoyed it. I hope that you and your family are doing well. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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Shyron E Shenko 11 months ago

Wonderful poem Shannon, I love Martina McBride also.

Yes we are all somewhere in between where we have been and where we are going.

Blessings to you on your journey

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Jodah 11 months ago from Queensland Australia

I love the message Shanmarie. We are all at some stage of in between. It is an exciting journey.

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ahorseback 11 months ago

Shan ,"nothing to prove ,not even to myself.. " Always having been somewhere between does just that , lets us lose ourselves, I was always a bit too easy for people to push in the directions they wanted rather than I . Nice read !!!!!!always Be vigilant

manatita44 11 months ago

An amazing ride, all right. You express it so well! Seems a very sincere approach to me. Sincerity is an excellent step, a great place to be. More to do, of course, but we both know this.

You express this inner journey so well in your poetry! I commend you. Continue ...continue.

Can I say that you look absolutely fabulous. I don't recall seeing this picture, seeing you like this... Nothing happens by chance, and perhaps you feel stronger, more confident within. All my Love, shanmarie. Higher blessings.

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tsmog 11 months ago from Escondido, CA

I feel as I am there now while see the truths shared . . . waiting for the next curve to arrive now :-)

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Ericdierker 11 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

Well done. The big in between. If yesterday is passed and tomorrow is not here yet -- then in between is surely the place to be. Very enjoyable read.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Thank you, Shyron. I appreciate your visits and your kind comments.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hi, Jodah. It is exciting, isn't it? Sometimes the things of a year ago seem so far away and removed. Only the things truly important stick around. The future is an open book that hasn't yet been written.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Aw, Ed. Sometimes I just feel lost to my own peers, family, and acquaintances. We're all in different places "in between" and moving at different paces throughout, too. It's easy to feel disconnected from them at times. As for vigilance, great advice. It seems to be the hardest when the criticism comes from those loved, admired, and respected. The closer someone is, the harder it is to not care about their opinions. In the end, though, all we can be is ourselves - changing and growing, but on our terms or we lose ourselves. That's a particularly bad thing if one is already struggling to hang on. Who knows, though, maybe it makes us stronger in the end?

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hi manatita,

Thank you much. There's always more to do. We're all always a work in progress. If we stopped trying and gave up, lost our zest for life, well, how boring would that be? If not boring, quite a shame. All emotion, all struggle, everything. to live. One can experience anguish emotionally and still "feel" a love for life. Not that I am in anguish, in fact just the opposite, but just saying.

Thank you for your kind words about the picture. You may not have seen it before. I don't know if I've used it here on HP before. It was taken in November of 2012, about a month or so after our house burned to the ground. Things were different, to say the least, and my best friend had just cut my hair. Crazy, huh? I let her experiment with doing layers on my hair. Hahaha. She's not even trained as a stylist.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hello, tsmog. We're always there. If we're not in a curve or a loop, we just ride happily along until it comes. What else can we do? And when it does come, be thankful for that too when it's all said and done. It just means you're alive. :)

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hi, Eric. That's the truth! I'm glad you enjoyed it I hope you and your family are having a very pleasant and peaceful Sunday.

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Jackie Lynnley 11 months ago from The Beautiful South

Great poetry and I love Martina!

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manatita44 11 months ago from london

Ha ha. Well you said that your house had just burnt down! Well! In a way perhaps it was a kind of fun thing to do. The hair, I mean. Glad that all's good now. Have a pleasant evening, shanmarie.

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always exploring 11 months ago from Southern Illinois

Somewhere in between is sometimes a safe haven, forgetting yesterday and waiting on tomorrow, anticipating a wonderful event. I like this. Peace and joy...

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Jackie!

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Yes, manatita, the house burned in September of that year. We were in a motel for a few weeks before moving to that house, which turned out to be temporary, though we intended to stay there. Things happen. Anyway, that picture was taken right before my son, who would've been about 7 at the time, took it upon himself to record a video wishing everyone on FB a Happy Thanksgiving. He began by saying his name and that everybody loves their mama. He left it there on the counter for me to find. It was too cute for me to be mad at him for using my laptop! So I shared his message with Facebook. . .Maybe I should find it there and share it here on HP for the holidays this year.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hi Ruby,

One thing I've learned, life is always worth anticipating even when we are not anticipating something specific. Call it hope or faith - perhaps both. Either way, when things are not overwhelming as can sometimes happen if we aren't careful, it's better to anticipate better. Know it's coming until you feel it's there. And when times are content, hold onto those times too and enjoy them. Peace and joy to you too.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 11 months ago from Riga, Latvia

Awesome poetry and great music.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Gypsy! Hope you're doing well. Good to see you here.

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MsDora 11 months ago from The Caribbean

I agree. It is important to enjoy the ride at every stage--at the last station, at the next station, and in between. Happy, healthy attitude!

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Oh, MsDora, right now I am so full of anticipation for something I just discovered. An eye-opening opportunity that could change the approach I was taking to my novel. I'll do a hub about the experience too.

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billybuc 11 months ago from Olympia, WA

The day I stop growing I'm in serious is a great joy ride, but it took me quite a few years to really appreciate it.

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Thank you, Bill. Appreciating the ride has not been issue for me. However, I'm probably harder on myself than most people ever intend to be. I'm having to learn to appreciate my own faults and mistakes along with every other twist and turn this life takes.

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ahorseback 11 months ago

Shannie , Sometimes we can hang on the angry words spoken by a loved one who doesn't feel anything but afraid themselves ! Forgive them , they too are human . Even though we think so highly of them .......Big ole hug from me to you !

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ahorseback 11 months ago

By the way , do you live near the Big Bend State park in Texas ?

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Hi, Ed. I agree! I can't stay angry with anyone for long. It's gone within seconds or even minutes. If it really upsets me, it just turns to hurt. But you're right, the other person is feeling something pretty powerful too. If it is someone close, one has to really care about the other person to become that angry. Someone told me that many, many years ago. I guess I was about 18 at the time. I was upset about someone else being so angry and at my own anger even though mine never lasts long and he said it was something his mother always told him. Since then, I've found that to be very true of just about any powerful emotion. It's not about caring what others think so much as caring about that person. Otherwise, it's so much easier to write off and dismiss the behaviors of others as unimportant to our own well being, therefore not worth letting those people get to us. Or if we care about a particular cause or principle deeply, emotional reactions might be stronger.

Oh, gosh, no. I don't live anywhere near Big Bend. It's on my list of places I'd love to see some day though. I've been to quite a few beautiful places in TX, however. This state is huge, but when I used to do satellite television installations with my husband, we went far and wide in this state as well as a few neighboring ones. I've been to far south TX where one of my aunts and my uncle were born, near the border. And I've been through the panhandle a few times, once on my way to Colorado when I was in college. I've been out west, through a breathtaking canyon region. But I've never been to Big Bend. I actually live in the DFW area. It's a short drive from where I live to either Dallas or Ft Worth. Why do you ask?

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ahorseback 11 months ago

Me and my wife are retiring this year and putting our home on the market in Vermont , we will become gypsies living in our RV on the roads of the southwest mostly off grid . The Big bend area is one place we haven't been and wish to see , I have been to DFW though ! Flew in there a few years ago and went to old Fort Worth and the Mesquite rodeo ! I want to see more of Texas too , the ocean front , the" hill country" we have gypsy hearts I guess .......:-]

Shan , there are those of us who are more sensitive to others moods and it costs us dearly all through life . I think the only answer to that is to throw our love at everyone all the while smiling , until we just can't do it anymore ...:-]

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shanmarie 11 months ago from Texas Author

Oh, that sounds like a lovely existence. I would enjoy that about as much as wide open spaces. In fact, the seeing new places is what I miss about those days traveling for installs.

I hope you will continue to post here on HP.

Love is absolutely the way to go!

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YouGet1Shot 10 months ago from USA

Hi Shan,

I can definitely relate to feeling lost and frustrated and never quite where I want to be in life. But I bet even the people out there who seem to have it all together and seem to be so successful -- even they feel "in between" too. Just look at the high rate of depression and suicide among celebrities. Kind of a downer, but I love your positive spirit as you move toward the end of your poem. I could use more of that!


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shanmarie 10 months ago from Texas Author

I'm sure it happens to us all, YouGet1Shot, at one or more points in our lives. Yes, that kind of facade and depression that results is sad. There is no other way to be but positive. Otherwise, a deeper depression would take hold. Even in life's most overwhelming times, appreciation for the better moments must be present as well as an appreciation for even the dark moments. There's always light to be found if we just look.

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