Song Lyrics - I Still Think Of You

It was the same old question
What was I doing here?
Even though it was my choice
Something besides love drew me near

It was about trying to settle down
I discarded the card that loved me
I met someone new and we started right away
I told my ex and all she could say was, "Lovely"

I still had that crazy streak
I was always kind of wild
We went out and I ordered her a drink
She wanted a coke and said, "I was born to be mild"

Yes she did
That's what she said
I thought it was funny
But it stayed in my head

I met her folks outside the church
They were believers and invited me to their table
While they all bowed their heads to pray
I knew that I would be unable

She still lived at home with mom and dad
She was beautiful and somehow fell for me
But it didn't take long to find out
All she really wanted was to be free

In six weeks we were engaged
Her Mom said, "You're so young"
But she told her, "You were young too"
And Mom realized the bell had been rung

Yes they did
That's what they said
It wasn't funny
But it stayed in their head

In less than a year the walls closed in
And the barbed wire fence was built
We had no business getting married
I knew one of us was going to live with the guilt

One night we decided to go out
We were alone even though we sat together
The guitar player sang about true love
But my voice turned her heart's lace to leather

You know she left me for another man
She yelled, "I'm sorry I ever met you!"
I said, "That goes for me too!"
She left and I wondered if that was true

Yes we did
That's what we said
It wasn't funny
And it stayed in my head

The man I let live is no longer around
She left him too as she struggled with life
I talked to her a few times
But she said, "Now I'm someone else's wife"

She told me she was the girl she used to be
The problem was she couldn't be that way with me
I told her it was something that I couldn't figure out
But I hold no grudge so I hope she lives happily

She was once my wife and she cried at the altar
Her Daddy cried too when I told him goodbye
Twenty years later I know I can't fault her
He said, "I'm sorry" but I told him don't ask her why

Yes we did
That's what we said
It wasn't funny
But it stayed in our head

He was old school and didn't understand a broken vow
I said a piece of paper doesn't show you how
To love each other your whole life through
It was over long before the words "I do"

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lavender3957 5 years ago

Loved this hub. Look forward to many more.


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Tragic and lovely, witty and calm, speaks volumes about our need to carry on. Interesting play with the chorus verse. Such talent!


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bizzymom 5 years ago from New York

Beautiful. Keep on writing.


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Terishere 5 years ago

Beautifully written, a story of marrying for the wrong reasons, yet wishing happiness for the one who left....

Voted up!

Terri


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Berga 5 years ago from SKIEN

useful and beautifully sad...Why ..why we live this way?....


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danfresnourban 5 years ago from Fresno, CA

Beautiful, thanks for sharing.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Thank all of you. This is a true story... I heard Bob Dylan's "Tangled Up In Blue" the other day, sat down and wrote this out. It is factual and is a look back on my life and how I was unable to rise to the occasion. She and I have made our peace and realize the good in each other. Life goes on and you try to understand yourself and how you impact others. I don't want to hold anyone back and before I get involved I have to be sure I'm not chasing a dream that is being imputed on an unsuspecting soul....


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Ah yes, the Bob Dylan connection. I love that man!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@snakeslane - unbelievably I heard a band tonight sing that song by Dylan. I've never heard anyone do it live except Dylan himself. Weird....


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

I miss that song, I'm going to see if I can find it now online.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

The opening chords are so disarming... you just stop what you are doing and reach for the volume... kind of like "Turn Turn Turn" by The Byrds...


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Found it! Not as good as the record, but there was dear old Bob singing. U tube magic. I went through quite a lenghthy Bob Dylan phase in my life, used to know all the words to some of his songs and sing them (badly) every chance I could get, too funny. I think Mr Tamborine Man ranks up there as one of my all time favorite songs.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Bruce Springsteen once said the opening snare shot of Like A Rolling Stone was like the door being kicked open to your mind... in fact Dylan inspired me to write my first real piece of work (Why Do We Have To Sing This Song? - posted on here somewhere)... I have some piano music of his and I thought, "Why does it have to be someone famous to protest about war?" So I thought, "I want to say something" and I did....


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

Wow! Really? that's so cool. Like a Rolling Stone, that song still plays in my head regularly.


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

I went back and listened to that and next song on the list was Neil Young Heart of Gold, nice musical evening . Thanks Suburban Poet. Oh and while on this topic, the Bob Dylan connection to your work could be the makings of a great Hub...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Neil Young is another long-time favorite of mine. Like A Rolling Stone is just a gem.. but we all know that...

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