Sonnet Of Lament

This is a much-needed release of my feelings at the moment. I haven't poured this much of my heart into my writing in quite some time. This is not a work of fiction. . .




shining remedy, glisten
close your ears and listen
eyes gaze on new found light
shadows fall on infant sight
arms outstretched forever
grasping toward the heavens
forgive me and forget me
seventy times seven
sunsets draped by curtains


whispers travel, wave-like
as ocean makes its landfall
she loathes it, yet she craves
to bask in what she hates
silhouettes, clear defined
telling stories, unrefined
rough drafts, unedited
need not be told to change
to please the worthless eye
of shallow, blinded critics


I know not how to shed
one more tear in her stead
yet, still the floods of fire
pour out of broken vessels
spilling over unto tables
crafted from the finest forest
in all the lands around us


this blazing day awoke me
silently, it spoke to me
warning me of nearing nightfall
of which there is no relief
the sun accepts its place
behind the stars and canvas
and the radiance of her heart
resides beneath a mask
of ever-changing faces


expression of pain so deep
in words remains but useless
for you to feel my heartbeat
would be only but an instance
but all I ask of you, for now
is to simply try to grasp it
hold tightly to it, for a second
cherish it, as if your own
you need not bear its weight
for any longer than a moment


If I could place my loneliness
inside the confines of your chest
and allow my blood to course
throughout your veins...
perhaps my heart would hold a place
within your lovely emptiness




© copyright Ben D.A 2011



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carolinemd21 5 years ago from Close to Heaven

This is really beautiful. The music and photos really add to it.


shygirl2 5 years ago

See, its like I told you, BenWritings...you are the kind of man most women long for! Great poem...reminds me of the great poets of the past who knew how to express their every emotion. :D Loved it...Up and Awesome!


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

The language is beautiful but I'm not sure what this is about. I wouldn't ask, but you mention that this is not fiction. Usually when someone prefaces with something like that, the poem is about a past tragedy or something. I just couldn't decipher what was going on here after two readings, other than tumultous feelings about a girl. Maybe I'm thick-headed, or too right-brained, or both.

This sounds like a personal bit of writing so I don't mean to soil the furniture, just being honest. Peace.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

This one speaks - whispers - in the closest regions of the heart. I hope "she" hears it too, Ben. Hugs.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

With every breath you take Benny, life will change, feelings will seem a little different and it won't stay the same for long ~ especially when it doesn't feel so good at the moment. Remember that! I am so glad you write to release what is bottled up inside and to share your great work with all of us. Take care of you!

Sharyn


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

we've all been there, hope you are better now.


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aylee95 5 years ago from Honolulu, HI.

Beutiful.

It is obvious that this one was from the heart. The words were so full of emotion, each and every one. It was like they had a life of their own. And I hope that there might be someone out there that is willing to hold on to you and never let go.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

always exploring - thanks a lot for reading and enjoying it :]

Nikki - I was in a truly broken state of mind when I wrote it...I didn't write a single word that didn't flow directly from my heart. Thanks very much for that comment, it means a lot


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

"she loathes it, yet she craves

to bask in what she hates"

loved this. this was ah-maz-ing.

"If I could place my loneliness

inside the confines of your chest

and allow my blood to course

throughout your veins...

perhaps my heart would hold a place

within your lovely emptiness"

this is beauiful, yet sad. "to live alone and empty, i give you my heart, so that you dont have to." ~~ nikki j


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Unrequited love, Loneliness. It's all there. Well done.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Thank you Acer and Shah

Cardisa - you really don't know how much that means to me. I honestly do write straight from the heart, from some well of emotions that I can't even begin to understand. When I wrote this one, I was just barely hanging on. Truthfully, when I write something like this, it saves me from terrible things. Thank you so much

Bumpsys - I needed a hug when I wrote it last night. I needed more than that. I needed an angel, but I settled for pouring it all out into this poem

Lizzybeth - you're wonderful. You deserve to find your man as well. You've been a great supporter of my writing since I began, and I thank you for that :]


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Elizabeth99 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI

Ben, your writing style is so... diverse. This one, along with the music of course, was...I can't even describe it, I sorta felt like I was in a dream. Your style is always changing and growing. I hope you find that girl you can share your everything with, when you find her let me know, because she will be one of the luckiest people alive :) I love this, up and beautiful.


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Bumpsysmum 5 years ago from Cambridgeshire

I wished I could've hugged you Ben, you touched several chords, powerful poetry :-)


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

You pour such feeling and emotion in your words. I am amazed at how you express yourself. I can't get enough of your poetry. Each time I see you publish a new hub I smile, anxiously waiting to read it.

Cardisa


shah wharton 5 years ago

Great work Ben - Beautiful. Shah. X


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

Lonliness is an important learning curve towards a more responsible heart.;)


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

randy - I was just totally messed up when I wrote it last night. It sucked the air out of my lungs as well. It feels different for me. Unlike anything I've written

Thank you for your support


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Randy Behavior 5 years ago from Near the Ocean

There is so much beauty in your sadness Ben. Your writing is always powerful, always emotional, but this time it sucked the air from my lungs. I hope somebody worthy finds you and takes your pain away.

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