Speculations of Mine

God's Grace 15/12/2015

I'm supposed to spread the Christmas cheer

Yet my heart is overwhelmed with sadness

I keep on reminding myself that Jesus is near

Don't know when He will lift up my darkness.


Whenever I say something not nice about someone

Even just what happened which are not nice

Even just sharing things about others with my mom

Later it feels terrible and totally disappointed with myself.


Talking or writing I don't know which one is more scary

Dreams or visions I don't know which one drove me crazy

Fear or anger I don't know which one I did mostly

But all I know is that Jesus is the only hope for my stupidity.


Singing and dancing always made me so happy

Unfortunately doing it seems all so temporarily

Now reading or watching programs makes me sleepy

Cannot understand why I have to be .


Little life lessons I learnt from my father's stories

"Do to others what you want them do to you"

Not the best when it comes to practicing this

I wish I'm more caring enough to do.


Love keeps no records of wrongs one might do

But I just seems to remember some of the bad things

Which rob my strength and peace as it cut through,

The heart of mine as it finds it hard to keep things hidden.


As a Little Rock whenever I don't feel firm, strong or safe

So then I tend to call myself in my third name

Which means 'Grace' as it reminds me of 'God's Grace'

So daily I live to adore and magnify His glorious Name.

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Dynamic Duo 16/12/2015

This is a story of once young love

A boy and a girl who walked out of love

They thought they were too young

Separated to find God's will and time.


He saw another out of the place

Which didn't workout as it wasn't the same

But God who thought it's time for some action

A bomb was blasted when he was inside of a train.


Yes it was one unforgetful day

Bodies lying, blood was shed

After many days he opened his eyes

At the hospital The She was at his side.


She accepted him as he was

She cared and shared as she once was

Sooner God said it was time for them to be one

They united in God the father, Holy Spirit and the Son.


She was an airhostess who had a spine pain

Which made it worse that she was unable to walk even with a cain

She was bed ridden for almost four long years

The faith in Christ and the love for her children they prayed in tears.


The test of time can show how you are made of

Thank and praise God, healing came from above

Now she works as a wedding and an event planner

The dynamic duo works as a team to inspire the young.

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Honestly I'm not at all comfortable with something like this. Compassionate heart.
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Sharing and Caring

I see elderly homeless and on the pavement

Some have no place to eat, be clean and rest

It is saddening to see people like them

I hope this Christmas would be pleasant for them.


This is why I have always admired the missionaries

Who commit their lives to care for others

To put medicine by cleaning their wounds

Hugging and kissing, feeding the hungry tummies.


There's this man in his sarong and dirty shirt

He walks down the road with a gaze of search

A sick wounded dog at his heels keeping company

They spend their time near a Food City.


Another with a white full beard and wearing white

All I hear is the gibberish as I pass by

I simply hope there's a home for all

Enough money to take care of them all.

Turtly

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Turtly 16/12/2015

I visited Sheni the Peni and her sister Tehi

It's their turtle brought some fine memories

When I was not a teen but a kid

I went for spend the days at my cousins.


They had two turtles in their pond

We ate turtles' long eggs for lunch

It tasted different and didn't like that much

I was a bit scared when it put it's head out.


It's thick greenery hard shell and slipperyness

Seems to be a great support and good for protection

Well as I remember they had caged love birds

A dog and two big fish tanks including cats.


Oh well, my father's elder brother is a good chef

He used to entertain all Chinese and Thaiwan men

As he translated and good in languages

He also did some coral cutting side business.


We went to the movies all dressed alike

We were crazy over Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

And Popeye the sailor man cartoons

It was such an awesome time.




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Tuk Tuk 16/12/2015

The Tuk Tuk Taxi, the famous three--wheeler

Creep through even from the small entrance

You could see in the traffic light and comfy

An easy ride no parking expectancy.


Well some drivers are nice and some annoying

On the road you can be in so many moods as it's tiring

According to my mom one can be kind or even scary

So it's better to believe in Jesus when travelling.


One morning as she was stuck in the traffic

She was getting late to go to her office

While it was raining the nice driver said

She could take his umbrella and return it later again.


So there she was with the umbrella at her office for two weeks

Thinking that the Tuk Tuk driver would come for it

To her the Holy Spirit convinced to take it

Thank God she came early through the rain with the help of it.

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billybuc 11 months ago from Olympia, WA

I will share with you what works for me when I am hard on myself...the simple reminder that I'm a spiritual being having a human experience and perfection will never be within my grasp. :)


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rdsparrowriter 11 months ago Author

Thank you sir Billy. You're a wise man who is a great teacher :)


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manatita44 11 months ago from london

A little sad today, my Sweet. Not your usual style, but at least you picked up in the last poem. You have always come over as a sweet, delicate flower. You need shelter and you are getting it nicely from your home.

You have a beautifully giving Spirit, and that can sometimes be the problem. Be strong, before you offer yourself to others.

I think Bill is try to lift up your spirits like I'm doing, but in a different way. You're a spiritual being all right, and so nothing is impossible. Nothing! But yes, patience is necessary. We cannot move faster than Grace.

In any case, without inner strength, we cannot hold the Higher experiences, and so our Lord is preparing you, my Sweet. That which is bitter to endure, is sweet to remember. MERRY CHRISTMAS!


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rdsparrowriter 11 months ago Author

Thank you manatita for your kind concern and thoughtful advice. Yes in God alone I can be strong and I feel a lot better :) Merry Christmas to you!!


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aviannovice 11 months ago from Stillwater, OK

Very well done material. Sometimes as we get older, we become more patient, and that is when we really learn the truth.


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rdsparrowriter 11 months ago Author

Thank you aviannovice :) Very well said :)

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