Stupid Tears

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Stupid, stupid tears

Wet little marks of weakness

Not like other girls who can pull

You forth on a whim

To play at hearts strings

For me, you are the loss of all power

When wooden spoons became weapons

I let nary a tear fall

For she didn’t really win 

Then

When elders fell, not for three did I cry but

Yes, admittedly for her and for mother I suppose

But rarely ever, until now

A stupid poem pulls stupid tears

I feel another's pain 

As if mine 

Is not enough for one

But one is all and all is known to me 

If only for an instant

In that instant I can only smile 

For the truth is beautiful 

But fleeting

This farce hangs about the rest of time 

Pulling out tears from the unawares 

Over stupid earthly things

If holding back the water 

Is a struggle, I’ve already lost 

Stupid hateful tears show my weakness 

Humanness, my fears

Shall I let mine go?

Wash the rocks from my throat

Wash the green to red

No, I’m not so evolved as yet

A cry for pain or death perhaps 

Excusable

But for life and its tragedies

I’ll hold fast

I will fight, and I will fail

For I am weak, laughable, 

Frail

And every day is pain 

Dreams die like dragon flies

To cry or not? 

I vote not

An almost perfect record 

40 years

Here they come again

Stupid, stupid tears

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dohn121 7 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

Such melancholy Randy...I really hope you're not feeling this way! You sold me that the strain of emotions are indeed real, regardless...And I promised myself I wouldn't cry :(


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Wow you're fast on the draw Dohn. No I'm all good. Just examining how I have changed. I used to be so tough, now even poetry makes me sob. But not today, today I'm tough as nails. :)


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

Sometimes we all have to give in to the emotion some poems can pull. I admire your forty year dry spell but all records are made to be broken. What was the poem that got you?


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

'My humanness'.... its what the world ought to see from all of us. A good cry I have not had in years, though these words bring about the nostalgia in what they feel like.

Embrace the tears of tomorrow, they too will bring about the side we show not to others, and bring us to deeper understandings of ourselves. Bravo!


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Hi Wesley. It was a poem about a woman who lost two children. Not the least bit stupid really. It touched on some of my core beliefs and I was undone. Hate it when that happens.

Hello EM. So you think with tears comes realization? Hmmmm. I'll have to ponder that.


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

well, it could be either. I know in my introspective times I become overcome with emotion, often brings tears. Though there may have been an event to bring me to that, so I may cry before I realize why. Chicken or egg??


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

I think any early tears I had were the result of buying into the whole facade of life. Now I cry and I know better, but that perhaps is why I do?


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

When the facade of life melts away and we see things for how they are and not how we choose them to be seen, its pretty empowering to be a step ahead of the game... ;)


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

But there is also a rawness to it. Like being a babe again. Everything is shiny and new... really new.


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

Definitely new and raw and maybe a little uncomfortable... but real.... like never before real.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Indeed :)


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

I like those moments.... though I guess we all avoid them when we don't like the rip of the bandaid


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NotMyself 7 years ago from Current.

pain is what makes us know we are alive. there just isn't enough bliss to go around. in these moments, we are prey and vulnerable--but to recognize this--and to write about it is what builds strength--the power of words and the ability to evoke reaction to your work, dearest Randy is a more difficult task which you master with each poem you write--it is never random--or over played. I love to read of your vulnerability and your means to conquer it!

Bravo, to another brilliant poem, emotionally fierce!

-superhugs- for my dearest Randy.


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Jess Killmenow 7 years ago from Nowheresville, Eastern United States

Water girl, pressed

Fluid as poetry

Emotions wetly expressed

Flowing freely

Dew of sadness

What dam would suffice to restrain

This hot and salty rain?


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I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 7 years ago

There is so much beauty and power in the depth of real emaotion laid bare! Beautiful


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alekhouse 7 years ago from Louisville, Kentucky

Randy, Sorry, but I don't agree with you about tears. I think they are healing and that the act of crying is a tremendous release. I believe that bottling them up is harmful both mentally and physically.

I do not think they are a sign of weakness. On the contrary, it shows great strength to be able to cry no matter who is there to see you. If they criticize, that's their weakness and shows a lack of sensitivity.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Thank you for such a thoughtful comment Notmyself. In pain there is growth and there is poetry. :) I am glad you say it is "never random" or "over played." Never gave that much thought before. I will now though. Hugs back to you.

Oh Jess you honor me with a poem. Thank you.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Invictus - I do sometimes feel like a fresh caught fish. I gut myself for all's entertainment.

Hi alekhouse! Certainly do not apologize. It is scientifically proven that tears are very healthy and release toxic chemicals from the body. I have an interior battle with tears that stems from my childhood. Holding back tears was the only power I had over the situation. My tide finally seems to be turning now. You, Alekhouse are just more evolved than I. :)


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Georgiakevin 7 years ago from Central Georgia

What an emotional poem. It really draws the reader in.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Thanks for the comment Kevin.


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blaise25 7 years ago from close to you...

very powerful Randy!

sad and tough as a tear..

you're a good writer ;p


Justine76 7 years ago

wow. its contagious...


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Thank you for the nice comment Blaise.

Tears are Justine?


Justine76 7 years ago

ummm...tears for other people when you can't have them for yourself. Hope you dont mind me barging in here after you being here all this time? But, like I told FD, I am considering becoming a friendly professional stalker. And honestly, the way I was raised, I dont cry.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Tough cookie like me eh? Don't be. Cry if only in the shower it is healthier. Its really nice to meet you Justine I'll definitely find the time to read your stuff. Love and light to you.


philip carey 61 7 years ago

This one got me thinking, which is a very good review. What is crying? What purpose does it serve? What are it's kinds? What does it do for us? I want to think about it and try to work it out.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Actually Philip they are very necessary emotionally and physically. Check out this article: http://www.answersingenesis.org/creation/v15/i4/te...


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cr8ve1 7 years ago

WOW!!! I started tearing up just reading the title! Great, wonderful, painful, beautiful, wretched, loving, senseless, humbling, numbing.......Gee...I'm running out of words to describe this poem!

This was FANTABULOUS...thank you for sharing this with us..you totally ROCK!!!


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mercon 7 years ago

hhmm........... :((


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tantrum 7 years ago from Tropic of Capricorn

I agree with you that sometimes tears make us feel stupid.

More so when we shed them for someone or something that doesn't deserve them.


poetlorraine 7 years ago

crying is an art form for some, i don't like it why i don't know but it happens like your poem says


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Nice to meet you cr8ve1! What a lovely comment. I don't think I've ever gotten a "fantabulous" before. *Blush*

Hi Mercon sorry to make you :((. :))

Ya Tantrum, nothing worse than insult to injury. First the undeserving hurt you, then you give them the satisfaction of tears. That's the worst.

Hi Poet :) Some women where tears like jewelry... read that on a hub somewhere.


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James A Watkins 7 years ago from Chicago

I'm not afraid to cry. I think it's good for me. Life is sad. Thank you for your fine poem. I enjoyed it.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

I think guys cry now more than in years past. Probably an evolutionary thing.


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James A Watkins 7 years ago from Chicago

Maybe it's the Alan Alda thing. :)


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

Do we though? Or is it we are ok with sharing that we do?


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Well, since I'm not a guy you will have to tell me. I can tell you that I hang out with weepy dudes though.


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MFB III 6 years ago from United States

Tears Stain.

Tear stains

are not

easily removed

you can't just

"SHOUT" them out

even though "SHOUT!"

always works well

when I launder my

regular stains

of coffee, blood

ketchup, mustard

chocolate and other

far more insidious fluids

my own of course

there's no Monica

saving my wash

as evidence of my

joy or my tears.

Tear stains though

they linger and are

so damned hard

to erase

~

Their tracks

go on for much

greater distances

as we journey through

life's muck

their essence

effects so much

even after

gravity claims

thier bulk

long after

evaporation

works it's

presto-digitation.

Tear stains haunt us

causing heartaches

and stealing hours

of would be

joyous moments.

Turning them instead

into bitter tragic

segments

of the few years

we are granted

in this domain

we call human existence.

I guess tear stains

are one of the

dilemma's of life.

~~~~~~~~~~MFB III


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Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Good morning MFB :) My girlfriend just called to tell me the Cancer finally defeated her Mom. I cried. No shame this time, for my tears were for her.


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kea 6 years ago

Hi Randy - as usual, great hub. I like the way you express emotion through your words! Take Care.


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Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Well hi Kea! Nice to see you.


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john mcmahon poet 5 years ago from Dumbarton, Scottland

this is very good, it is really deep almost confessional, i loved it i look forward to reading more from you soon


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Randy Behavior 5 years ago from Near the Ocean Author

Thank you John. I suppose it is.

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