TRYING TO GET BACK TO NORMAL - Life Choices 101
When I was a child, my life was not really "normal." I think inside my head I wanted to have a normal existence but the cards were stacked against me. Growing up with a father who was wellknown in the music business and a mother who had mental issues was not the best mix for "normal."
I often wonder what it would have been like if I grew up with normal parents. People who just have a normal career and work a normal job for 20 or more years and then retire. Would I be who I am today? NO FRIGGIN WAY! ha
Somewhere in the mix it was never meant to be so I created my own "normal" world at the time and pretended that my life was completely "normal" like everyone else. As the years went by I noticed that no one I knew was normal. My family and extended family were crazy and I could not stand most of them! Infact I have memories of relatives actually asking me for favors at family funerals! Is nothing sacred?!!! But one great thing came out of it all and let me tell you "what it is!"
LOTS OF CRAZY PEOPLE TO WRITE ABOUT!!!! YAHOO!!!!
I have enough material and "characters" to put in about 5-10 novels and a couple of screenplays. Really, one day I am hoping that a comedy of mine ends up on the big screen just so I can show everyone some of these wackadoo's! My Aunt who used to cackle should have a starring role for sure! I used to imitate her all of the time and made my father cry from laughter! It was worth it just for that! I'm not sure my father realized how messed up his family was but he tried to give us some sense of "belonging." So I guess I can say it was nice to have somewhere to go on holidays! Great food and a lot of head trips at the same time! I guess these crazy people seemed "normal" to my father who was not "normal" at all! ha ha
Finding A Normal Mate
So when I was younger I met and married someone who was sort of like my father. I mean not exactly, but let's just say he too was a "character" who loved attention. So did his father who was a famous comedian and who never was "normal." Not even for a minute. I can't blame him or his family because they grew up in the entertainment business and all sorts of wacko's were always around them. When I married my first husband, I became part of the 24 hour movie that existed almost every single day. It was fun but after time it just took it's toll. I was out of control and seeking some sort of "normal" place and I just could not find it. After I left, I started my journey back to normal. I have to say it took me many years, another marriage, two amazing children and finally a place of peace. Seriously....sometimes I just don't know how I made it where I am now! Especially after such a crazy beginning here on earth.
The second man I married (he was a boy at the time) seemed to be normal when I met him. A college graduate, British, brilliant writer.....but after time and realizing how alcohol effected his family and his upbringing, the disfunction run off eventually hit me and my "trying to be normal life" just kept getting thrown "off course." I was desperately seeking "normal." So once again I set off on my journey to "trying to get back to normal."
So one of the things I had to realize is that my life has not ever been very "normal" even when I think it is. I really try to give my children a normal home with lots of healthy people around and this is a good thing. Crazy causers and wannabes are not allowed to set foot on the property. I don't even keep in touch with most of my real family members or cousins. Most of my closest circle is made up of really amazing friends who are the most "normal" I could find! ha
Let's face it, NORMAL can be really boring! But the best part is that even if you try to get back to normal, it is better then making "stupid choices" over and over again. I can honestly say I'm the happiest I have ever been with a NORMAL home away from crazy Hollywood and when I do work in the business, I keep it very far away from my private life.
To preserve NORMAL you need to preserve a sacred place where you can exist with out crazy people around. This is the only way to live a peaceful life. Trust me.
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