That Can't Be Good

Until Now My Day Is Fine

Things have a funny way of changing

Sometimes slowly over time

Today instantly

As if I had flipped a light switch

My nice beautiful day turned dark

I kept on thinking it would go away

Instead the sound got louder

Thinking what to do next

I have no choice

I was driving along peacefully

Really joyfully and filled with the kind of excitement a jelly filled candy has

You know what to expect and you suck and suck on that hard candy

You just don't know when

Then at the perfect moment when you should be continuing that anticipated feeling

That you have had in the past

Another feeling takes it's place

This is one of frustration and sadness

You know this feeling is one that couldn't be avoided

It was just time

The end result is time and money

I put my blinker on to pull over

I was heading to see a friend

A busy day at work

No snags or hang ups

A smooth day after all

The sun hasn't even left yet

The night seemed hours away

I could hear the sound of cars and my engine purring

A kind of magic all of it's own

I quickly think how wonderful that it happened now

After work and on my free time

If it took place two days ago

That would of been bad

I was driving in a funeral procession

So there is a underlying plan in a plan

That would be God's plan

I make my plans and think of what I want to do

Then the big boss

Says well it will happen the way you think but then again not exactly what you thought

For reasons I do not know

At least at this time

I can only take educated guesses

It was time

Kind of ironic

With the eve of September 11th

A very sad and solemn day

Where so many innocent people's lives were lost

What an unforgettable tradegy

In my mind my problem seems rather silly and riducious

In the big scope of life

it can never even compare

My heart will always ache for everyone who had to deal with the pain and loss

In my mind a senseless tradegy

One that couldn't be avoided

We didn't know

There will always be evil in the world

One that I have so much trouble trying to understand




So horrific

So as I deal with my tinniest delema

What gives me the right to complain

I am reaching to God

Please let it not be a lot of money

Moneys tight this month

I roll down my window to listen closer

The screeching noise I heard now sounds so much louder

I close up my window

Then turn up the radio louder

As if I could drown out the sound

It would go away

Now I came to my senses

I picked up my cell phone and called a friend

Who lucky for me is a home mechanic

I explain the situation

I will have a job for you

I was driving along and my breaks started to sqeel

Almost like a pig

So random and infrequent

As I drove further

The pitch became higher and louder

Now I have to ask the most important question

When are you free ?

Today is Saturday night

Monday give me a call

O.k. As he seemed busy doing something else

I caught him maybe in the middle of watching a movie

Who knows ?

Maybe making love

I am left to fend for myself

In the back of my mind I was hoping he was going to say

Where are you ?

I know he just got home from work three hours ago too

Bring the car on by

I can fix it no problem

He knows I do a lot of driving

Well those words never entered his mind

I was glad he picked up the phone

I should be happy all around

I am still not

To top it off later that evening

I got news of another friends mother

In the hospital

The family thinks it won't be long

His mother is I think 86

Don't you hate it when people say

She had a good life

Almost if we justify death

She had a few falls recently

This time she isn't able to bounce back like she use too

It could be any day

All they know now it's soon

Miracles happen and wouldn't that be something

If her health improved miraculously

She still is o.k. In her mind and everywhere else

So that doesn't seem right either

So I have to go home and I drive further

The screech becomes too loud

I hit a bump and the sound stopped for ten miles

Then I hit another bump it's back louder than ever

When I hit the breaks it stops

Now I know it's getting worse by the second

I end up driving for another hour

Closer to home

I have already left two calls for my wife

She calls back

I explain the situation

I decide to leave the car at a near bye mall

My wife says you have to let mall security know

The mall closes at nine

The time is 8:57

I hurry in to find mall security

To see if I can leave it for two days

You can leave it over night

Any longer than that you will get towed

In the big picture of life

I am so blessed

On a small scale

I just got the short straw

I will forget the car trouble and my worries

Even if not at this moment

I will always remember

The pain and the anguish

Off all the people who are so worse off than me

I know God is capable of anything

Wouldn't it be something

If their troubles were as little as mine

and my troubles just went away

I have to do the right thing

First thing in the morning


I'm calling triple A

For now I'm getting a nice shower

Eating a late supper

Off to bed

To rest my head

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Jodah 5 weeks ago from Queensland Australia

I feel for you, Dream On. I dread car problems and breakdowns. I put my car in for a service last week...$515 quoted...I got the dreaded phone call.."brake pads need replacing, pollen filter, fluid, oil leak...".. Now cost has jumped to $1100... Can only afford $800 so I tell them to do the brakes and whatever else is most urgent. A dear friend also passed away last week from cancer. I had just helped him and his wife move house one month ago. They hadn't even fully unpacked yet. Life sometimes doesn't seem fair, but we have to put it in perspective and realise there are always others worse off. Thanks for writing this. Hope your car problem is sorted out.

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DREAM ON 5 weeks ago Author

Jodah I first want to send my deepest sympathy for loss of your dear friend. I am sure they both appreciated your help in time of need and know how much you mean to them. Friends like you are harder to find today. Car trouble definitely makes my head spin. Ouch!!! Car repairs are not cheap. I am very happy for all the times we turn the key and zoom off we go. Things in life wear out and our bodies are no different. What makes my life really special is when I get to share my wildest thoughts and realize I'm not alone. No matter what happens there is a solution hidden somewhere. I just have to find it. Then when I read your story I know and understand what your dealing with. Maybe you found the solution before me. If not maybe this hub brought a smile to a bad day. I do know reading your comment made me feel better. Not because of the troubles you are having and had but because you were nice enough to share and through all your dealing with still hoped me the best. It shows in life people are resilient and above all else we can and will find ways to enjoy life. Thank you so much. Happy Sunday.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 5 weeks ago from Riga, Latvia

It is rough when life throws you all kinds of curves and it is always good to keep believing in miracles. Hope your car can get fixed without too many problems.

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DREAM ON 5 weeks ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee My friend replaced the brakes doing the rotors and the pads. He charged a lot less than a mechanic would. One hundred and sixty dollars and our car is running fine again. My friends mother passed away two hours after I seen her.She is at peace. No more troubles. I am thank for so many things in my life. Only a few that I remember and much more goes unnoticed. I keep trying to connect and understand more. It takes time. Thank you for all your comments and support. In time of struggle I turn to my writing for answers. Have a wonderful night.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 weeks ago from Riga, Latvia

Sorry to hear about your friend's loss but his mom is now much happier and she will be ever watching over him. Let's keep counting our blessings. Hope you have an inspirational week.

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DREAM ON 4 weeks ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee Thank you so much for caring. Life is filled with so many ups and downs. We have to enjoy the ride. Seeing and talking to other people makes the good times great. The tough times fade and the good times return twice as fast. Thank you for everything you do. Happy Tuesday.

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