That First Kiss , And I was So Young


That first kiss

And I was so young

I still recall it

I wonder, does he?


He was young, blond and handsome then.

He was my next-door neighboor, and I was only thirteen.

I didn't really know him then,

But we had something in common.

It was enough for me then, but not now, still, we were so very young.

We came from the same countryside, then.

I saw him later, years later, in a grocery store.

He was with his wife, his woman.

Between them, they had not enough money to pay for their groceries.

I saw him , I recognized him.

He was still the boy I knew once.

I thought about offering to make up for the deficit--to pay for the groceries they could not afford.

I was doing alright--I had advanced slowly in my chosen occupation;

I knew how to live within my means.

But no.

I also understood that pride that comes from having been brought up in the countryside.

I knew, he recognized me too, and he would rather die.

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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Oh! I'm so very flattered. I'm not really a poet. That's only my second poem in the world, and it took some guts to share it! I really am blushing myself silly, and so very pleased you appreciated it.


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DDE 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

Recalling first kisses and the feeling of love, not a mature kind of love, makes one think of many things, thanks for sharing such good poetry.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Happy Holidays, Epi Man. Much love going right back to you and the kitty cats. Much better lately, for some reason only known to God. I appear to be in remission and have my hopes up, but not sky high, just yet! There really are miracles on this earth, still. They haven't all passed away, and I'm wishing one for all who need one, right...now!


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epigramman 3 years ago

Hello my dear friend - I am just thinking about you this Sunday morning and sending you my most sincere warm wishes to you and your family at this time of year and big hugs to you as well from my family - Colin, Little Miss Tiffy and Mister Gabriel. lake erie time ontario canada 10:13am with a fairly sunny day (hasn't been too many lately and more rain than snow)


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the comment.


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stars439 3 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State.

Wonderful, and beautiful logic. God Bless You.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you, Nell Rose.


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Nell Rose 3 years ago from England

Do I remember my first kiss? yes I definitely remember it! lol! it was up the school youth club, all my friends were so surprised, so was I! lol! great poem, nell


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you, epiman. I'm so much better today I can't believe it. the weather here isn't even quite like winter yet, for which I'm thankful. I can see you and the kitty cat wandering round the lake. Blessings, friend.


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epigramman 3 years ago

Hello my dear friend - just checking in with you at lake erie time 11:54am to send you a hug and tell you that I have been thinking about you ....I am having my 2nd cup of coffee and a bagel and it's a sunny day here by the lake - not much like winter yet - more like early spring conditions - both cats are outside and I will go for a walk around the bay of my lake in a little bit - will keep in touch, you do the same - sending you warm wishes and good energy from lake erie canada from Colin, Tiffy and Gabriel


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the fine comment. I think I struck a chord with quite a few people with this one!


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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Do I remember the first kiss? Oh yes, clearly. That was a beautiful memory so thank you. Your other point, about pride, and self-respect, was so very valid. Certain lessons learned long ago do not fade with time.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the lovely comment.


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James-wolve 3 years ago from Morocco

Very beautiful.Always the first things we do forever engrave in our minds.No matter how long we go ahead in our lives,the first touches with those we fall in love lasts forever.I voted up.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you so much for the comment,

Frank.


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton

sadly beautiful.. what a way with words and I agree with epi it unfolded reight before my eyes too :)


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Ha, gypsy. Women do, I think. We remember everything.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the comment, Deborrah K. I think anyone would have wished to do the same, had they the means.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the comment, doc. Men DO have their pride, and i understand that.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you, Z, for that insightful comment.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up. This was so poetically sad but lovely too. I also still remember my first love.


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 3 years ago

Paradise, How bittersweet. Lovely poem! That first youthful innocent kiss was touching and memorable no doubt! But so was that last encounter... How thoughtful and kind hearted of you to consider such a sweet gesture! Wonderful photos as well! Peace & Blessings!


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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

Beautiful, bittersweet prose, Paradise, and your selection of photos is perfect. Makes one think how we might act if it were not for pride getting in the way.


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zalainacarp 3 years ago from New York

Very nice to be able to rememeber a person. Most of our crushes from youth past or end awefully. For such some time to past and for you to have such an encounter as he indeed remembered you and not only his pride was his reasoning for refusal. This kind gesture by you as an individual recognizing time has pasted he is married with his wive and I see no harm in offering. It was terrific, I bet neither one of you will ever forget after that thoughtfulness you conveyed and pride he maintained.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Definitely! Thank you for the comment.


Writer Chuck 3 years ago

Pride ..... A hard thing to swallow. He knew you in a different time and place.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you for the comment, MH. You remember, too.


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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Malona, 7th grade, Friday, 24th St. & Divisadaro. But I don't have your epilog (which makes your poem). Thank you.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you, Nancy nurse.


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you, Debbie.


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nancynurse 3 years ago from Southeast USA

So beautiful first love is!!!! Voted up.


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Deborah Brooks 3 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Wow... so bittersweet. D

Simply beautiful. This sounds like my past. Love it

Debbie


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Paradise7 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

AH, Epi, I missed you too. You are my soul mate, I think. I understand everything you write, even if it sometimes upsets me. I want everything in the garden to be lovely, all the time, and we both know that's not always the way of it, is it?

Yet there is so much loveliness there.

I'm slowly dying my friend. It seems to take so long.


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epigramman 3 years ago

......this so sweet and yet bittersweet poetic ode to young love could be adapted into a film because I saw all of this unfold in my cinematic mind thanks to your evocative writing as if you were opening up your private diary and these thoughts come pouring out - exquisite and sublime just like the lady who wrote it - and yes I have missed you - how are you feeling - I am always concerned about your health - and sending warm wishes and good energy to you from lake erie time ontario canada 7:12pm

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