The Aquarian Conflict

The Zodiac finds water at the eleventh a trouble sign

When comfortably odd is wrapped in Aquarian brine

Conflicted by the boxes deigned to walk a straight line

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design

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Love is a pinched-face shrew overlooking a crooked spine

Introversion hides a slave that plants a twisted vine

Logic defies reason as truth faults the stars align

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design

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Walk a wake of collateral damages mistaking it benign

Unknowing witness to the pain laid at a cold, lonely shrine

Stupid stubborn girl couldn't see the truth through the pine

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design

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True to form but older now, the naked wrong was mine

Earth orbits the sun and moon a soldier fulfills a consign

Winter gets closer leaning inward yet I rebel to disincline

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design

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The knight that said he loved me as I unraveled our entwine

Sent word that he'd fallen left me straddling the spline

Wishing I could go to him, yet fear his love's decline

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design

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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

Amy, you express the inner battle between old and new. The confusion that threatens to choke the resistance.

I Love your spirit and expression my friend.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mark, I love your spirit and expression likewise, sweet man. I was thrown into a bit of a tailspin yesterday when I got a text from my ex telling me he'd driven himself to the hospital at 3:00 a.m. Sunday morning while having a heart attack. He's already had a stint placed in his heart. He wrote that his boss didn't even call to see if he'd made it. I relate to that level of loneliness in the midst of a cruel, busy world. I started thinking about the nice things he'd done during our marriage; bringing MacGregor home, staying with me while my dad was in the hospital after his fatal stroke and I felt very badly for my ex. Today, I thought about the issues that drove me away and though I would help him if he asked me, ultimately I still stand by my decision. I did not, nor do I do anything, lightly. That is what drove me to write this one, which you got right on the "mark" without any of the details. Thank you, my friend.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Well Amy my dear, where are all the comments? It consistently amazes me that you do not have hundreds of comments on your poems. I do not like poetry, and yet I come to yours daily and am renewed and awed by it.

You have, of course, captured the thoughts of anyone who has had a failed relationship....or for that matter, who has changed themselves. I can think back to my ex and find things that were worthy of love; I can also find things that I despise. We are such complex creatures, we humans, and as such we are seen differently on an almost daily basis, even by those who love us.

Anyway, enough rambling....beautiful work my dear friend.

bill


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

I know this ebb and flow. It was captured perfectly. I have lived this as well...


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Bill, I don't think hubpages is the top spot for poetry. Nonetheless, it's were I began my foray into the art form, inspired by those poetry fans that write here. I value each and every reader. I'm not too concerned with the numbers as much as the value I give to those readers that appreciate my writing. That is my main focus and inspiration. My friends help me get better and stay motivated.

Thank you for your loyalty and encouragement, my friend.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Augustine. That ebb and flow is the natural order of things, it seems. Nevertheless, expected or not, it is crazy making, if its allowed to consume a person. I've gotten much better about not second guessing myself...for long, that is.


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

With this poetic work of art, Amy, you gave new meaning to the 'ebb and flow' of life. We are born to live and we live to die. It is up to us to make the most of all that lies in between. We do not have time for guilt nor recriminations.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Amen, sister! I love that sentence "We do not have time for guilt nor recriminations." You nailed it, drbj. I am going to keep this as my mantra, because guilt and recriminations have been the bane of my happiness, self-confidence, fulfillment and satisfaction. Thank you for sharing your brilliance, my friend. Knowing you makes my life better.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

What a poet divine. I loved every line. I haven't heard ' Amie ' in a long time..Love that song..Thank you..Hugs


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

The poet in you comes out even when you're not trying, Ruby, you gem! I'm going to think of your comment often, whenever I need a pick-me-up. You make me feel like a million bucks! Thank you, my friend. Hugs


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Loved this. Great video.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Gypsy. I'm always happy when I see you here. I appreciate your steadfast support and encouraging words.


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Wow, Amy! This is so good. "Love is a pinched faced shrew looking overlooking a crooked spine." Love the image - so raw and edgy. Relationships are so complicated sometimes. This is sad, but beautiful at the same time. Very much like the contrasts you present us in your poems. Well done!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Suzette. I like "raw and edgy." I always start my composition at the keyboard. I never handwrite on paper. I just start typing and when I've got the concept down, then start switching up some of the imagery with the mood I want to relay. That's the fun part. It has the feel of putting the last pieces of a puzzle by snugly snapping them into place. I've tried to write about a topic that I'm interested in, but not fired up about and it doesn't work for me. It doesn't take but a few minutes to know it ain't gonna happen. I think it would be very interesting to know the methods others use when writing. We all start with something that lights our fire, and we write it...but, I would imagine the in-between, the creative process of putting it down is different for everyone. Maybe not?

Thank you, as always, Suzette, for firing my neurons. I am sure your students loved you in the classroom. I know they were lucky to have such an enthusiastic, brilliant teacher to keep things lively, exciting and new.


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epigramman 4 years ago

...can't say I've ever seen words put together like this before Amy - if Shakespeare came back into our time and took a modern day writing class he may just end up writing like this because of his 'professor' having such an influence on him. So Professor Becherer I must say you give my Google word search engine quite a workout - the cylinders are going full tilt and I think the gaskets are going to blow - lol -

I would also say that your background as an artist/painter is allowing you to stretch out into new bold directions as a writer on this canvas of life - you are speaking a brand new creative language - and it's a language which is divinely and uniquely your very own - lake erie time 2:18pm


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your world class commentaries, Mister C, demand that I make a personal book for myself, so I can carry all my friends with me at all times. Seriously... I want to find a leather covered binding that will hold a copy of each and every one of these beautiful gifts sent to me. I will have my own personal book of inspirations. I'm certain they will be well worn from daily use.

Thank you, Colin, for words that make my heart sing. You are a constant source of inspiration, motivation and the definitive of caring.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK

Consistently resistant is the lay of my design.

In that sentence you elegantly express your Aquarian conflict.

I always wonder whether I throw away peace because I feel emotionally used and abused by the ebb and flow of life and its inhabitants. These others, these beings who say things but mean little, take much but give little, sometimes surround us. I long for equals will perhaps even settle for equivalents. Symbiosis is something we earn for, I feel in your poetry Amy ... as ever, elegantly expressed.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I appreciate the truth, which you so eloquently, beautifully, poetically express, Docmo. Your comment actually blows me away in its sheer, unadulterated honesty. It is majestic, even regal. Beyond that, I can only say in all sincerity, thank you...and, I think I love you...in a good way, of course.


Garifalia 4 years ago

Dearest Amy,

your beautiful poem made me your follower and the accompanying song made me homesick for Houston where I grew up! God bless ya.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Garifalia, Thank you for your kind visit and comment. You're a long way from your hometown, but Greece sounds like a beautiful place to call home to me. I always imagine the romantic Greek countryside and olive branches, though I am not unaware of the unrest everywhere today...Take care, Garifalia


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

Good writing, Amy. It's always a treat. Sorry I can't seem to keep up with you... :( I'm still here! I'm promise. :)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

You're adorable, CrazedNovelist! I'm always so happy to see you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your awesome words.

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