The Bagpipes, They Don't Sing No More

Member of the Scottish clan you wear your kilt so well

Love me with abandon, you know I know, nary a hard sell

But now a change looms over us, this place where we dwell

The bagpipes, they don't sing no more in silent living hell

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Black eyes they don't shine no more to cast a magic spell

You sit alone with your head down low in a dark, lonely cell

A part of you is gone from me now without a word of farewell

The bagpipes, they don't sing no more in silent living hell

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You cast your shadow near me as if for a reason to dispel

Quiet mystery stands, waiting, still, like water for the swell

Restless fear surrounds a moat you retreat into your shell

The bagpipes, they don't sing no more in silent living hell

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I watch you sleep more often now, dreams that foretell

Once upon a time, not long ago, before the curtain fell

When hear no evil had no meaning rings a warning bell

The bagpipes, they don't sing no more in silent living hell

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MacGregor
MacGregor

Mama, I Feel So Alone

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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

I really like this one, Amy.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, Will. I haven't been on lately. So much is happening so fast. My mum needs bypass surgery and she isn't feeling well at all these days. Now, my MacGregor, who got his first ear infection appears to be deaf. He's on a different medication, but the vet didn't sound too hopeful about him regaining his hearing. I've been crying most of the afternoon since I got the word. He sits looking down like he's somewhere else. One of the things that made both he and I happy was our communications. I can't explain how smart he is and how much he understands, the way he looks at me trying to decipher my message. The weird thing is that years ago I had a lhasa apso that the vet talked me into "simple" surgery that would take care of his recurrent ear infections. I brought him home and he was stone cold deaf thereafter. The vet finally admitted to me that the sterilizing chemical they used would create this result if just one drop was left on the instrument. This situation started with a nighttime visit to the doggie ER and the idiot doctor prescribed a medication that treated yeast, but not the bacterial problem a different vet at the same clinic found today. Its heartbreaking. Lately, it seems the harder I try, the more that goes wrong. Sorry about the pity party. Thank you kindly for your comment, Will.


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Peggy W 5 years ago from Houston, Texas

We all deserve a pity party once in a while. Hope your mom gets the medical help that she needs and as to your dog, MacGregor, he will survive and so will you with love shared without sound or words. I truly think that most pets are empathetic...more than most humans. Hope you see better days ahead.


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Sylvia's Thoughts 5 years ago from Southern California

Beautiful, heart-wrenching poem, Amy. So sorry to hear about your mom and MacGregor. You will get through this.


Becky 5 years ago

Your mom will do well, they have this down to routine and rarely have any problems. She will feel tightness and some pain from the chest cracking they need to do. It will affect her for a year or two and will eventually fade away. My husband had this done and the more she uses her body after a month or two, the bigger difference there will be. It helps to build the muscles back after the surgery. This helps hold things together and it will make the pain less.

I had a dog that went deaf from old age. We still had a loving,communicating relationship. I would talk to him while holding him close and he would 'feel' my words vibrating in my body.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Peggy, thank you for your support. It helps much.

Sylvia, I feel like I can't get up anymore, cause I keep getting knocked down. I had to cancel an appt with my regular vet that I made several days ago, because I got MacGregor in sooner at the ER clinic that initially treated him. The first vet treated his infection inadequately I found out yesterday. My regular vet is now on vacation so they are backlogged with a substitute vet. I have a borrowed phone because my daughter doesn't have one right now (another long, horrendous nightmare). So, I had to run an errand and went into the vet's office where I had an appt for 4:00 today. I explained everything to the woman at the desk and she looks at me and says "We have a policy that any appt not canceled with 24-hours notice is charged $60". I said, "well, that's about par for the course of my life these days". I reminded her I am unemployed, do not have my own phone and made the trip in. Yesterday I got home late from the appt for Mac at the ER clinic. The fact that my pup is now deaf doesn't seem to matter to the very people I depend on for help with his care. She is going to do me a big favor and talk to the owner. Here's a newsflash for the compassionate crew at STL Hills Vet Clinic. They will have to pry $60 for nothing out of my cold, dead hands. And, they will never see my smilin' face in their clinic again. I'm going on a blitzkrieg with a mission to destroy their reputation. Right this moment, they should feel lucky I don't own a gun. I have never in my life seen a world with so little compassion. Thank you, Sylvia, for showing me some. I need it.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Your poetry is beautiful. Best wishes for a better tomorrow, and healing for mom and MacGregor.

Smiles


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Sylvia's Thoughts 5 years ago from Southern California

Let it go, Amy. There is a reason God says to let him handle revenge. It is because when we return evil for evil, it keeps the cycle going. Anger can become all-consuming and we become it's biggest losers. We all go through stuff, some more than others. It is not THAT we go through but HOW we go through that's important. We can't change people, we can only change ourselves. When we change us, then it forces others to relate to us differently. You are a wonderfully strong and compassionate woman. How you handle this will speak volumes about Amy Becherer. Don't waste any more time, energy or anger on them. Forgive them, and let it go.


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sligobay 5 years ago from east of the equator

Lady Lancelot, this is a fine piece of poetry in the midst of a duststorm of despair. The MacGregor clan without the din of bagpipes may be in a silent hell. There may be an ear implant hearing aid for your man. Great choice of metaphor.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Sylvia makes a great point Amy...let it go and let God handle it.


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mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

MacGregor is such a beautiful companion. I am sure he loves you with all his heart and I'm sure you love him with all your heart. One sense missing does not change that.


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

This is killing me. I've never personally met Mac, but I love the dude, and you know that's true. If he doesn't get his hearing back (and he probably will) he'll be back to normal after he gets it dialed in. You watch. He's a bonified stud, and so am I, so that makes me an expert. Trust me .. it's going to be fine.

jim


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Becky, BTW, that's my sister's name! Thank you for your kindness in explaining about your husband. Since my mom just turned 84 on August 1st, I worry about that long of a recovery. The surgeon actually said he does most of these procedures on the elderly. A recent 93 year old woman said she was ready to go home after 4-days in the hospital as she needed to get back to the senior living facility to help with the "old" people.

I love the idea of holding Mac close and him "feeling the talk". I hate seeing him have to adjust. No perfect world, though. Thank you, Becky


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Always Exploring, Thank you for your kind words and wishes. I appreciate your support more than I can express.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Sylvia, Right now, honestly, arggggg! I'll come around, but its too acute right now. I know you are right, though, and I know I will sincerely feel what you describe, but right now, I can't honestly say I feel charitable toward those that display so little heart. Thank you, Sylvia. You are a truly wise and caring woman.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My friend, sligobay, it makes me happy to see you hear, and especially your greeting!!! It seems appropro right now as I have my sword drawn!!! I feel very protective toward my sweet, little man. I understand the concept of "let go and let God", but God, its hard to do sometimes, especially when anger and a sense of "this isn't right" is in my heart. However, I do know that this, like all trials, will play out the way it is supposed to...maybe to the tune of bagpipes?

Thank you for your visit, my friend, Gerry


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Will, I'm getting the feeling that God doesn't much like me anymore. But, then again, I wouldn't have so many wonderful, caring friends right here if he didn't. And, I sure wouldn't be lucky enough to have MacGregor in my life or be blessed with the wonderful parents I was born with, if he didn't love me. Thank you, Will. I know you're right.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear mckbirdbks, Yes, its so true. Its just sad. When we love...our parents, our siblings, our spouse, our friends, our children, our critters, we want a perfect world for each and everyone of them. Growing up, we learn there is no such thing. Its still hard to accept, but we must and deal with what is real. Thank you for your kindness and supportive words. They buoy me up.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Jim, Yes, I see the resemblance, both gorgeous, blond studs, smart, sensitive, strong-willed and quite a handful!!! Thank you so much for your positive attitude about adaptability. I'm still holding onto the hope he will regain his hearing, but he's a smart dude and already looking for visual clues. I'm a blockhead, though, and I don't want him to be compromised in any way, shape or form. But, I know that's not reality for any of us. Thank you for the "up and at 'em". Mac's got what it takes and he'll be fine. Thank you for caring and letting me know. I need and appreciate the support.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, I’m so sorry to hear about all the things going wrong in your life. Sometimes it doesn’t rain, but pour. You will see and hear God in your friends and even in strangers, and you will get all the strength you need to handle your share of adversities. Everything always turns out for the best, though ‘best’ is not always our (selfish) idea of ‘best’. Take care, and never give up.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Oh my dear Amy, I am saddened by your verse, your tale of woe for such a dear and loving friend and companion by the name of MacGregor.

Be ye well though the bell tolls for thee

MacGregor the Scottish breed a fighter from

the Moors he ran so free amongst the heather

his Black eyes as coal and tail wagging while

fleet of foot playing and rolling in the moss

A companion of the first order he gave his heart

so freely to thee, his lass his owner there you be

a friend for life he perked his ears and leaned his

head to the right to catch each word you lovingly

sent his way and understood he wagged his tail with

affection blessed to be so free

Now ye thinks he may be alone with his deaf ears to

the stone, yet his heart pounds and his mind races for

he understands you well with your kindly look your lips

he reads and will understand you still

So let your sorrow temper you and cast your heart to

his and together you will both cross over this hurdle

for LOVE is never remiss yet binding to a kiss

I pray that both ye find your bag pipes and let them

gently soothe your souls, he is your mate and you his

lass and a MacGregor will ney let go.

Peace to you my friend, I feel your sorrow, but I also want to lift you up amongst friends here who care for you and yours. Bless be your mom, a courageous and dedicated lady who never will give up, she knows her task and that is to help right till the final hour. Hugs from me to you.


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Fiddleman 5 years ago from Zirconia, North Carolina

Good one Amy hope everything turns out good.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, amy! Here you are...and here is a sad sad event! MacGregor, your sweet little companion...don't fret too much, Amy...though this is a difficult change for Mac and you..and though there are adjustments to be made...you and MacGregor will be alright! Hard to imagine but, let me tell you a little anecdotal story: my 15 year old cat, Honey Bear, went blind suddenly over a decade ago. We tested, checked and did every exploratory which wasn't terribly invasive.....no definitive answers...still, HB is doing very ver well, even for an old kitty w/no hearing. He adjusted in a short time and lives a good life. Animals are like that; they just deal w/it...they don't philosophise or analyze...they just get on with life. this is probably harder for you than it will be for him in the long run. What a cutie, btw....I've heard much about him but never saw a picture...darling. Your mother....now...please rest assured that the surgery is less detrimental than her present condition...hard, again, to fathom but, true. I just wish they would get it done with so that you all could relax and get on w/the next steps in life. The "hits just keep on coming" for you, Amy..I am very very sorry about this. Just know that many of us are sending our best wishes your way..well wishes and good thoughts. Love your little buddy, MacGregor..and call that MD...tell him "it's time!" Your friend, Kathy...Ps..another absolutely amazing poem, Amy..a gift! An absolute gift!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear beautiful Martie,

Your words ring so true. The past couple of days have brought friends that care...just like you here. I have had a barrage of things occur in quick succession that have brought me to an all-time low. I related to a PBS dicussion yesterday with a female panel of guests that talked about the dramatic increase in suicides among women affected by the economy in the 50 to 60 year age group. I just got a letter stating that my COBRA health insurance will no longer be subsidized by the gov't, increasing my cost from $150/month to $500/month, which will leave me without it altogether. With all the meds I take for my autoimmune condition, it is a frightening proposition. Pre-existing conditions that go without insurance for 60-days are no longer insurable. I know I'm not alone, however. But, truth be told, I am pissed beyond belief that I played by the rules my whole, long working life and now, the gov't kicks the underdog again. I still have my voice, though.

Thank you, Martie, as always, I am always touched by your kindness. I have some catching up to do at the hub. Please forgive my unintentional absence. I've missed you.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My dear, sweet, handsome Ken, I am so honored and your poetry is so exactly right on, my eyes filled with tears but I was smiling throughout, because IT IS MY MacGregor. How did you know he is watching me and reading my lips? I noticed it so strong today. I can just see him as you wrote, black eyes, fleet of foot!!! I was laughing today as he is quite rotund, he was more "waddling" in the tall grass. You've captured him so perfectly, Ken, I must frame this piece. Thank you for your kind, beautiful, knowing words. You've touched me more than you will ever know. You have made me very happy. Love, hugs and kisses to you


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Fiddleman, Thank you kindly. I've some catching up to do and look forward to reading your fine work soon!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear beautiful Kathy, Thank you for sharing your story about Honey Bear. Its frightening when things go awry without rhyme or reason. Blindness is a huge hurtle. I have an extremely difficult time accepting these kind of things. Its the "blockhead" in me. It just feel so "wrong" when bad things happen to innocents. I find the "World News" unbearable in the children suffering from starvation in Somalia. Why, God, why? But, I am old enough, certainly, to know that although its said that everything happens for a reason, some things are not reasonable, yet, like a train, can't be stopped. I try to shut my brain off, but I don't really want to. I am gaining a new perspective on enjoying the little things, like the cute, young dude in Starbucks, where I redeemed a coupon for a free cup of joe and got a compliment from him saying "You are one pretty lady, but I bet you hear that all the time". Or the surprise visit from an unemployed friend that sat at my table and said "You are hot", just when I needed to feel like a desirable person in this big, mean world. It felt like a respite that took me out of the turmoil of blood-pressure raising anger and made me feel human again.

Thank you, Kathy, because as much as I want to be an independent, strong woman, I realize that no man is an island. I always appreciate your sincerity and deeply caring friendship. So, I'll say "thanks, I needed that". Love you, my beautiful friend.


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Phoenixx 5 years ago from Roseburg, OR

This poem is very beautiful. I love your word play and just the voice of the poem in general. Vote up and beautiful.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear phoenixx, thank you so much for your words. They are music to my ears!


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

I waited to comment because this wrenches my very soul. I hope your mom is recovering and I know our beloved pets do become as family and we are saddened when something happens to them. I hope all turns out OK, even though MacGregor may be having a hard time, he is so fortunate to have a loving owner such as you. You are stronger than you may think, and believe me,many of us are tested to our very limits at times. Adversity makes us loving and caring people, unlike so many who may have had it 'easy' and therefore do not develop the Wonderful quality of 'empathy' that this world needs so desperately. Bless you. I have confidence you will weather this.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you my dear friend, Bobbi. My mom is now home. She weathered the rehab, but is traumatized from its ineptness. I worked to get her out, accomplished the logistics and then got word from the doctor's office that she "wanted to stay". This turned out to be false, but in trying to sort through a lot of family interference, I let it be, hoping they were truthful. After I undid all I'd accomplished, I found out from mom after she got home, that she did not want to stay. It is amazing to me how family that is out of state feels the need to advise. She is doing better at home in resuming normalcy as far as eating and sleeping.

Mac is still not hearing much, but does hear some sounds. Vet medicine is very arbitrary and much is luck in the vet you see. Although, I can no longer afford my own medical insurance, I am going to seek another opinion on MacGregor. I feel I paid $200 for less than adequate care and little, substandard, arbitrary information.

So, yes, my friend, I am weathering the storm, but it hasn't blown over. I know you understand the frustration of "knowing more than enough" to recognize inadequacy, but the difficulty in being heard to make progress. Even handing over the money doesn't guarantee results. It is appalling that the devastating economy isn't enough to create caring in those still working. The careless, casual attitude I see in those I seek for healthcare is demoralizing and never ceases to shock me.

Thank you for your understanding, Bobbi. Being heard is more than half the battle today. Your willingness to advise me when I seek your expertise is invaluable to me emotionally and in knowing I will always get the truth from you, a rare and beautiful gift.


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Cheeky Girl 5 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

Aw, this is a beautiful poem. :)


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Nicely done dear Amy. That Annie Lennox makes me want to fly like that little bird. "I wish I had the wings to fly away from here" - it's hard to sit still.


marellen 5 years ago

Hi Amy..I'm a little late here but thanks for the follow and it looks like we have many of the same hub friends.

Your sweet MacGregor will be just fine. He knows you love him and body language plays a big part in any relationship.

My Mom who is 87 survived her 6 bypass surgery that she had about 12 years ago. In fact she drove herself to the hospital while she was having a heart attack. She called me on her way. Needless, to say I was a nervous crack but she was and is a real trooper. After surgery, she was up and doing well in just three week...plus this surgery is no big deal anymore. They will have your Mom up and about soon. She may have already had her surgery.

Best of luck to you. Hang in there....


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

Hi Amy, I am so sad to hear how cruel your life is for you at the moment. Please believe me when I say don't ever change, it is a great gift to love and share your life with soi many people. Mac will be fine, and you must stay strong. My mum took her own life when I was fourteen years old, but the time I remember of her will always remain forever in my heart. Hugs and hopes for a better tomorrow. x


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well dear Amy (or your new initials - BR - lol) I really love this title and the words which follow maintain your same lofty high standards that I have come accustomed to - I have been influenced by you and your lyrical approach to this poetic genre in which you excel.

You always have such a nice lyrical sway and rhythm to your words as if I am hearing music when I read them.

It's been a pleasure indeed to watch you grow and mature as a writer here at the HUB over the last year and a half - and the sweet most precious aspect of that is I also know and have you as my dear friend - I am privileged to know the lady behind the pen - and I am honored to follow the pen held by the lady ......

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epigramman 5 years ago

...and I must not forget, last but not least, the magnificent MAC man - so you receive a double comment here from the epi-man and as I reflect on your writing and the images - is there a greater team out there than the Mac and Amy Show - I think not .... this is a love which comes but once in a lifetime - and you have given us a lifetime of memories here Amy over your time at the Hub ..... lake erie time 8:20pm


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Cheeky Girl, Thank you for your "oh so sweet" comment.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Micky, you're so fine. I think about "flying" all the time. Belize, to be exact. One day soon, I'll fit me and MacGregor with our wings and fly away. Life is cheaper and more peaceful on that beautiful island. Life is so short. I don't want to sit still unless its on the beach, with a breeze and a book.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Marellen, Your mom has an ironclad will and admirable spirit. I'd call her heroic.

My mom had her bypass surgery. The surgery was a success, but very traumatic. Me mum suffered from a syndrome called "pump head" immediately following. She has recovered, but it was extremely scary for her and me. She thought she was home while in ICU and did not understand she could not get out of bed. She thought the people in the hospital corridor were neighbors stealing her things and walking by on her sidewalk. She had some events known as "sundowners" where she lost her bearings as the sun went down. It was temporary, but some patients are permanently impaired. Mercifully, mom doesn't really fully remember how scared she was. She's been home for a month and lives on her own, as she wishes. Her adult life, until her surgery, was charmed. My dad made sure of that. I am glad for my mom, but I think, sometimes, it makes coping with "less than ideal" very difficult, almost intolerable. I see some of my recent difficulties, the nearly simultaneous events of a divorce and the loss of security in a good job while moving into my apartment, as lessons in the ability to adapt. Otherwise, a person is incapable of enjoying anything in life.

When I took my mom to the store late last week, she showed me a beautiful plant my brother had moved to a sunny spot near the window in the garage. My mom said she had planned on leaving it to freeze in the cold. She asked me if I wanted it. I love it. Its alive and green in a beautiful, low, circular claypot. It makes me happy just to look at it. Its sad to see someone I love not enjoying life. This too may pass with some time. I remain hopeful. Thank you for your kind, uplifting words. I appreciate your sharing.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear bluestar, Your words are so kind and sharing, they almost make me cry. Saying I'm so sorry to learn of your loss as a vulnerable child is an understatement. You, above all, know the importance of staying strong. Everyone's experiences are so different, from our upbringing to outside influences, the way each one of us views life makes us strong or fragile. Your message, having experienced a cruel loss to become a survivor, is profound. Thank you for sharing such an important part of your life. I greatly appreciate your good wishes. Hugs to you, friend.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Colin, Saying thank you is inadequate. Your poetic support continues to make me strive for better. Life has grabbed me by the throat and shaken me to the core, leaving me with little energy left to write. I felt beat up and broken until I read some of the newly found commentary here. The power of sincerity and caring is boundless and profoundly restorative. This last year and a half has been leveling and, for the first time in my life, left me with moments of feeling exhaustedly old. I feel more mellow, not all bad, as I enjoy the "little things" in a way I've never known before. You, and everyone here, have kept me involved in the world, at a time I have shielded myself by retreating. Thank you, Colin, for not giving up on me, for understanding and caring. When it feels like its too tough to go on fighting, I go back and read comments to me and I feel valued. It doesn't get any better than that. Love you you, Colin, for all the love you give.


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manthy 5 years ago from Alabama,USA

Very unique wrting - I look forward to reading more,

Manthy


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

I know that we both haven’t been on the hub as much as we would like, but just had to say that this poem truly touched my heart. Macgregor’s photo is just precious. The poem is a beautiful tribute to the love and companionship he has given you, and what you have given him in return. Hugs.


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WD Curry 111 5 years ago from Space Coast

This is an intense, artistic, dark Irish poet, poem. The Scottish Terrier is true nobility. This dog will bear up. I know how it is to deal with the lingering end of life that many people experience. I pray my own demise will be brief. Thank you for bearing your soul.


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WD Curry 111 5 years ago from Space Coast

This is an intense, artistic, dark Irish poet, poem. The Scottish Terrier is true nobility. This dog will bear up. I know how it is to deal with the lingering end of life that many people experience. I pray my own demise will be brief. Thank you for bearing your soul.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Manthy,

I sincerely apologize for just finding your commentary. I am not getting notice of responses reliably any longer. Thank you for your time in reading this and your kind words of encouragement. They revitalize my spirit.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Genna,

I miss you so much. And, here, I was not notified of your visit. I apologize. Thank you so much for leaving such beautifully understanding words. MacGregor thrives on attention and appreciates your compliment regarding his handsome photo! He has quite an ego.

Life has dampened my enthusiasm momentarily, but not forever. I have been commissioned to paint a couple of pieces, my mom's surgery (which went well) and Mac's health issues (possible Cushings) has me at loose ends. Thank you, Genna, for your support. You've brightened my day!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

WD Curry, I love your comment. Yes, my Scotsman is a hearty, adaptive little man. His hearing loss seems to fluctuate. The vet now agrees with me that he may be exhibiting signs of Cushings with bloodwork next. Thank you for your brilliant, expressive comments. I apologize for just finding this wonderful gift that I would have responded to immediately, as I truly appreciate your time, support and kindness.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 5 years ago from Portland, Oregon

good work. Ambitious rhyme scheme!


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

I'm so sorry I missed this. Cushings? In dogs?

Your little man us handsome. Such an expressive look in his eyes. Scotties have so much personality, I can imagine what he does for attention! And your poem, beautiful...


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear PDX, I just accidentally found your intriguing comment. I am so sorry I wasn't notified. I appreciate your time and I love your verbiage regarding the "ambitious rhyme scheme".


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Augustine, I apologize for not finding your comment until just now, quite accidentally. I am not getting notifications of comments on some of my pieces.

Mac, like many Scotsmen, have major allergy issues. I have him on Atopica (an immunosuppressant) to manage them. Often, when his skin issues would flare, the vet would prescribe steroids. As in some humans, canines will develop Cushings from repeated steroid use. As it turns out, he does not have Cushings (or, as the vet says, it could be, but the tests point to probably not). For $200 worth of bloodwork, I'd hoped for a more definitive answer, but I'm not surprised.

MacGregor is a charmer. After the vet jacked me around with the ineffective eardrops, I pleaded for an oral antibiotic, as I believed he had a middle ear infection. Within about 3 days, his hearing started to return and he is 100% back to normal hearing. I trust my own observations more than some of the money oriented medical practices. Unfortunately, we still need them.

I apologize again, Augustine, and thank you for your always welcome visit.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

amy, it happens. no worries, dear!


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kittythedreamer 4 years ago from the Ether

what a precious doggie, amy! loved this poem...very well-written and it flowed so nicely. voted up and beautiful.


Sunnie Day 4 years ago

Ahhh Amy, I am so happy to follow you and read more of your awesome hubs. This one was so sweet and sad too. Your baby is adorable. I loved your poem very much. Thank you for directing me your way. So happy your baby is healthy now and can hear once more.

So happy to have connected with you! :)


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vocalcoach 4 years ago from Nashville Tn.

Ohhhhhh I love your "Mac." He's as handsome as any scotsman I've seen including my own beloved Daddy. Your poem touched me so.

I had to put my little "Clancey" down last month and I don't have to tell you how much that hurts.

So glad your little "man" is better. Give him a little rub on the belly from me. :-)

Voted up and more.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Kitty, I am so apologetic. For some strange reason, I received no notifications about comments on this one hub. I had some extra time today and started looking on my account page (a very rare thing for me to do) and found I had three more comments I had never seen. Thank you so much for your fabulous comments. Please know that I would never intentionally ignore you. I appreciate the time you took to read and send me your fantastic comments. I especially love your complimentary words about the Mac Man! Again, my sincere apologies.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Sunnie, I just accidentally found your comment today! I cannot tell you how horrible I feel to have not known that you, vocalcoach and kittythedreamer took the time to read about my MacGregor and leave such heartfelt comments and not receive a response from me. It was not intentional, I assure you. Yes, my Mac got over the hearing loss, but is having a bladder issue, yet undetermined. He has been on various antibiotics since a visit for a minor problem a month ago. While I was waiting to pay the receptionist, Mac marked his territory and was standing in a pool of blood. He now has kidney involvement and an enlarged liver. If the latest antibiotic doesn't show improvement, he will need to be x-rayed for possible bladder stones or a tumor. Since Scotties have 20 X the rate of bladder cancer (my parents Scottie died from the disease), I am worried. I'll take him back this week to have him checked. Thank you, again, Sunnie and once again, I apologize for my unintentional neglect.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear beautiful vocalcoach, I just found your adorable comment today. As I explained to Sunnie and kittythedreamer, too, I did not receive notification and came across them by accident. I apologize. I am so sorry to hear about "Clancy" and yes, it is gutwrenching to lose a member of the family. Our pets are like babies, they look to us for everything. Lately, MacGregor is having more difficulties, which I hope will soon be resolved. It is horrible to watch them having bad days, when they obviously don't feel well. I feel so helpless. I am diligent with his medications and he is eating (too) well. I know it's serious when he doesn't have an appetite and so far, so good. The vet is involved, as I never take any chances with him or any critter I have been lucky to share space with. He is very important in my life and will always be (even if he wasn't so incredibly handsome!) Thank you vocalcoach for your kindness and support and again, I apologize for this unintentionally late response. Hugs to you


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vocalcoach 4 years ago from Nashville Tn.

Dear Amy - No need to apologize as this has happened to me several times. Theres nothing we can do when we aren't notified.

I sure hope that by now your little MacGregor (my aunts last name) is feeling better. It's such a helpless feeling when our beloved pets are sick. And it's always scary too.

I adopted another dog. I miss Clancey so much. And caring for "Dobro" helps the hurt to diminish. I rescued Dobro and he is very mild and sweet. He is 10-12 yrs old and a full blooded Cocker Spaniel. He follows me everywhere. He was so badly neglected by his former owners and they were going to put him down. When I heard about him I brought him home and he's been with me ever since. Hugs to you and another little bellie rub to MacGregor from me!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Well, vocalcoach, It happened again and I'm only 6-months late! I came back to read this poem, as I'm seriously wanting to adopt a little rescue Scottie and wanted to revisit some memories of Mac. Thank you for your comment, which feels like divine intervention. I know the feeling of losing a beloved pet on a very personal level now, with MacGregor dying from bladder cancer back in July 2012. I miss him so much it is really indescribable. So, finding your story about adopting Dobro at this particular time is beyond miraculous to me. Thank you, and though belated, your words feel especially timely now, my dear friend. Sending you my love, vocalcoach. Please give sweet Dobro a belly rub from me.

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