The Color is Red

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Red and Inked!

So I have once again changed my image. Some call me the human Chameleon because you cannot distinguish the similarities in my photos. Well many ask why the red hair E.? In turn I say because its how I feel inside, colorful, bright, happy, joyful, and flamed up. My life as you all know hasn't been peaches and cream it has been a horrific roller coaster ride from the inferno below.

I have found comfort in the way I look and it describes me well. I have been struggling with my weight and my appearance. As I spoke in my previous hub "Your Ugly I'm Beautiful" Many judge the book by its cover. Sunnie Days made valid points to a comment I posted on a hub by SubRon7 titled "Today Let's Dress Provocatively" too many are profiled by the way we look, dress, or present ourselves. My mother and grandmother have very different opinions in the way I look. They state that "How can a woman that was raised by a grandmother have tattoos and red hair? How can a woman with an education have tattoos all over her arm? What am I representing? they claim I represent trash! I beg to differ their opinions but it is a free land and they are able to speak what is on their mind. Does it hurt me? A bit because my outer shell should not define my heart and my soul. And they are subjecting that the way I look on the outside justifies my inside awareness.

When we walk the streets they are quick to judge ones appearance and how they look. Are we to judge anyone? Let’s put it this way when I arrive to my mom’s house or my grandmas I have to put on a sweater because I am not free to show who I am. I have to hide what they call "My Ugliness" Do I think its fare? No I do not! Reason why, because they should love me for who I am not what I am, and it is done to frequently. I cover up because I love and respect the ones who have been there the most. They may see my appearance as a defect but it does not under lay my love for them.


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Questions and Answers about Me!

Do you feel secure with your appearance when in public?

Sometimes, I do feel like if people are starring and passing whispers. They don’t know me so why judge me is how I feel. I’m just a red headed girl who expresses her beauty that is pouring out with bright colour.

Why so many tattoos?

Well, didn't get my first tattoo until I was about 25. I started off with one thinking I will never get another one these things hurt like a mother. Then the second one came and that one hurt more than the second, then thought ok that's it no more for me this one hurt. Then little by little I got a third then fourth then so on.....

Do you find yourself addicted to getting tattoos?

Yes, because I like the pain. It is self coping with what I have been through. Keep in mind I was abused one way or another growing up so I no longer desire the domestic violence but I became immune to the pain. So the only way to facilitate what I lack is by self inflicting it. Yes it is bizarre, but that’s how I feel.

Do you think that will change in time?

I believe it will. I am slowing down on the ink. I have 5 more to go and I will be completely done.

Are you attaining the closure you are seeking or will you be in the near future?

Yes I have learned that looking back is not allowing me to walk forward. Every time I look back I end up tripping and falling over a rock I didn't see because my head was turned the other way. So that decade of hell will be soon demolished and turned to salt.



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With all that said I think woman with tattoos and red hair are beautiful. BUT, not a lot of woman can pull off the red hair and tattoos. I think it comes with character and personality. Like I could not pull off blonde that is a no way Jose!!!! Well I just am happy with myself in general and find myself a well rounded girl. I wish that many people wouldn't be so judgmental of our character and slander our appearance. Please leave your thoughts and comments on what you think!

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Thanks Sub I have visited your hub and cliked all appropriate and found it very ME!!!!!

T/ya

Bella


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

I like tattoos and find most of them lovely. Several young girls at church have Bible verses tattooed on them and I think it is an opportunity to witness. And what is not to love about red hair?! My Daddy was a redhead. "Nough said.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Hyph, Thank you. Verses are beautiful especially when they go where one goes. It's hard to be me in my family so much disapprovement but it still doesn't stop me. I am grown and feel that I can do as I please with my body well not really cause then if I die its just a shell that cloaks my soul :)

bella


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

Well, I am a senior citizen (as the brochures from The Scooter Store attest) and a Jesus freak Christian and I find you beautiful and very acceptable.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Thank Hyph, I am Christian myself and senior citizen I wish to not call you but a beautiful woman with class and elegance and nothing less. :)


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

My sweet beautiful lady, your colors are that of a rainbow and without them you wouldn't be you. Let no one ever put you down in whispers. Stand tall always and be proud of the display of artistry on your skin. It's yours to wear any way you want to.

People don't look into our souls, they judge on outer appearance to often and that is very sad. If only they took the time a few minutes to talk to those of us with beautifully decorated colorful skin, they could listen to our heart and soul speak to them.

Bella you are simply beautifully elegant and I am proud to call you friend and would sit with you in any fine dining room and enjoy the views from others at your masterfully designed colors. Go gurl and don't ever back down....Big hugs from the Saddle and have a read of my link here. I believe I say how I feel about tattoos....wink.

http://hubpages.com/hub/Beneath-My-Skin-in-Color


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Saddle, Thank you. I have feel I am noticed now. I did not dye the color of my hair for looks or kicks or attention. I did it because it describes me best and how I stand. I love illuminating my surroundings and proud of it. I thank you very much for thinking so of me. I will check it out indeed.

smiles :)

bella


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Voted up! awesome and sadly beautiful , Ms. Bella , i know how it must hurt to see and hear your granma and mom ,verbally bash you , as a child i went through something similar and then as i grew older i believed it , when i was in my twenties , i started my "INK" and when in my late twenties i started with the hair , thus my poem "hair literate" lol You are so beautiful , and should always ignore the shallow , they are the ones that need the love and attention because they do not see their own inner afliction , expressing yourself is who "WE ARE' and we do it so many eloquent ways , you are an amazingly gifted female , and advice to you " If you Got it Flaunt it !!" because you wont have it forever , one day you will be like so many of us , having to cover it up ,because noone will want to look at it , Be proud , you deserve it!! hugs,

J.P.

P.S i have fourteen tattoos :) and one circles my left chest and goes to my back and around my side all the way to my ankle ,its actually a pattern of the fourteen , blending together:)


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Wow I want to see that J.P. it sounds badass. I am not all that skinny its the angle of the camera that reflects and potrays the slender frame. But yes yesterday was quite the challenge with my family members and it becomes bothersome because I want to lash out the way they bash me but I keep my coo and leave and just walk away. But hey I only live once and am young once so why not and who cares.......

smiles :)

bella


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Royalmark 5 years ago from Lagos, Nigeria

1 thing I love about you - your outspoken nature.

You're great, Bella.

I love you for who you are and not what you are.


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Enigmatic Me 5 years ago from East Coast Canada

We are we. Others.. they fail to see. You can no more be 'Marsha Brady' than you could be 'Lady Gaga".

Be inflamed and insightful, this journey is yours and your alone. Admire your spirit, and wish for good things in your journey!

Look forward to reading more.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Royal, What else do I have if no voice to speak my story? I would speaking history but nevertheless herstory.... Thanks for loving me I love you for being you too!!

Enigmatic, Yes exactly how you said it! Its my journey and your journey and we all journey the journey!!

smiles :)

bella


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Pamela99 5 years ago from United States

I like the way you write and but forth you thoughts in an unmistakable way. We should judge by what is on the inside. Looks certainly do change as we grow older and it is so superficial to judge someone strictly by their looks.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Pam, Thank you for the beautiful comment I really do appreciate the feed back I get. A lot of times we are judged everyday every minute every second that's just too bad no isn't it???

bella


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Diana Lee 5 years ago from Potter County, Pa.

No one but God has the right to judge anyone. What a dull world it would be if we all looked alike. Your beautiful, always stay true to yourself and keep up the good hubs.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Diana, I agree with you fully and if we all did look a like it would be very boring and weird looking at someone that looks like me :?

smiles :)

bella


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Hi Bella, I like the statement that you made about how you are feeling now, red, inflamed.

I like to think that I am dressing or styling my hair, the make up, everything is how I ma feeling. If I feel to color my hair purple it's up to me.

I have always wanted a tiny tattoo on my shoulder but never had the courage, now at my age I feel silly getting one, besides, my fiancé would have a fit.

People need to get it in their minds that appearance has nothing to do with education or character.

You look beautiful.


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allexia26 5 years ago

Very sweet, and you are right we are so quick to judge someone from their appearance, who are we to judge, very good hub voted up


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Cardisa, Feeling a certain way reflects the way you look on the outside. if I am happy inside I am gonna radiate happiness on the face. It comes from our core. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts :)

Allexia, Many are too quick to jusdge especially to soon. That's why they say don't judge a book by it's cover :)

bella


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Tattoos are just skin deep. We tend to judge others by their appearance instead of looking on the inside. Who are we that we would judge another because they dress different or have a tattoo? Great Hub Bella.

Cheers


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

Freaking excellent girl. Up, awesome, and beautiful. I just wrote a hub about my abuse, and I feel great having done it. I've been carrying that trash for too long.

I don't have tatoos. I love em on other people, and yours are nice, not gaudy. I just have a thing about things I can't change my mind about I guess. Up until my early twenties, I went from super boy to some kid slicing himself open with a piece of glass or something all in the same day. I never told anyone about it. I just always wore long sleeve shirts.

You are beautiful. You are also very valuable. You want the world to know that you exist, and who you are. Who you are is awesome, therefore you're making a beautiful statement. B cool. Stay cool.

jim


Binaya.Ghimire 5 years ago

The color red was tabooed in the past. People with red hair were thought to be devil and witch. But over the years notions have changed. I think your new red appearance is cool.

I do not want to sound offensive but I have heard in hubpages podcast that you cannot attribute your image to google. Google is just a search engine.


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Matt in Jax 5 years ago from Jacksonville, FL

Gotta dig the red hair! Something spicy and new. Will definitely make you stand out.


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FloraBreenRobison 5 years ago

I find it amazing that most of the women I know with tattoos have them on their wrists, ankles, feet, and backs-where there isn't any flesh!My Mom is a red head. No tattoos though.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

I like the red hair, and the look. It is very cool. It suits you. Some styles just suit some people. And the combo of hair and tattoos is uber cool. :)


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SubRon7 5 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Bella, I voted up across the board. I rarely do that, and first time for you. Thank you for mentioning my hub and Sunnie Day. I will comment on just one thing on this hub. I like it that you "cover up" when you visit your mother and grandmother. Remember, they grew up in a very different age and probably different circumstances. I doubt that they look down on you as badly as you seem to think, but they have to keep giving their opinion. Your liking the "pain" of the tattoos disturbs me a bit, too, but I like what you said about it, that you think it will change in time, so keep believing that--and keep believing in yourself!

And you are right about tattoos hurting like a mother! I have just one, from my navy days.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Always, Judgement is passed around like money. It is unfortunate that many in this civilization are very quick to judge. It is just part of the human nature we cannot control the mouths and minds of people isn't that sad?? Thanks for stopping by as "Always" I appreciate it very much hearing from you.

Man, Holding something in because we are afraid of how we will be looked at is hard. Writing about something that hinders a walk is always difficult to let go because of the embarrasement to ourselves we may cause. I thank you for your thougts on my appearance it is nice too hear good things. I am happy you found the courage to release a piece of your anchor and I hope your sail is a little smoother now. Thank you for your visit. :)

Binaya, I believe it was taboo especially for people to believe that the red hair signified that of the devil. But I am a full believer in my christ and appreciate you stopping by and I will deffinately reference the images appropriately now that I am aware of the point you made thanks again.

Matt, thank you spicy possibly I feel. New, very!Thanks again for visiting my hub!

Flora, Tattoos say a lot about a person in my opinion the good about mine is I can cover them up if needed. Thanks for the comment. :)

astra, Awwww thanks I have been getting that not a lot of girls can pull this color off and I have done it very well. So it means a lot that you think so!!

Sub, lol thank you for clicking all the buttons. Yes I understand that my mom and grandmother are from a different time but what they say they mean just the way it comes out. I know they love me but will ask me to leave if my tattoos are not covered. The pain will eventually fade with time lol. Thanks again Sub.

smiles All

bella


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Enigmatic Me 5 years ago from East Coast Canada

Judgement is a way that many use to get by and deny their own faults.

No matter the connection 'they' have to you, as long as you are happy with what you are doing, with who you are and how you do you... their word is simply that. The weight we give other's words/thoughts is within our control...

Keep being you, evolve when and how you like ;)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

Girl yu are looking hot and sexy in those pics! I love the tatts and the red hair, and they represent you and wat yu have been through. and there is nothing trashy about it. Tattoos are much more widely accepted these days, some like your grandparents are still old fashioned and I get that but they should love u and accept yu no matter what. I'm glad that you still respect their wishes though when around them. and if people look at you or judge you, hey enjoy the attention good or bad, they are only jealous or hating on someone they don't know or understand, people fear different but fail to realize that everyone is different even when we pretend to be just like everyone else, i find you brave for standing out and being YOURself. I have 5 tatts myself and still want more so i know they can be addicting. for u its the pain but to me they don't hurt that bad and I just really like tattoos, my mom and dad have tatts so its something I grew up with/wanting. they represent you. and I love the whole pin up look you got going on there. girl you are beautiful.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Bella,

You are beautiful inside and out. I'm not against tattoos, I don't have any simply because I am a wimp when it comes to the pain. And I do understand your reasoning for getting them. Your honesty about it all is eye opening and amazing. And I like the "red" - it suits you and your personality. I appreciate you allowing your readers to watch you change and grow into this spectacular human being. One who has been through SO much at a young age and is so willing to share the journey. Thank you for that!

Sharyn


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Sharyn, Thank you I feel great. Tattoos are painful but addicting very addicting. I have nothing but stories to share and I feel honored that many can read and have nothing but positive opinions on what I have been through. I thought by putting myself out there it would knock my morals as a human and woman. But it has actually helped me heal from it and I thank you for taking the time to put your thoughts down.

bella


5 years ago

bellawritter23:

'painful', yes, but you clearly think they are worth it. Increasingly ppl do use numbing agents, of course, so the pain issue is maybe not quite the barrier to a lot of people that it might have been once.

Hyphenbird: 'I like tattoos and find most of them lovely. Several young girls at church have Bible verses tattooed on them and I think it is an opportunity to witness.' Yes, having verses or their referenced tattooed is an idea that many, many are adopting.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

f, Thank you for stopping by, It is painful but soothing to me it may not be the case with others but for me it is :) A lot of favorite bible verses are being placed on the skin as a reminder of where they have came from and a reminder everytime they see it.

Thanks again

xoxo

Bella


5 years ago

bellawriter23: Yes, I guess the combination of acquiring and asserting beautiful artwork in the context of a soothing procedure is deeply memorable, even though it might be both soothing and painful at the same time. (Of course, Bible verses don't need to be inked in order to be made personal! the Psalmist speaks of hiding the word in his heart in order not to sin against God. In other words, they can go in permanently even deeper than the dermis!)


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

yOU SPEAK ABSOLUTE TRUTH IN THE COMMENT YOU JUST WROTE. i BELIEVE THAT AS WELL. I DO NOT QUOTE ANY SCRIPTURES IN INK AS OTHERS BUT THEY SURE ARE BEAUTIFUL.


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ytsenoh 5 years ago from Louisiana, Idaho, Kauai, Nebraska, South Dakota, Missouri

You are internally and externally expressive. My favorite color has been red for 50 years. Best to you.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Ytsenoh, Thank you very kindly my favorite color is green but I would dye my hair green lol.

smiles :)

bella


5 years ago

PS The ref. of that Psalm verse was Psalm 119.11.

So next time you go under the needle for ink (or piercing) it can always be good to remember that God's truth from the Word can go even deeper than the dermis ... and stay there.

Blessings.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Thanks F.your a blessing in disguise.

bella


5 years ago

YW. This is why we need to make the daily effort to feed on God's precious truth from His Word, right? however hard it may be at first when it humbles us. But by faith, far more than cool ink, it stays there.

Blessings.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

the faith may be ratttled at times and shaken but never disappears. My belief remains but pretend to believe that its my will and get knocked off my feet to realize its not me its all him. ;)


5 years ago

Re. 'pretend to believe that its my will and get knocked off my feet to realize its not me its all him.'

Yes, indeed! Paul said: 'not I, but Christ' (Galatians 2.20). All of Him; this is what grace really means.

Blessings.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

I believe :)


Ed-E 5 years ago

Your sexy just the way you are!! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!!


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Thanks Ed-E .... :))


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Secret lies 4 years ago from Redlands California

Interesting beauty found here I see. The painful pleasure of ink is amazing. Lovely images. Voted up


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Cheryl J. 4 years ago from Houston, TX

Love the ink and the color RED. An awesome and meaningful hub.


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bellawritter23 4 years ago from California Author

Secret Lies, Thank you too many times we go hidden within ourselves without expressing what we truly feel on the inside. Many times we meaning all of us tend to judge self awareness because of our exterior with the glance of an eye verses learning about the interior and then concluding our opinionated thought. Thanks for reading :)

Bella

Cheryl J.

Thank you RED is an attention grabbing pigment the color of many tantalizing objects and emotions thanks for reading :)

smiles Bella


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isenhower33 4 years ago from Crothersville, IN

You're a very beautiful girl, And girls are naturally attracted to things that are red so I guess that's one reason girls go red now and then :) I hope your writing is going well. Red is a great look for you, and I like the tats :) Beauty is an inside feature, some people look at the outside and judge, but beauty comes from within and always will.


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bellawritter23 4 years ago from California Author

Isenhower33, I would like to first thank you on the compliment girls normally are modest and tend to say "thanks but I am really not!" lol on another note my writing hasn't been doing so well my hamsters are not turning as fast as I wished they would, but then again writing takes depth and relevance as all else. Beauty is what one projects it to be and yes back to the old catchy phrase "Judging a book by its cover" maybe we shall change it to "Judging a book by its tale?" Thanks for reading and stopping by great to see new faces after it being such a long time from sharing with my fellow readers.

Smiles :))))

Bella


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isenhower33 4 years ago from Crothersville, IN

Have you been pinging your stuff to keep it up to date with google? jw I know that helped mine out a lot when I did that for my pages. And yes too many judge, I saw a pic on facebook a while back that had a guy in the left corner with tats all over, and it said the guy you laughed at or made fun of yesterday, and then it showed another picture of him with his military suit on and it said protected you today :) Thought that was worth sharing :)


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acaetnna 4 years ago from Guildford

Wow Bella you are awesome and you always write from your heart. I love reading your words. I have missed you - not been around much but I am back now to read exquisite hubs such as yours.

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