In The Deafening Silence

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In the deafening silence


 

my thoughts roam freely


consuming every ounce

 

of strength from within me





I step softly through




the tormented forest


of dreams and deceit 


taking in the visions


of scenes incomplete





Directing my focus




on the very lack 


of all distractions


inhaling fresh air


aware of my actions


caught in your stare


frozen, without reaction


alone, but not scared





As blasphemies beckon



 

from my left


and above me


from my right 


and below me


discretion serves me 


my instincts keep me




from the innermost


clutches of despair


I chose to remain


here and not there


distanced, away


and it’s here 


that I’ll stay


separated from fear





Yet, it’s proving difficult




to remain unaffected 


in the shadowy corners


of my thoughts, unprotected


from  whispers of lies


disguised as inner voices


making it hard to decide


on soundness of choices 


and in whom to confide




Darkness is calling


Brightness is blinding


I’m falling


I’m crawling


Then rising


And finding


What lies beneath


What lies within



My fortress of mind




© copyright Ben D.A 2011



Comments 34 comments

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arb 5 years ago from oregon

What a nagging problem! I will go to my sympathy locker and a have drink on your behalf. Meanwhile, drink it in. Praise is as fleeting as a love we held to tight.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

thank you always exploring and George!

arb - I feel like my thank yous to so many people are becoming repetitive. I am simply amazed by the following and support. Thanks again


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arb 5 years ago from oregon

Ben, this is my favorite Ben work. I think it is better than you think it is. Love the rhyme and rhythm which you have married to your free flowing style. Lastly, a profound discription of inward journey. This is very good work my friend! you know the routine, up up and up!


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George J Hardy 5 years ago from Southern New Jersey

a journey of introspection, a way in and a way out - fascinating !


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

I liked this Ben. The mind, strength to return to reality. Well done.


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Rastamermaid 5 years ago from Universe

Well BenWritings,books,literature and writing is one of the many topics I follow here on hubpages as well as inspirational poetry,found you under that topic.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

thanks man and thanks for reading


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Sestenes 5 years ago from Iowa

The imagery is chilling, and the narrative is solid. A good read.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

fuscia - that means a lot, thank you!

rasta - may I ask how you came across this hub, just curious. Thanks so much :]


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Rastamermaid 5 years ago from Universe

Cheers!

Powerful,enlghtening,beautiful and thought provoking!

Thanks for sharing


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fucsia 5 years ago

In silence we can hear our inner voice and understand. Understand our weaknesses, understand our strength. Your poetry is very, very beautiful.

You are a great writer!


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Thank you Genna :] I am happy to receive such words

Joy - thanks and I am very glad to have new followers!

Doug - Thanks man, I agree, I like to keep it rather simple, and to the point


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

Like the sparsity of words here. Imagery always seems to crackle more when less words are used to achieve it.


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Joy56 5 years ago

OOPS I wrote a comment and then it disappeared, so here we go again....

I loved the depth of this, and clearness of it, it was well written, and you have a new follower, keep writing.


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

I love the pace and expression; there is a struggle that also speaks and asks the question with the words of a confident writer. Very well done, Ben! Up and awesome.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

It is always my pleasure, Ben. Your light is bright and delightful. Trusting your own light is essential, as is being sensitive to its effects. I'm sure you are becoming more and more aware of that. Others always bring to it who they are. And a writer must care about that too, while being authentically who he is. It's all a learning curve and one of my littlest poems says: "Growing pains at any age." :-) It's all good stuff though.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Nellie - your comments throughout the day were wonderful, and I like that you caught up to all 4 of my recent hubs, in order. haha

Your comments are among my favorites to receive from anyone. Your faith in me is encouraging. Thank you so much :]


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

We each must experience the spectrum of our emotions but we get to choose in which we will abide. Abiding in either only light or only darkness to the exclusion of the other is one of the choices worth serious consideration and having serious results. Someone has said that It is easier to champion principles than to live up to them. Your considerable talents can be applied to any of many directions. I love it when they choose well, Ben. Hugs.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

chilling, again? awesome! haha

thanks Ellie, as always


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SeenButNotHeard 5 years ago from Michigan

The hesitance is chilling, Mr. Writings. This is a very intense read. Keep up the good work :)


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

3 cheers for chills :] thanks a lot Lizzybeth


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Elizabeth99 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI

I really love this one! I love the image and it sends chills down my spine. Very nice :)


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

thanks no_clue! :D


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No_Clue 5 years ago

masterful write here! I just love it!


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

essi - you flatter me so ;] thanks so much, really!


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essiheart 5 years ago from Chicago, IL

Amazing poetry.

"As blasphemies beckon

from my left

and above me

from my right

and below me" Your way with words is astounding ;)


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Thanks mentalist, you're correct

Ian - haunting is good. I personally thought it was pretty :P but then again I wrote it. Moving is good as well, thank you for being such a great supporter


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Twilight Lawns 5 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

Quite haunting, but with promise of a light seeping through into the cave... but lights can tell such lies. Like it, Ben. It's not pretty, but it's moving; and who needs pretty?


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

What lies beneath can be fightening,yet needed enlightenment.;)


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Randy - I have gotten in that head of yours indeed, and "sweet rhymes" is flattering coming from you :]

Shezoe - Spot on! Thank you much!


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SheZoe 5 years ago from Idaho, USA

wow-you have sure captured "the battle" well with this one. When you think about it, it's no wonder we have trouble discerning the reality of things when darkness or shadows distort familiar things into unrecognizable shapes and light effects the hues of things, changing their colors or washing out their true colors. it's all very vivid but difficult to navigate reliably. you've captured that perfectly


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Randy Behavior 5 years ago from Near the Ocean

So have you been crawling around in my cranium? I didn't even hear you come in.

I know this feeling so well and you more than do it justice. You know how skittish rhyme makes me, but you have some SWEET ones in this...... Delicious.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee Author

Thanks a lot Wayne, I appreciate that. I agree with you there


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas

I love the pace of this as it seems to build t a crescendo in each verse then release only to repeat the cycle as if the waves slapping upon the beach. Nice work. WB

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