The Fear of loneliness : I am My worse Enemy
The fear of being rejected by my own scares me out of my skin
Thedread of having a knife crash your dreams of fitting in
But I know this feeling by name and my face
For I have so long endured it in this mad race
And I am terrified to die on my own
Living on the sideline like Satan’s spawn
So the loneliness makes my heart quiver and moan
Doomed to drift with only a shadow for a consort
In this jungle of civilization that knows no hope
How can a wavering heart find in the dark comfort?
How is my scarred heart supposed to cast away the rope?
As life mocks my attempts to find a place to call home
As we drift aimlessly within this endless life of storm
Sometimes I wither inside that treacherous head of mine
As the emptiness digs through my bones into my spine
A foreigner to the world and to myself
And life cast my happiness like an item on a shelf
I have felt so empty like a wandering soul
Yet heat was never attained to fill that hole
Forgotten, and invisible to the world I have walked
And no matter where I go, by the emptiness I am stalked
Now sinking into the disdain of false hope and empty promises
And as time passes by I hate the person that the world despises
That person is me, an entity lost yet never found
A person who can never make anyone proud
You say I am my worst enemy
And that I deserve no mercy
Cast to drift aimlessly in a world that knows no mercy
A world so superficial that it overvalues beauty
A foreigner to the world, masked and forever silenced
With a heart of stone in a barren land that was fenced
Sinking into the oblivion of the empty world drifting past hope and life
This is the person you came to create, a person whom I myself despise
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