The Pond In Our Backyard

Our pond in the back yard at the bottom of the hill

Winters left it lifeless, frozen silent, at a stand still

The heat from my skates carved life in the chill

But, now that you're gone, the rain has lost its will

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Spring thaws this prison with promises to fulfill

Florals, fauna, weeping willow, join the potent distill

Your name the prayer from the mockingbird's bill

But, now that you're gone, the rain has lost its will

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Summers on the swing down by humming fertile swill

Green stagnant home of life breathes upon the gill

The pond melds with inhabitants a fusion mix of dill

But, now that you're gone, the rain has lost its will

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Time's changing hands point the slide downhill

Life in the pond, now quieter, as leaves fill the nil

Keeps pace with the silence in the home uphill

Now rain falls on empty in the absence of its will

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The skates are long gone as sure as the thrill

Pivoting dance of innocence was lost in a spill

Do you watch over mom, do you know she's ill

Now that you're gone, dad, she's lost her will

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The depth and complexity of my mom and dad's love made it impossible for me to choose one beautiful piece of music to adequately match their devotion to one another. My mother is undergoing a heart procedure today and I felt a strong need to tell you, my support system, my friends, my extended family, about the greatest love I've ever witnessed, my mom and dad's. My mom has spent the years since his death, seven-years ago, missing him, never getting accustomed to his absense nor acquiesing to acceptance that life still holds beauty. Without dad, life is a compromise and lacked it's greatest beauty for her. I ask for you, my friends, to please think of her today, as I am, with love.

As a word of explanation, the Andy Williams song was chosen in remembering a story my mom shared with me. When dad came to mom's home to pick her up for their first date, her brother, my uncle Kenneth, opened the door and was amazed by dad's resemblance to Andy Williams. He hollered from the door to my mom, "Hilda, Andy's here!" My dad, not knowing what my uncle was referring to, was jealous, as he thought he was mistaken for another boyfriend!

A special thanks to my brilliant friend, epigramman, in his help as the music master in suggestions for accompanying this piece.  Thank you, Colin.

 

 

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mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

You have a rare grace. Beautiful poetry. Beautiful music. Well wishes to you and your Mom.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear mckbirdbks, thank you for your generous comments. You made me cry.


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RedElf 5 years ago from Canada

Lovely music to compliment lovely thoughts!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

RedElf, what an intriguing name! Thank you for your beautiful comment.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, dear friend. Your words are so filled with adoration. You've painted a beautiful, changing scenery in which the changes in life are described. A beautiful place to live an enchanted life...the metaphor of changing seasons is so touching, Amy. Your work is amazing...truly a gift! And I am thinking of your mother today and of you, too. Prayers are coming your way.


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epigramman 5 years ago

..well Amy this is writing as 'art' and a true and profound artist that you are - your sensitivity and soulful depth is unmatched here at the Hub - which of course makes a true creative anomaly in every sense of the word ..... there are certainly a lot of 'great' writers here that I've had the pleasure of reading over the past year of my residence at the Hub - but you dear Amy - take 'greatness' into another special literary realm which only belongs to you!

I love your choices in accompanying music by the way - it evokes the emotions of a time and a place and the people who inhabit it .....my mum and dad were best friends not just husband and wife and that bond lasted a lifetime, their lifetime, and it has moulded and shaped the man who I am today!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Lucky Cats, thank you so much. I wish I was at the hospital now, but, as usual, I am waiting to run another errand for my daughter. If she doesn't get back to me soon, I'm going on to the hospital. I've heard nothing yet from my uncle or his wife yet. I appreciate your prayers, Kathy, and your visit. Love you!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Colin, thank you so much. No matter how old our parents become, they are still mom and dad, just as we forever remain their children. It is difficult, to say the least, to watch our role models, our heroes, succumb to the inevitable process of aging. Their lives shaped everything about our lives. It is hard to imagine the world without them. As always, Colin, your comments soar. They are very comforting today. Thank you


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Beautiful. This reminds me of a couple I once knew in the nursing home. The husband came every day for every meal to feed his wife and take her for walks around town. He had a devotion that warned my heart. In the dining room he helped pour waters and got things for other residents too. This brought a tear to me. Awesome!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, BobbiRant. I went to see her and got the word that she needs a replacement valve and 2 stints. So, it's quite involved. She did fine with the procedure today, but she only weighs 115 lbs. now. Normal for her is 130. She looks beautiful, but frail. The saddest part is how lost she looks without dad, especially now.


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

My best wishes to both you and your mom; I know her surgery will go well. What your mother is experiencing is not uncommon; sadly, some women feel they have lost a part of themselves when they lose their husbands, especially when they are so devoted to one another. I’m not sure how I would feel should this happen to me. Your poem is magnificent. The Andy Williams story is just precious. Please give your mother our love, and know that our thoughts and prayers are with you both.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Genna, You are so kind. I will tell my mom. Her procedure went fine. they found, not only a bad heart valve, but two arteries that need stints. When I went to see her, they told her to get dressed that she was going home. Originally, they planned on keeping her overnight and insisted that someone stay with her in the hospital room. It seems the large artery in the leg that they thread up to to heart in, can bleed out if the "plug" dislodges. So, my aunt Shirley is staying at her home with instructions to put pressure on the vein and call 911, if this would happen. I think it's criminal to send anyone home with a chance that anything could go that wrong. My mom pays a fortune monthly for insurance. Oh, I'm not going to rant. I'd stay with her, too, if I didn't have my Scottie. Shirley was a nurse, though, and she has been so good to my mom. It broke my heart, though, mom is so skinny now and frail looking, although still incredibly beautiful. She just looks lost, especially now. Thank you so much for your support, Genna.


Fay Paxton 5 years ago

Oh Amy this was magnificent. I so understand your Mom, as you know. There is no love like that first love. I do pray that her surgery goes well. You both are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and love to you both.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Fay, what would I do without you and so many wonderful friends here. I mean it! I would be afraid, alone and sad. My mom's brother, Uncle Joe and his wife, Shirley, have been so kind in taking mom to all the appointments. Today was a heart catherization and she came through fine. However, she will need a new heart valve and 2 stints in badly blocked arteries. She is a skinny little woman, now, and very frail. Gorgeous, though, I must say and the doctor agrees! He said her being so thin is a big advantage to her overall health. She takes more of a backseat these days. She reminded me of you, Fay, when she was younger and with dad's encouragement. She was fiery and writing letters to the editor, the attorney general. Nothing intimidated her, but she deserves to rest and relax some. She is so smart and so beautiful still. The inevitable changes with age, though, are hard to watch. It seems like it hit me upside the head like a bat. All of sudden...

Thank you, Fay, for your understanding and caring. I am going to remember this, so when I need to extend a hand to someone, I will remember how much this means to me.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Beautiful tribute Amy. We'll pray for your mom.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Will. This is more a piece about my mom and dad's relationship due to the turn of events with my mom's health. I still want to do a piece on my relationship with my dad when things settle down a bit. Thanks for visiting and leaving you comment, my friend.


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tnvrstar 5 years ago from doha, qatar

Beautiful poetry ! Love it


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

tnvstar, thank you so much for your visit and great comment. You made my day.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

Dear Amy, I am so happy your Mom cane through the procedure okay. You are so fortunate to have her still and she is so lucky to have a loving, caring daughter like you.

I laughed when I read about your dad's likeness to Andy Williams. My sweet husband, Rocky, had a strong resemblance to Gene Kelly and we always kidded him about it. And he was the best dancer.

I do know how your Mom feels but life does go on. Perhaps you could get her intersted in giving you ideas for hubs or even writing some. Might be worth a try. Please give her by best regards. Much love, bj


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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

So many beautiful comments here to your amazing poem, Mom, Dad, and you. We are so blessed that you shared your backyard pond with us. The power of prayer is amazing.


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

You are beautiful. That's it. I can't think of much to say beyond that. I could write all the normal stuff to fill space, but I won't. I will say you have a great relationship with the canvass, be it a key pad or a paint brush in your hand, your soul is shown live and in color.

luv ya kid!

jim


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Glad to see you share prose with us after a dry spell, but sorry for the occasion. Prayers have been said, thoughts held in stasis in hope for your mom.


Poetic Fool 5 years ago

Amy, this evokes in me such a sense of melancholy. Touching and beautiful. You do have talent!


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....well I come back here again Amy because these words have haunted me in the way that any great/profound words often do - I have thought of their soulful depth and it could only come from someone of your great sensitivity and sublime intelligence - and I really do thank you for your 'shout-out' - it was indeed a pleasure to help out one of the greatest writers I've ever come across at the Hub!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear drbj, I just got back from spending the day with me mum. She seemed like she really enjoyed my company. She's moving about, but slowly. Next week I'm going with her and my Aunt Shirley to talk with the surgeon. My brother, who is in Alaska teaching some of his nematode expertise called while I was there and I had a great conversation with him, too. I had to get home to my buddy, MacGregor, so I'm going back tomorrow and run some errands for mom. She's kind of beat, but hasn't lost that great brain of hers. She looks so young and considering how bad her heart problem is, she has more energy than I would expect. It is shocking to me that this problem suddenly became so serious. I should realize that we are all mortal...even mom...Thank you for this kind expression of concern, lovely drbj. I can't tell you how much it means to me.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

tnvrstar, thank you so much for your visit and your wonderful, encouraging comment. Love it.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Truckstop Sally, I appreciate your stop here and your words. I am truly blessed by so many world class friends. All of you here make the good times better and the bad times bearable. It doesn't get any better than that. Thank you so much.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Jim, You, my friend, are a fabulous poet as I can see from your comment. I can't imagine a better gift than the one you just wrote to me. I will treasure it forever.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Augustine, Not really a dry spell, just so much going on. I had lots of ideas, but my brain had to stop spinning before I could settle down to writing anything worth reading! I've been writing general online articles at AMS for experience and a little pay. Even that, I haven't contributed to in a week. We all suffer some bumps and jolts in life. I appreciate the strong, supportive group of friends, like you, that make a real difference in my ability to cope. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers, thoughts and immeasurable kindness.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Poetic Fool, I am so glad you liked my piece. Your commentary makes me feel that I just might consider myself an artist. Not a great one yet, but all I need is potential and then my limitations are only set by myself. Give me an inch, and I'll run a mile. Thank you for your wonderful, encouraging words.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Colin, Your words to me are so touchingly beautiful, I am crying. I talked to my mom today about you and all of my beautiful friends here. She liked the Andy Williams song choice and we talked about that experience when she was just getting to know dad. It was such a good day. I am so glad I have the opportunity to enjoy her company...for whatever amount of time. Thank you for coming back and fortifying me with your words and caring. I will forever be grateful for my time spent here among the finest people I have ever known.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Amy - you are such an awesome poet! I admire what you write so much. This really is artful poetry and I loved the story to go with it. Catchy tunes btw St. Lou:)!! Bravo!


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, I reread this and am just awestruck with the beauty of your words and the talent you possess. What an absolutely beautiful beautiful story of changing life, changing seasons, changes! And love, and loss..and pending outcome. Wow! Is about all I can say. Really, Amy...you have an amazing gift!!! I sure hope your mother is doing better...doing well.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

RealHousewife, Thank you sound so lame, but I am so incredibly grateful for your support and your awesome comments. You make STL so much cooler and that's a tall order for summer in this city.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest Kathy, Your kind words are the best. I just got back from my mom's. She is looking at some extensive heart repair in the way of a replacement valve and stints. I saw the word "bypass" on her notes. She is not going to submit to open heart surgery at her age, but will consider the less invasive procedure involved with a new valve and stints. I noticed today she gets breathless very easily. She has an appt I'm going to attend next week for consult with the surgeon. Thank you so much for your concern and good wishes, my friend. Without you and the support I've gotten from my hub family, this would be much harder. I don't feel alone in this as a result and that is a blessing to me. And, thank you for your beautiful comments on my piece, Kathy. Your words mean the world to me. Love you, my dear friend.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Amy is was hot today. We go from freezing to blazing in a matter of hours! But today is the girls last day of school, I've got a meatloaf cooking in the oven and air conditioning on;) Evenings around here don't get much finer so I'll be grateful:)


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Sounds absolutely divine, RealHousewife. The weather sounds like such a mundane topic, but not any more! At my mom's home, the cicadas are at a deafening roar. At my apt...nothin!!! I thought everyone in STL was going to be annoyed by them. Maybe the ones here on Devonshire are lazy! I hope they stay that way. Enjoy the meatloaf, a/c and your wonderful company!


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ahorseback 5 years ago

Amy , Nice writing , I will always remember how lost my Father looked without my mother , Im not sure why but everyone just assumed he would go first, No matter how you look at it aging isn't fair because of the losses incurred. I hope everything works out for "MOM"....ED Peace and serenity, You sound busy!....:-}


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear ahorseback, My pace these days is more like frantic. I just got back from running an errand for my daughter AGAIN. I'm ready to grab me mum, my faithful friend, MacGregor and head for places unknown. Thank you for your kind understanding, friend.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Dear Amy...I am so glad to hear that the Dr. feels there is hope and a procedure for your mother. This is VERY positive news. If he felt differently; he would not have suggested this alternative to bypass surgery. Medicine today is truly miraculous. My father underwent triple bypass when he was quite young..only in his '60's (due to the 'rich and famous' lifestyle, no doubt)...but it was absolutely necessary. Within several seeks, he felt much much better; he compared it to an automobile getting a tune up. He never had heart or circulatory issues after that *(having cleaned up his habits a lot)...it was pheumonia caused by a faulty swallowing mechanism which allowed food to pass into his lungs which finally took him.

But, your mother is in good hands, with a very very loving daughter who honors her with beautiful, heartfelt; longing words! I am awaiting news of her pending procedure and then, her recovery! WE ALL here are praying, crossing our fingers and awaiting good news. Your friend, Kathy


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Kathy, I so appreciate you sharing the story of your dad and his heart surgery. I'm going to be on "pins and needles" until my mom's condition is addressed. I noticed she gets breathless when she gets excited talking about those things that aggravate her. I am trying to be very careful in talking about some of my issues with her, because she's just not up to it right now. In other words, no ranting for me! I can tell by her lack of color and general unsteadiness, that her blood flow is very restricted. If I wasn't worried that MacGregor might be a contention for her (she had a Scottie when we were growing up), I'd bring him along and stay with her. But, I don't want to ask and put her in an awkward position. I am sure it will work out as it is supposed to. I'm working on not getting stressed out, because I need and want to be there for her.

Thank you, Kathy, for your kindness and concern. I was reminded yesterday that things can always be worse in an email from my ex, Paul. His sis has a 28-year old son, that is in SLU Hospital with end-stage, full blown AIDS. His mom has been divorced from his father for many years and she and Josh are best friends. She was in denial about his lifestyle and his health problems. The chaplain and medical personnel spoke with her Thursday to say if/when he comes home, he will require Hospice to keep him comfortable as this is all that can be done now. Pam looked at Paul after they left, and said "what do they mean"? I don't think she will be able to accept losing him. I feel so bad for Josh and everyone that loves him. It is a tremendously devastating blow. Please keep him and his family in your kind thoughts, Kathy. And, thank you for being there for me. I love you.


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gguy 5 years ago from new jersey usa

Amy, nice work as usual!! Sorry to hear about the bad situation in Paul's family


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thanks, Gary


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gguy 5 years ago from new jersey usa

For you, anytime, although I am following you, I don't seem to have been notified of this one unless I missed it, it's very good, sorry for the delayed response!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

No problem, gguy! I've noticed the same thing at the hub. Occasionally, I don't get notice. Thanks for stopping by and your comments. Appreciate it!


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gguy 5 years ago from new jersey usa

Yes, the site can be a bit glitchy at times, but I don't want to miss one of your hubs if I want to remain self proclaimed as your biggest fan!!! LOL


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Dear Amy,,

I am W A Y behind in my reading; but this is one of those times I am glad to read all of your progress reports in the comments section, as well as your poignantly penned poem.

The love you have for your parents, now in the daily acts you do for your Mom, make me love you all the more. I know these are days of uncertainty, stress, fragility on your end, at times; and you are in my thoughts always.

Every day is special and one to be cherished.

And please always be gentle with yourself, Maria.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest Maria, my sweet friend, I love you. Thank you so much for your extraordinary kindness and caring. I will come back to read your comment often as it is so gentle and generous. Although I am not an organized religion fan, I saw a preacher this morning called "Joel" on TV and I was so struck by his honest kindness. He talked about how much a compliment or kind word can change the life of someone we never know. He sighted the example of his beautiful mother, who had polio as a child and one leg was far smaller than the other. She had to buy two pair of shoes in different sizes to accommodate the difference. He said she always hid her legs as she was very self-conscious. One day, before Joel was born, she was walking in front of her husband (Joel's father) who was walking with a friend. The friend said outloud to Joel's dad, "She walks like a princess." That one comment, which she overhead, changed his mom forever. Joel said his mom still tells the story. He said his mom stood up straight and from that moment on, carried herself like "royalty".

You do that, Maria. You lift people up. You make a difference. Thank you, my friend.


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Oh sweet, Amy,

Your words bowl me over. Thank you from my heart. I feel in this case, "it takes one to know one"! You are forever helping others with your kind and positive energy.

Our Mom's are a big deal, so it is our turn to be good now to you. Thank you for that beautiful example as well.

Have a good night. Love, Maria


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Maria,

Yes, our mom's are so precious. It's hard to imagine the world without them. I got an email from my ex on Friday that his 28 year old nephew, his sister's son, is dying of AIDS. He is in St. Louis University Hospital. His mom and he are very close. She denied he is gay and cannot accept that he is so ill. The chaplain spoke with her about the fact that if/when he goes home, he will need Hospice care. After they left, Paul, my ex, told me she looked at him and asked "what do they mean?" It's too sad to even comprehend.

Thank you, again, Maria. I am so glad that I met you.


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izettl 5 years ago from The Great Northwest

Very sweet and well-written hub. You are lucky to even witness that kind of love and a prayer from me to your mom will be given today.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear izettl, Thank you so much for your prayer, and your comment. You are so correct in your statement. I've not seen that kind of love since, nothing that even comes close. The fact that I lived it and I never saw a day when it waivered. It was true, strong and forever. And, rare. I witnessed it throughtout my growing up and I know I will never experience anything like it. Because I grew up seeing how devoted they were to each other, I assumed it was not unusual and that someday I would have a marriage just like there's. After two tries, and nowhere near, I'll let that be a lesson. They were magic together and I'm so glad I am lucky enough to have been a part of it.


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Good Morning, Amy,

I am thinking of you and your wisdom/ strength as you speak of your ex/ the very sad situation with his nephew. You are remarkable in that you are even available to be of support, no doubt a safe haven for him in his family chaos. How ironic that he was not there to provide the support you needed with your beloved pet's death.

Your parents raised a beautiful and remarkable lady who gives of herself each and every day! I know you will allow yourself to spend quality time with your Mamma. And how wonderful to have that furry tail wagging away when you get home like you are TOPS... well, you are, come to think of it!!

Have a great week! Love you, Maria


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Maria,

I'm not someone my ex relies on, actually. I don't want to take any credit for that. He runs to his adult children mostly. In fact, I felt left in the dust during our marriage, as he seemed to prefer their company. I felt honored that he included me in the sad reality of his nephew. That family seems to be very self-protective and secretive. I understand the need for privacy, but I think much of their reticence to share stemmed from some false idea about appearances. I think they are a clan that places too much importance on what other people might think. In reality, most people are involved and concerned with their own lives and give little attention to the dynamics of those they ultimately find off-putting. It's not surprising that Josh is very popular with a wide circle of friends outside the immediate family. He is charming, sweet, good-looking, open and engaging. He will be missed by many.

You are so right on, Maria, about coming home to my little man, MacGregor. He has his own little, completely endearing greeting routine. There is no reticence in his affection, obvious love and devotion to me. I adore him.

I wish a wonderful week for you, too, my friend. Love to you from me.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, I am so sorry I was not here the day you published this hub, and I am so glad to hear that everything went well. My parents were happily married too, though my father was most of the time very busy with his own projects, making my mother and us children feel neglected. But then he made amends regularly. He died twenty years ago at the age of 54. Until today my mother misses him daily, though she seems/pretend to be strong. He always wanted her as well as us children to be strong and positive in all circumstances, and none of us have a desire to disappoint him. Even while he is no longer in flesh with us, his spirit is always with us. With ‘spirit’ I don’t mean ‘ghost’, but the influence he had on us and our memories of him. And so your dad is, and will forever be, with you. I’m sure your mother can feel him very close to her in this time. I wish you all strength and happiness.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest friend, Martie, thank you for sharing your touching story about your mom & dad's love. I do feel my dad with me everyday. My mom does, too. He makes his presence known when something reminds us of him. Thank you for your kind wishes. They mean everything to me.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy..here is how you can sooth your mother and steer her away from thoughts which agitate....read her your beautiful poetry. Now, not the ones about your ex and his high end girl friend!! (laughing)..no, but so many of the others which are so beautiful...and, this one. How wonderful will she feel hearing these words? Sad, yes, very melancholy and a memory that is hers, too..a loss but, Amy..it is SO beautiful. Read to her. If you have not yet; let her see this side of you...I bet she will beam from ear to ear! And, the comments, Amy...the friends you have here..let her hear this, too...print and read!! And I say this because, she must hear your words in your voice..with just the perfect intonations and mood.

I am sorry to hear of your former nephew in law...what a debilitating and hopeless disease this is. My best friend, Al, lost his favorite cousin to AIDS..and they were very close. I met him several times and he was such fun to be around; a great sense of humor and irony! Thank God for Hospice...I sure feel badly for your sister in law...to lose a child; to outlive a baby..because, as I know you know...your child Is your baby...always. Yes, Amy..I will remember these people who are important to you...and your mother...who will be relaxed and soothed by your words. I'll keep checking back to see how everyone is. Kathy


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

You are the most adorable woman I know, Kathy. I so appreciate your idea. In fact, I wanted to do that very thing, but didn't want to be morose. You reminded me of something I wanted to tell you, my friend. When I began writing "Letters to the Editor" at the STL Post Dispatch, I have had almost every one I sent published. I am not bragging, but I have to tell you the competition is stiff. Everyone at my workplace supported my efforts. However, the one person I loved sharing these with was my mom. After my dad died, I called her as soon as I got home from work daily. I would read her one of my letters and she always GOT IT. I didn't have to explain. She would give me her wonderful, always favorable opinion. I had so much fun and she was my cheering section and I believe, for the first time, she was actually proud of something I did. The letters always came from my heart, but, honestly, I wrote them for her. So, Kathy, I am going to take my laptop to her home and show her! Thank you for taking away my doubts on this. I love you, my friend. Thank you for all of your kind thoughts.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, I'm laughing because, like you, I used to write so many LTE's to the SF Chronicle, Napa Register, Vallejo Times Herald, and more about so many topics that really stirred me to action. Again, we share something in common. And, Al used to tease me in a competitive way because, invariably, my letters would be published and his, not so much....eek! I have most copies, too...I'm not at all surprised that you enjoyed the support of your co workers....if you were able to express yourself then as you do now....it's a "no brainer!" have to laugh, again!

You know, I forgot to mention that, when I was telling you about my father's bypass surgery...back in the '70's...well, I meant to continue w/this thought: That the stint or balloon procedure that your mother is going to receive is probably EVEN BETTER than the bypass surgery of the past..and equal to that of the present; I'd bet. 40 years have passed and medicine continues to improve expoentially...so, I'd venture to say that her procedure is going to be absolutely fabulous..easier on her, physically, than the invasive bypass surgery....and equally as beneficial. All GOOD NEWS!

Your mother's pride in you is well deserved and, I'd bet (again) that it's beeming pride! sometimes, it's hard, as a daughter, to see the love and feel the love of a mother because of the so familiar and stereotypical...and true...mother/daughter dynamic. I'm glad that you'll be reading to her...that's wonderful. For everyone! Much love! and prayers!

Kathy


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California

Amy, I hope all went well with everything. My prayers are extended although I am 8 days late. A mother is such a beautiful gift and token. Thank you for sharing and yes extended family and friends and support group we are!!

smiles :)

bella


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest treasure, Kathy, You've got me laughing, too. It's amazing how similar experiences trigger memories forgotten. One of my letters that the Post did not publish, much to my mother's chagrin, was the one about the baseball steroid scandal, specifically about Mark McGwire, STL Cardinal, who shamefully, stupidly lied about his involvement. I wrote a scathing letter that included the effects of testosterone on the penis...shrinkage factor-wise. St. Louis had erected a sign naming a stretch of highway after him. With the poor character he showed at congressional meetings, STL decided to take it down. I wrote that maybe they could leave it up with the addition of an "itty bitty baseball weiner" on it to serve as a reminder of him. My mom roared with laughter and was so disappointed when it didn't make the cut. It was fun anyway and well worth the effort in hearing my mom's unabashed laughter!!!

Thank you for the info regarding your dad's bypass. I saw the word on some of her paperwork from the test results and panicked, but I'm hoping "bypass" today means the balloon procedure they described. My aunt, who took charge of the appointment scheduling, hasn't scheduled the appt. yet, but that is when we will have a discussion that answers all questions.

Again, Kathy, thank you for your caring. Love you, my friend.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Bella, I don't know what I'd do with you and all the friends I love here at the hub. Thank you so much for your caring prayers for my mom. Thank God for air-conditioning as we are having a stretch of record breaking heat. My mom couldn't survive extended stretches of this misery. St. Louis also had a 4.6 earthquake yesterday at 3:00 AM, and I realized how blessed we are to have not suffered damage or worse, had it been stronger. I can't begin to imagine the misery of that kind of trauma in this kind of heat.

Again, Bella, thank you for your kindness.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy....was that intentional? The "shrinking penis....St. Louis had erected...." Ha! Too funny. This is uncanny. I, on the other hand, was (and, admittedly am) a Barry Bonds fan though, I must admit, I am severely disappointed then and now, w/his complicity in the steroid era. McGwire was suspected from the onset; I recall...during the late 90's, even..and into the new century. Little did we know how pervasive the problem was. I watched as Barry Bonds grew larger. I defended him as he was a fantastic player *(and I LOVE the game...can't wait to return to SF)..but know that it wasn't right. The game has tended, throughout history, to be wrought w/some type of stimulant or drug influence from "chew," to 'beanies and greenies,' and more..Well, I believe it has cleaned up its act now...

"itty bitty baseball weiner.." Oh...hahahaha..and, how about Weinergate? Oh, what a fool that man is. To ruin a career as he probably has..but, it sure is fodder for great late night humor!

Ok...just noted the earthquake reference to Bella...and, I keep meaning to ask...about the horrible storms you've experienced...and flooding...I'm thinking that you escaped most of this or else we would have heard...

Kathy


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

How well you know me, Kathy! I'm laughing out loud at "or else we would have heard". For me personally, the heat is horrendous, but I have escaped the floods (with more to come in the attempts to divert, many others are looking at a wait for the floods to arrive). During the tornados, I was in the thick of it, and managed to miss any brunt force, other than the incessant sirens. Joplin, as you know, was a "5" storm force, with about 155 casualties now. If I was so inclined, I'd be walking with a "doomsday" sign on my back.

The "weiner" is an ass. Gorgeous wife, probably gone, career, up shit creek...for what? You know what, Kathy, my compassion runs dry in this case. The world is full of damaged people with terrible, "beyond their control" circumstances. For them I have great empathy. Weiner, whatever psycho-sexual problem he has, he is sniveling on the wrong shoulder if he would look to me for sympathy. If he had control of his weiner, he'd stand up like a man and resign his D.C. position. Join the ranks of the unemployed and see how small his weiner can really get. Well, at least he'd stop sending pictures. There, see, Kathy, I've solved his problem and the rest of the world's disgust! I hope this leaves you laughing, my friend.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Yes! oh yes, I am laughing!! too funny. And then, there's that other Freudian slip? "If he had control of his weiner, he'd stand up...like a man".. Seriously, though, he should resign; it's the only real option he has. He seems to think, or at least he says, that his personal dishonesty has nothing w/his public responsibilities...huh!! Well, of course, I disagree with that! The man is a fool and a cad..and spent far too much time playing with..well, playing while he should have been taking care of his civic duties or family..Geesgh!

Joplin..tragedy. so glad to hear that, though unnerving, you escaped the brunt of what are some of the worst weather events in decades! I'm still laughing..too funny~


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Kathy, I knew you'd catch those intentional slips! Whoops! Soon, the weiner will have all the time in the world to play...considering he's a laughingstock and no one else will touch him with a 10' pole! From my vantage point, the only thing in his pants of any interest to his fans would be his wallet...and that will be shrinking soon too!


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

lololol...Amy...you've got to stop it! Haha...you have a GREAT sense of humor..spontaneous and smart! Yes...laughing laughing...


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gguy 5 years ago from new jersey usa

Amy, you Ladies today have no mercy and run a tight ship!! I better make sure I stay on your good side!!! LOL


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Just talkin the truth. We calls 'em like we see 'em.


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gguy 5 years ago from new jersey usa

Yes you do, and your assertive, straight forward personality is one of the many things a both like about you and respect you for!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thanks, gguy. Appreciate it!


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Springboard 5 years ago from Wisconsin

Very moving piece, and while I haven't been able to sift through the comments left here (which may have provided me some update) I hope that all went well regarding your mother's procedure, and that all is well ultimately. I was glad to have happened along this little ditty, and thanks for sharing it.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Springboard. I appreciate your visit and you very kind wishes. My mom has yet to see the surgeon so the extent of what's necessary is yet to be determined. She's recovered from the diagnostic procedure and isn't anxious for anything more. She is more worried about becoming a burden than anything else. She feels if she were 60 rather than almost 84, she'd be more inclined to intervene. But, since we're waiting to talk to the doc, it's premature for her to make any decisions until she knows the full scope. I'm helping with driving, errands, wherever she wants help. She is an independent kind of person and is not demanding. I'm grateful that she doesn't have to be convinced that driving is a bad idea both for her and others right now.

Thanks again, Springboard!


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

I couldn't have said it any better than our mutual admired friend the Epgigramman. All three videos brought tears to my eyes, especially Memories by Barbara and Can't get use to losing you by Andy. Your poetry is like music to my ears, you take your colors on the tip of your brush and paint a scene for us readers that evoke realism.

I am stunned by your brilliance and moved by your soul. I hope in my lifetime I am able to fall back into the LOVE I once cherished, had and lost. It's painful to be empty of love. Thank you my sweet artist for sharing this amazing scribe with us.

To have the love that your mom and dad had and still do for each other even though one has passed to the other side is simply the best. He awaits for her with open arms to receive her when her time is nigh, until then stand by her side and LOVE her with all your heart and soul. Peace and blessings to you my sweet friend, love you always.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your words have such a profound effect on me, Ken, I stood up after reading them a second time, went to find something I wanted to reference in my reply to you, and completely lost memory of what I was looking for, so I wandered back here to try to express how much your words mean to me. You've left me with my brain flying in too many directions. First, I want to thank you for your time and attention in my writing. That alone is an honor.

I don't go to church anymore. I always struggled to find meaning there. But, I do believe in God. I hang on to the hope in your words that dad waits for mom with open arms in Heaven. I came home the other day and found a pamphlet under my door that is titled "Would you Like to Know the Truth"? I gave it a cursory glance and was stopped in my tracks by a question posed that says "What Happens To Us When We Die?" The answer states that "At death, humans cease to exist. The dead are conscious of nothing at all" Ecclesiastes 9:5. Since the dead cannot know, feel or experience anything, they cannot harm-or help-the living. Psalm 146:3,4. What do you think, Ken? I can't get this out of my mind now. I don't want to even consider this a possibility. It scares me, but even if true, there is nothing I can do to change it.

I know you have suffered, my friend. Yet, you are not cynical and express a deep understanding and wonder at the love I attempt to relay that my parents share. I took it for granted while growing up. I saw nothing extraordinary in it. I didn't realize until I looked for the same, how rare it is. And, here at the hub, through your generous spirit and remarkable talent, I learned how its absence affects a child growing up without it. You are a beautiful man, saddlerider, and my life is so much richer for having met you. No matter what befalls me in my lifetime, I will always hold on to that. Remember, my friend, you are loved.


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Docmo 5 years ago from UK

Dear Amy,

I am left breathless by the beauty and poignancy of this piece. You've surpassed even your normal excellent standards with this one. This is a keeper. This will be something I will memorise and recite to friends and loved ones.

There is so much to love in your words. These words are graceful, elegant, painterly and sublime. Like a snowy white ballerina skimming across a desolate stage of icy reflection, your poem dances - at once expressing beauty, loss, love, memory and the depth of human emotion. I am in awe. I am prone to superlatives but I know I am lost for words with this poem.

Your poetic heart beats strongly in a rhythm that is enchanting and endearing.

Love to your mum and hope she is well. Love to you and hope you are well as I know how much your Dad meant to you.

Time's changing hands point the slide downhill

Life in the pond, now quieter, as leaves fill the nil

Keeps pace with the silence in the home uphill

Now rain falls on empty in the absence of its will

I have goosebumps!

x

Mohan


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, sweet Mohan, I am so honored by your words. I, too, am subject to superlatives, but goosebumps? I have them now. Nothing anyone could say could make me feel the way I do right at this moment. I realize I sound melodramatic and forgive me for that, but I am being honest and I thank you for reaching out to me with such a beautiful expression.

Thank you for your kind wishes for me mum. She has not seen the surgeon yet as I know she isn't anxious to undergo valve replacement and two stints. She has decided she will not have bypass surgery. The other less traumatic procedures she will consider.

Thank you for your warm, touching words, Mohan.

Love sent your way

x


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

I love all your work Amy. This is another. You have moments stopped in time. The rhyme is sublime. You're always smooth. This is very smooooooth. thank you for this "pause".


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

As I enjoyed your magnificent journey on Roan Mountain, Micky. I tried to imagine myself as one of the cyclist on that beautiful, yet arduous endeavor. Your descriptive write and your video and that scary warning sign, the unexpected, icy pavement and your journey in the night without lights, made it unlike any bicycle ride I've ever imagined, much less reality! Talk about smooth...not much could be smoother than you using the light from the churchgoers cars to aid your journey in the darkness. Sounds like divine intervention. Thanks for stopping here, Micky, and your beautiful, encouraging words.


Dicky Mee 5 years ago

God bless.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

And to you, tricky Dicky Mee!


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The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

Quite beautiful. Have a pond here on the ranch and can relate to what you expressed here from your soul.

Well done my friend.

The Frog Prince


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Why does it not surprise me that the Frog Prince has a pond? I couldn't "ribbit" resist, Prince.

Thank you for your understanding words. That pond is out of its bounds now. All the rains have it looking more like a small lake. I use to spend a lot of time down at the pond catching and kissing some awfully cute frogs! Alas, no princes.


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Neil Sperling 5 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

you have a very beautiful way with words "Pivoting dance of innocence was lost in a spill" .. magical.

Thoughts are with you and you mom.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Neil, As always, your comment makes me dance! Thank you for your kind thoughts, my friend.


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

My gosh it took me ages to get to the last comment !!Not surprised though !!

This one was awesome and here's to many many more to share !!

Take care

Eiddwen.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Eiddwen,

Thank you for your stop at the pond and sweet comments. My hub family is my impetus for reaching new expressions of sharing and growth in life experiences. Sometimes sad, scary, joyous, or exhilarating, my hub friends continue to be here for me in support. I will be forever grateful. Thank you, Eiddwen


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tnvrstar 5 years ago from doha, qatar

Beautiful poetry!! Voted up :)


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear tnvrstar, Thank you for taking the time to visit and for the compliment.


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The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

"I use to spend a lot of time down at the pond catching and kissing some awfully cute frogs! Alas, no princes."

Really? Well I'll be darned!!!!


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

You are always the beautiful poetess Amy. I saw my mother stop eating and will herself to death. And- I'm urinated off that I could not do more and make her passing more palatable - at least for me.

All is lost with the bitter pill,

Of losing faith and losing will.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your comment gave me goose bumps, Micky Dee. My mom has survived the bypass surgery, but she has been traumatized by the ordeal. Rehab was a nightmare with the staff more concerned about getting every dime from medicare than being concerned about the shoulder injury they created. Now home, mom, is losing weight and although her heart is physically improved, her will is not. Your last two lines say it all. Thank you, Micky Dee, for your understanding.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Dear Amy, I've seen my mother in an emergency room most of the night.

Then - somehow my mother ran up an expense of $3500 and more with a night's stay.

All the medicare, medicaid, socialized medicine, medicine for profit in the world cannot justify the lie of many hospitals and physicians that might go along with this "accounting". There has to be some higher accounting - somehow - someway - some day. God bless your momma. God bless you Amy.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your words, Micky Dee. When my father died 9-years ago of a bleed at his brainstem, he remained in a coma and, mercifully, died in 24-hours. I stayed with him and was disheartened at the level of callousness and resentment from the staff in just changing the bag that collected his urine. My mom received not one, but double-billing on his brief, poorly-attended stay. The system is abysmal for the old, sick and dying.

The EMT that shoved a basket under my dad's face and said "I'll be pissed if you puke on me, old man" were the last words my sweet dad heard before lapsing into a coma. I'm heartbroken forever over such an absence of compassion by the medical community today. God help us all.


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Neil Sperling 5 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

How beautiful - Amy you always share a depth of yourself in a way that inspires and lifts... but first awakens. Thanks again my friend. Mmmwwwaaaa


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Its wonderful to see your beautiful face, Neil. I've been remiss in contributing at the hub, of late. Me mum is home and doing well following bypass surgery. She is still losing weight, which is worrisome, but hopefully, that too will stabilize. Thank you for your encouraging support, Neil. You are awesome. Mmmmmwwwaaa


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

A truly brilliant article and I so enjoyed the music too, great choice, thank you.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear acaetnna, Thank you so much for your comment. I appreciate it.


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justmesuzanne 5 years ago from Texas

Lovely! Voted up and beautiful! :)


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, kindly, justmesuzanne!


Phoebe Pike 5 years ago

Beautifully written.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Phoebe, I appreciate your visit and kind words. Thank you.


Genesis 23 months ago

Amy,If you found someone that neeedd it to complete a bed you might get as much as fifty dollars. No dealer that I am aware of would bother putting it in stock owing to the extremely limited market. You should go to Google Images and search “Simmons bed spring”. One or more might turn up and might have some dollar information connected. The spring is probably 60-80 years old and made so well that it is still useful. You can put a zippered cover over it for cleanliness and use it as a box spring.Good Luck,Marshall

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