Living on Dugway Road ...II

Just a story about water ........


I had awakened in a sweat from night terrors sometime after midnight , that August had been hot , steamy and long . Summer in the White mountains of New Hampshire can be miserable and the humidity can seem endless . Yet only for a very few weeks , july and august only generally , depending on what kind of summer we were having . I was twelve and I had my own bedroom ,

This summer had been a rough one on our entire family , my brother Dougie had been killed right in front of our house by a hit and run drunk driver , Dougie .......was eight years old and I was twelve , as I had been the only witness , well you can imagine what happens with the police investigation , the trials , the emotional turmoil .


As I lay there in bed I remember taking my pillow , moving the top sheet and turning my head towards the foot of my bed , not unusual for me then and even later as a teenager , at the foot of my bed was the window !, and just outside that window was the best part of a boys life , if I wished to, I could raise the screen in the old wooden double hung window and climb out onto the nearly flat roof of our garage and wood shed ! And there was a place I would spend many many hours as a boy day or night , looking down across our back pasture to the meadows edge . And the best part , beyond the edge where the meadow dropped steeply away ......The
river ! Soo many nights I would while away my endless waking hours and stare blissfully at the silver moon reflections on the swirling surface of my river once in a while a bobcat or a raccoon could be heard growling in the night shadows as they fed or watered themselves at the rivers shore .

Or , I might be awakened in a start , as a speeding car or truck would fly by in the dark arrousing immediate memories of that one fateful day . Only to lie there in my isolation to instantly recall the tragedy of my brothers death . At about the same time my older brother Al had left for a little known place called Viet Nam . I remember watching the news each night secretly hoping to maybe see him in the 30 second video clips as Walter Cronkite and Dan Rather told us the weekly death count of our boys . My biggest fear then would have been to lose another brother over there !

One of the most difficult times for Americans and a teenager perhaps was to live on the streets and in high school with the great Anti- war mentality of the "sixties" culture expanding throughout our cities and towns . I would go to school in the day and listen to the anti-war rants of students and even some of our younger teachers , watch it in the news and then be torn with the knowledge that I also had to support my parents and my brother . Probably why I believe the now popular romance of the sixties revolutionary anti-war culture was a waste of time , braincells and lives .

Yet, those river sounds of the night I will always remember , I do truely believe that certain sounds of nature are all important for our healing ! The barely perceptible shushing of the whitewater as it swirls agains the giant boulders and the river bank will forever be there in the background of my very sanity , And I would highly recommend that anyone spend time at the sea shore or a on a little pond where the ring neck loons and the crickets of july await your troubles . On a raging river that reflects back at you the very purpose for healing well . The night , the moon , the water and maybe a little romance ! Hey ! You never know what THAT can do as well ! Or the sounds of a distant fog horn on a ship or a lighthouse . Go to sleep to these sounds , any of them . And the cure for all your ills awaits you ! Peace my friends ....Ed

Continued !

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D.Juris Stetser 3 years ago from South Dakota

Ed, I just enjoyed this so much. Especially the accent on nature, and the healing sensation of night sounds. I was born and raised in Philadelphis, only an hour from the Jersey shore, and also each summer, my family would go away to Miami Beach Florida. I'll never ever forget the sweet lullabye of the ocean's waves in the night...Also, I particularly enjoyed the insight into you, and the experiences of the 60's for a twelve year old. Thanks so much for sharing this - Voted Up, Sharing, Beautiful, Awesome and interesting. dotti


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

dotti ! Well thank you , that profile picture is beautifull , although you look either tired or lonely or soulful , which one is it ? Soulfull I guess ,Once I spent a week in Deere Isle Me. listening to the foghorn at night , the surf outside and the silence of my ancestral beginnings . I do lovevee ! the sounds of nature . .......Ed


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D.Juris Stetser 3 years ago from South Dakota

I'm with you there. At one time we lived in Northern Idaho and I know you would just love it. Bears trotting along the highway....eagles galore, wolves. gorgeous! Lived there when my husband was still alive, and we had the fun of wood burning stove, wood smoke in the air, and snow snow snow all winter, starting sometimes as early as early October and never went away until Spring. I loved it. But now I am on my own. sons grown and two living miles away. one still nearby in town here in SD. so fun sharing this with you! BTW, I guess lonely or soulful would be it, but I must confess to being insomniac ever since my husband passed away. Guess it could've been all three! lol Have a great night Ed. Thanks for sharing this wonderful piece. hugs!


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Ahh D Juris , my heart goes out to and touches you right where it counts .......I wish! . Listen I love the way you write , lately I too awaken at about two and cant go back to sleep !.....So many times I truely wish I could help someone to move on ! As you !.......Peace my dear ,peace !...Ed


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D.Juris Stetser 3 years ago from South Dakota

Ed, sometimes my fingers go faster than my brain and I end up writing something so dintzy! when in my lst post here, I'd just said i was insomniac since my husband...etc. followed up with Gues it couldn've been all 3. I was referring back to your remark about my photo, NOT my three sons passing away! My God, I'd better start the engine with a hefty dose of caffeine b4 i start writing. just had to clarify. lol hugs.


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Oh my gosh , you live in S.D. .....dont tell me in the black hills or I'll ask if you have a guest house !lol......Dont worry sweet lady ,I understand ! ......big hug for you !!!!


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

Oh wow, very interesting. Can't wait for part two!


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shiningirisheyes 3 years ago from Upstate, New York

Very heartfelt addition to the first chapter. I must say, you have a wonderful way of telling the story. I related t so much here. Although losing my brother came many years later, I still lay awake at night as some sound triggers those memories.

I so look forward to more from Dugway Road.

Awesome - voting up and sharing


dreamseeker2 3 years ago

Awesome writing! I felt as if I was right there beside you, looking up at the silver moon, hearing the crickets in July and the roar of traffic rushing by, reminding you of your pain at the loss of your young brother in your youth, on that one fateful day. The view was shared by the viewer below your window, or the roof of the shed. Seriously, you should write about it in a book!! Voted this one up and obviously, awesome!! I need to go to the first episode now...play catch up. : )


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LaThing 3 years ago from From a World Within, USA

Beautiful narration.... A glimps in your life, the tragedy, the memories, and the description on the nature around. Very enjoyable read..... Ed!

Voting up and awesome....


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and interesting. I think that is the most soothing thing of all to live beside a body of water. Enjoyed this story and looking forward to more. Passing this on.


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Michele , somethings on dugway road will forever stay there !.......Thank you Thank you !....:-}


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Beckie , Theres a lot there ......and some needs to be writeen and some not !......:-} Maybe a funny one ?


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Dreamseeker , You are so kind and petite !...he he !


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

La Thing oh thank you dear , That means a lot !.........Ed


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Gypsy , IT truely is ! I can't tell you how that river has saved me in my youth !,........Thank you for reading !

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