We Look, But Do Not Always See
The Smartest Girl in the Room
I was so smart.
I knew how you loved.
I watched.
Particpated on the fringe of your life.
I saw.
I saw you love completely.
You loved truly, with your whole heart.
I envied that love.
Desired it.
Was determined to find it.
If I couldn't have you,
I would have something close to it.
I knew it all.
I knew who you loved.
Knew that it wasn't me.
It could never be me.
I saw nothing.
I knew nothing.
Did not know that your smile was for me.
Each little accidental touch was on purpose.
Each joke you told
was by design to hear my laugh.
I was the smartest girl in the room