The Unfortunate Adult

Our hands press upon cold glass

the difference in years

all too clear

his, tiny- still growing,

still learning,

many years of exploring

still to come.

Mine, bigger, already worn

tired, from years of work

many more, still to come.

His eyes, wide, eager,

gaze with my own tired ones,

at the autumn trees,

almost bare now,

in the cold November rain

Brings to me memories

of music, long since dead.

Like the leaves, withering,

bracing for an early arctic blast.

This world has changed so much

I fear what lies ahead,

in the cold coming months

and the distant future.

But I hide my fears from him

Just smile,

while he babbles,

his toddler musings.

The height of his worries

amount to the devastation

of the chance of losing his blankie.

While I, the unfortunate adult

experience that avalanche

of anxieties,

that can come from

one simple moment,

one look out the window-

grown up problems,

bigger then the leaf pile

he will jump joyously in

on a brighter day.

What winter brings-

less work hours,

less paychecks,

same bills, Christmas presents

That cheery occasion

with its horrible timing.

I look at my son, and envy

his wide eyes innocence.

I wish with all of me,

I could shield him from

the curse of adulthood.

What's he thinking?

Probably just wondering

if I will finally let him have

a piece of Halloween candy.

While I'm worrying about

our present, our future,

our diets, our health,

my job, my car,

my schoolwork,

my self.

Will this, what if,

can I, will we...?

A tug on my arm,

suddenly.

He saves me again from the brink

of falling into my own head

anxiety is a bitch,

something I hope he never knows.

“Can I have candy?”

he finally asks,

and oh, what the hell,

I give in.

A mini Snickers for each of us

to fight off this

cold November rain.




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WillStarr 2 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Wow! This is among some of the best work I've read on HubPages!

Voted way up and shared with my followers.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Wow! Will Starr, thank you so much. I really appreciate your sharing, and hope you have a wonderful day.


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billybuc 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

It's always a treat when you write something new, Liz, and I'm with Will in calling this one of your best.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you Bill. Always honored and grateful for your comments = )


Kenneth Avery 2 years ago

bizarett81

I left my comment here last night and now it's gone.

I do love this hub. And I voted up and all of the choices.

I love how you presented your topic. You are a very gifted writer.

Keep up the great work.

Your Friend for Life,

Kenneth


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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

wow, this was actually very good


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Hello, Kenneth, and thank you so much for reading, and for your kind words.


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Ericdierker 2 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

I just have no basis to judge this work except my own. This was riveting and went to the core of my life with children and anxiety of adulthood. You caught that moment(s) so wonderfully. Thank you for your reflections that are shared by so many.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you so much, Frank


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Ericdierker, I have so many of these moments. No one can explain the anxieties that come along with being a parent. I tried to capture that. I'm glad you enjoyed it, and comforted to know I'm not alone in those feelings. Thank you for reading.


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wayne barrett 2 years ago from Clearwater Florida

My beautiful daughter. You are so gifted. and please, just this once, don't attribute any of it to me. It's all yours darlin'. You are a wonderful poet.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Dad, I thank you so much not just for your words but for everything. And yes, i will still always give you credit for all the attributes you've given me = )


Johny Dumbrocyo 2 years ago

Excellent work Elizabeth. as always


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you Johnny


John Crawford 2 years ago

Very nice. Can picture the description, and empathize with the themes of anxiety and wonder between the more innocent youth and the more worn and tired mother. Granted, neither a mother or father, but having nephews and some work with youth, these thoughts and questions about their future and what hope we'd like for the youth come into perspective.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you so much, John. I'm glad you appreciated what I was trying to capture.


Kenneth Avery 2 years ago

Dear bizarret81,

You always welcome. This is a great piece of work. I love poetry, this style and Abstract/Prose. I admire you talent as well.

Have a peaceful night and week.

Kenneth


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you very much, Kenneth. I hope you have a peaceful day, as well= )


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Gypsy Rose Lee 2 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Absolutely wonderful and delightful. Little children are so lucky while they haven't grown up.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

They are truly lucky, Gypsy. Thank you


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kenneth avery 2 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

bizarrett81,.

Thank you so much for your sweet wish.

I need to ask you a stupid question.

Is the landscapes pretty in Maine?

They are here where I live in northwest Alabama where we have a lot of trees and with trees come leaves.

Just asking.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Oh, yes, Kenneth, it is breathtaking here. I spent the first half of my life in California and was swept away by the beauty of this place when I first came here. I've tried to move away and it pulls me back in = )


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tirelesstraveler 2 years ago from California

So glad your dad shared this on FB. After watching my grands all day your poem really struck home. Praying for you as the weather turns lousy.


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kenneth avery 2 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

bizarrett81,

You are such a blessed person, to live within reach of the doors of heaven. We have gorgeous colors here, but not like you have. Keep in touch with me.

I wish you a peaceful night.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

I wish you a peaceful night as well = )


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kenneth avery 2 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

@ bizarrett81,

Thank you, my friend. I will not overlook your kindness.


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vkwok 2 years ago from Hawaii

Amazing poetry, Bizarrett


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you vwok!


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bravewarrior 2 years ago from Central Florida

Liz, this is awesome on so many levels. First, different perceptions of the young and old. Second, the starry-eyed amazement of a child's discovery, while the more-seasoned adult dreads some of those discoveries. Third, sometimes we just need to look at life with the simplicity of a child and forget about things that stress us. We'll deal with them - we always do. But we mustn't forget to enjoy the simple things that money can't buy.


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bizarrett81 2 years ago from Maine Author

Thank you so much bravewarrior. I try to get down to his level and see the world through his eyes. His arrival into my life has helped so much with being grateful for the time and things that I do have.

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