Wheel with a Broken Spoke ........

Sometime along about the time I was
I don't know ..nine ..ten
I promised myself .....No matter what
I would never not love him

Even now the scent of old spice
of alcohol and of smoke
And I see you sitting there a wheel
with a broken spoke

Some profoundness I didn't understand
then .....though now it's all known
I said these words for you..........
so I would always know the sound

None of it matters now except
when the night echoes in the breeze
I'm so long grown and gone now
my heart ....my mind at ease

I once said I love you and you quivered
visibly from inside
I know too .......you would have shown it
but ...there was no where to hide

I remember night after night you sat
with your back to misery
Your favorite chair too .....second hand
even a chair has history

Young boys can make promises that
they never will forget
And then we grow .....and become fathers
ourselves .......we're not through learning yet

You were a wheel with a broken
spoke and yet still turned
I was a son with out shine
even on the dark side it burns





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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

A tribute to your father? How wonderful. A wheel with a broken spoke? Not sure what it means, but you did say you loved him, hope you got a chance to say it when you were older.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

That's very good stuff! Well done.


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chspublish 5 years ago from Ireland

A beautiful tribute.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Cardisa , Yes my Father had many trials and difficulties in life. Alcoholism for one . We did make ammends before he passed away though. Thank you for sharing. ;-]


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Thank you sir , Ahh the trials of life. :-]


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Chspublish , Thank you my dear! I hope you are well. :-}


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Freya Cesare 5 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Ah, children memories about his father. I have similar stories and more. But today, I hope, what is left in my heart just beautiful one and that is why, while my parents still alive I will try to make more and more beautiful memories with them.

Sad memory full with lesson but very beautiful like always, Dad. I think, this kind of experience is one of many reason why you become a wise father. ^^ Thank you for sharing this.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Freya , If I could ask anything of you humbly ,I would ask you to do as much with your parents as you can , for one reason. To know that you have done all you can now! Because there will come a time when you will even miss the negative parts. And ! We all grow ! I could have a lot of regrets and resentments but I have none . It sounds like you already are ahead of this because of the size of a beautiful daughters heart. Huge , and huggy! And as always thank you for your kindness.


daddysgirl 5 years ago

Powerful stuff dad. The greatest gift God gave you and I was the ability to understand others! I know we are the same in this manner..words have little meaning and we don't have to hear the words. We already know what's hard for some to express. I am forever greatful for you dad, you have never missed the opportunity to express great love for me! Best of all you have showed it in more ways than most....love always, your daughter


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

And you my beautiful daughter , Are the ultimate gift to me as a father, Even as a young man I knew I was "different" from others , but when you were born I became a man with the gift of a beauiful daughter. And what is better than that ? Nothing. Except that what we have is so beautiful. Without a though or a word there is a constant and profound knowing of that!oxoxoxoxoxoxo Dad


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Freya Cesare 5 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

I know and I will. Thank you. I will always remember that, Ahorseback. ^^


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

I am such a lucky man , a Father of such beauty!

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