A voice never to be heard.

 

It was a warm night and the room was quiet. The light bulb was flickering and the soft winds gently passed through the air. There was an aura of regret lying between us as we both looked at the ceiling. Struggling to make conversation, we end the night with a peck on the lips and our backs turned wishing we were somewhere else.

Sometimes I would watch you sleep as the skies became clear and the mystic moon appeared. Such a peaceful sight it was seeing you lay there with a cheeky grin. Your heartbeat was as calm as the night. I wondered what you dreamt about but you never did tell me.... just the constant shrugging of shoulders, and the minimal eye contact was enough for me to know that she probably had blonde hair, olive skin and pleased you more than I ever did.

Sunset came and it was back to our usual routine; out of bed greeted by a fake smile, racing against time to get dressed, and the unwanted conversation while we sat at the breakfast table sipping on a cup of tea...

The toast was burnt and layered with a thick black crust, the clock seemed to have its own agenda behaving more suspicious every time we looked up.You leaned over for a hug and i wasn't sure whether to laugh or cry although reluctantly I accept it. There was no better feeling than being wrapped around your arms,no one understood me like you did .

Trying to hold, on a part of me wishes to relive this moment but I’m forced back into reality, and welcomed by the emptiness and heartache we called home. With out a second to waste I rush to the door and wave as you leave for work, but as you walked onwards there was something different. You were leaving me, in search for a new beginning, a new life, a life without me....

Distraught and feeling the lowest i've ever felt I look to the skies to find an answer,only to find the soft gentle winds brushing against my cheeks. For a second it felt like your lips had touched me but that was just wishful thinking.The truth is I felt unwanted like an old cassette player being brushed aside awaiting the arrival of a new savvy device to take its place.

I couldn't face going back indoors so i watched you as you drove off, hoping that your car would breakdown and the tyres give way. Some would say i was being selfish and i guess was.So i curled up in the middle of the bed on top of the duvet wondering if you will ever come home, but the interference of dust surfacing on the cupboards and wardrobe had now giving me the urge to clean.

Despite all the clutter that was evolving, I took it upon myself to write you a letter, but being alone in this house became ever more present and i was terrified. So I sit by the window unconvinced by the love and cruel towards mankind. For I knew that just like a dying tree without a voice to spear i was alone and nobody cared.

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Website Examiner 4 years ago

There is a lot of beautiful, captivating writing in here.


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Thanks website examiner your comments are much appreciated. I'm really glad you enjoyed this


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Cammiebar 4 years ago from Upstate New York

This story was wonderful. I feel so sorry for the narrator, but there seems to me some lingering sensation of hope (perhaps with the wind or in my own mind). Keep it up! It's beautiful!


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

This was beautiful, but oh so sad, don't leave us hanging, what comes next? A good read. voting up


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Thanks guys for reading this peice, i really wanted to share with you the guys the pain that unfortunaly a lot of people go through when thier marrage is in turmoil.I'm really glad you enjoyed this :)


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andsoforth 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

I quite enjoyed this. Thank you.


Anj 4 years ago

Excellent yet again. I really enjoyed reading that. Although it was quite mellow. The description and succint langauge was spot on.


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shimmering Dawn 4 years ago

Interesting read. Beautifully written. You have captured the emotions so delicately. I enjoyed it. Have a wonderful weekend! God Bless!


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Thank you shimmering dawn its snowing in london so the weekend is shaping to be quite good but just cold lol. I'm glad you enjoyed reading this peice there is more to come and so stay in touch lol


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Lenzy 4 years ago from Arlington, Texas

I enjoy your writing. It is poetic and thought provoking. Thank you for the welcome. Lenzy


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Thanks Lenzy for your comments i'm glad you enjoyed reading this and there will be another hub coming this week so stay tuned :)


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Rosemay50 4 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

Interesting but very sad story. You captured her feelings and emotions perfectly.


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Rosemay thanks for commenting on this peice.It is a sad story but one that alot of couples are going through.I'm so glad you enjoyed reading this story :)


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blaise25 4 years ago from close to you...

Oooh this was gripping and melancholic. You write so well. Can I suggest you put more space after each paragraph? Your writings are powerful and they deserve more readers. It's easy and convenient to the eye if you put more space in between. You know I'm a fan :)


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Hey blaise thank you so much for reading this peice. Your comments are amazing, thank you again. How would you suggest i put more space after each paragraph should i change the font of thr writing? i did try before and it looked abit strange if you know what i mean reply back if you can thanks :)


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BeyondMax 4 years ago from Sydney, Australia

Well, it was a stunning poem from my point of view. I can definitely feel the poetry flickering beautifully between the lines and instead of getting prosaic sadness it feels more like lyrical insight, yeah?


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Exactly max i definately went for a bit of poetry in this one but not too much. I'll leave it the professionals like yourself :)


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Great story -- sad, but it happens to relationships. I love the setting of the story and how you weave in and out with the hurt feelings and the fleeting kisses. Very well done and well written. I enjoyed reading this, but did not leave depressed. Nice touch!


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Suzettenaple thanks for the great feedback i really enjoyed writing this story.These things do happen in alot of relationships and one can only ask what would you do in this situation.Stay in touch :)


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calomarketing 4 years ago from El Paso, TX

Good stuff! voted up ...especially liked the line about the clock's own agenda. dac


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Calomarketing thanks for having the time to check out my story.I'm glad you liked this one, i really enoyed writing this hub. The line about clockis a really good one, and i'm really happy that you was able to feel the raw emotions that come with not being able to identify your loved one anymore. Stay in touch


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LeaghJanell 4 years ago from Fairfield, Iowa

Original E Man,

I love stories that reveal the character's inner world. The picture you painted of the couple was very intimate even though they were avoiding intimacy. I like how you went off into a stream of consiousness because sometimes that is how my own mind works. I like your style.


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london Author

Thanks Leaghjanell, i really appericate you taking the time to read this story.I really enjoyed writing this peice and i'm glad you was able to connect with this story and really figure out what i was trying to portray. Stay in touch Leaghjanell


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