The Love That Remains


I do not call these feelings from the past or beckon them to haunt my days, my nights. They are simply there, unannounced and completely in control of whatever I was feeling or planning.

Without fail, there is the absence of your presence. It makes all that I am and all that I try to accomplish a sad imitation of what I intended. I could more easily step out of my shadow than separate then from now and can only long for that which was and can not be again.

I succumb and ride the waves of relief as they wash over my aching soul and transport me to that time, our time, when all we needed was within us. Even then, we knew it was too sweet, too perfect for this world to allow, yet we drank in the intoxication, savoring each drop.

Music was composed in honor of our being and lyrics written only to record our journey further and deeper than any other before or since.

What now, am I to do as this truth tears the veil between what was and the slimmest wisp of hope that it could somehow be again? How do I stand alone, unsupported, by that which had become as much a part of me as the breath I intake and release?

But do not fail to come again or at your bidding I will leave all, to suffer the incomplete tryst that is still more than all and every ounce of good that is in this life, with your absence ever present.

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vocalcoach 4 years ago from Nashville Tn.

This is magical! Every word has meaning and impact. I've never read anything like this before. Unique and yet so familiar. Each new sentence pulls the reader in, deeper and deeper. As the last line is read, I'm left with wanting more. The sign of a true writer. Voted up, awesome, beautiful and will share. Thank you.


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Sunshine625 4 years ago from Orlando, FL

Poohgranma, Very intense story. Well told and I'm sure many could relate to it. It's nice to see a new hub by you in my feed! :)


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Thank you vocalcoach for your time of reading and for the high compliments. Having my work shared is an honor and I do thank you!


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Sunshine, it's always a pleasure to see your shining face and having you grace my hubs is especially nice. One thing that I notice as being Universal is a deep longing or loneliness, a missing factor in people's lives, whether it be for their homeland, a departed friend or family member or perhaps a love of long ago. In my writing this had a dual meaning, one of which is the days my husband and I had before his health has become so bad. Ever grateful for the time we do have, I have to admit I long for a stronger " we" again, to replace this "I" that is beginning to define me more often.

Thank-you so much for your time and your comments.


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Enigmatic Me 4 years ago from East Coast Canada

Poohgranma,

I've never before been brought to the level of sorrow through reading as I have through this. The ever present absence is something I have experienced, however, never had read of. A wonderful read. Thank you for sharing.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

EM, I just recently found the word for what I have been feeling for many years and on several levels. It is a Portuguese word with no exact translation to English. Saudade - (look it up, you'll relate, I know). But for this particular poem I chose the human missing aspect. It could just as easily be applied to ones lifestyle changes or having to relocate and longing for what is familiar, for what we were.

BTW, I read some of your work and am now following you. I don't follow writers because they have visited me or follow me, so when I tell you that you are an excellent writer, you can take it to heart! I am your newest fan.


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

i would leave everything to know what might be..what might have been...what could still be...

This reads like poetry, Poolgranma - but, i'm pretty sure you're aware of that! Amazing grace with words!

sharing with the hubmunity, dear..


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

ImKarn - So very good to see you here!

This came pouring out of my fingers and onto the keyboards shaping itself, writing itself - of it's own accord. Apparently my soul simply bypasses my awareness at times and goes directly to the parts of my body necessary for it to speak. I certainly thank you for your time and for finding this worthy of sharing!


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

This is beautiful and heartfelt, from the first word to the very last. The interesting image attracted me like a magnet, I'm very glad it did. Thanks for sharing.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

tobusiness - I am very glad that you enjoyed reading this, thank you. I also enjoyed your most powerful and striking poem, "Love and Longing: My First Tanka Poems" - it was excellent!


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QudsiaP1 4 years ago

Sometimes it is not enough to have had a mere taste; some times the soul seeks more... Much more. Powerful expression pooh.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Thank you Q. It seems that even having peace and acceptance doesn't not quiet some of our human desires, at least not for long.


Valleypoet 4 years ago

This is a really well written intense piece on the haunting memories of lost love, and the hope of a return of that love. Really enjoyed it. Thank you for sharing:-))


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Valleypoet - Thanks so much for reading, for your time and for the lovely comments. I so enjoyed your poem, "For Your Thoughts" and will be reading more of your work. You are an outstanding writer!


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Escobana 4 years ago from Valencia

Exquisite words, describing a feeling so profound and imaginable I only wished your poem didn't end!

Up, awesome and shared!


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Escobana - What lovely words you have written about my poem. Thanks much! I just read, "Bursting in Silence" and found it so hopeful and refreshing. You are a grand writer, so full of enthusiasm and life, very glad you stopped by!


AudraLeigh 4 years ago

You are a true poet with the ability to show passion in the written word! You moved me!


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Charlie Campbell is a true poet, as are many here on HP, like Vincent, but I thank you for the generous words. I did feel this and it all started with the discovery of the word Saudade.


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tillsontitan 4 years ago from New York

What a very interesting and realistic writing....everyone can related. Beautifully done. Voted up and interesting.


AudraLeigh 4 years ago

I just looked it up...now I have a better understanding :) You are in the same catagory as Vincent. I will check Charlie out too!


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

I'm afraid your opinion is heavily sprinkled with favoritism. In no way am I in the league of Vincent. I play at what he does masterfully. He is also a published author - at least three times over, if not more. And Charlie no longer writes here. He does have a book coming out this year, hard copy and maybe e-book, not sure about that. I can't wipe his nose when he sniffles!!! You can catch a few lines here and there on his FB and I may have an old hub or two saved - I'd have to look and get his permission to pass anything along. I think my prose is much better than my poetry but every now and again I get an idea and humbly follow the must to produce something. You are a true friend and I love you dearly, but a lousy judge of really good poets.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Thank-you, tillsontitan . I appreciate your time and comments.


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Genna East 4 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

This reminds me a little of Wordsworth; it is powerful and so profound. The longing so perfectly described in a moment, in a wisp of thought that lingers, still, and never quite departs. This is some of the best prose I have ever read here, on Hubpages, or anywhere. Simply amazing, Pooh.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Genna, your opinion has always meant the world to me because I respect you so as a person and as a writer. I can not tell you what these words mean to me, how humbled I am to receive such high praise. Many thanks for coming by!


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 4 years ago

Poohgramma, Simply BEAUTIFUL! Deep Heartwrenching and Inspiring... God Bless You! Gary! In HIS Love, Grace, Joy, Mercy Peace & Blessings!


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

Ahh - DeBorrah - so good to see you. Gary and I are so blessed. We had a nice Thanksgiving with family yesterday and are both resting up today. Thanks so much for your time, reading and for the lovely comments. God bless and keep you!


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stars439 4 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State.

You're words are a great, and profound reminder of how well the English language brings art, good taste, and beauty into a story. You are a genius in literary expression in the here, and now. GBY precious heart.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge Author

God bless you too Leon, my dear friend. Thank-you so for your kind words.


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AnnaCia 3 years ago

Deep words; excellent style that gives all of us a moment to touch our souls. Exccellent


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Poohgranma 3 years ago from On the edge Author

Thank you so much Anna Cia, for reading and for your kind comments.


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 3 years ago

Poohgranma, So glad that the "Love Remains" and that you & Gary had a lovely Thanksgiving! I Pray that you have a Marvelous MERRY CHRISTmas as well! Be ENCOURAGED! & Take Care! In HIS Love, Grace, Mercy, Joy, Peace & Blessings! GOD BLESS BOTH OF YOU!


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Poohgranma 3 years ago from On the edge Author

DeBorrah K, my wishes are the same for you and your loved ones. God has mightily blessed us, as He always has and always will. Stay strong in His Word!


dreamseeker2 3 years ago

Magical dreams of wanting, longing and love. Very well said. At least it spoke to my heart, causing my own stirring of the same feelings for the one I often miss when we are apart. Voted up and awesome! : )


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Poohgranma 3 years ago from On the edge Author

Thank-you dreamseeker2, I'm glad it moved you.


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Rosemay50 3 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

A haunting piece of yearning and longing for a lost love but still a glimmer of hope that what was will be again.

Awesome


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Poohgranma 3 years ago from On the edge Author

You are precisely correct! Thanks for reading, for your time.


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QudsiaP1 3 years ago

I had read this again, pooh, I just had to; the truth about how sometimes it does not matter if you leave a place and how it does matter when you are leaving the person you think you used to be; leaving a part of you behind in the past.

Then again change is what makes us human; what makes us happy.


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Poohgranma 3 years ago from On the edge Author

Sometimes we change, sometimes we merely adapt to fit the circumstances while hiding away our true selves until we come to a place where all of who we are can be realized. Thanks for reading and commenting, my friend!


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khmazz 3 years ago from South Florida

This writing is just fatastic! I loved reading this! Thank you so much for sharing!


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Minnetonka Twin 3 years ago from Minnesota

Your poem is captivating; yet a sad reminder that life is ever changing. We change our roles as people come and go from our lives. I hope the I you are learning to live with today will be soon be filled with happiness and memories of all you have loved and lost. God Bless


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 3 years ago

Poohgranma, Everyday is a precious GIFT from the Lord! I pray that you are okay. May the PEACE of our LORD rest upon you! Just checking in to say GOD BLESS YOU! The Lord is always near so Be ENCOURAGED! May the LOVE of our LORD sustain you in JESUS NAME! Take Care! In HIS Love, Grace, Joy, Peace & Blessings!

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