Poem About Emptiness.

Although my usual writing style is fairly upbeat and positive. I do generally have a sunny disposition and am on the main a happy individual.

There are however times when I am gripped by fear, doubt, darkness, pain and feelings of ineptitude. This leaves me with bouts of almost insufferable insomnia, depression and kills my appetite, however it does occasionally lead me to writing some of the work I am most proud of. I find all my emotions and thoughts flood out of me, like some immense broken damn.

The following poem was written at such a time, which is why it is littered with self loathing and deprecation. All thankfully temporary.

 

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There is only emptiness.

There is only emptiness, where you once were.

The exposed space, almost embarrassed by it's nakedness.

The loneliness continues ever onwards,

Ever growing and intensifying, leaving me feeling lonelier still.

I speak only for my words to fade,

To dilute and disappear into the air of which it enters.

I talk only for you not to listen or care,

my presents being of no effect or consequence to you.

Your time, energy and thoughts are exclusively dedicated to something else now,

squeezing out any interest, in me, us, of anything it seems.

I have tried to be forgiving, I have tried to be patient, but I have reached my limits.

I have attempted to recapture your attention, but alas to no avail.



The further you push me away and reject me,

the less I feel inclined to want of your affections.

Your physically here and yet your somehow just so far away,

out of touch, out of reach and way beyond retrieval.

I fear that things will not improve or return to what they were,

my heavy heart and weary mind, acknowledging the emptiness that's left.

Thank-you.

To everyone who has taken the time to read and comment on my poetry, all the supportive and encouraging posts really do help and inspire me to continue to share my work. I also know that there is a huge wealth of talented poets here on hubpages an I really would urge you to read some of their work here too.

Thank-you again and I wish all the best to the other poets sharing their work on this site and others.

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wrenfrost56 4 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you ahorseback, I really do appreciate every comment that people take the time to write. :)


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ahorseback 6 years ago

Wrenfrost56, very nice poem , What do we do when life brings us to these places of emptiness, and we all go there , But then how could we know happiness wittout a downer once in awhile.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment jgw899, glad you liked this.


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jgw899 6 years ago from Santa Cruz

Wow this is just downright beautiful !!! Love love love this !!! Except that the mood is so somber :(


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for commenting Dolores Monet, just a brief time of despair luckily. :)


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Dolores Monet 6 years ago from East Coast, United States

wren, you are very brave to share such a terrible moment in time. I guess we all feel like this sooner or later and it's good to know that those emotions were temporary.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for commenting philosotographer, I find it is a form of therapy too.


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philosotographer 6 years ago

Most of my poetry comes from dark emotions as well, but I found it to be a form of therapy for me. One day I finally accepted negativity and this poem came from it. "How long can you resist the undertow of negativity? Negativity will never resist you. You must accept this, only then will the currents of positivity embrace you and keep you afloat" Joseph B. Lopez


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Abe Normal 6 years ago from Gigantic Ocean Seaboard

Veritable support of the written word is exemplified by retailer Amazon.com, where any author can upload their work, set the price, keep 50% (Amazon keeps the other 50%).

I may support the prolifics' use of Amazon with modest purchases; a book, etc. I'm not loathe to give to my 8 year-old Nephew or even my 83 year-old Mother.

"Beware of altruism. It is based on self-deception, the root of all evil. If tempted by something that feels "altruistic," examine your motives and root out that self-deception. Then, if you still want to do it, wallow in it!" (from the Notebooks of Lazarus Long, by R.A. Heinlein)

-Albest,

Abe

Ars longa, vita brevis


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for commenting Abe Normal, however my friends were supporting me, which I think you may have missed.


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Abe Normal 6 years ago from Gigantic Ocean Seaboard

The fact that so many comments express joy at the author's lowdown, ornery blues is another sign that the world is going to heck in a handbasket. "One thing the blues ain't, is funny," (Stephen Stills); nor are they joyful much, either.

-Abe, hoisting a grog to real emotions.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment Kpeace. :)


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment heart4theword, I am glad you liked this poem. :)


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Kpeace 6 years ago from Woodland Beach, CANADA

You are a beautiful soul wrenfrost embrace it all you can. thanks again for sharing. peace


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heart4theword 6 years ago from hub

Your poem really does relate to us, how you truly felt at the time. The words, were captivating. Pulled you right in, to see and feel how things were for you at that time. Emptiness, is a hard thing to fill, with someone elses cares. Great Hub!


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you C_Pinto, very pleased you enjoy my poetry.


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C_Pinto 6 years ago from USA

very touching, I love your poems...


TattoGuy 6 years ago

It does get easier, tis just a matter of taking control of yer thoughts, tis a true old saying that tis all in the mind, life is what the mind makes it !


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thanks TG, alls well now thanks, glad I'm not the only one. Does it get any easier?


TattoGuy 6 years ago

Been in that dark place and on bad days it still jumps out and grabs me, but yer poem really put how it feels beautifully, take a hug and thanks for sharing that, great poem !


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for commenting camden2bailey, I am glad you liked my poem.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment Missi Darnell.


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camden2bailey 6 years ago from Morganton, NC

Thank you for "bearing your soul". What's written from the inside always carries honesty and truth. It is a beautiful poem.


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Missi Darnell 6 years ago from Southern California

It's beautiful and hopefully healing to others as well as you.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for commenting Moulik Mistry.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thanks for commenting chris, your so right.


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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

Yes, there is (only) emptiness and that emptiness is fulfilling, isn't it?


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drej2522 6 years ago from Augusta, GA

the naked truth...It’s not too often you see someone's true inner-thoughts. Oddly, it seems that 'we' as people only find our true selves when we are in despair. It's powerful, Wren. Thanks for sharing!


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment Timothy, I liked your analytical review of my poem and I am pleased you found it good and interesting. :)


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment daisyjae, I am glad you enjoyed my poem.


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Timothy Donnelly 6 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Well done wrenfrost56. Please allow me to comment in an analytical way.

I read your emptiness as being your “want” for this person of former great interest. You have acknowledged the emptiness that was generated by the separation, and also that the want decreased as you were pushed away. I imagine that your circle of influence, or sphere of being as it were (as a semi-permeable balloon, if you will) expanded TOO quickly for and until the membrane’s inherent properties allowed it to escape.

Forgive me if my analogous perception causes anything less than good tidings. I thought this was a good and interesting read. Bless you to expand with fulfilment.


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daisyjae 6 years ago from Canada

Wow that was so beautiful and touching.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you fishtiger58, good to see you again. :)


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your comment mtsi1098, I am glad you enjoyed my poem.


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fishtiger58 6 years ago from Momence, Illinois

A beautiful poem, something I can't do so I enjoy reading yours.


mtsi1098 6 years ago

well done and well written...not all gloomy moments are bad, after all this hub came out of it...thanks


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

I am very pleased you enjoy my work and thank-you for taking the time out to read and comment, this was an emotional piece to write but I fine now, thankfully. I can't wait to read more of your work, take care my friend.


Keira7 6 years ago

Hello again my dear friend, I am always happy to pass by. I know that when I read your hubs I am never disappointed. I always feel like I have learned more. I was really touched by this one. I had tears in my eyes when reading it. I really hope that you are ok now. I pray for you. Stay strong, I know its easy to say, specially when we feel down sometimes. But Never forget that you are a wonderful person, even I dont know you, but i can feel it in your writing. Thanks for sharing my dear. Take care my good lovely friend. Bless.:D


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for your kind words katiem2.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you for reading and commenting, Putz Ballard.


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katiem2 6 years ago from I'm outta here

wrenfrost, This is great and most importantly healing not only to you but to all the world around you. Thank you for sharing your release and may your muse be fluid and always flow regardless of the emotion as all emotions are to be expressed and it is only when they are not that illness follows. I will imagine the most positive thoughts and affirmations for you and prosperity in all areas of your life. Peace :)Katie


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Putz Ballard 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing this great piece.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you Tubbs Merouge, I'm very much enjoying your story at the moment too.


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wrenfrost56 6 years ago from U.K. Author

Thank-you sophs, will do. :)


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Tubbs Merouge 6 years ago from Louisiana

I am touched by this as I can relate well. So well written!


sophs 6 years ago

Ohhhh this is so moving! And beautifully written Wrenfrost. I have been in this situation, ((HUGS)) to you hunni! Keep shining! :)

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