Thinking Outloud

Clearing My Mind

A therapy that works on the outside

While my thoughts work from within

Each working together to bring

The best possible results

We think of things that come to our attention

They may or may not be true

It can be creations from our imagination

Problems that have surfaced in our life

People we have met who left their influence

Watching ideas develop

They affect us in many ways

Reflecting our attitudes and intentions

Building our desires to new levels

Hearing all our thoughts and concerns

Gives us a new perspective






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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

I like this. How often do our perceptions and perspectives change on a day to day basis? Sometimes even the smallest of things influence us.

I spend so much time worrying about whether or not my children have all that they need and if they have enough "good influence" in their lives. And then they do something that just blows my mind and melts my heart. For all that they don't have, they complain often. . .But they are also so unselfish and giving.

Their aunt has stage 4 breast cancer and it's in her bones. The insurance is not enough. They fight to get treatment approved and it takes so long to get anything done. Basically, they are just keeping her as comfortable as possible. Wouldn't you know, my kids gathered books donated by friends and teachers at school to sell at a fundraising event for their aunt that their cousin has planned for this weekend. It was all their idea, their organizing, and their seeing it through. Of course they wanted my approval, but I also know they weren't giving up without a fight had I said no.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie I often talk to myself out loud. Like a student reading in school. Sometimes what we think is different than what we hear. Sounding it out brings my thoughts into clearer focus. Your children sound like they have been brought up with good values and just are pushing mom and dad as far as they can. I am not sure you seen it. On the news a bad fire in a warehouse in Houston Texas you can see the smoke for miles. Thanks for sharing and caring.


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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

Yes, I saw that. I have friends in the Houston area. But Houston is very large. It can take at least an hour to get from the northern edge of the city limits to the southern edge. And then there are the many suburban cities. Houston has been dealing with flooding too lately.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie Fire is scary and it can cause so much damage and lives. On the news Alberta Canada is having problems with fire also very sad. Before I was born my mother told me that when they first got married they just moved into an apartment and in the middle of the night they were awakened by a pounding on the door. They were so tired from moving in they had trouble getting up. The whole place was filled with smoke. They got out in a hurry thanks for the neighbor that woke them. My mom,dad and two older brothers could of all died. I would of never been born years later. In the apartment above them a man fell asleep in bed smoking a cigarette burned to death. It's horrible but true. I am glad you and your friends are o.k. Thank you for reading and making life more interesting.


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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

Saw that on the news too. It reminds me of the fires that happen in California during the summer months. Or the one that happened in TX a couple of years ago I think it was.

I am glad your parents were able to get out. It's very sobering to see how fast a building can go up in flames. I am glad we were not home when our home burned to the ground. It went so quickly that I don't know if we would have gotten out. We had only been gone maybe twenty to thirty minutes when we got the call. We could see the smoke across town and the smell stayed for days. We lost a cat in there, the only one we couldn't find afterward. How very sad that the man above your parents died in that fire.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie I never knew you had a fire. Did you end up losing everything? How old were you ? My mother said my brothers made the newspaper. There was no where to go so they put them in a jail cell and a photographer took their picture. I have to look for it. When my mom passed away all I wanted was pictures my mom took growing up. My mom and I loved to take pictures at birthdays,weddings and special events. Then I got silly and take pictures of everything. Because memories fade and pictures could bring back that wonderful moment in time. I never have been in a fire thank God. Thank you for sharing and caring.


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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

September of 2012. I turned 30 the month before. Most of my pictures were not in the house, but Up at apt of other precious memories, namely some gifts and keepsakes from others. And my husband lost a house his great-grandpa built.

You can maybe find that photo of your brothers in the newspaper archives.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie It's devastating to see someone's hard work go up in smoke. I am glad your pictures didn't get ruined. The aunts,uncles and family and friends can't be replaced. I know there are more re important things in life but those memories are special and give my life meaning. Good idea I will have to check the newspaper archives. Thank you so much.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 months ago from Riga, Latvia

I'm certainly giving myself a new perspective or should we say a new look on life. Today I was walking along enjoying the spring sunshine which is so very warm. Suddenly some dogs started barking and I found myself thinking Why are so many dogs raying? What happened was that I confused my English and Latvian together. In English you know dogs bark but in in Latvian they rej meaning the same. That is what I confused. If my brain ever really gets muddled I ought to be a whole lot of fun for those who want a really good laugh.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee I needed a good laugh. That makes your posts even more special. I could never learn a second language. I flunked miseably in French in high school. Now if Ican learn a little Latvian I will know more than four years of French. Boy would I love to show my French teachers it wasn't me all along it was you. Well not to get ahead of myself one word a day would be awesome. I wonder if you could help me. You have to be patient I'm a slow language learner. Thank you for you wonderful and nice comment. Have a great day.


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Nellieanna 4 months ago from TEXAS

People have enormous resources inside themselves if they just explore them and give themselves the chance to develop their own resources. Thinking outloud (literally!) is a good way to find out what is really 'in there'. It's kind of like really tasting the spaghetti sauce and focusing on the various flavors and their sources, in order to know what s 'in there'.

But after all is said and done, each person's total personality and 'being' IS formed from finding their own perspectives and realizing all the attitudes and ideas one 'owns', just as your poem describes!


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Nellieanna It's funny how sometimes what is in my mind is different than when I hear it verbally. I can catch myself. There are times I repeat the same cycle of thinking that becomes a crutch instead of reason for doing. With practice both my vision and passion can line up like two arrows that finally meet. Thank you for reading and sharing. I keep feeling better and let my loving thoughts and dreams fly. Thank you for your time and patience.


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Nellieanna 4 months ago from TEXAS

Glad you’re feeling better, or, as one person once said, “I feel more like myself today than I did yesterday.” And that's always a good thing.

I think I see what you mean about thinking in a circle interfering with doing, Michael. It’s like the difference between ‘talking the talk’ and ‘doing the do’. haha

I think nothing is wasted, really. We have the moments of life we have to use, and how we use them has to have value, if t's only to teach us to distinguish between what really matters more to us. Even if we’ve needed or used a ‘crutch’ at times, it had a purpose in our life at the time. Of course, if we got ‘stuck’ on it, it would slow us down or drag us down, but even then, we would still have the choice to either use that moment to keep staying down or to begin climbing UP. As long as there s LIFE, there is hope and opportunity.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Nellieanna I look and feel the natural flow of my body doing what it does best. At ease and thinking freely. Have a wonderful and exciting day.


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Nellieanna 4 months ago from TEXAS

I know you do, and that is wise. It keeps you able to function to your highest calling and level.

If one doesn't attend to one's own welfare, then one is not much good to help others, and may end up becoming a burden to the others.

It's necessary to make some difficult decisions at times, in order to keep oneself in balance, healthy and capable. As years pass we also find we need to be more careful about that. When we are able to continue living our most useful and loving life we are capable of, that justifies our decisions to stay in our best balance so we can. Sometimes people are pressured into acting against their own best interest in the name of being kind to others who exert that pressure, though no one can really benefit from it, if it’s sucking the vitality out of oneself like being 'used'. Knowing when one's inner resources are at stake is one's own responsibility.


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Nellieanna my biggest challenge was when my mother passed away. I lost my father in 1991 and I accepted it as part of life. My mother was whole different feelings I didn't expect. In my mind I still had one parent who I had an ultimate life bond with closer than anyone else in the world. Lots of soul searching and learning from others have carried me through. Thanks and the weekend is almost here. Enjoy!


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Nellieanna 4 months ago from TEXAS

Yes, I fully understand that, Michael. it is difficult to lose one's parents - and other loved ones. Never easy. Never really expected.

I loved both my parents, who were older when I was born, plus I'd been separated from them during my first 18-year marriage for the most part. I felt their closeness during that lengthy separation and still do. Mother died in Jan. 1974, shortly after I returned to Texas. Daddy was not well and lasted only awhile more, till 1976. He was already with dementia and out of communication.

At this point, I've survived all my natal family. Just nieces, nephews left of it, - plus my own children and their children- and some of THEIR own children. The two eldest of my great-grandchildren are definitely old enough to and are in relationships which could result in my becoming a great-great grandma any time! It puts a perspective on it when one becomes the family matriarch. I'm even the eldest remaining in George's family, so I occupy that position there, too, and many of them regard me as that.

I'm also the last of most of my oldest, dearest life-long friends to be still alive. It reminds me of how short life is and how much its end is the natural part of its entire odyssey. I miss all my departed loved ones, but I feel their closeness and aliveness too. I feel like I'm here to complete the cycle of their lives, as well as mine and will live it to the fullest I can and want to be remembered for my alive spirit!

You've certainly been living for your parents' honor, too!


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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Nellieanna I know it is the cycle of life. Soon we also will move on to make way for the next generation. Each generation learning from the one before. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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