Poems & Poetry From The Angry Dating Girl Years - Bad Love Deja Vu

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This is deja vu

I know that it ends like this,

My happily ever after

Really just an empty kiss.

I must have seen the movie

I know what happens next

Devotion and undying love,

Really just about the sex.

Every future plan we planned,

Every memory we share,

A scrapbook of the time I wasted

Just to prove that you don't care.

This all seems so familiar

Perhaps I read the book,

I already know who did it

The taste, the smell, the look.

It's my recurring nightmare

Complete with silent scream,

The sound of my faith shattering

The ruins of my dream.

I tell myself I'm sleeping

Nestled safe in the love we made

But wait, I can't be dreaming

When I am really wide awake!

This cold hard realization

Rips away my breathe,

I'm afraid I might survive

But I no longer fear my death.

I've traveled down this path before

I know just where it leads

Which heart will end up broken,

The self-loathing it will breed.

The twisting of the knife

At each switchback, curve, and bend

Speeding down those winding roads

Until it suddenly dead ends.

It isn't some big mystery

The clues are in the lies,

And if I dare to really look

The truth is in your eyes.

Kristen Burns-Darling (copyright 2010)

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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

Very good. I think I dated this guy's brother,\.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Thanks Poohgranma! Yes, this guy was a real stinker, and to think.....At one point I thought he was the love of my life! Maybe we have to go through the rotten ones to appreciate the really good ones?


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rexy 5 years ago

l really like your comment as per above....and your poems - which l enjoyed reading.....


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Thank you rexy! & I only said what I believe is true...Had I not experienced the really bad relationships, I don't know for sure that I would have recognized the real love that my husband offered, so in a weird way, I am actually thankful to have gone through those years...and Michael and I have been happily married for nineteen years this March. :-)


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Painter Penfield 5 years ago from Tampa Bay area Florida

I like this one. It speaks volumes. Funny, I just posted a hub about women liking bad boys...


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

This is a great poem, and could work for men as well, life and love is a difficult thing at times.


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K. Burns Darling 4 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@xstatic - Thank you for the gift of your time and for the generosity of your comments, they are both welcomed and deeply appreciated. Yes, life and love are very difficult.....but the faith and perseverance put into it usually pay off! Thanks Again!

Kristen

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