This Night

Flashes of Light.

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

Cold Wind

Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face but are those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.

I could not believe that i was crying while listening to this song,it has been a long! long! time but the memories i thought i have overgrown came calling in my heart,i felt his touch and i felt his voice,it was real and i believe it was. Back to the old days,i remember the love of my life.Jude was so caring, he was an Angel but my dad didn't support our relationship,it is true that i was 16 but his excuse when i turned 18 was that i cannot marry Jude because he is a Christian."What has religion got to do with love"?

We decided to elope and build our family, the only one i trusted was my mom,she was in support of us and that was the reason why Jude accepted that i relate our plans to her.I guess i misunderstood the kind for love she had for me,the next day,my Dad being a strict Mullah, ordered that Jude be beaten up, he was rounded up as he came out from the gas station by couple of youths among whom was my cousin Usman,i saw them beating him, they hit his lovely body with rods and sticks until he became unconscious.

He was left to die on the street yet he held his red empty gallon but thanks to Allah, few passersby assisted him,i was restricted from going out and there was no way i could reach him to know how he was. It is been four months and i have not seen him.My brother Ali was dating a Christian girl and had no objection with my relationship with Jude, feeling my pains and grief, he told Dad that he want take me shopping to buy new garbs. We were allowed to go but instead of going for shopping, he drove me to Jude's house.

I could not believe it,He was still in the hospital after all these while,i learned that he was in coma so we quickly rushed to the hospital,O poor Jude! The very first day i saw him helpless,the true light in his smiles were no more.

My Dear Jude

Stiil remember

I watched the Doctor raise his weak hand to check his pulse.'My dear Jude', i cried

"What did you do to him

Why must he punish me like this

O dear Jude,i know that you will make it

I love you and will forever be yours"

That was the last time i saw him, that night while asleep, Ali woke me up to inform me that he got a call from a Doctor that Jude died few hours after we left, I caused the day and i caused this night of my life and vowed never to give myself to another man.

One week after his death,i saw him in my dream, he was happy and was standing right in front of me,I was wearing a hospital gown and I was sitting at the foot of my bed. Jude suddenly appeared before me, clothed in bright lights. We communicated mentally. I told him it wasn't true that he was gone. He replied that I must accept the fact that he was already dead but it didn't mean that he was leaving me. "I will always be beside you, guarding you," he said.

I tried to say that i am sorry that i could not protect him and for even telling my Mom about our plans, but he comforted me either, i felt a heavy bliss then all of a sudden a voice called his name.He told me that he had to leave but will always be here for me and there waiting for me. At this point he vanished. It has been 30 years since this incident yet this particular song brought back memories of my dear Jude.


Bright light

All coming back(Song continue playing)

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
Al coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

It's all coming back to me now
And when you kiss me like this
It's all coming back to me now
And when I touch you like that
It's all coming back to me now
If you do it like this
It's all coming back to me now
And if we

All coming back to me

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SummerSteward 6 years ago from Duluth MN

This peice inspires me... To see the a connection to the world around us and choose to be moved..or not. I read this peice and imediately went to dig through my closet to pull out an old communications presentation about an old building here in Duluth filled with tattered artwork worth years of memory and write what I couldn't say then about how it's slow disinagration effected me. I don't know what will come of it... But hey it was worth realizing.

The movement of your words is profound and effectual. Your story heartbreaking.


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

You flashed in me last night while i was asleep,(not ur name but ur words) that is the honest connection we cannot understand,the world around us,the profound words,the heartbreaks and the hubs.Thanks SummerSteward b/cos it is a dream come true.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Very nice again Rossimobis. "I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now" as if I were still alive! Thanks


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SummerSteward 6 years ago from Duluth MN

My words flashed in you? Like in a dream? I am flattered beyond words.


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

Brother Micky,you gave me the armour cos i had only sword,now i can attack and also defend,thanks to you.SumerSteward,i had 30mins left when i finished this hub last nite and while asleep,i realized that someone knocked at my door but could not open immediately but when i did dis morning,i saw ur message so it was you,don't be flattered cos my bro Micky said "circle in our circle".


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SummerSteward 6 years ago from Duluth MN

Well I may have knocked on your door, but you opened mine. Micky seems pretty wise.. "circle in our circle".. he now has a new fan!


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pmccray 6 years ago from Utah

Rossimobis - as always I feel, the pain love and sorrow of your words. I love your pieces they are very inspirational.


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra Author

Ya,pretty good SumerSteward,head on to Micky,he is a genius.Thanks pmccray,that is who i am.

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