Threw Away the Key

Mad as a hatter looks back to see

Face in the looking glass new to she

Pity the poor girl locked up in me

Lost herself and threw away the key

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Wanders alone in her head's reverie

Talks to herself scared mute absentee

Surreal are the colors that would be

Lost herself and threw away the key

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Skewered dreams hold the escapee

Sights on naked truth set to agree

Suspended animation lies with thee

Lost herself and threw away the key

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Mixed prints meet their match in full disagree

Assaulted senses abandon a half-assed plea

By all means, brew decorum's warm cup of tea

As she lost herself and threw away the key

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Mad as a hatter looks back to see

Less than sweet surrender to bourgeoisie

Symbiosis locks eyes in truth that sees free

As she lost herself and threw away the key

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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Wow! Very good, Amy


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HaleyMCruz 4 years ago from California

Oh my gosh, I wanted to do a poem about Alice but I haven't had the time to let the words flow to make it yet! This was so wonderful, it really did fit the idea behind the darker aspects of Alice in Wonderland. And the song...need I say how awesome this song goes with Alice in general let alone your poem? A great reference, a great song, and a great poem :)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Will! I always appreciate a visit from you.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thanks, Haley. This wasn't about Alice, though, it was about my life the past 2 years. Basically, I divorced, then lost my long time job to the economy and recently lost my dog to cancer. I have gone through the five stages of grieving and in the process, lost my naivete and grew up. It's been a trip, that's for sure. I appreciate your visit and I'm glad you like the piece.


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HaleyMCruz 4 years ago from California

Ah I didn't mean to offend you by saying it was about Alice and not you, it was more of the idea of using the storyline of Alice, since you mentioned the Hatter. But regardless I'm glad you're still on hubpages, and you got cool people who can give you a kind word now and then. And yes, I did like you piece :)


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sweethearts2 4 years ago from Northwest Indiana

Looking forward to each brush stroke as you paint your newness to life on your blackened canvas. Awesome poem and perfect music choice.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Wow, thank you sweethearts2, I love your painting reference. Thank you for your visit and awesome comment.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Haley, no offense taken at all. I appreciate your generous support and even if you didn't like the piece, I learn something from every reader kind enough to leave a comment.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Amy, I so love the comments to your poems. This was one I understood immediately. I often confuse Bev....I write about hope and positive thinking but she hears me daily and my cynical side. It's not really cynicism as much as it a firm grasp on reality. I understand all too well what I face each day. I have lived the dark side and I see the dark side in others. I understand life is not a bowl of cherries and yet I believe it can be. I understand that life is not rose-colored glasses and yet I hope it will be for all. I am not fooled by two-faced people and yet I pray it will not be so.

We need to go through hell to understand what heaven can look like.

love from afar,

bill


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I understand where you are coming from, Bill. Your synopsis here is where I come from, too. There is a big difference in being perpetually negative and learning from the experience of reality. Balance is key. Too much unrealistic pessimism or optimism is equally nauseating. I never lose hope and somedays, that's all I got. But, it sees me through to better times. It took a big fall for me to get real. Some break, I cracked a bit, but I'm better for the hit. I found out I'm a lot tougher than I ever thought I'd have to be. That's a good thing.

Love from St. Louie


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

I love how you express your refusal to accept societies "Norm."

"Mad as a hatter looks back to see

Less than sweet surrender to bourgeoisie

Symbiosis locks eyes in truth that sees free

As she lost herself and threw away the key"


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Mark. It was born by fire. Though I was always a non-conformist, I was less vocal about it than I am today. Hardship opened me up. When I felt I had nothing to lose, I lost the fear of just telling it like it is. Anything less is just blowing hot air around.

Thank you for your encouragement. You give me courage.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Gees Amy, When you look in the mirror you should see a beautiful poet who has a vocabulary Webster would die for. Hee..

The way i see you, you've taken a hit

Instead of staying down, you grabbed a mitt

Caught a few misguided balls thrown your way

But your poetry caught on fire and i'm happy to say

There 'ain't no one around this town

Can keep Amy Becherer down.

Love, Ruby


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awwww, Ruby, I love your poem!!! Thank you so much for your awesomeness! I love you to pieces.


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The Frog Prince 4 years ago from Arlington, TX

So pick up the key, put it back in the lock and remember the mistakes along the way and make sure you don't repeat them.

TFP


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Having lived through a lengthy hellish first marriage, I fully understand where you're coming from. Writing was my salvation, though it took a slightly different course for me. I wrote of my better feelings, visions, & hopes, having fully enough of the bleak, dreary, mean, harsh reality. I found that within myself it was not bleak, dreary, mean or harsh - I could see beyond the immediate and so could hold on to who I really was when the effort was to destroy me as I was; and it was to that I held. Writing truly saved me then & during an even worse aftermath for awhile, after everything else was taken from me.

But whatever helps one, write it and let it heal and help. You're cherished here by your hub compatriots, Amy!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Nope, I learned a new way, Frog Prince. I had to lose it all to find myself. Don't need that old key. I'm free!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, Nellieanna. I appreciate you sharing your journey and how writing helped you. My style is different, but essentially, I write about the feelings I felt, but usually I end where I'm at, on a hopeful note. So, my intent is positive, even though there are dark twists and turns to travel that get me to a better place, which has been my reality.

Yes, my friends are so accepting, so caring, so encouraging, I think I may have died and gone to heaven, where I now write poetry!!!


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

These great truths you have shared with us in poetry, Audrey, are not only beautiful, they are melodious and should be put to music and sung by a heavenly choir. The first two lines of the second and third stanzas, especially, are outstanding!!!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, thank you so much, dear drbj. Your words are music enough to my ears. I appreciate you telling me that you like particular lines. That is so helpful to me. I learn so much from that and every poem I write I think about what you tell me. Sending love to you, drbj, from me in St. Louie


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epigramman 4 years ago

....actually Haley brought up a good analogy of Alice (perhaps lost) in Wonderland or stepping through the looking glass (of life) .... but your piece immediately reminded me of a lullaby for the adult world and once 'you step through that looking glass' that 'things are not what they are cracked up to be' ........true because I know you (personally) from the other side of the looking glass and Amy you are a survivor - perhaps the video represented here should have been Gloria Gaynor's I will survive. And sometimes the old key doesen't fit anymore and you have to find a new one and move forward - and I know you well enough that you are a forward/progressive thinker - and it certainly always shows in your writing(style) .....this piece to me seemed like somewhat of a riddle too and the duality in your writiing, like life itself, often offers several meanings but I love your subjective prose writing here Amy - you compose words and lines like a female Bob Dylan with dazzling results and with always a depth in your soul and your big beautiful heart. lake erie time 2:46am (up at this time to take another cold pill and by gosh they're working)

Google word search got a workout on this one too - lol - now they're asking for finder's fees - apparently they must think they can make money from your poetic vocabulary - lol


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Genna East 4 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

I love the honesty in your poetry, Amy. We all go through struggles in life where we question meaning, our purpose and what we may have lost in trying to fulfill our dreams. It takes courage to express the disillusionment in the shadows and confusion, and those wild rides down the rabbit hole of the mind, rather than suppress it in the endless list of details of every-day life. For it is in these moments when endings become beginnings.

I liked the metaphor of Alice, the Mad Hatter and the key. People ask about the meaning of Alice in Wonderland. Actually, there isn’t any…it is up to the reader, who interprets it in varied ways. Up and much more, my friend. :-)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Well, dear Mister C, you see with clarity the "Alice" references in this poetry, which I purposely chose to illustrate the confused state of panic and desperation I felt during my fall (as Genna so perfectly states) "down the rabbit hole." The wide variance in ideas about the interpretation of this manically magical, classic mystery is in the eyes of the beholder. It wasn't written to be too literal, I believe, but relatable to each person's conundrums. That is its genius, in my opinion. I would stop writing in a heartbeat if I felt anyone thought I'd infringed on someone else's work. As a writer, I welcome critique, the good and the negative. Its human nature to focus on even a whiff of negative, as it has the power to make one more aware and as a result, better. I want to know how my poetry truly affects my readers. I feel incredibly blessed to have friends who encourage me, yet will be honest. I guess I'm just trying to say "I can take it". This piece gives me pause because I value, above all else, individuality in art. I wonder how I would feel if I was the brilliant mind who created a masterpiece and some amateur used even a word to illustrate their own point? Something for me to think about ...

Thank you Mister C, for your thought-provoking, magnificently supportive words. I am so glad your cold meds are working. Your head cold hasn't affected your ability to be kind, generous and brilliantly perceptive. I am forever grateful for your care and loving friendship.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Fantastic poem and creative. We do sometimes lose ourselves along the way in life and must seek to find ourselves again.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Genna, Thank you for your understanding. I appreciate you letting me know that my intent is clear to you. I wouldn't write otherwise. I work hard to be honest in the words I choose to tell my story. Thank you for your support and a generous comment that gives me the courage to keep on keepin' on.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Sweet Gypsy, In some ways, I wish I could lighten up! But, I keep being motivated by the circumstances that move me and, ultimately, though difficult, show me the light. Thank you for understanding and supporting me as I find my way.


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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

A really creative poem that says a lot.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Blossom. I appreciate your visit and kind comment.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

That's absolutely right, Amy. Writing what comes forth as one feels it is not only what helps with whatever one is living through, but it makes for authenticity and beauty in the writing results, to which others relate. I'm glad that your intent is positive, but that's because it's authentic. Just keep on keeping' on, as they say.

Hugs.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Nellieanna. I always have hope. And, it has been the difficult times that made me know beyond a shadow of a doubt that all we really have is our authenticity. Pretending is useless and self-defeating. I say up and onward always.

Hugs to you!


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

"Lost herself and threw away the key." Love that line, Amy. How true it can be! I love the allusion to Alice in Wonderland also. Your writing just astounds me. Your creativity and thought process is so real and unique. I love the depth of your poetry. I wish I could write on that level. Thanks for amazing us again!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your words to me amaze me, Suzette! And, I honestly, can't think of anything that could make me happier. I am delighted beyond belief to know you. You light me up with confidence and hope. Thank you sounds so small, but I am truly thankful for you.


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Amy, I've never said this before, but your poetry is cathartic for me. I think you and I might have had similar experiences, especially when it comes to men. When I read your poetry sometimes, I can relate so well and you say poetically what I wish I could say poetically but havent' quite reached that level yet! I'll read one of your poems and think, I was just thinking that but Amy can put it into words so well. I read your poems and I don't feel so alone in the world and so alone with my experiences. LOL I try to see the humor in everything!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Suzette, I feel like we are in a parallel universe sometimes. The articles you wrote, so beautifully, on metaphysical poetry and John Donne felt like an otherworldly experience. I don't believe in coincidences, and your articles felt like they were written to introduce me to something important. Those two articles changed the way I look at poetry forever. I am so glad that the poems I write have meaning for you. Writing them makes me feel less alone, too. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me, my friend.


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

Awesome as usual!! :) I love the theme of this one girl. Great work. :)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Aubrey, Thank you. Every visit from you always makes my day. Hugs from me to you.


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

Aww you're welcome!! :)

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