To Fight a Phantom

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How do you fight a phantom

an enemy in the dark

a languid horror

a painful memory

fear baseless all the same


It seems strength comes in moments

when the dark feels

like cyclical night


yet all the same

to my shame

this night

dims my days

each cycle feels harder to fight


Without this shadow

this winter ever more gripping

the summer could cure

at least make blight more bearable

a little less like a tomb


As I sit amongst the forgotten

soaking in the peace

I find myself filled with longing

a futile draw to release


Yet the enemy is still on the move

it doesn't just hunt me

Only in self obsession

a hunger obscene, unseen


Yet no matter how I look outward

its there

dedicated to right

it pains me


I cannot rest now

though I want to

this feels a phantom

a Moby Dick

perhaps my end.

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brianfranchi 3 years ago from Clyde, NY

Awesome poem for those of us who understand. I, myself, struggle with Seasonal Affective Disorder and your words ring true.


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Jaggedfrost 3 years ago Author

Pray tell, what is Seasonal Affective Disorder, or should I ask how it affects you?


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brianfranchi 3 years ago from Clyde, NY

Seasonal Affective Disorder (or SAD) is seasonal depression brought on by lack of sunlight in the winter months. Many people struggle with it to varying degrees with slight onsets being just feeling "blah" through most of the winter to severe onsets of full blown depression. Not necessarily what your poem is about, but reminded me of the struggles I go through in the winter.


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Jaggedfrost 3 years ago Author

Lol I don't find anything you just said funny per se but if what you say is true, that would answer for why my symptoms have become worse of late. Utah is experiencing som interesting snow totals.


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acaetnna 3 years ago from Guildford

So many people suffer fron 'SAD' and I am definitely one of them!


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Jaggedfrost 3 years ago Author

So we have but to infect them with HAPPY.

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